Chapter dedicated to silver emerald eyes.I read your review in a moment when I was feeling really down but you made me smile. So thank you and this one is for you.

A Thousand Apologies...

Just say when
And you'll stop the pain
Of your life
Bring it to an end
Just say when
And you could make amends
Just say hello, say hello again

It had been three days since my talk with Draco, three days of being ignored by him, three days spent in despondency. But it's what I wanted right? To have him treat me like any other student. Let me think... NO! It was hell having Draco ignore me like I was no one, but I couldn't let anything happen to him. Was it self-centered, damn right it was! But it would have been more selfish on my part to continue being with him when I knew something bad was going to happen to him.

I was sitting with Ron in the library, we were doing our divination's homework which meant we were trying to come up with the most horrific deaths possible! I was surprised when Ron looked up and quickly turned to me.

"Malfoy's coming this way." He said before lowering his head again to look at his half-completed homework.

Before I could respond or react an all to familiar voice spoke quietly. "Harry can I talk to you?" I looked up and sure enough there was Draco standing before me, though his eyes were not meeting mine.

I looked back to Ron and for the moment was taken aback by his behavior. The usual Ron behavior would be to look up glaring make some biting remark, tell Draco to piss off and turn red in the face when Draco made his own biting remark. But that's not how it happened and I was well aware of it. I was still wondering what had changed between them when Draco called my name again.

"Yeah ok." I stood leaving my things behind and followed him to the back where we sat in a more secluded part of the library.

We sat down, he on one side of the table and I across him. I waited for him to start talking, he was the one to ask me to talk so he must want to tell me something. But the five seconds stretched to ten seconds.

fifteen seconds...

twenty seconds....

twenty-five seconds...

I was about to break the uneasy silence when he beat me to it. "I'm sorry." He said still not meeting my eyes.

Now that puzzled me. What was he sorry for? "What for?" I asked him and he looked up.

"For hitting you." Draco said with difficulty, a slight pink tinge flushing his cheeks.

"Oh." Was all I said quietly. "Don't be... I shouldn't have said... Well I shouldn't have said that. It was mean."

"It was more then mean." He pointed out.

"OK harsh."

"More then harsh." The slytherin said but with a hint of teasing in his voice.

"Don't push it Dray." He smirked mischievously before becoming cheerless again.

"Still I said I'd never hit you again and I did-"

"Because I pushed you to it. Really it's fine." And it was. I held nothing against Draco, didn't know if I could.

We sat in silence for another minute. I started wondering if Ron would leave when Draco spoke. "How come you don't want to be with me?"

I was taken aback by the question. "I-I never said that."

His gray eyes bore into mine. "You didn't have too."

"I had to do what needed to be done. There could never be an 'us' and you know it."

"Why?"

"Your father."

"I'm my own person Harry. Don't use him as an excuse."

"Voldemort."

"Same-"

I cut off his tirade before he could finish. "Completely different. Hypnotically speaking here let's say we outed our selves as a couple, do you know how fast Voldemort would want to capture you, if only to use you as bait for me. And he would use as bait. And I've had enough people die for me, I don't want another person to be added to that list."

He sat back taking everything in. "So basically you're too scared to be with me."

I glared back at Draco who stared back rebelliously. "I'm not scared!" I hissed loudly but stopped looking around to make sure no-one had heard me. "Didn't you listen to a word I just said, I don't want you to die, I don't need some else on that list for me."

Draco simply stared back at me. "You don't want to be with me because you're too scared of the risk." He said obstinately all of my words falling on deaf ears.

In that moment I wanted to yell, curse and rant at him! How dare he say that!? I wasn't scared, I would have given anything to be with him! The bastard should be thanking me for saving his hide! But as if someone had punctured a hole in my balloon the anger and fight went out of me. I sat back as well and with a quiet sigh I nodded slowly.

"Yeah you're right Draco. I'm too scared to be with you." I said before standing up and walking back to Ron who was in fact still there but hadn't gotten much done in my absent.

He looked up. "What'd he want?"

"Nothing." I said quietly pulling my unfinished homework towards me.

"Homework is due this Friday. Do well to remember that Longbottom." Snape said sharply as the gryffindor/slytherin potion's class prepared to leave. "Potter stay behind."

Inwardly groaning I wondered what I had done now to piss the man off, which thinking about it just about everything I did pissed Snape off. I watched the others silently file out of the class and when the door shut I stood and waited for Snape to say what he wanted so I could leave. As predicted he ignored me as he organized the papers on his desk. Sometimes I wondered if he forgot that I had other classes to attend. Finally he looked up at me and I was surprised to see something akin to concern in his eyes.

"How are you holding up Potter?" Snape said, he tried sounding indifferent but I could definitely detect concern in his voice.

It took a lot of will power to not reach out and feel his forehead instead I settled for asking. "Are you feeling alright professor?"

He scowled at me. "Potter stop being a prat, I was merely asking you a question." Oh yeah he was perfectly alright.

"I'm fine sir." I said bowing my head slightly because I knew what he was talking about and it wasn't about my health.

An awkward silence settled between us. We had been nothing but hostile to each other since my first year so Snape, of all people, being worried for me was a bit overwhelming to say in the least. Snape cleared his throat and I looked up to find him staring back at me. He looked like he wanted to say something else but couldn't get it out.

I wait and finally... "Get to class Potter, you're already ten minutes late."

"Yes sir."

I walked out dungeon slowly making my way out of the castle and to where Hagrid's class was. I didn't know how to put it in words but I felt oddly comforted by Snape's concern.

Maybe we both were going crazy after all.

A/n- Ah another chapter done. And really I never knew this story was going to come out like this... But I can't say that I'm not happy about it. Well moving on what did everyone think of it?

Was the fight between Harry and Draco good? What about the little talk between Harry and Snape.... It was really hard to write by the way.

Next chapter will be out god knows when... I'm focusing on Wonder what's next and Love Forbidden at the moment. And school.... I think I've been slacking off lately and I don't want to mess up my last year. And not to mention all the college stuff is driving me up all the wall!!!!

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