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Hermione woke up after a long while, she had slept so well on her bed, it was almost like a good bye to it, standing up she looked around, blur. As her vision became clear again she glanced at her watch, 5:10! Damn she was so late; she could never make it before at least 5:20! Rushing to the bathroom she brushed her hair, than sprinting out of the bedroom she ran down by the common room, then by the stairs, finally Hermione reached his classroom, stopping abruptly she took a calming breath, and she knocked.

"C'mon in." said a cold voice, closing her eyes she slipped in the class, he sat on top of a desk in the middle of the class, she counted to ten trying to calm down.

"I'm so sorry, I kind of …never mind." She didn't want to get into any details.

"Next time, make sure not to fall asleep when someone awaits you." Her eyes widened, how the hell?

"How did…you..umm." he chuckled.

"You're eyes never lie." She blushed, now that wasn't expected.

"Shall we go then?"

"Ok." He walked slowly pass her, she held her breath, opening the door both left the classroom, he walked a bit in front of her, she tried keeping up, but what's the rush? He notice her quick walking trying to keep up with him. Severus stopped to wait for her, unfortunately she wasn't looking, Hermione bumped right into him, he turned to face her.

"Sorry." He didn't wait, turning he started to walk once again but this time he waited for her, she walked quietly beside him, a few students passed by them, but pretended not to see them. Lastly they got to his chamber. He turned once again towards her.

"Password is Serpent." She nodded, the big doors opened, she could smell his sent, it was strong. She entered behind him, looking around she was amazed at the decorations, it all revolved around a dark navy blue, it was very classy in her opinion, her mouth opened slightly, he watched his new wife look around curiously.

"This is the living room, ummm…over there is the…" he started as he walked over to another door, opening it he finished.

"The bedroom, and in there you'll find the bathroom." She felt her heartbeat quicken as he mentioned the bedroom, she now remembered they were sleeping together. She shivered. Walking over to his side she peered into her new bedroom, it was an earthy tone, very comforting, not at all what she expected. She took a step inside it, her trunk was on the side of the big bed, she took long deep breaths trying to take it all in. Turning to Snape she gave him her best 'I'm al right' smile, he didn't buy it though.

"It's nice."

"Glad you like it." He smiled, yes people he smiled! It was priceless, she watched him, he looked so handsome, much younger and a lot less meaner. She sat on the big soft bed, her new bed. He walked close to her, she stiffened. Severus looked down at her, reaching into his pocket he took out a black velvet box, she closed her eyes, no it was way too soon for that. Hermione felt a little excited looking at what he held in between his fingers. Reaching down he took her hand, taking the ring from the box he placed the ring on her finger, it fit perfectly. She looked at it, it was darn expensive! It was white gold with an emerald in the middle, she was speechless.

"Wow…it's beautiful!" her mouth stayed open for a second, after she got her senses back she looked at him confuse.

"You…shouldn't.."

"It was in my family for generations, it now belongs to you." He caressed her small hand with his, she sat there looking back and forth, from the ring to him, Hermione stood up, she felt a bit guilty but a gorgeous ring like that could bring any girls mood way up high. Not hesitating she hugged him tightly, she felt his hair brushing lightly on her hand, it wasn't greasy at all, silky actually. Severus was caught off guard, she was so close to him, his hands instinctively made their way to her lower back, he smelled her hair, it smelled like spring. As Hermione remembered who he was and the whole rest she stepped back blushing terribly, she looked down.

Snape saw her blushing, he stepped closer to her, with his right hand he lifted her chin until she was looking at him, with his right hand he reached around her and pulled her tightly against him by the waist. She wasn't expecting that so soon, but it didn't feel as creepy as she thought it was going to be. Hermione's breathing became shallow and quick, he's hot breath tickled her lower lip, leaning down he stopped about a millimeter away form her lips, his lips brushing hers slightly, he looked deeply into her eyes, she felt so out there so real. She closed her eyes, he finally touched her lips with his, the kiss was tender and smooth at first, but it intensified by the second, her hands went up to his neck and she smoothed down his hair, he moaned at her touch. Snape licked her lips mockingly, Hermione parted her lips welcomingly. She moaned lightly as he made little circles on her back.

