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Summary: Sara's been going to a country bar to find her release, without anyone knowing. Now, it's Nick's birthday, and the group decided to take him there. Of course, Sara's not that crazy about the idea…Why? She's been known to sing a few songs there and she wants to keep that for herself. Of course, the stars are not on her side…

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Chapter 10 – How can he do that to her…?

Nick looked deep down into Sara's eyes noticing a small tear in the corner of her eye. His hand instinctively reached out and brushed it off, sending a shiver down Sara's spine. The shiver was enough to wake her from this dream she was having. Suddenly, the voices of other people came through, and their features became more vivid. She looked down from Nick's stare, but she remained standing in the same spot, her hand still in Nick's.
"Sara?" – Nick gently called out.

She looked up trying hard not to look onto his lips, the lips that were on hers just a moment ago, the lips that made her forget about anything but him. There was no logic behind that. There was no explanation why that would happen; how can he do that to her?

"Let's go out." – she took him by the hand lead him on the side of the room, where the back door was. He let her take him. Hell, he would let her take him anywhere she wanted.

While the door closed behind them, they both looked into each others eyes again and Sara let go of his hand.

"Nick, what's going on?" – she whispered afraid that her voice will break if she spoke louder.

Nick took a deep breath knowing he needed to verbalize his emotions. However, that seemed hard for him. He could talk until tomorrow, and he would still not know what she needed to hear. However, one thing seemed simple in his mind.

"I needed to show you…" – he stopped for a second, however Sara was impatient.

"Show me what?"

"That you're the woman in someone's life. And that you're someone's everything."

Sara felt her eyes sting again, hearing the words.

"Someone's?"

"Mine." – he simply said. – "You're the woman in my life."

Feeling her knees tremble she dropped down and sat on the curve. She wanted to hear that he cared for her, but she wasn't ready to hear that from him. She wasn't used to sweet words, the words of commitment. Again, a simple question rose in her mind: How could he do that to her? How can he make her feel like that? It wasn't possible to feel your heart ache, but not from the pain, but from the amount of love she was feeling. It was almost unbearable.

"Look, Sara." – he kneeled in front of her, grabbing her hands in between of his. They were warm and sweaty. However, his were the same. None of them minded, none of them noticed. – "I want you to know something. I'm not trying to scare you. I'm not trying to push you away. I know…" She stopped him, enhancing the grip on his hand.

"It's easier to get used to pain. It's easier to handle, Nick."

Nick's brows furrowed. How could she say that? Her words hurt him. He was hurt for her. He had no idea what she was feeling.

"Sara, you don't deserve pain. You deserve to be happy."

"Do you know that I don't cry when I'm sad, or in pain?"

He shook his head.

"I can cry for someone else, though. When I feel someone else is in pain. I don't know why. I cry when I'm feeling happy, though. That emotion is so strange to me that I cry." – she was speaking like she was in trans, and Nick didn't want to interrupt her. She wasn't making any sense, but her words were even more painful as she continued.

"I guess I just think that I'm not worth the tears. Even if they're mine. I'm not worth crying over."

That was enough for Nick to let his own tears fall. It wasn't on purpose, they were in his eyes the entire time she spoke, but they decided to drop at that moment. And he didn't want to wipe them off. They were the proof the she was worth it. That she deserved everything he could give her. He gently wiped the tear from his face with his finger and she looked up noticing them. That wasn't what she expected to see. How could he do that to her? It just wasn't possible…

Nick's finger went to her lips and he smeared his tears on her lips which were trembling from his touch. Than he gently moved forward and kissed her again, bringing the tears on his lips also. Her own tears started to fall uncontrollably and he kissed them also. One by one. They were dropping on his lips which he then brought to her lips.

"You deserve everything, Sara." – he whispered in between the kisses.

"I just wanted you to know that about me. I can't be your everything if I can't even cry for myself. I don't want to lose you and not cry."

He leaned his forehead on hers and took in the words he just told him. He seriously wanted to give her everything.

"You're not going to lose me Sara."

"You can't promise that." – she choked.

"Yes, I can. You know how? Because you have a part of me. A part of my heart, my being. You had it for some time. It will always stay with you."

She kept looking into his eyes which were still blurry from the tears. How can he do that to her? It just wasn't possible. She was gently caressing his cheek. It was a little rough, but she liked that. Suddenly she caught herself memorizing the feeling of his face in her hand.

"I don't have to do this anymore..:" – she whispered with the surprised look on her face.

"What's that, sweetheart?"

"I don't have to remember the feeling of your touch anymore. It doesn't have to be a rare occasion, doesn't it, Nick?"

"No, it doesn't. Never again." – he smiled at her insecurity, although there was nothing funny about it. He was just feeling happy, that she didn't push him away. She was ready to grasp the concept of them together. It was all that he needed.

