No, this can't be happening, it is all my fault. I lead them on this stupid crusade, which has now come to this. They've all become almost like family to me. This cant be happening to him. If it's going to be anyone it should be me. It's my fault we're here.
None of the others can believe it either; I can see that they are all trying to process this information, to see how it could be real. Rommie is looking very distressed, Harper is her engineer and they seem to have a special bond between them. Beka just looks disbelieving, her and Harper are closer than family and this must be killing her.
Rommie is shaking, without thinking I pull her into my arms, I can see Beka running off down the corridor but it's probably best if she's alone, she'd hate to be seen like that. I can't put them through this again, from now on I will go first to try and keep them safe, I wont let them be in the line of fire, they're my responsibility and I will protect them.