Title: I have not cried before and I will not start now
Disclaimer: I do not own LOTR.
Leslie's POV
"Why is it that every time, every time, I want to run around a little or go for a walk, I end up a lot farther than I think and end up getting lost!" I said more to myself than to Hopper. I was leaning on Swift Runner who was laying down underneath a tree and Hopper was on one of the branches. We had become good friends since our meeting which was 3 hours ago. I had explained to him stuff about earth and the stuff we use there and he explained to me what he normally did in Middle Earth and what Shadow Killer was like when she was still alive, she sounded a lot like me really. I don't remember how but our conversations had led us to where we were at the moment and it was a lot farther than just the edge of Lothlorien. I wasn't even planning on going as far as the edge of Lothlorien. I was just planning to walk around Lothlorien to see around and get to know the place. I am really starting to hate the fact that I keep getting lost…. Or my lousy sense of direction as Lightning Cloud put in so nicely in my thoughts.
"I'm not sure but maybe it would be best if I followed you around to make sure you don't end up surrounded by orcs or urukhai." Hopper said with a smile that clearly said that he was trying his best not to laugh at how pathetic I am.
"Yeah, that might be a good idea. Plus I wouldn't mind having some company that I can talk to out loud instead of through my mind. No offense of course you three." I said with a smile and Swift Runner nodded.
"Ok! So where are we heading?" Hopper asked and I froze, "You do know where you're going, don't you?"
"Uh, I normally just choose to go at random places. I have also noticed that I keep avoiding situations, like talking to Galadriel." I said blushing at how silly I must sound.
"Ok, then random choice it is and if we run into any unwanted visitors then I will protect you." He said laughing as he held on to me tightly and trying to put on a serious face but failing miserably causing me to laugh.
"Right. With my luck we will probably end up in the middle of an army." I said once the both of us calmed down. Unfortunately, my comment only caused us to laugh more.
"Alright enough laughing lets start walking!" Hopper said and we walked in a random direction. I was a little in front of him as we walked and I could feel unblinking eyes staring at me but ignored it saying that I was in front of him so of course he would be staring at me. Then I started to feel a few more stare that were coming from next to me and I couldn't say that it was Hopper staring at me. I shuddered against my will and it did not go unnoticed by Hopper.
"Is something wrong Leslie?" He asked.
"Nothing special. I get the feeling that someone, besides you, is staring at me, but I don't know from where…" I said holding myself tightly. He came up to me and held me tightly.
"Don't worry, I'm here. I promise I won't leave you." He said as he hugged me protectively. He was about one head taller than me and it felt nice to have my head fit in his shoulder comfortably.
"I know you won't…" I whispered in his ear as I held him tighter. It felt so nice to be held on to by a boy. I had never felt this sensation before, it was so warm and comforting and I just wanted time to freeze and let me enjoy this feeling forever. I felt so safe, this is the first time I have ever hugged someone with such meaning besides my dad and even then I didn't feel as protected as I do now, not that I didn't feel protected when my dad hugged me of course but this was somehow different.
"Let's keep going, if anything or anyone attacks you then I will protect you." He said and he let go of me. I turned away from him quickly not wanting him to see me blushing like crazy.
"Ok." I said and then blinked.
'Stop getting so flustered Leslie! He is probably only saying that because you are the princess and he feels it's his duty to protect you. He is just playing with your emotions. You should get rid of these emotions before they grow so big that he can hurt you with them!' I thought to myself as tears started to form in my eyes. I closed my eyes tightly getting rid of any tears that he might see and we started to walk again.
'Why do I even like him? I only just met him. I wonder if he likes me. Seems unlikely, why would he like a girl from a different dimension who just transformed into a fox demon suddenly?' I thought glad that he was behind me and couldn't see me blushing at the thoughts I was getting. I instantly got a strange daydream.
Daydream
"Leslie! I have never seen you blush before. I was starting to think you weren't capable of blushing!" Patricia said.
"Blushing is an expression of embarrassment that all creatures have except for me because I am a mechanically melo-dramatic depressed robot with a human personality that has the brain bigger than the earth itself." A robot said as he came out from behind a tree. Everyone, as in Patricia, Brittany, and myself, stared at the robot strangely.
"Who the hell are you?" I asked.
"I am Marvin the mechanically melo-dramatic depressed…." He started to say.
"Yeah, yeah. You already told us the part where you have a depressing human personality with a brain the size of the Earth. But what is your as- I mean Arse- doing in my daydream?" I asked.
"No self respect. Obviously nobody cares about me so I might as well go wallow in my own self pity…" Marvin said and started to walk away, certainly taking his time too.
1 hour later (outside daydream its 5 minutes later)
He is still within reach of my arm so I can easily kick him for being so damn slow. Then something clicked in my mind and my face was filled with recognition.
"MARVIN? You mean you're the Marvin from 'A Hitchhikers guide to the galaxy'? You are my favorite character in both the book and the movie!" I said happily causing him to stop.
"Who?" Brittany asked and I looked at her.
"You need to read more or watch more movies…" I said with a shocked look clearly saying 'I-cant-believe-you-have-not-heard-of-Marvin-the-robot'
There is a very uncomfortable silence between the four of us.