Severus slid his tongue in her mouth, she wasn't a beginner that was clear, he heard her small moan and laughed in the inside, who would have thought. She tasted like chocolate, he noted. His tongue ventured against her teeth and even though shocked at this intimate gesture she allowed him to slide it in to her mouth. She couldn't believe how good this made her feel, she found herself returning the kiss just as she would with Mike. As she remembered him she broke the kiss, he looked at her, she was so small and delicate, he smirked as he noted how good a kisser she was. She looked around once again, it felt like home. Taking a few steps around she went over to her trunk. Trying her best no to think about Mike she focused on her stuff.

"Oh, yeah, that, Winky was going to put it all in place in the closet, but I thought you'd not like that, so…"

She was glad he did that, Hermione hated when people she didn't totally trust went through her stuff, opening it she removed some close and place it in the space he had left for her, that's when a letter fell on the floor. For a minute Hermione just looked at it blankly, it was Mike's most recent I'm sorry letter, she groaned, he could never know about her and him. She bent down and picked it up, Severus watched as he cozily sat on the bed. Hermione looked at it vacantly, then as tears came to her eyes she ripped it pitilessly, now that he was in the whole story Hermione couldn't have other guy's letters about. Turning to hide her tears she pushed open the door to the washroom, it was big and …well what can be said? It was a bathroom. Walking over to the garbage she took a deep breath, what the hell was she doing? First her uncle, now Snape, this was way too fast for her, Hermione's breathing became heavy, she needed air, what had gotten herself into? Walking out of the bedroom she never looked at him.

"I'll be back in a while." Hermione left just as soon as she finished her sentence. Snape sat there wondering what had just happened.

Leaving her new chamber she started to walk up and down the corridors, she didn't want to see her friends, she didn't want to see herself, but perhaps imagine she was a star. As a child Hermione always loved stars, every night she wished she could be one of them, just to lighten people's way at night, just to make people like her dream. As she practically ran out of the castle Hermione felt the cold breeze of the night hit her face.

She walked over to her favorite spot, right next to the lake. Sighing she closed her eyes. She wasn't ready for this, if she couldn't manage to handle her own uncle, how was she suppose to handle a man, a husband someone who would spend all his time with her. Hermione felt all the little hairs on her neck stand up as she thought about the kiss, she couldn't say it was bad, but it wasn't like she needed a guy at this point of her life, especially a man like him. Severus Snape the meanest person she had ever met, one of those people you just wished was dead. But now he was…Hermione couldn't quite say what he was to her, but maybe he could be a friend…she hoped.

"I really wish you were here mom, dad." She whispered to the lake, Hermione missed them dearly and she couldn't help but feel the emptiness in her as she thought about the good and the bad times. Hermione sat down and rested her head against this big, big tree. Tears fell down her cheeks. Sighing she continued to whisper to no one.

"Why did it have to end up like this." Her eyes hurt from crying, it had been so long since she didn't cry this often, back in the days, back in the good days.

"On thing, I don't know why, it doesn't even matter how hard you try…"

"I tried so hard…and in the end it doesn't even matter…I had to fall to loose it all, and in the end it doesn't even matter…" she remembered that song, it worked perfectly to her messed up life.

Hermione looked down at her arms, no scars, she was glad she was a witch for if she had not known some really good healing spells she'd have scars to the bone. Her hands shook as she traced her arms, up and down, it was so comforting, so relaxing, so…so… she started to cry harder, it was somewhat random, her friends told her when she was younger how weird she cried, silently, motionlessly. It was a good two hours before Hermione managed to pick herself up and start to walk back to the castle.

The door to her chamber was visible now as she got nearer and nearer to where she dreaded to go, the corridor was narrow and made her feel uncomfortable, finally the door was right in front of her face, the familiar smell reached her, in a voice so weak you could swear she was extremely sick she said the password. The door swung open, taking a step forward the door shut close behind her.

