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Chapter 10:

Crying, more nightmares, and a search party

The Next morning at breakfast, the four friends were sitting at the gryffindor table discussing their schedules because they had all gotten new schedules for the 2nd month of school. Ginny looked at her schedule, she was the only one who wasn't taking divinaton, and was taking Care of Magical Creatures. She smiled to herself, knowing that Hagrid would be happy to see her. She leaned over to the other three and said

"Hagrid won't be too happy when he finds out that his three favorite students aren't in his class this year." She said with a grin.

"I know, but I just couldn't fit it into my schedule!"

"Hemione, you can barely even fit eating and sleeping into your schedule, let alone a class that doesn't teach you anythihng besides not to insult a hippogriff."

"Shut it Ron."

Ron blushed and turned back to his transfiguration essay. He tried to concentrate, but the work was sooo utterly confusing that he just put his head in his hands and started mumnling incoherantly. He wanted hermione's help, but she never had the time to help, even during the breaks that they had three times a day. He pulled out his divination homework, which was to descibe 3 of his latest dreams. He wasn't sure if he wanted to share his latest dreams, although he thought that the dream he and Hermione had shared that one night. He had already made up a quiddtch dream and a getting rich dream. He thought that he should at least supply Trelawney with a true dream.

"Ron, what are you wrinting about?" Ginny asked, trying to see his paper.

He snatched it away and then decided to bail it. He stuffed his paper and quill into his bag and walked toward the charms classroom. Hermione took off after him, but turned around for a second.

"See you later Gin!"

"bye"

Ginny started to head for the great oak front doors. Harry caught up with her and grabbed her hand. He spun her around and kissed her quickly. She smiled a small smile and then started to turn around again.

"Ginny, it will be just fine! Don't worry!I'll see you in potions later, k?"

"ok, see ya" Ginny said, looking down at her shoes.

She arrived at Hagrid's and saw that she was one of about 25 students, and that was from both Gryffindor and Slytherin houses. She looked around and spotted Hagrid heading her way. She knew that she would have to put on a brave face and forget about the nightmare temporarily.

She found that she wasn't very good on not concentraring on the nigtmare. She was doing the simple task of collecting puffskins that had gotten caught in the branches of some trees by the forest. She had dropped at least 10 and she had almost fallen off her ladder. She climbed down at the end of class and tried not to run as she made her way up to the castle. She had scrapes all over her hands and she wasn't feeling very good at all. She decided to go see madame pomfrey about both things.

She reached the fourth floor and headed into the haspital wing. She went up to madame pomfrey, who waved her wand, healing her hands in 3 seconds. She felt so depressed, she decided that she couln't go down to the gloomy dungeons today. She went up to the gryffindor tower. She entered the common room, ran up to her dormitory and flopped down on her bed. She started to cry again, the tears soaking her pillow. She fell asleep, her hair wet from her tears,and her eyes puffy and red.

Meanwhile: in Potions

"NO! Harry, don't go using that book again! You are supposed to be testing your knowledge, not some other students!" Hermione said, glaring at harry.

" She is right you know."

"not you too! Ron, you are supposed to be on my side!"

"harry, this is not going to be good." Ron said skeptically.

Harry looked to his left, where he knew his girlfriend would be, willing to plead his case. He noticed that the seat next to him was empty. His stomach did a backflip. 'Where is she?' he asked him self, looking around for her, hoping that she could make it to class.

"Have you two seen Ginny anywhere?" he asked, looking at Ron and Hermione.

"No...I haven't...where is she?" Hermione asked, looking around as harry had done.

"If my sister is skipping class, she better have a good reason!" Ron mumbled, crossing his arms, obviously jealous that Ginny wasn't having to work on her 'Reduction Potion'. Hermione decided that she needed to go find ginny, so she made an exscuse that she had to use the restroom and headed up to the 7th floor as fast as she could. She ran up to the dormitory and found Ginny lying asleep on her bed, but she was tossing and turning as if she was having another nightmare.

Ginny couldn't believe that her husband was going to pass away so young. She sat next to him in his room, holding onto his hand tightly. The magical moniters were showing very little heart beats. She didn't want to look at them, she knew that she would be crying forever. After sitting with harry for 4 hours, she heard the long lound beep that meant ...well, she wasn't ready to admit to herself what it meant. She just started bawling and put her hand on his face. She stood up, leaned over, and gave him one last kiss before apparating back to the safe house. She didn't want to face anyone, so she apparated into her room. She looked around. She had decorated it a few years ago when voledmort had started looking for harry and her. It had pictures all over, pictures of madeline (mad- e- line, like the little french redhead) when she was born, pictures from the wedding of her and harry, and of Ron and hermione. She looked at the pictures that she had snapped of their family a few months ago, before madeline was born,when they had visited france to see bill, fluer and their 3 kids.