"Maybe it is time you woke up from this daydream…" Marvin said.
"What daydream?"
"The one you are having right now. Do you honestly believe that you would actually get to meet me? I'm a fictional character." Marvin stated.
"So is the fellowship and I met them." I stated right back.
"Didn't you tell him to get out of your daydream a while ago?" Patricia asked confused.
"Oh yeah…. Well in that case I should wake up before Hopper realizes that I'm on the ninth cloud." I said and was then realized something wrong… I was laying down under a tree and Hopper was putting a wet cloth on my forehead.
"You fainted…and I don't blame you, the heat is unbearable today…I wonder why." Hopper said answering my unasked question.
"Wait. If I fainted then why wasn't Shadow Killer in my dream?" I asked confused to no one in particular.
'She was taking a nap…' I heard someone say and blinked.
'Who are you?'
'The one that helped her bring you to Middle Earth. Or if you prefer, the Valar.'
'Oh. She takes naps?'
'When there is nothing better to do in the Grey Havens… She gets bored easily.' The Valar said.
'That explains it…'
"I'm fine now Hopper. Shall we continue?" I asked and he nodded helping me up. We walked a bit more then stopped as we stared at three boats. I turned slowly and saw my favorite group of eight people that used to be nine. Only Boromir and Frodo were missing.
"Hi Gimli, hi Legolas, hi Aragorn, hi Merry, Pippin, and hellooooo Sam!" I said waving at them. They all stared at me startled from my sudden appearance.
"Hello Yoko! You seem to be making it a habit into finding us." Merry stated and Pippin nodded.
"I don't do it intentionally. Oh by the way, this is Hopper! A new friend of mine." I said cheerfully. 'Yeah, only a friend and nothing else.' I thought sadly but smiled cheerfully none the less.
"Hey! You didn't have a tail last time we saw you." Pippin said confused.
"True. It grew when I met Hopper. By now the surprise of the changes I've been getting don't shock me anymore. But this was probably the last change that I have to endure." I said with a smile. So they chose to ignore him, Boromir would have been strangling him with questions... And so would Argorn but he seems to be in cloud nine at the moment...
"Didn't you say that you had eight friends that you keep bumping into? Because I only see six." Hopper said looking at the group.
"Hey your right. Where's Frodo?" I asked then noticed that Boromir wasn't there either. The was an uncomfortable silence and then the fellowship sprang into action going to go look for Frodo. I blinked for a second.
"Wow, there fast…but that doesn't change the fact that they wasted a perfectly good 20 seconds under a uncomfortable silence… Guess we should look too." I said and we started to look around.
"Can you explain to me why you're even bothering to look under a rock?" Hopper asked after a few minutes of looking for Frodo and Boromir.
"Um… not really…. Let's continue looking." I said then heard Boromir trying to take the ring from Frodo. I gulped as I saw the scene and took a step back bumping into Hopper then grabbing his arm tightly in fear of what Boromir might do to Frodo to get the ring…come to think of it I never bothered to learn much about the ring or why they had to destroy it. I hope nothing bad happens to Boromir, as I told Hopper when I met him. I think of Boromir as an older brother teasing a little sister. I held Hopper tighter though I know that if I had let him go then he would surely stop Boromir but I still held on. Suddenly I felt a pain in my chest and remembered the last time I felt this pain. It was the same pain I had three times in my past just a few minutes before my uncles died. I didn't realize it before but the pain was a warning that a friend or family member was going to die soon. The questions though are: who is going to die? If it's from here or from my old home?I wonder if I will cry this time? For as long as I could remember the first death. Not once had I cried so I had always been the shoulder to cry on. I always hated myself for not showing any signs of missing my uncles. And I remember hearing something but it still didn't stop me from hating myself. This is what I heard: "Normally the ones that don't cry during a death are the ones that are suffering the most and need the most comforting" or something like that.
"FRODO! You will be the death of us all!" I heard though I'm not sure I got it right due to my thoughts. I looked back at Boromir and Frodo was nowhere in sight. I saw Boromir fall and he seemed to come to his senses.
"Frodo? Frodo! I'm sorry! Come back Frodo!" He said and I couldn't help but feel bad for him. Though I still have no idea what the ring does and all I know is that it is dangerous. He just wants to protect his people. I looked at Hopper and sighed, I tugged his hand and he turned to me.
"Come on, let's go find the others. Frodo is on his own now…" I said and we started to sniff for the closest people there. Remember fox demons have a good sense of smell. Sadly, the closest beings were Urukhai. Once again, sadly I just realized something…I don't have weapons…and even if I did I wouldn't be able to use them cause I don't know how… So I did the next best thing... no not hide behind Hopper I kicked them where it counts! Surprisingly they didn't have armor there so I took that to my advantage, of course that was gross and after this I would spend a lot of time taking a bath in the river after this. Not to far from me Hopper was fighting with his claws that had seemed to grow out of nowhere replacing his fingernails. I blinked then imitated what he had done then my hands felt strange as my finger nails turned to sharp claws. I would have smiled if it weren't for the fact that as soon as I got these I suddenly had a craving for blood of the ones that attacked me. As I cut off a head of one of the Urukhai, some blood fell on me but I did everything in my power to ignore it so that the same thing that happened the last time I noticed blood on me won't happen this time. I don't know how to fight and yet here I am killing Urukhai… I turned toward Hopper once I finished with the last Urukhai that was after me and gasped as I saw an Urukhai getting ready to kill Hopper from behind.
