Author:rainyday101
Rating: R for dark themes, language, and sexuality
Warnings: This story cantains dark elements so if you don't like angst you should probably steer quite clear of this story. Also there will be slash, nothing horribaly graphic mostly just comfort, cuddles, and kisses however if this sort of thing bothers you the n like i said above steer clear.
Summary: When zack winds up in the psych ward for attemting suicide he finds a new reason to live (freddyzack slash)
a/n: sorry the chapters are so short but that lets me put them up every couple days instead of like once a week. this story will have quite a bit of angst but dont worry because im incabable of writing a story without at least some fluff in it. the actual slashy part wont be for a little while because im trying to make this at least semi realistic and after attempying suicide a relationship is the fartheest thing from your mind, also freddy feels a lot of guilt for not noticing how sick zack was so right now hes in protecter mode, doing everything he can to make sure zacks happy and comfortable so its going to take some time. also the sleepyness is unavoidable partly because of the depression and partly because of the almost suicide. that will go away soon though.
chapter two
Zack woke up to a loud beeping noise that made his head throb with pain.
When he tried to open his eyes the light made him close them again hurridly. He was confused as to where he was because the last thing he remebered he had been at home in his bedroom.
In a rush it came flooding back to him.
Feeling so lonely.
Realizing that his parents had gone away on vacation yet again only leaving a note as indication to where they were going.
Shaky hands picking up a razer blade.
Slipping.
And so much blood.
Zacks thoughts were scrambled and it hurt to think so he went back into an uneasy sleep.
When he woke up again he immediatly noticed that there were other people in the room. At first it was hard to understand what the voices were saying but after a few seconds he figured out that there was a doctor and someone else.
Zack couldn't figure out who the other person was but apprently the doctor wanted them to leave as it was obvious that he wouldnt be waking up antime soon. Zack was just curious to know who had actually bothered to come see him so he made a noise to let them know he was awake.
"Zack!"
Freddy rushed over to the bed looking anxious.
" Hey man your awake." As he said that he glared at the doctor as if he had purposfully misled him.
"What are you doing here?"
At the sound of Zacks voice Freddy turned back to him. "Im the one who called the ambulance, I was worried so I stayed here to make sure that your okay."
"Oh." Zack wasnt quite sure how to respond to that so he tried to find somthing else to talk about. The doctor however interupted saying that he needed to talk to Zack and ask him a few questions.
"I'm staying." Freddy announced to the room at large, but afterwards he shot a questiong glance at Zack as though aking if that was okay. Zack nodded just as the doctor said that that wasnt a good idea.
"Why not?" Freddy asked indignantly.
"Because the questions im going to be asking are personel and I doubt that Zack would like you to be here for it."
Freddy looked at Zack again.
"I dont mind, I tell Freddy everything anyways." Zack said.
Which was true, he did tell Freddy everything. In fact Freddy was really the only one he told anything to.
The doctor looked liked he wanted to protest but he let it go and started to question Zack.
Three hours later and the doctor was just finishing his interegation. Zacks headache was back full force and he could'nt help but wonder if all the doctors questions were punishment.
It would be so much easier to avoid everything like he usualy did, but the doctor seemed insitant that he go over all the reasons why a seventeen year old with a seemingly charmed life would want to cut himself.
At some point he started crying and Freddy held his hand like a parent would when there child is upset.
When the doctor finaly left all Zack could think about was going to sleep.
Not even the thought of Freddy being there could keep his eyes open.
It felt like if he didn't lay down then he would pass out. Just as he was falling back asleep he felt Freddy pulling the blankets over him and gently brushing the hair out of his eyes. It felt so good to have someone taking care of him like he was important to them, and he forced himself to mumble out a 'g'night'.
There was silence for a few seconds and then he heard Freddy quietly say "goodnight Zack."