Aching Heart
DISCLAIMER: Nope, don't own him, never will. It's a fantasy I'll leave in, but again, it's only a fantasy. He belongs to Rumiko Takahashi! Enjoy!
Chapter 2: Never Had a Choice
"Please, I beg you, stop!"
"Please let my son and daughter go, they're innocent children!"
(Screams)
She looked around herself, her eyes wide in fear and confusion as she looked at herself and the destruction of the village. Blood practically bathed her and her miko clothing to an almost pure red outfit, much like InuYasha's…Her eyes hardened with more tears coursing down her face, the blood heavily and slowly sliding down and gleaming on her hands. The stench itself made her insides squirm. Falling to her knees, she hugged herself, her long hair sticking to her from the blood,
"Please forgive me!" Her cry was heard by death ears. Covering her face with her hands, she thought:
What have I done…?
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Kagome shot up like a bullet from her position on her branch, her heart beating erratically as if being pulled out of her chest in a cold sweat. Her eyes wide with terror and fright, she gazed around confused as the tree's large and dense canopy above her was dense enough to keep her reasonably dry. Weary, she looked around her again, gulping at the large amount of height underneath her.
"How…did I get here?" Kagome tried to swallow down the vile rising up her throat as the dry stench of blood wreaked from her. Trembling, she slowly but surely dragged herself down from the tree and almost collapsed right on the spot when she got on her feet against solid ground; she was almost drenched immediately from the pouring rain.
She absently scrubbed at herself in vain with her bare hands; her white garment will forever be stained with all the blood of various people and victims. Eyes out of focus, she continued to run her fingers through her hair to get the blood out. It's been four years already…She thought absently as she walked on in the open along the dirt road, her stained socks and sandals now getting dirty with mud. The villagers or travelers passed her without a spare glance, but that was alright with her, her 'master' made sure to have her kill anyone she got close to. Her eyes watered almost lazily as she walked on, her face in a position that described nothing but pure helplessness. Helios…
He was the only man; the only one that she had ever met that she knew had surpassed InuYasha's beauty. Okay, maybe he wasn't considered 'beautiful', more like handsome. He had a tall frame of six foot one, towering over her 5'8" figure and with a chiseled chest, broad shoulders, a six pack, and lean muscles that could be seen with his armor and haori and hakamas, you could tell he was the kind of person to work out and be active whenever possible. He had bronze skin that would be compared to that of the stone, it shined with such a brilliance against the sun that it made Kagome think of it as dark honey. He had long deep crimson hair to his waist, tied tightly with a leather strap at the nape of his neck. His long side bangs started out crimson before trailing to orange and eventually to yellow, reaching to his chest. He had piercing violet eyes that it took Kagome's breath away, reminding her of a deep amethyst stone that her mother gave her for a present on her fourteenth birthday. He wore what look like eagle feathers on his pointy ears. The sign of a golden sun could be plainly seen on his forehead, signaling him as the Taiyoukai, or rather Taiyoukai in training of the East, the land of the rising sun.
She could still hardly believe how she had actually been able to fall in love with somebody else other than InuYasha. His charming attitude, his joking implications, his twinkling eyes, the way he would jokingly wink at her when they traveled together for five months after the first two years of her enslavement. He would always ask to know something of her: what was her favorite flower? What season did she prefer the most? What was her favorite color? What did she eat? What kind of a miko was she? Did she have any close relationships with anyone? (She's still flattered to this day of how disgruntled he looked when she had applied that she some in the past.) What was her family like? Where did she live? Did she love him like he loved her?
That one, she decided, was the one that had taken her startled.
The even mere passing implication of somebody ever loving her always gave her such an incontrollable fright that she always found herself having panic attacks. Who could love somebody like her, a person who was rumored to be the reincarnation of the powerful Kikyo, the guardian of the Shikon no Tama to easily being sedated and weakened into a mind controlled slave at random that killed people because her master was amused of it? She still hadn't found the answer.
Kagome absentmindedly traced her pale lips as she stopped for a moment, her eyes still streaming of tears taken in a dreamy look, a light blush seemed to just be lightly patted against her cheeks.