"Hopper!" I shouted and ran toward the Urukhai letting my long claws get two inches longer and stabbed the Urukhai in the neck.
"Thanks." Hopper said with a smile as he finished off the Urukhai that was attacking him. The both of us looked up when we heard a horn not too far. I guessed it was Boromir cause he was the closest one to us. We looked at each other then started to run off in the direction of Boromir's scent. When we got there, we realized that Aragorn had gotten there first and was leaning over Boromir who had three arrows embedded in him.
"Boromir…" I said as I walked toward them. Aragorn and Boromir stopped talking and looked at me.
"I know it's kinda pointless for me to say this now but… I always thought of you as my older brother despite the fact that most of the time we were fighting. I can feel your life slipping away from you so I will hurry and say that I won't miss you because you will still be alive in my heart with all those memories of us arguing. I will cherish all those memories for as long as I live." I said quickly and Boromir smiled at me.
"And I always thought of you as an annoying little sister." He told me and we laughed in spite of the situation. I smiled at him and walked toward Hopper who was now standing next to Gimli and Legolas to let Aragorn and Boromir continue talking. I kept my eyes down and when I brought them back up I saw Aragorn kissing Boromir on his forehead. There was a sudden peace around me and I knew that Boromir was gone from my life forever. I smiled and let the breeze blow through my hair. I was so at peace in the moment. Hopper noticed me smile.
"Someone you thought of as a brother just died and yet you don't cry and instead smile happily?" Hopper asked irritated that I would be happy at a time like this. The question got everyone to stare at me.
"I'm not crying because that is pointless waste of time and it won't bring Boromir back. That and, why should I start crying now when I didn't cry for my grandpa, cousin, 3 uncles, dog, or Gandalf? I have never cried during a death and I do not wish to start now. No matter how much I want to cry, the tears simply won't come." I said the last sentence in a whisper but I think that only Legolas heard. And maybe Hopper but I can't be sure of him yet.
Fk306: That's chapter….13 :shudders: 13 the unlucky number T.T
Bucky: Oh, quit your crying! We will just have to work faster on the next chapter.
Leslie: For once, I agree with Bucky.
Fk306: All right! Let's start reviews. FallenTruth I'm so sorry! I didn't see your review last time T.T I will just have to answer both reviews then! I'm glad you thinks it's different, though I have yet to hear if it is Mary Sue or not. You will just have to wait and see if she meets her twin in Rohan, she might meet her twin sooner though hint hint oh, and she isn't cured she just doesn't complain about stuff like that. Basically, Leslie is supposed to be almost exactly like me and I just heard my mom say this morning while we were eating breakfast that she never hears me complain about being uncomfortable or in pain.
Leslie: We don't mind the rambling I tend to do that in my thoughts a lot unless you haven't noticed.
Bucky: Why do you keep answering reviews with us?
Leslie: Oh, be quiet! Anyway, now we have to answer the other review that you gave us. In a way, I am better with the tail because like in this chapter I now have more control over powers that Shadow Killer had yet to teach me by just watching Hopper :sighs happily:
Bucky: Leslie and Hopper sitting in a tree k-i-s-s-i-n-g
Leslie: Shut it!
Fk306: And for the comment that Leslie so nicely chose to ignore about the wedding…. It was fun. They threw the new husband into a swimming pool when we were partying there new lives together. It was the men that did that because before he threw that thing that girls put in there legs in a wedding he threw a water at them so they just wanted revenge. The swimming pool was in the back of the building so they carried him all the way there then threw him. He was laughing as he got out of the pool so I didn't feel bad for him.
Leslie: As for your other question, I went a lot farther than just the edge of Lothlórien and I too doubt that my friends will be happy with me lol but it can't be helped. I'm sorry it took Fk306 so long to update but she has been busy with Harry Potter and the Half-blood Prince.
Bucky: gothic-ember good to have you back I was starting to wonder if we were ever going to hear from you again… I'm glad you liked that chapter where they left Leslie behind. It was my idea and Fk306 agreed with it. Fk306 thought of the ones that had more 'depth' as you say.
Fk306: And our final reviewer is LEGOLAS drool to put it simply I don't think wargs are bad I just think that they are being forced into what they are doing by those who ride them. In 3 or so chapters, you will notice a problem about being the princess of the wargs and being friends with the fellowship. Can you guess what the problem is? And I know I'm vague in most parts but that's just the way I am. I'm no expert when it comes to writing stories this is just a small hobby I picked up last year.
Bucky: Oh, I have an idea. A question for the readers! Can you figure out the problem for being a warg princess? It has to do with a scene in the second movie where the wargs appear.
Everyone: please read, review, and please no flames or stuff that will only upset Fk306.