The next thing she knew she was riding in Tommy's car on a highway she had never seen before.
"Tommy, we've been riding a while, where are you taking me?"
"Just wait, we're almost there."
She was scared because this was turning out to be more and more like her dream. Tommy then pulled into this woodsy part on the side of the road and pulled through the trees. He stopped the car and shut the engine off. He then got out.
"Well, we're here. Aren't you going to get out?"
Jude got out to see what Tommy was showing her. It was a lookout of the entire city. It was beautiful. She was amazed at what she saw.
"Tommy, thi-this is so beautiful. How did you find this place?"
"This is where I come to think, when something's really bothering me. Do you like it?"
"Yeah, I really do. You can see everything. Thank you for taking me here."
"No problem."
Tommy's voice was different. More soft, more tender. Something was bothering him.
"What's wrong, Tommy? Did you want to talk to me about something?"
Jude could tell he was worried.
"Well… yeah I did. Listen Jude, about the other night…"
"Don't worry about it. I just got too emotional is all. I didn't mean to flip out. I'm sorry."
"No, you had every right to be mad. I hurt you. I was supposed to be the one person that didn't, and I did. I'm so sorry, Jude."
Jude's eyes were getting welled up with tears but she held them back.
"I just-"
"You what?"
"I cared about you Tommy. And I still do. I always have. I just don't know what to do anymore. "
Jude was shivering now even though it wasn't very cold out and she had a sweatshirt on.
"You're cold…here." Tommy took his jacket off and put it on her shoulders, but her shivering still didn't go away.
"Thanks."
"Jude, believe me, I didn't mean for all this to happen. You are a really good person and you don't deserve all of this. Especially from me. I just wish that we could be friends again."
Jude could tell Tommy was being serious because he was looking right into her eyes.
"We can, you know? We can put all of this behind us, if you want."
Tommy's eyes lit up when she said that.
"Really? You want to go back to being friends, before all this happened?" he said turning to her with his hands in his pockets.
"Yeah, I mean, if you want to." She looked at him as her eyes lit up, seeing his excitement.
"Yeah, I miss that." He turned away from her again.
"Well, it's settled then. I missed you Tommy."
"I missed you too, Jude."
Jude smiled for the first time in a while. She was happy to have Tommy back in her life. even if it wasn't the way she wanted him to be. They sat there just talking for a good hour and then Tommy drove her back to her house to get some rest.
"Well, good night, Jude. I had fun."
"Me too. Good night, Tommy."
Jude walked up to her door and waved goodbye to him before entering the house. She was happy, not as happy as she should be, but she was happy. She went into the kitchen and made a sandwich, then went to bed.
The next day Tommy had called her into the studio to record the new song she wrote. Her mom and Sadie weren't back from their trip yet. She just left them a note and left for G Major.
She walked in and greeted Georgia. She was smiling, which was unusual for Jude lately.
"Hey kiddo. How ya doin' today?"
"Pretty good. Got more sleep last night. Which is good. How about you?"
"Oh alright as I am gonna be. I listened to your song you wrote. Very powerful. Where did the inspiration come from?"
"Oh, you know me. Do I ever know where anything that I write in my songs comes from? Besides the heart."
"Oh, yeah. And you have a big one. Well I gotta go, catch ya later, kiddo."
"Bye, Georgia."
Jude walked into the studio and a smile formed onto her face when she saw Tommy. He was sitting at the mixing board listening to her track and writing things down. He turned and smiled too when he saw her.
"Hey, girl."
"Hey, Tommy. How are you?"
"Pretty good, just prepping you for recording. I just have a few suggestions, is that okay?"
"Yeah, sure, shoot."
Jude sat down in the chair and scooted closer to him. She wasn't so uncomfortable now. She looked at him and listened.
"Well on your chorus, I think that you should add a little more energy to it, I don't know if the reason it sounded a little weak was because you were so tired yesterday or what. But that's all the suggestions I have." he said tossing the notebook on the desk behind them and folded his arms.
"Ok, sounds good." she said as she went into the room and sat down on the stool, no guitar in hand today.
"Okay, so just start out from the beginning." he said as he put the headphones on. She did the same and started to sing.
My mind is so confused…
I feel out of breath
Like I'm being choked
choked to death
My heart was so tattered and used
Why? Why cant I
Why cant I breathe without you
You, you make me feel
you make me feel
so lost without you
my heart tells me yes
but my mind denies
all the feelings I see
when looking in your eyes
Why? Why cant I
Why cant I breathe without you
You, you make me feel
you make me feel
so lost without you
She finished her song and then went back into the office and sat next to Tommy.
"So, what did you think?" she said as she crossed her arms.
"It was- perfect." he said with a huge smile on his face and never taking his eyes off of her.
"Thanks." she said looking away for a minute and then looking back at him with that same huge smile.
"Listen, do you- maybe wanna grab a bite to eat or something? I'm starved." he said afraid she would say no.
"Um… sure." she didn't want to say no. No was the furthest thing from her mind.
"Okay, lets go." he grabbed his coat and handed Jude her jacket and they took off.
Jude's mom and Sadie came in the door with it had to be 20 different shopping bags. They looked around only to find an empty house.
