"Hun, are you coming down for dinner?" Her mother said standing at the bottom of the stairs.
"Uh… No mom I changed my mind, I'm not very hungry. I'm just going to sit up here and see if I can come up with a song. I'll get something later okay?" she said not wanting her mother to worry more then she already was.
"Oh. Okay Hun just make sure you get something later…" her mother said walking off.
"Okay."
Jude had spent all night trying to get this song out that was inside her head. She thought she had finally got it right.
Why? Why can't I breathe? Why can't I breathe without you? You, you make me feel. So lost without you.
She hated to sing about him but it was all she could think about. Next thing she knew it was 2 a.m. She had a big meeting with Tommy in the morning at G Major and she had to get some sleep. She knew she would sleep anyway but she had to try.
The next morning Jude walked into G Major with her guitar in her hand. She hadn't gotten much sleep last night and she was hoping he wasn't going to yell at her too much today.
"Hey." Jude said to Tommy walking into the studio.
"Hey, what's up?" Tommy said a slight smile on his face.
"Oh, nothing. I finished that song you wanted me to write. I sat up all night doing it."
Tommy could see that Jude was avoiding eye contact. This worried him.
"Oh, well let's hear it."
Jude went into the studio and sat on the stool right in front of the microphone. She took a deep breath as she started to play.
My mind is so confused…
I feel out of breath
Like I'm being choked
Choked to death
My heart was so tattered and used
Why? Why cant I
Why can't I breathe without you?
You, you make me feel
You make me feel
So lost without you
She finished her song with a slight smile on her face. Tommy had that same smile, too.
"That was really good, Jude." He said crossing his arms.
"Thanks." She said playing with her guitar strap.
Jude was still upset from the fight they had last night. She tried to avoid as much eye contact with him as possible. But she knew that if she didn't look at him at all, he would ask her what was wrong. She looked into his deep blue eyes and she could get lost forever.
"Jude?"
She snapped out of her trance.
"Huh?"
"I was asking you if you wanted to record it today, or just wait until tomorrow. You look a little tired. Maybe you should go home and get some rest and we'll finish up tomorrow."
Tommy knew she hadn't slept well. He felt so bad for leaving like he did but what else could he do? She wasn't going to talk to him. He just wished he knew what was wrong with her.
"Yeah, I guess I could use some rest. I'll see you later then."
Tommy didn't answer. He kept staring at Jude as if she had two heads. He just could stop looking into her beautiful eyes.
"Huh? Oh okay. See you later."
Jude left the room as Tommy slapped his forehead with his palm.
"Stupid!" He felt like an idiot.
It was later in the afternoon and Jude was sitting in her room with her notebook in her hand (like usual).
She couldn't write anything. She was too tired. But she had so many things on her mind she wanted to get out. She finally gave up and lay down on her bed and thought she could get in an hour or two of sleep before she went down and got something to eat. Her mom and Sadie went out of town and her dad no longer lived with them. He was probably somewhere with Yvette.
It turned out Jude had fallen asleep for more then four hours now and it was around 10 o'clock. She was dreaming about Tommy. In her dream they were in his car driving down the road having a good time and listening to music. Tommy suddenly turned to her and whispered into her ear "I never meant to hurt you" that sounded familiar. It was what Tommy had said to her the other night. What did this mean? The next thing she knew her lips were pressed against his.
Jude woke up startled. She couldn't believe she what she was dreaming. She was about ready to lay back down when she heard rocks hitting her window.
She looked down and saw Tommy mouthing the words "Can we talk?" Jude nodded as she put on her sweatshirt and went to meet him outside.
"What's up?" she said still rubbing her eyes.
"Do you want to go for a ride? Or will your mom get mad?"
Tommy had this look on his face that he had been thinking hard about something.
"She's not home. She went out of town for the weekend with Sadie. They went shopping or something and I didn't want to go with them."
"Oh, okay. Do you want to go?"
"Sure. Let me just lock up the house."
She went and grabbed her keys, locked the door, and went out to meet Tommy.
"Where do you want to go?"
"I want to show you something."
Tommy had a slight smile on his face.
"O-Okay." she said her voice a little shaky.
Jude was a little worried, but she trusted Tommy, so she went.