Severus sat reading quietly on an arm chair by the fire, he looked untroubled, but then again it was so hard to actually tell what he felt. Hermione looked at him hesitantly, he didn't look up at her, she took a breath and walked over to a big couch on the side of where he sat. Hermione looked at the flames. After a few seconds he asked without making eye contact.

"Where were you?" his voice dry and demanding.

"Walking."

"Since when do you do things as soon as they came to your mind, just like that?" he looked at her.

"Umm…"

"Do you know what could have happened?"

"What! I was just walking." She rolled her eyes, she wasn't five anymore!

"Things happen in the dark."

"Who cares."

"You won't do that anymore."

"Who are you to tell me that!"

"Listen and listen carefully! Now that you are my wife, you will not leave, to go wander as you please without telling me, you will not have your little lets get drunk and end up fucking each other parties, you will not ever bring any of your little stupid friends over here, you'll not ever…"

"SHUT UP!"

He looked at her disbelieving, who did she think she was!

"Excuse me!"

"Who the fuck do ya think you are! You don't have control over my actions! You can't tell me what to do! I'm not like your property!" She stood up.

"If you think you can do the things you used to before, well you are so wrong!"

"Why do you think I had parties like that!"

"Tell me you haven't and I'll believe you!" (she kept quiet, ok maybe once…)

"You will never have power over me!" Hermione had tears in her eyes once again, (why couldn't she not have to go through all of this for at least one day?) She shook her head at the whole scene, it was just like what happened with Ben, he took control over her as though she was his little toy. Hermione wouldn't let anyone do that over her again, never!

"Why did you just leave like that!"

"Because, I freaked out!" she waived her hands in the air trying to make a point.

"What!"

"I freaked! Totally freaked! What were you thinking? That I was going to be fine to marry someone without actually wanting to? That I'd be more than happy to come leave with you and snog you like you were my love or something?" she shook helplessly, this was too much.

"What are you so afraid of?" he asked quietly, Hermione had surprised him by confessing her fears like that.

"I'm not afraid…"

"Then what?" he rubbed his temples, she was such a complicated girl!

"I'm tired, of everything." She buried her head in her hands.

"Why the hell did you think I do those things to myself, because it's…fun?"

"You…can't, I mean you are so gifted, filled with friends, filled with everything people want.." he whispered to himself.

"I'm not happy, I've not been happy for years.." she didn't have tears in her eyes anymore, there were none left.

"Because of him." He stated more to himself than to her.

"I don't wan to talk about him so can you just forget I have an uncle?"

"Do you have any family left?"

"Most of them are dead, and the rest excluded us from the family, I haven't seen them in years. They made our lives a living hell."

"Jealousy?"

"Who knows." She stood up, brushing her hair with her fingers she walked to the bedroom.

"I'm gonna go to sleep." She left him thinking.

Hermione went to the bathroom and took a hot relaxing bath, after changing into her Pj's she went back to the bedroom, Severus sat on the bed, his eyes fixed on the floor. She walked cautiously over to the bed, sitting down she looked at her hands, it felt uncomfortable.

"I never asked you anything." He said not very loudly. Hermione turned to face him.

"What?"

"I never asked you to feel anything for me."

Hermione laid down.

"I know. And umm…it's cool if you still hate me. I kind of hate myself as well." She stood silent looking at the ceiling.

"I don't hate you."

"Sure looks like it."

"I don't."

"You will, soon. I make people crazy, usually."

"Not going to happen."

"Whatever you say." Hermione knew he'd get tired of her in not a very long while from now, it was ok with her.

"I'm sorry." She admitted, he turned so he could see her properly, her eyes closed tightly shut.

"Lets forget about it." He stood up and walked over to the washroom and changed into his Pj's, as he came back. Snape laid down on his side of the bed, Hermione was already asleep. He drifted into sleep after a while.