No, I cannot let this continue, but why should he listen to me. I must convince him that this course of action will be no good for anyone although I believe I am the last person he probably wants to see given the circumstance.
As I reach the Maru there is no sign that anybody is inside. No light shines and everything is quite even though it is the middle of the afternoon. I stand in front of an access port where I am sure he will hear me, I know what I want to say how I miss him, how he should talk about his pain, how he should not hurt those around him with his emotions. But just like the rest of the crew no words come out and I stand there, seemingly struck dumb.
Finally words come to me, they seem almost unrelated as the spill out into the empty air. I speak about my pain and anguish and tell him of the feelings the others have as all of them have come to see me in the past few days to seek my guidance, which now feels so hypocritical. There is still no noise from inside the ship but it feels like the silence of a listener and I take some small comfort from this.
My words slowly dry up and I stand once more in silence, just as Rommie and Beka have done for so long. Eventually after a peaceful eternity footsteps ring out clear, shattering the calm. I look up suddenly not wanting to be found here, seeming so lost when others looks to me for help.
I turn and quickly leave the hanger, and the other person to their own repose.