Kagome watched with wide eyes as Helios leaned down to her, only an inch away from her face. The firelight from the bon fire made him look so erotic that she had fleetingly believe that he was a fire nymph, an illusion that she had cooked up. He must have seen the doubt flicker through her eyes for he had gently clasped her chin with his soft bronze but deadly dangerous claws, she nearly lost herself within his violent purple eyes that seem draw her in, his deep and masculine voice ringing within her head,
"Don't ever doubt yourself, never. You have power, Kagome, don't you ever doubt yourself. Someone as pure and innocent as you shouldn't have such burdens." Tears slowly built up in her eyes as his other hand with his thumb stroked her smooth cheek,
"How can you be so sure? I'm not at all innocent." He stared intently at her.
"I know because of your actions. You help those who are in need even if it isn't in your benefit, you are the only miko I have known of to never turn away a youkai who was in need, even if it meant that it may turn against you when recovered, there aren't many souls out there in this world that have that much compassion, Kagome." Kagome unknowingly to herself, leaned into his slightly rough hands, her tears glistening,
"I've done things, Helios…things I wish I had never done, sometimes I think the only reason I was born was to make people suffer. I'm so tired of it, Helios…" She whimpered as he held her tightly to his chest, his armor had been taken off after taking care of a demon before it was time to find a place suitable for camp. Her tears soaking into his white and yellow haori, her quivering figure being crushed against a hard masculine body.
"Sometimes I just want to end it all…I want the pain to stop…" Kagome looked up as he brought her face off, he whispered quietly,
"Than allow me to take it away…"
Her eyes widened when she felt his lips on her own, at first, she struggled to get out of his grasp. He never gave her the chance to get away, her heart caving in; she finally let the tears go and kissed back. Oh Helios…you're too good for me…
Kagome let her hand fall limply to the side, her tears streaming down her face mixed with the rain. Looking up, she didn't flinch as the raindrops pelted against her cheeks and forehead. I'm never strong enough…and I'll never will be…
"Please Helios, run!" Helios growled frustrated at the crying Kagome as her arms very shakily tried to keep target on him, her violet eyes narrowed at her crying red glazed eyes, her face contorted with pain and sadness that it was almost wrong for such a happy beaming face to make it.
"I told you many times before, Kagome! I'm not leaving you alone! I can't let that bastard control you any more! Never!"
"P-P-Please…" She begged as she tightened the bow back, her body shaking as she tried to fight off Menomaru's spell. "I don't want to kill anymore, please make it stop, Helios…I can't stop…"
"You have to fight back, Kagome!" He cried out as he dodged the badly targeted arrow, the large oak tree collapsing when the purifying arrow went straight through its layers and out to the other side.
"You can't allow him to do this to you, Kagome! You told me that you weren't ever innocent, you're wrong! He's making you do these things, not you! If you had the choice, you wouldn't have done the things you've done! I know you long enough to know that!"
Kagome tripped clumsily over the large root as she passed one of the trees when she had entered the forest. Grunting, she fell to her knees and palms, the water trickling down her chin as the rain continued its assault against her frail body.
"Kagome, you've got to wake up!" Helios rammed her against the large valley wall, keeping her hands above her head as he kept her crushed with his body, his eyes staring deeply and defiantly into her flickering eyes.
"Fight it Kagome, you're strong. Don't let him control you."
She sat among the tip of the cliff slumped over after finally stumbling through the vast forest. Her damp hair fell over her shoulder, partially sticking to her face. Her tears continued to fall.
"I d-don't have a choice…" Kagome uttered completely helpless as she out held her hand of glowing blue energy. Helios seemed to stare pass the orb to her, his eyes sad and loving.
"You always had a choice Kagome, and you still do, you only have to come to terms with it." Kagome felt the high pitched whistle appear in her mind again, causing her flickering brown-red orbs to turn completely red.
HELIOS! NO!
"That's where you're wrong, Helios…" She whispered broken heartedly, her shoulders sagging, if possible, lower,
"I never had a choice."
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