Chapter 5

I'm Sorry

Kyo was asleep still. The tranquilizer had mostly worn off but it had started raining. Tohru had been walking over when it started pouring. It was a good thing Yuki had warned her of the rain and she brought an umbrella. When Tohru finally arrived, it was coming down real hard. Hatori let her inside personally.

"It's coming down pretty hard out there. You've come to visit Kyo?" He asked as she dried off. Even with the umbrella she'd gotten a bit wet.

"Yes. I heard there was a situation here this morning and I was worried. Did it involve Kyo?" She sounded worried enough. Hatori sighed.

"Actually, the disturbance was Kyo. He was having delusions. When I walked in he hit me with a plate because I guess he figured I was one too. What I wonder is what he could possibly have been seeing. When I gave him the tranquilizer he didn't even seem to have the strength to fight back even if he'd wanted to." Hatori explained.

"Tranquilizer? It was that bad?" Tohru took off toward Kyo's room, not running, but quickly nonetheless. Hatori followed her all the way to his room, where he unlocked the door.

"Sorry. I was afraid, knowing Kyo, that he might try to run out of the room if he woke up and had more delusions." and he opened the door. "I have some things to do. I'll be back later." he shut the door behind himself.

For awhile Tohru sat in the room silently. Again, the only noise was the heart rate monitor and the sound of her own heart in her ears. The steady beat of both heart beats is what made her fall asleep last time. She decided to just say what she came here to say because if she waited for Kyo to wake up she might be asleep or she may no longer have the will to say it. She just lost herself in his eyes and forgot what she was going to say. At home she could talk to him without looking right into his eyes, here it was the only thing worth looking at. His beautiful red brown orbs.

She shook her head and remember why she came here.

"Kyo.. I'm sorry. I know you think it's not my fault. But it is. I really should've called Hatori when I first noticed you acting strange. I'm so sorry." Tohru apologized.

Kyo took a breath and his eyes fluttered ever so slightly. But Tohru didn't notice this cause her eyes were closed.

"Yesterday I'm sorry for making you angry. I didn't mean to. I just wanted to keep you company. I just wanted to make sure you were okay..." she paused and looked outside at the rain. She sighed.

"Kyo I heard you were seeing things this morning. I wonder, just like Hatori, what imagines scared you so much. I hope they weren't of me. It'd be awful. If you were afraid of me when you woke up. I don't think I could stand to have you flinch whenever you saw me. I don't think I could live with you avoiding me in fear. Kyo I don't think I could live if you had to stay here any longer. But you have to. And As long as you're not.. Afraid of me.. Or angry at me.. I can visit. That way I can still see you. Cause Kyo. I don't think I could live without seeing you." She stopped here, her eyes brimming with tears of things finally said.

"I wish I could do something more to help you Kyo. I just want you to get better." Tohru continued.

"I'll come visit." Tohru started to get up but Kyo grabbed her wrist.

"No.. Just.. Sit there.." he said as though afraid he'd said something wrong or that she wouldn't come back.

"Okay, Kyo."

"I really like you Kyo. I want to hear your laugh again. I want to see you smile. I just..." tears fell and hit Tohru hands, closed tightly together.

She pressed her lips against his and he stared, dumbfounded, ahead at her closed eyes.

Tohru stood up and hurried to the door. "I'll.. I'll come back.. Later.. When.. I'll come back when you're awake." she wiped the tears from her eyes and walked out of the door.

Kyo's eyes opened slightly, just enough to see his eyes. He thought about the imagines he'd seen. About the kiss.. And about the first conversation after he'd come here.

"Tohru..." he breathed.

"I really like you Kyo."

"I love you." and his eyes closed.

I realized something. Kyo's had an oxygen mask on and Tohru kissed him.. or.. fake Tohru did. So how bout.. he'd taken it off and that'll work. lol. sry everyone. btw, I don't fb but i really really wish I did. no. I dont. cause it'd would so suck. -grin-