a/n: hello everybody! It's me! I'm back with the fourth chapter of my first Naruto fanfic. Thanks for the reviews. Hope you guys like this chapter! Disclaimer: (I haven't done this for the few chapters.)I do not own, (But I wish I did) any of the characters of this facfic except the girl. (The guy who made this can keep the other characters except for Kakashi-kun. May I have have him?) Anyway, this is the fourth chapter! DOZO!

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did,
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way
To never let it get that far
I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
My heart can't possibly break

When it wasn't even whole to start with
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

Chapter four: Runaway

I woke up the following morning in my room feeling empty. I sighed heavily. I just couldn't forget what happened last night…

I saw the blonde-haired baby in a futon not far from where I slept. He slept peacefully not knowing that his father was gone. I came closer to him I looked at his abdomen. I noticed some weird markings. I looked at his face. There were cat-like whiskers. I took a bottle of milk. I fed him. After a while, I took a bath and changed my clothes…

I stood in front of a mirror. I saw my whole face. I looked at my blue right eye and red left eye. I touched the scar along the left. I recalled Obito-san's death, how helpless I was. I couldn't do anything to save him. I looked at entire face. I remembered what those people said to me five years ago. "A handsome demon?" Maybe I am a demon. The people who were close to me were curse by kami-sama. I figured I should just leave this village…

I took the boy and went outside. I walked back to the place where I lost Aki and my sensei. Everything was gone. There was no hint that a fight took place there. I looked around to see if there was anything that fell on the ground. I could probably have it as a memento, a souvenir for their existence. There was none. But to my surprise, instead of finding a keepsake of the two, I found a baby girl. Now, I was carrying two children in my arms!

I remembered what my sensei said. "Those dried leaves fall to make way for new leaves. That's what happened. Life is like that. We have to give way to new things, new life to come into this world; a new hope." Yes, these children, they are the hope of Konoha.

I continued walking along the alley… It was already almost afternoon. Then, I saw him again…

He was a lot older than the last time I saw him. His white hair became puffier. The red lines on his eyes became more prominent. It became to look like tears of blood. He still had that silver head ornament on his head. It wasn't a head protector like mine. But, I think, it's a head protector. He was now carrying a huge scroll on his back. I heard he already became a sannin.

"Oji-san!" I called out to my uncle.

He smiled and waved to me.

"Hey, are they your kids?" he joked.

I shook my head. "Ie! The blonde boy is Yondaime-sensei's child and the other is…"

I didn't know whose child was it. When I looked at that child carefully, I saw her bluish-grey eyes, her cinnamon brown hair and sweet smile. She reminded me of Aki…

"Come on, Kakashi." He said. "Let's take them to the academy…"

"Ne, Oji-san" I said. "Can I name this little girl Aki? Akiko Mizuhara."

Why Akiko? Well, Aki always wanted to have that name. This child will be in memory of her, much like Naruto is in memory my sensei…

We took them to the academy. There, after I returned to Konoha (after I ran away) I saw them grow…

Oji-san and I ate after that. I was still sad. Then, he told me words of wisdom much like what Hokage-sensei said.

It was around dusk that time…

"I think you're very sad about what happened." He said.

I nodded. Then, without realizing it, I began to shed tears. And just like what happened ten years ago when I was three, I cried in front of him. He hugged me and smiled and told me everything would be alright. I never wept ever since then…until now…

"Look," He said "The sun is already setting."

I looked at the orange sun. The sky was a mixture of colors, blue, pink, orange, grey, purple, and yellow. It was so pretty.

"The moon will come out anytime now." He continued talking. "It's just like life…"

He paused and continued talking. "The sun rises in the east and sets in the west. The moon appears at dusk and disappears at twilight. It is a cycle, like life. The sun has to live to make way for the moon. Each has its role in life's cycle."

"Why is night so important?" I asked. "It's so dark and you can't see a thing."

"At day, you can play. You can do the things you want to do. But at night, you can rest. So, you have enough energy to face tomorrow. And at night, you can see the stars and you can dream of the things you can never do…"

I smiled.

"The sun sets to give way for the moon to shine in the dark night. The moon, in time, disappears in sight to also give way to the rising of the new sun; a new day. But, both the sun and the moon never really vanish forever. They're both there watching us from the heavens. Life is like that. It is a cycle. People have to die for other people, a new life, and a new hope. These people who died also never disappear. They are always in the heavens watching and protecting us…"

I looked up the sky. I saw millions of stars shining down on me. With those words, I totally understand what happened. Before he left, he left me one of the best words of wisdom I have heard.