Three days later, she was still crying her eyes out. She decided to stop thinking about harry for a day or two and think about madeline and her parents. She put on a white peasant top and a floor-length balck jean skirt. She pulled her hair back and applied mascara and lip gloss. She walked down to where her mother was sitting in a easy chair, wiping her eyes with a hankerchief and rocking madeline to sleep. Ginny took a deep breath and walked into the room.

Molly Weasley looked up to see her youngest child , looking very sad, but happy at the same time.

"mum...oh mum!" Ginny said as she sat down next to her mother and buried her face in her hands.

Molly wiped her eyes and set the baby girl down in her bassinet. She put her arms around Ginny and kissed the top of her head.

"Dear, i know how hard this is for you, we all loved harry very much so. I hope that life will be able to go on."

Ginny looked up at her mum and then looked over at the bassinet and smiled.

"I need to hold madeline." Ginny said, and went over to pick up her daughter.

Madeline looked up at her mother and smiled. Ginny kissed her daughter and smiled at her own mother.

"Harry really wanted to see her grow up." Ginny said with a small sigh.

"I think that he would be very happy if -"

All of the sudden there was a loud scream and Ginny heard a voice yelling, in a terrible voice.

"WHERE IS GINNY POTTER? SHE NOW MUST PAY ALSO!"

Ginny scrabled to her feet and grasped her daughter close to her. She ran up the stairs and got a glance of the scene outside. There were at least 12 death eathers standing outside. She kept running. She tripped again, but this time it was on the stairs. She heard a tapestry being ripped and spun around. There he was. Ginny's scream was stuck in her throat. Voldemort smiled down at her, but it was more of a maniacal smile than anything else. She stood up and gritted her teeth,. holding madeline even closer.

"You.. are...a ..monster...you..will..never...be great."

"oh, do you think so? i myself see killing harry potter's wife and only heir very great!"

" Never! I will never surrender!"

Voldemort laughed, a high, eirie laugh and stepped closer to Ginny. just as he was about to pull out his wand, Ginny heard her father yell

"Expeliarimus!"

Voldemort's wand went flying, right into Ginny's hand.All of the sudden a sharp pain when shooting through Ginny again. She got one glipse of her mother and father fall before she went into blackness.

Ginny woke up to hermione shaking her and looking worried.

"Ginny! what's wrong? you look so scared!"

"Oh..Hermione! I was! "Ginny said, sobbing anew.

Hermione put her arm around ginny and looked her right in the eye.

"Tell me what your dream was about ginny." hermione said calmly.

Ginny looked at Hermione, took a deep breath and started the story.

"ok, well, you see, this dream, well, you know about it, but it was a continuation. Harry died and then I was with my mom and daughter when voldeemort attacked the safe house! He and I were kind of fighting, then he lost his wand, then i was hit by crucio, last thing that happened was that my parents fell to the ground and then my vision went black!" Ginny managed to say all of that before she continued to cry.

"Ginny, I know that Dumbledore said that love was the most powerful magic against you know who, but I think that these dreams are saying something else, we know you have the love, but something else must be wrong."

"What though?"

"I'm not sure, but I will figure it out, i'll talk to Dumbledore about it too."

"thanks mione...why are you not in potions?"

"i needed to find out where you had gone off to." hermione said, giving Ginny a hug.

"class ends in about...2 minutes...and its a break time...so the boys will be up here...do you feel like talking to harry?"

"umm...not right away hermione...i think I need to be by myself awhile first. I'll be behind the tapestry that is right to the left of the protrait hole, you know, the one we put secret stuff in last year...is the security password the same?"

"yeah, its still 'gryffindor girls rule' "

Ginny hopped off her bed, grabbed ger diary and Lily's diary and a quill and headed to the secret chamber. Once she was inside, she plopped down on the couch that was there and opened up Lily's diary again.

January 5th

Dear diary,

i have decided to write all of my entires in cursive now, since my cursive is rather appaling and no boy, especially james potter, will be able to read what I have writtem. i have found another clue to my past. I have this heart locket that I wear arond my neck. It has the year I was born engraved on the front, but i have never been able to open it. I tried a ton of spells, but nothing would work. I finally had to nitch Sirius Black's lock picking set and got it to open. In the inside it shows me as a baby, smiling and...well, the picture was from the wizarding word bacuse it was moving! I know that i shouldn't be all that excited about it, I am already 15 years old. I know that I must have been born into a wizarding family...but does that mean that I am not lily Evans after all? I might be Lily Tyler for all I know! ifeel very lsot right now! I have to go... I'm meeting my blind date in one half hour on the front lawn and I still have to fix my hair. It was so nice of Denise to set this up for me! Maybe its...well, I don't think that I am quite ready to allow myself to write the name of the guy I like yet. More later.