"Sara?" – he wanted to get one more thing out of the way.

"Yeah?"

"I'm not going to tell you that I love you now." – a dark shadow flit through her eyes and she backed away a bit causing Nick to reach for her hands again. – "No, wait. I didn't mean it like that. I'm not going to tell you I love you, because it doesn't mean anything now. Not after everything. I told other women before that I love them, and I didn't mean it. I'm used to saying that word, and you're not used hearing it. And I don't to scare you with words that really express my emotions towards you…I know you felt scared when I took you to that dance floor. And that meant more than me saying I love you. I don't want you to go to sleep tonight and wake up tomorrow thinking if everything was a dream. Or if this is what you really wanted. Because, I can cry for myself, Sara. And I don't think I'm gonna be able to stop." – he stopped for a moment to see if his words were reaching her. She leaned back towards him, and he took a deep breath.

"I don't want you to have any doubts. Not about us. Because, I don't have them."

"What's gonna happen now?" – she quietly asked.

"I'm going back inside. You stay here for awhile. Think. Than come back inside, and I will accept anything you decide." – he rose to his felt but planted a kiss on her head before straightening himself. He took her appearance in, thinking how beautiful she looked under the light of the street lamp. Turning around he went inside, leaving her sitting there, staring ahead.

Sara closed her eyes feeling the tears approach. Normally, the tears fall once a person shuts the eyes. She was the expert of crying with her eyes closed. If someone would look at her, they would see a person relaxing a bit. And she would wait…wait until they leave. Only then, after she would open her eyes the tears would flow. Not many, but just enough to stain her face. It's easy to wipe them off, though. They aren't falling constantly. Just a long drop.

The tear drop fell on the concrete and she looked down. How was it possible to hear the sound of that? But she heard it. Her tear made a sound with the floor. It woke her up. She cried for herself. Not for anyone else, just for herself. Nick made her do that. It wasn't a bad thing. It was a sign that her insecurities were breaking. She stood up, and gently brushed the dust from her jeans. She didn't know what she will tell him. But, she hoped that the look on her face will be enough. She turned around towards the door seeing that they were open, and that Janis was standing there, looking at her.

"Janis. How long you've been standing there?"

"Not long." – she smiled gently. She actually went out when she saw Nick come back. – "What did he do? Because, let me tell you, I don't care how strong he is, because it's obvious he is…considering the features of his arms...and well, he's back also." – she started to talk nonsense., causing Sara to chuckle.

"He didn't do anything. I was just thinking."

"About?"

"About the fact I love that man more than anything."

Janis was taken aback a little, and her eyes widened.

"Well, I guess my comment about his arms and back wasn't appropriate than, ha?"

"It was fine. I need to go back, though."

"So, I presume that is what you need to tell him? That's pretty big." – suddenly her words sounded more realistic than Sara thought. She was about to go inside. All game ends there. If she wants to run, there's still time. Just one move and she could be walking away from the bar, finding herself a transport home. Nick was right. She wasn't used to saying the words, so how can he say them back, if he doesn't know what they mean to her.

"Hey, hey, I was kidding. Didn't mean to scare you." – Janis quickly said, reaching for Sara's hand. The idea popped into her mind, and her smile brightened.

"You know…John is taking a break now. I'm sure that he will be glad to hear that you decided to sing another song with him." – she left words hanging in the air, raising her eyebrow a bit. Sara looked into Janis's eyes, not really taking the time to figure out what she was saying. She knew what she was saying, but she was looking at her reflection in her eyes, seeing a woman who was obviously scared. If she hated one thing, that was to see herself scared. The look got more determined and she started to walk back inside. Seeing John at the end of the bar, she approached him and smiled. With only a few words they managed to come to an agreement. John gently smiled at Sara and nodded to the rest of the band. They all got up, and started to walk up the stage.

When Nick went back inside, leaving Sara sitting on the pavement, he knew he was going to be welcomed with more that one question from his group. Knowing that it was unavoidable, he took a deep breath and walked towards them. He really didn't care about what they had to say, if they saw them, or not. He was more interested in possibilities of what will happen when Sara comes back.

"Where the hell were you!" – Catherine yelled, obviously a little tipsy from the drinks.

"I was talking to Sara outside." – he sat back at his place. His beer was warm, but he didn't notice as he took a big gulp.

"Why were you two outside?" – Greg piped in, jealousy imminent in his voice.

"What's it to you?" – Nick asked, wondering if Cath and Warrick actually told them what they were planning on telling him.

"Well, these two informed me that you have a thing for Sara. So, the two of you outside, under the moonlight isn't the most innocent thing."

Warrick chuckled at that moment attracting the attention of the entire group.

"Under the moonlight, Greggo? I think we'll have to cut you off. You had too much to drink."

