Altimiran Crimson

A ToS fanfic by Xysti

Disclaimer: I do not own ToS or any of its characters.

I hope you'll forgive me for what I've done.

I am sorry I left you, but life was too hard.

Everyone expecting so much…

I vomited into the bucket crammed in my face. It was painful, but I was losing consciousness far slower than Regal. After a few more bottles, Regal collapsed and I collected my reward. After badgering patrons for their bets, I trudged up the stairs to my bedroom. I was so tired that I fell into a deep sleep the moment my head touched the pillow.

I woke up at about three in the morning with a searing pain in my head. How much did I drink last night? I got up rather groggily and dizzily made my way to the toilet. I opened the door, and Zelos Wilder was leaning against the far wall, his throat and wrists slit, and with his stiletto in his chest. He had a content grin on his face, and his glossy eyes stared up to the blood on the low ceiling. His blood pooled around his limp body. I knew it- Zelos was dead. I just stood there, forgetting entirely the hot fluid running down my legs. I collapsed, and the last thing I remembered was pearly liquid- I realized it was my tears- mixed with Zelos' lifeblood.

…Of the Chosen.

Seles, if you read this, know that I know you don't love me.

But if it is the last thing you do, I bear you to…

Someone knocked on my door. My head jerked up, and I hurriedly made my way to the portal. I wrenched it open, and on the other side Genis was standing. He said, with a grin on his face, "Hiya, Lloyd! We were wonderin- WHY ARE YOU COVERED IN BLOOD?" I looked down and saw my nightshirt dyed crimson. At that moment, the previous night's events came rushing back to me. "Z-Zelos…" I stammered, not able to grasp the words. Genis, with a scared and confused look, said, "What? What happened to Zelos, Lloyd?" I took a deep breath and said, "Z-Zelos… in the ba-bathroom… blood…" and Genis, with a perplexed look, said, "Lemme see. I think you're still drunk." And walked to the lavatory. When he drew level with Zelos' body, he shouted, "OH MARTEL!" and ran out of the room's door. I just looked at Zelos' corpse and sat down on my bed, my head in my hands, all the while tears flowed freely.

…Love me. I know you never had any love towards me,

but for the sake of my memory, please start.

You're the Chosen now, I am sorry for putting you up to the task so soon.

Although there is something you should know…