Chapter Four: Gotta Try Harder...

Author's Note:

Chapter Four: Gotta Try Harder... features a song that I wrote called "Gotta Try Harder..." It's basically supposed to be about my current life, but, it fits well with the the chapter's plot. Until Chapter Five: What's Your Name? (Featuring Jesse McCartney's "What's Your Name?"), see ya! Please read and review! ;-)

-CelestialTime93

Inez took a deep breath. She hit behind a wall as Matt stepped out of his room.

"Okay, don't let him out of your sight!" Inez hissed at herself. She then casually walked out of the wall, and into the turn of the halls, and accidently bumped into Matt. That was unexpected.

My mother always told me to fend for myself
Is it really that easy to tell
Whether it's hard
Whether it's easy
If I see how I see it
It's gonna be breezy
But then there are sometimes when I don't think it's enough
I gotta try harder
Let's see what I've got!

"Oh, good morning!" Inez smiled, "I'm off shift, is it okay if I hang out with you for the next two days. It's my vacation."

"You just said you were off shift." Matt said suspiciously.

"Oh!" Inez exclaimed sheepishly, "Sorry 'bout that. I'm just a little nervous. My first vacation for two whole days!"

"Oh, okay." Matt nodded, "I'm just gonna explore the city, wanna tag along?"

"Sure." Inez smiled. If only Matt knew that it was really her.

I keep trying
I keep getting pushed away
I try harder
Harder every day
Is it enough?
Is it too much?
Well there's no such thing
Just gotta try harder

I keep walking
I keep stumblin'
I try harder
Harder every day
Is it enough?
Is it too much?
Well there's no such thing
Just gotta try harder
Oh, yeah

Inez felt like her legs were rubber when she and Matt stepped out of the hotel and onto the sidewalks of Boston. Her first assignment just had to be Matt! Out of all people! Where was Jackie? Just when she needed her!

What was the use? Inez refused to tell anybody her name. Not even a fake one! She'll probably just agree with Matt.

Speaking of Jackie, she joined the two after a mad run.

"I'm so sorry I'm late!" Jackie huffed. Then, she noticed Inez. "The maid's tagging along?"

"Two day vacation." Matt explained, "She asked if she could tag along for the next two days and I said yes."

"Well, that'll give us some time to know each other more!" Jackie smiled.

"Yeah..." Inez said quietly. But she already knew about the two. They were her best friends.

Being an angel undercover, wasn't easy. Then again, it never was.

Of all the things that I could've had
Like popularity for the best
I just had to wind up in the worst
Now what's next?
I feel I'm gonna
Burst into a million pieces
My head is blowing
I feel like fusing
But, I gotta calm down
And gotta try harder

Inez kept a close eye on her friends/double assignments. Just how was Matt going to commit suicide? Stab a knife into his body? Shoot a gun towards him? Take an overdose of a drug?

Then, it hit her. Drown himself. The skating rink was where it all began. Was Matt that desperate?

For one thing, Inez couldn't let that happen. She had to try harder!

I keep trying
I keep getting pushed away
I try harder
Harder every day
Is it enough?
Is it too much?
Well there's no such thing
Just gotta try harder

I keep walking
I keep stumblin'
I try harder
Harder every day
Is it enough?
Is it too much?
Well there's no such thing
Just gotta try harder
Oh, yeah

Throughout the day, she would hear the discussions between Matt and Jackie. Sometimes arguments over small things, other times, it was just plain old friendship talk. Inez wished to be a part of it. If only they knew who she really was. But, that wasn't supposed to happen. Whenever they asked, she would always have an excuse prepared.

It's not really me
Why should I be
Myself when all you do is tease me?
Is it just a game?
Or are you doing this for fame?
Either way
It won't work
Your chance is gone
And I gotta try harder

Occasionally, Matt and Jackie would include Inez in the conversations. Sometimes, Matt would talk about Inez before she died. Like how he teased her, and how they were friends. In a group of three. Inseperable. Although, Inez got a bit irritated whenever Matt mentioned the nickname that he used to call her; Nezzie. But, she knew. She had to pay attention, act like a totally different person, keep her hair up; no matter how annoying it was to her head, and keep on trying harder to prevent the suicidal accident. She only had one and a half days left!

I keep trying
I keep getting pushed away
I try harder
Harder every day
Is it enough?
Is it too much?
Well there's no such thing
Just gotta try harder

I keep walking
I keep stumblin'
I try harder
Harder every day
Is it enough?
Is it too much?
Well there's no such thing
Just gotta try harder
Oh, yeah

Finally, the day had ended, and the three had decided to do a indoor camp out in Matt's room. They set up blankets over chairs and ropes tied from one end of the room to the other. The lights were turned off, they brought their sleeping bags, treats to eat, and activities to play. And of course, they brought flashlights. It wasn't until during one of the activities that made Inez nervous.

Well there's no such thing
Just gotta try harder
Oh, yeah