Later

ohhhh! i just had the best blind date ever! I had made this deal that we would both have to wear blindflolds around, but we wouldn't walk anywhere, so ewe wouldn't hit stuff. We talked the wholw time! It is my new goal to find out who he was! I think that I am going to have Denise set up another date, but this one without the blindfolds! Can you believe that this guy us so perfect? I almost couldn't myself! He kissed me at the end of the date, and let me tell you it was the best kiss of my life! I will write more tomorrow, I am sooo tired tomight!

Lily Evans?

Ginny shut the diary and closed her eyes. She sometimes thought that she and lily had so much in common, today was one of those times. She and lily both had red hair, they both didnt' want to admit the guy they liked at first, They both had the love of their life murdered by voldemort (well, Ginny's dreams were the only things that were telling her that that would come true.) Ginny got up,leaving both diaries behind her.

She went back into the common room, where the rest of the sixth year gryffindors was lounging. She looked around and spotted Hermione, Ron, and Harry working on Divination homework. She wasn't feeling up to hanging out in a group right at the moment, so she went upstairs, grabbed one of her novels and sat down to read. She was glad she had chosen the one she had. She loved this muggle novel that hermione had lent her, called "the notebook". She was deeply immersed in her reading when she felt someone sit down beside her. she looked over and saw that Parvati was sitting there.

"So...Ginny, whats up? you look depressed!"

Ginny didn't answer, parvati was very annoying someitmes, and Ginny just wanted to read her book in peace.

"i'm going outside, to the quidditch stadium, so I can read in peace." Ginny said, and walked out the portrait hole.

She stepped into the rain outside and put her hood up, running to the quidditch pitch. She climbed up into the stands, under the shelter of the overhang and opened her book up again. She started crying at the end like she always did, and found that she was happy to be crying about something else for a change. She wiped her eyes and sat back against the stands. She was cold, but she was content. She looked out on the pitch and saw a person coming through the gates. The person had a broom and took off into the air. they took off around the stadium. Ginny watched the person coming towards where she was sitting and she picked up her book, pretending to be fully occupied. She didn't notice the person land on the stands, nor did she hear the person come up behind her. When Ginny felt a hand on her shoulder, she was scared.

"Get Away!" She screamed , scooting towards the edge of the stands.

" huh? Gin, its only me!"

Ginny looked up and into her brothers blue eyes. She sighed.

"Sorry Ron, i was just scared, thats all."

"Ginny, what the bloody hell are you doing up here in the pouring rain?"

"Don't swear, and for your information, i was jsut taking some time to be alone and read."

"you had that time when you weren't in potions."

"ron...i wasn't reading then." Ginny sniffed and sank down. She didn't want to tell ron.

"Ginny, i am your older brother, you need to tell me what's wrong."

Ginny turned away from Ron and started to cry, but only a few tears. She stood up and started down the stairs. Ron caught up with her.

"I was looking for you, everyone is! You dissapeared, and nobody knew where you went!"

"Parvati knew."

"Really? She said that too, but she wouldn't tell us where."

"oh."

"Come back up to the castle gin, Harry is so worried about you, we all are acctually."

"Why should I, I won't be a very amiable party guest."

"well, i suppose you could stay here, but it is pouring down rain! just be back soon! We have Transfiguration in ten minutes, if you forgot."

"oh...I guess i'll have to back then. i probably look a total wreck."

Ron shrugged and hopped on his broom. Ginny hopped on behind him and the two of them sped off towards the outside balcony of the seventh floor.They dismounted the broom and walked into the common room. Ginny had her hood up still, so nobody noticed her as she walked through the room full of worried looking people to her dormitory. As she reached the third step she heard harry's worried voice.

"Has anyone seen her?"

"Yeah...she...she was right there a minute ago!" Ron said, looking around.

"Are you sure?"

"yeah!"

Ginny turned around and started back down the stairs. She snuck back through the people until she was in a spot where, if you looked hard enough, you could find her. She put down her hood and looked around. She saw that Harry and Ron were both headed out of the portrait whole, saying that they were going to check the corridor. Hermione spotted Ginny and rushed over. "Ginny! Where have you been? I went into the room, but you weren't there.You look a fright! Are you alright? You left these in there."

Ginny took the diaries out of Hermione's hands and then looked at Hermione.

"I needed to be alone... I guess that it was too much for me. I am so depressed right now, i just like to be alone."

"I could understand being depressed about the dreams, and all of the stress being thrust at your face. I jsut would like to know where you are, I know that you aren't suicidal, but you need to be around people, so that you can forget about everything."

Ginny smiled a small smile and then asked for a mirror. She cleared up her face just fine, but her eyes were still a bit red. She decided to go out into the corridor to try to relieve Harry and Ron of their search party duties.