"I am not drunk!" – Greg raised his hand reaching for his nose. – "See I can touch the tip of my nose."
"I think you have to walk down the straight line for that to actually prove something." – Catherine added, and glanced at Nick's direction. It was obvious that something happened, but she couldn't see on Nick's face was it bad or good.

"So? Did the shirt work out for you?" – Warrick asked using their code. Nick smirked shaking his head.

"I don't know, man."

"Hey, there's Sara again!" – Greg yelled causing everyone to turn around. She was waling up the stage slowly, looking at the floor. Warrick glanced at Nick, who wasn't even blinking. His eyes remained pinned to Sara, but it was obvious it was a surprise for him as well. First of all, he didn't expect her back that soon…

"I guess we'll know soon enough." – Warrick said to himself and than turned his attention to Sara.

"Ladies and gentlemen. Our lovely miss Sara decided to join us in another song. A ballad if you will. Men, take your women to the dance floor and show them how you see them."

He started to play the entry on his guitar, and Nick realized he didn't recognize the song. He watched Sara take a deep breath as she stepped to the microphone and closed her eyes.

Look at the sky

Tell me, what do you see

Just close your eyes

And describe it to me

The heavens are sparkling

With starlight tonight

That's what I see

Through your eyes.

She opened her eyes and met Nick's warm look.

I see the heavens

Each time that you smile

I hear your heartbeat

Just go on for miles

And suddenly I know

My life is worth while

That's what I see

Through your eyes

Warrick glanced towards his friend, and saw that Nick was finally complete. Sara made him complete. Hearing the quiet sniffle, he glanced at Catherine who was sitting next to him, and noticed she was also crying. He wrapped his arm around her, and she just whispered in his ear.

"They deserve this so much."

That sentence said everything, and both of them turned their attention back to Sara.

Here in the night

I see the sun

Here in the dark

Our two hearts are one

It's out of our hands

We can't stop what we have begun

And love just took me by surprise

Looking through your eyes.

Sara took out the wireless microphone, and started to walk down the stage. Once she was down, her eyes found Nick's again.

I look at myself

And instead I see us

Whoever I am now

It feels like enough

And I see a girl

Who is learning to trust

That's who I see through your eyes.

And there are some things we don't know

Sometimes a heart just needs to go

And there is so much I'll remember

Underneath the open sky with you forever.

John continued to sing the chorus, as he saw Sara reached her destination, and placed the microphone on the table, turning it off.

She was standing in front of Nick, taking his hand in hers.

"Nicky…I know you're used to hearing this, but I'm not used to saying it. And it will mean everything. I love you. And you're my everything too."

He took her in his arms, wrapping himself over her, like she needs to be shielded from something. And he will be there to do that. He brought his lips near her ear and whispered:

"I love you too, Sara. It also means everything. I'm gonna prove it too you every day."

She looked up bright smile playing on her face.

"You know, I remember a message on my answering machine. If I'm not mistaken, you said something about sharing a dance with me."

"Well, if I'm not mistaken, I already did that." – he smirked.

She raised an eyebrow at him, but sharing his smile.

"Yes you did. However, you forgot something."

"And what's that?"

"Well..:" – she started seriously. – "when you left the message on my phone, we were still only friends."

"I see." – he nodded reaching for something in his pocket. Sara looked up with the confused look on her face, as she saw he got his cell phone and opened it. He dialed the number not removing his eyes from her.

"Hi, Sara. It's Nick. You see, it's my birthday for at least a few minutes more, and I'm making myself a personal goal to share at least one dance with my girlfriend. No matter what you say…Love you." – he said goodbye to her answering machine, and shut the phone down. Sara's eyes were filling with tears as he took her to the dance floor again. She placed her head on his shoulder, and her arms found their way around Nick's neck. Both of them had their eyes closed, as they sway to the music.

…Good morning beautiful how was your night

Mine was wonderful with you by my side…

They were both way too involved in one another to notice Janis approach their table. She winked at Catherine who gave her a hug.

"Thanks."

"No problem. So, what do you think. Should we tell her that this place actually doesn't have a basement? And that John and the band got here hours ago."

Warrick's eyes widened.

"Catherine Willows! You little sneak!"

"Oh, please, don't tell me you thought I was going to come here knowing that about Sara, and not make sure she actually sings in front of Nick."

"Just don't tell me you had something to do with Grissoms call." – Warrick laughed sarcastically, but almost choked when he saw Catherine's smirk.

"OK. I won't tell you."

THE END

A/N – Well, this is it. It's over! I hope you liked the end!

It's snowing here again. Or better to say, it's like a blizzard here. So, that explains the atmospheres in this chapter. :)

Oh, the song from the last chapter was: "She's everything", by Brad Paisley.

And the song in this chapter is "Looking through your eyes", by LeAnn Rimes.

Let me know what did you think!