Authors note: okay umm...Due to the drastic lack of Stargirl fanfiction I disided to write this its angst, Stargirls P.O.V. its not very good but shrugges oh well.

Disclamer: I do not own Avril Lavigne's "My Happy Ending" or Spinelli's book "Stargirl" which totally rocks Stargirl needs more fanfics.

So much for my happy ending
Oh oh, oh oh , oh oh ...

Tears streamed down my face 'you never loved me...' she thought whipping away tears that streamed down her cheek, "why..." I asked myself aloud. "why... didn't you love me, what was wrong with me..." I asked softer "why..." I choked pulling my face in to my knees tying to block out the memories. 'why...was I never good enough..." I thought tears streaming down my face. "I loved you..." I muttered, 'do you believe in enchanted places?' I remembered asking him...

Let's talk this over
It's not like we're dead
Was it something I did?
Was it something You said?
Don't leave me hanging
In a city so dead
Held up so high
On such a breakable thread

I remember when he had met Cinnamon I remember how he had laughed the fluffy rats tounge tickling his ear... It's gone now, it was all gone... I couldn't even talk to him, or see him, listen to him... Gone forever more, there was no going back, I wish I could go back, I want to see Dori, I want to see Leo... I want to be Stargirl, 'what am I going to do...' I thought ' I can't even fix it...' 'theres no time...' were leaving tomorrow morning...

You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be

We would never be together again, I would never look into his eyes again, and tell him I loved him. Everyone would be gone, 'Get up, stop crying...' I told myself I choked back tears but wobbled to my feet. My workshop was cold I looked through some of the files scrolling out a few letters onto a note of paper with three simple words " I love you"

You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
And all of the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending
Oh oh, oh oh , oh oh ...

I dropped the paper into the file, his file... I wish it didn't have to end this way... 'maybe I can see his face just one last time' I thought bit my lip down, hard. I remembers before I had stopped being "Stargirl" I remembered how happy I was then, I also remembered how much I wanted people to be my friends again, and how much I loved him... I remembered his warm kiss...

You've got your dumb friends
I know what they say
They tell you I'm difficult
But so are they
But they don't know me
Do they even know you?
All the things you hide from me
All the stuff that you do

No... I can't no... 'but' I interrupted no... no... But the memory of his tender kiss was stamped into my memory, I had to see him. 'for one last time' I fumbled though my workshop then found a camera. I would take a photo, I would bring him with me so I could always see him... I wandered though the streets till I found his house, I crawled up the tree by his window I sat there for the longest time, just watching him sleep...

You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be

his face looked sad, no matter what, even though I'm Stargirl again... I'll never be the same... "I love you" I said aloud to him hoping that perhaps in his dreaming form he would have heard me and that maybe...

It's nice to know that you were there
Thanks for acting like you cared
And making me feel like I was the only one
It's nice to know we had it all
Thanks for watching as I fall
And letting me know we were done

just maybe he had heard, and that he would always remember me... And somehow someday, we would be together again, even though he no longer loved me... Or did he I wasn't sure I pulled out the camera and snapped a picture of him remembering to keep the flash off, I stayed there till I noticed the sky becoming lighter, I traced a heart around his face onto, the window then climbed down the tree.

Oh oh, oh oh , oh oh ...
So much for my happy ending

As I walked home I looked over his photo, squinting in the dark to see the outline of his face. As I walked inside I patted cinnamon on the head,

Oh oh, oh oh , oh oh ...

Were both gonna miss him aren't we, I said softly then scooped him up off of my shoulder and into my hands. Thats okay though, everythings gonna be fine, some day we'll see him again and then we will live happily ever after. Just don't loose hope..." I said then showed him the photo "Here, I took a picture he'll be with us, Always... and Forever"

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