"The ending is the really the end. It is a start of another beginning…"

Then, he disappeared into the night carrying the huge scroll on his back with his wooden zorii making a tapping sound on the empty alley…

But, not even he could change my mind. I had already decided. I would run away. I immediately packed a small backpack with some food, kunai and shinobi stars in it. I was determined. I was prepared to leave.

Well, I wasn't really planning to runaway. I just wanted to wander in the forest in think about what happened after all these years. I would go back, (I did actually) after five years, I guess…

I left the village around midnight. I rushed from tree to tree hoping to get as far as possible from the hidden leaf village. Somehow, I got tired and decided to rest and continue my travels tomorrow. I wander the forest for a few months hoping to find some runaway ninjas like me; I never found one. Instead, I met the person I most feared for the first time…

I was walking the forest like always. Then, I noticed someone was following me. I ran as fast as I could, but, no, the one that was following was gaining on me. I decided to face him head on and fight him…

"Come out!" I shouted. "Show yourself!"

I heard hissing sounds. Then, a tall white skinned man appeared before me. He had yellow eyes, much like a snake's. His tongue, I saw was also similar to a snake's forked-tongue. His pale skin somehow, appeared to have scales. I shivered in fear.

"Hello, little boy." He hissed. "I've always wanted to meet you in person."

I was frozen in fear. I just could move.

"Allow me to into introduce myself." He smirked. "I am Orochimaru. And you are, I assume to me, Hatake Kakashi."

I nodded.

Orochimaru. Isn't he the one my uncle was talking about? His teammate when he was just a gennin under the third hokage? Didn't this guy betray Konoha a long time ago which exiled him? Yes, he was the same person who would attack Konoha ten years after and kill the third… I knew. I just had to get away from him. I need a plan to get a way from him.

"RASENGAN!" I used that technique which Oji-san taught me a long time ago. I could finally use it. It was a lot more powerful that the Chidori. That's why I figured, I should use it.

Orochimaru almost fainted, I guess. I ran as fast as I could. Finally, I knew I lost him. Actually, if I followed Orochimaru, I would have been in Kabuto's place. Hmmm…That's something to think about…Afterwards, I became an Anbu. It was a group of powerful jounins. I joined. Nevertheless, I flew solo.

It was also during this time when I voyaged to the snow country to rescue the princess. She was still a child then. I took her to some old man. There, she grew and became a famous actress. A few years after that, I would also meet her again and save her destroyed village with my team.

I continued traveling from place to place hoping to still find the answer I was looking for. Then one night, when I was already eighteen years old, the answer hit me…

It was autumn, around sunset. The wind was dry yet chilly. I could already see the stars and the moon. I remembered what Oji-san and Sensei said. "Life is like that. We have to give way to new things, new life to come into this world; a new hope."

I saw the marigold sun. It was setting slowly while the sun was becoming dappled mix of colors. The small crescent-shaped moon was becoming more and more bright. The stars in the twilight sky were like fireflies on the ceiling. And then amber shaded withered leaves rustled with the cool night breeze while falling from the branches. The wise words of those two people echoed in my head. Finally, I realized what they really wanted to mean…

I knew. I could now go back to the Hidden Leaf Village. After five years of searching what it really meant. I finally understood it. I felt like a new person, a wiser shinobi.

I set off that night to return to Konoha. It had been five long years since I left. I wondered how Naruto looked like, how he would face the world without a father. I remembered Akiko Mizuhara. She grew up with out a family. I came back there…

And from a far, I could see the monuments of the great Hokages, from the first, and of course, to the fourth. I could see all of them. I reminded myself of my wish. I knew it wouldn't be a wish anymore. I will pursue it. When I saw those monuments, (much like Mount Rushmore) even though I am still miles away from The Hidden Leaf Village, I could already say, "Tadaima! It's good to be home!"

To be honest, even up to now, I am aspiring to be a hokage. Despite that I am dying, I will never lose hope that I will live. I promised to all of them that I will live!

a/n: I have a moral lesson in my fanfic! Yehey! You don't get that everyday! Anyway, that was the fourth chapter! I swear! I'll finish this fanfic! Just five more chapters to go and an epilogue. sob