Sweetest Goodbye...

Heartache, heartache, gotta have so much.

A simple love with a complex touch...

"Did you rape Harry?"

Such simple, blunt harsh words.

"Yes."

I sat in my chair and uncontrollably my hands curled into a tight fist. That bastard! If it weren't for the professors sitting in the room with me I would have pounded the rapist git to the ground.

As it were I couldn't. Dumbledore sat behind his desk and Snape sat between me and Blaise who was currently under the affects of Veritaserum. It's been three days since I awoke in the hospital wing in pain and confused, three days since finding out what had happened to me and three days of thinking up the worst possible ways of hurting/torturing Blaise.

"Why did you rape Harry?" Dumbledore asked in his usual calm voice his eyes dark with repressed anger.

"Because Harry's mine. I love him."

"You don't love me you bastard you don't rape people you love!" I reached over and hit Blaise in the right temple his head twisting in the opposite direction. Snape put both his hands on my shoulder and forcefully settled me back in my chair.

"I know you're angry Harry but please reframe yourself from hitting Mr. Zabini." Professor Dumbledore said. Snape remained silent. I had a feeling he didn't care how much I hit his fellow student... which in itself was weird.

I didn't answer the headmaster but settled back down to let him proceed. Dumbledore asked a few more questions, like how did he get the potion (Brewed it himself.) how long had he been planning the attack (since I had rejected him and stayed with Draco.) those type of questions. That was another thing that the bastard did, expose the relationship I had with Draco, because everything tied in together and it wouldn't have made sense if my past relationship with Draco didn't come into play. I underestimated Blaise and now I was paying the price.

"Since we cannot send a minor to Azkaban, I hereby ban you from the wizarding world and will have your wand broken. If you are caught in any magical town or store you will be thrown into Azkaban regardless of the rules." Dumbledore said solemnly and took Blaise's wand away from him.

I still wanted to hurt him, and felt no pity that he was being cast out of our world. Let Blaise live the rest of his days as a muggle and hopefully get the same treatment he had bestowed on me.

I watched as Snape wrapped his hand around Blaise's arm and stood him up, I guess he was in shock, his face sure showed it. The slytherin took a step towards the door being forced by Snape and stopped, turned to me and opened his mouth.

"I love you and this is what you do to me! Malfoy doesn't love you, can't you see Harry he's using you! No-one can love you like I do!" He screamed half-crazed.

"You don't love me!"

"I do love you!! And you love me I know it!"

Not being able to contain myself anymore I jumped up and punched Blaise again in the face with all the energy I could muster. "I don't love you! I don't, get it through your head! I DON'T LOVE YOU!!" Snape held me back from hurting Blaise anymore. The boy was nursing a bruised jaw and eye, but I still wanted to wound him.

Snape struggled to sit me down. "Calm down Potter. He got his punishment now let him live with it." He said almost gently to me. But damn him, it wasn't enough! Blaise raped me or didn't Snape get it? It wasn't a simple prank I could walk away from. He raped me!

But I settled down and remained in the chair watching as Snape led Blaise out of the room. I don't know long I stared at the closed door before I turned back to the headmaster who was staring at me concerned, none of the pervious anger there.

"Harry-"

I cut him off though before he went into his sympathy speech. "Is that all headmaster?" He nodded but I knew he wanted to say something more. "May I go?" Dumbledore nodded again and I made a hasty exit.

I was still furious as I made my way back to the common room. Classes were going on and I was thankful for it because I didn't want to deal with anyone... Right now I couldn't fake being ok. But as I neared the gryffindor common room a hand grabbed me by my waist. I knew who it was but that didn't stop my instinct to have my wand pointed at the throat of the person.

"Tense much?" Draco greeted me in his usual arrogant way.

"Not in the mood."

His expression changed quickly and became worried. But I didn't want him to be worried... I didn't want him to care. It would make it so much easier for me to let him go if he didn't care about me.

"Are you ok?'

"Peachy, this is just one other thing that comes with being Harry-fucking-Potter right? Just one more thing to deal with, like ever other time I'm suppose to get up and brush my shoulders off. No worries!" I said heatedly not being able to take it any more.

Draco took a step forward grabbing my hand. "Calm down Harry."

I jerked my hand back and glared at him. "I wish everyone would stop telling me to calm down! I'm not calm! How can I be when everything in life is fucked up?! I'm sick of being controlled."

"You're not controlled." He said quietly.

"Oh really... The Dursley's sure did one hell of job on me. Voldemort, don't flinch its a fucking name, not a curse. Dumbledore... You."

"I never controlled you."

"To a certain extent you did. And I'm sick of people controlling my life." I ended quietly. Slowly I slide down to the floor and sat down bowing my head between my legs. "I was raped... used but that's nothing new right?" I looked up to stare at Draco.

The blonde looked sad and so lost like he didn't know what to do. Did he want to be here with me or did he feel obligated somehow to be here? Before I could voice my thought he knelt by me and grabbed my face gently.

"The bastard deserves a painful death for what he did to you." He growled softly running his thumb tenderly down my cheek.

"Don't do this to me Draco."

"I'm not doing anything." He said but moved closer.

"Draco I-" Before anything could be said the slytherin closed the space between us and his lips found mine in a soft, slow kiss.

A/n- Told you, you wouldn't have to wait a long time for a new chapter. Ok so what did you think of it..... Good, bad, ok.

Well don't know when the next update is going to be. This week is going to be hell so I don't know when I'm going to find time to sit and write but I hope this ties you over.

I'm off to bed!

Until next time loves.

CIAO