"Where's Jude, mom?" Sadie said plopping down on the couch, tired from having to carry so much.
"I don't know, honey." her mother said walking into the kitchen. "Oh, here's a note. It says she went to the studio." her mother said also putting down her bags.
"Oh, well I can go get her, I have to talk to Tommy anyway." she said with a big smile on her face.
"Okay, just run by there and tell her dinner will be at 5:30 okay, honey?"
"Okay, mom." And with that she grabbed her jacket and keys and went to G Major.
"Damn, girl. How much can you eat?" Tommy said taking a drink from his pepsi with a surprised look on his face.
"What? I'm hungry." Jude said biting into her burger. "Besides I haven't ate much in the last few days, sorry."
"Oh, no it's all good. I was just wondering how you can eat like that and stay so skinny."
He looked her up and down which made Jude a little uncomfortable. She blushed when he did this.
He noticed how uncomfortable she looked and quickly cleared his throat.
"Just remind me not to take you to any fancy restaurants" he laughed and then started eating his french fries.
Jude rolled her eyes at this comment. But deep down she wished that he would take her out on a date. She then quickly shook her head.
"So, I'm glad we can hang out again. It sucked that we were fighting so much. I just was sick of getting hurt. First Shay then…"
"Me. You got hurt by me too, Jude." he said this with clear sadness in his deep blue eyes. He never thought in his mind he would be the one guy who hurt Jude the most. he hated being that guy.
"Yeah. I guess I did." she said looking down at the table. She didn't want to get upset again.
"Well, I'm gonna make it up to you. What are you doing tonight?" Tommy said, a look on his face like he was planning something.
"Well, I don't know. It's only 12:30, why?" she said with a slight smile on her face.
"Well, I wanted to take you to a movie, my treat."
Jude's eyes lit up when he said this.
"But, don't worry, it's not a date or anything. We're just going as friends."
Her eyes stayed the same. Why did he have to make that clear, was he trying to convince me, or himself? Jude thought.
"Okay, sounds like fun." Jude crossed her arms and smiled.
"Okay, pick you up around 6:45 then?" Tommy said taking a drink from his pop.
"Sure." She then continued eating her burger.
Sadie walked into G Major with such confidence. She was planning to ask Tommy out tonight. She didn't know he had other plans.
"Hey Kwest, where's Tommy and Jude?" she said looking around confused when she walked into the studio.
"He took Jude to go get something to eat, they left about half an hour ago."
"Oh, okay. Well if you see Tommy, will you tell him to call me? I really have to talk to him." she said, looking disappointed. She knew for a while he had something for Jude. But she thought she would get a chance because the age difference between Jude and Tommy was so big.
"Yeah, I will." he said with a slight smirk on his face.
"Thanks." she said and walked out with not as much confidence as she walked in with.
"Thanks for the ride, and lunch, I'll see you later then?"
"Yeah, I'll pick you up at 6:45, sharp."
Jude looked into Tommy's eyes and smiled. She could look at him forever. He had such strong features. His lips were what she liked the best. She could remember kissing him…
She then snapped back.
"Oh, alright. Bye, Tommy." she said as she got out.
"Bye, Jude."
She walked up to her door and Tommy waited until she got into the house to drive off. He was so protective of Jude. He didn't know why. He really did care about her more then she knew.
Jude walked into the house with a smile on her face only to greet a very disappointed Sadie.
"Was that Tommy? Where is he? Is he coming back?" she was going a mile a minute.
"Whoa, easy Speedy Gonzales. Yes, that was Tommy. And he'll be back later to pick me up, why?" Jude knew her sister was into him, and this made her furious that she would do that to her sister. She took off her coat, hung it up, and sat on the couch.
"Well, for your information, I need to talk to him. It's none of your business, anyways." she said glaring at her sister.
"Well, I'll tell him when he comes later. Okay?" she went to go up to her room.
Jude and Sadie hadn't been speaking to each other very much since she found out about her dad.
"Hey mom, how was your trip?" Jude said peeking into the kitchen.
"Oh, it was good, honey. I wish you would have come with us. But I understand, you had that song to write. By the way, did you get it finished?" she said putting a pan into the oven and turning to her daughter.
"Yeah, I went to record it today, Tommy said he really liked it." she said with a smile on her face.
"That's great, hun. See, I told you that you have a gift." she said with an ' I told you so' look.
"Yeah, I guess." she was being modest.
"Well, dinner is in fifteen minutes, you are going to eat this time, right?" she said raising one eyebrow.
"Yeah. Is it okay if Tommy and I go to the movies, don't worry, it's not a date, he'll be here around 6:45." she said hoping her mother would say yes.
"Sure, honey. It's alright with me."
Jude's mom had always liked Tommy, he was so protective of Jude. She just didn't know if it was okay for them to date. With him being 22 and all.
"Okay, call me when it's done okay?"
"Okay."
Jude went up to her room to pick out what she was going to wear. Could she still do that? It wasn't really a date. She just picked out a black tank top and a pair of dark blue jeans, with black sneakers. After all, she didn't have to get all dressed up. They were just friends. Weren't they? Of course they were. She could be okay with that, couldn't she?
"Get ahold of yourself, Jude." she said to herself.
