Insanewelshangel: yo peeps how's my homies doin'?...O.o.(sweatdrops) whoa! Well I'm BACK! (Frowns as people run away) Muhahahaha what they don't know is that I've dug a ditch…3…2...1... (People's screams can be heard then a loud THUMP) uuummmmmmm (cough) it wasn't me….enjoy. Thanks to reviewers are at bottom (smiles).
Warning: Yaoi, last time I'll do a warning because you should have read summery and I say it's yaoi there. If you don't like it, then I feel sorry for you, cause your reading a fic on something you hate! (smiles in pity)
Disclaimer: Yes, I do own Beyblade…………………………………wait this is reality, so I don't, see why I like my own world now!
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'…italics..' thoughts
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((A/N…)) my note…I like to interrupt my own fic!
Rei laid in his bed, his quilts over his head as he pondered about his sudden affectionate moment with a certain team-member. Kai must certainly feel the same about him mustn't he? They were so close…until Tyson and Max interrupted. He silently cursed his friend's bad timing. He sighed putting a hand to his head, why was this so hard, why couldn't he just tell Kai, why couldn't he just say what was tearing him up inside and why…why? Rei blinked twice 'why? That's all. Just why? There's nothing else, why is always the last question.' Rei shook his head no matter what he felt he couldn't; his village didn't agree with it….with his love. It was dishonourable and was not considered as love. The tiger quickly left the warmth of his bed for the brisk cold, hoping to leave his heavy heart and thoughts behind. He soon learnt his hope was over rated as not even the fresh air from the open window could sweep his darkness away. He rested his head on his hands, golden orbs searching the night sky for anything that didn't result in more questions. Tears threatened to fall from his deep pools of wealthy gold as his tired mind asked the questions all other again.
"Why? What's the fucking point in love? I can't have it...I don't deserve it"
'What is more important honour or love?'
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Kai escaped from the house, needing to get away from that asshole Tyson, the puppy dog eyes of Max preaching Kai on his feelings and Rei…. Rei the one who made him feel like hell and was the cause of this helpless feeling.
'Love.'
"Love? What about it?" Kai voiced out loud hoping to drown his own thoughts.
'Love…the helpless feeling. The feeling you're afraid of'
"I am afraid of nothing! Love is pointless"
'You are afraid Kai, you're weak…'
"I am not! I am not afraid nor am I weak!"
'You are weak, you are weak Kai Hiwatari and you're a liar'
"SHUT UP!" Kai's voice rang through the empty park, echoing to the heavens but it did not stop his mocking thoughts.
'Then if you are not weak why are you avoiding him? Why are you in an abandoned park at 12:57? Why do you lie to yourself? Why are you afraid?'
"How can you be afraid of something which has never been shown!" Kai quietly mumbled, emotion breaking his words, silencing his thoughts, stopping in his tracks. That was it, he had never had love given to him, he only knew hate and sorrow….only knew how to be emotionless in everything else other then those. "I'm a heartless bastard….Rei deserves better, I'm nothing"
Nothing…nothing at all
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"Tyson…Tyson, wake up!"
Tyson grumbled in his slumber while Max continued to poke him and say his name, Tyson and Max shared a room as did Kai and Rei. Max flicked the lamp on to make out his lover's face "Wha tis hit mixy" then navy-haired teen was still asleep.
"TYSON WAKE UP! Or I'll castrate you"
"OK…dun do any thing to me!" Tyson shot up blearily looking at the blonde. "What is it Max?"
"Isn't it bugging you?" his eyes widened as Tyson looked confused
"Well Maxy I normally do love being woken up in the middle of the night but shucks, I don't know about right fucking now! Unless you woke me up for…."
"No its Kai and Rei"
"You mean they are doing it…?"
"NO! Fuck is that all your thinking of?"
"Oh then what's up?" Tyson laid back down and got comfortable again now that all his thoughts of entertainment had evaporated, he was quite bored.
"Tyson…Tyssssooooooooonnnnnnnn….don't go back to sleep I want to talk to you!"
"Sleep now, talk later"
"I'll ban food, you'll have to go on a fast food diet" Max smiled as his love quickly shot up and pouted "I'll continue, isn't it aggravating"
"You bet"
Max narrowed his eyes "What's aggravating is that they both obviously like each other and they won't admit it"
"Fancy each other like mad"
"You're not helping…Kai's been gone for over two hours and it is freezing out side"
"Bloody cold"
Max sighed "You're not even listening to me!"
"Maxy darling I am really trying to but it's like two in the morning, please can we talk about this later…then, I promise we will come up with a plan"
Max sighed again and rested his head on Tyson's chest "I'm worried about Kai"
"Hey you know Kai can look after him self, no fucker would mess with him" Tyson replied wrapping his arms around the blonde teen.((A/N oh my god Tyson sounds smart!)) Max nodded and the loud noise soon informed him that Tyson was already asleep, he soon joined him his mind heavy with worry and concern.
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A two-toned hair teen grumbled as the sun shown down onto his face. The usual blue markings were gone, exposing his flawless skin to the world. Rei silently smiled at how vulnerable Kai looked, he reached out his hand to feel the softness of his room mates skin but quickly withdrawed. Rei quickly proceeded out of the room, sending a regretful glance back at Kai, it's a love that can't be and won't be.
"Hey Max" Rei shot over to said blader as he sat down at the table, noticing the looks that Tyson and Max shared he was about to get a lecture.
"Rei…"
'Here it comes' Rei thought sarcastically.
"Rei we want to talk to you about something very important" stated Max
"Yes we wanted to talk to you about waffles" Tyson said with a serious look.
"Waffles?" Rei openly sighed getting ready for Tyson's stupidity.
"Yes waffles…now what do you think is more fattening to put on them, strawberries or chocolate!"
Rei amused himself, hearing Kai's response of 'fucking hell' in his head. "Oh, shit Tyson I really don't know, fucking hard question you got there!" hopefully Tyson would get a clue; no one could be so dense not to notice the sarcasm in Rei's voice.
"I know, I just can't decide…I mean chocolate has to be less fattening then something called strawberries hasn't it! Is there such a thing as strawberry chocolate?"
Rei rolled his eyes ' There you go, proof that there is life on other planets, not intelligent life…but still'
"Tyson do me a favour" Max butted in "If you have something to say (Tyson nods), raise your hand (nods) and put it over your mouth" Rei laughed as Tyson pouted and swirled his cereal around "Rei where's Kai?"
"Sleeping"
"Well, you see he's what we wanted to talk about…with you, you and him as more than friends…" Max looked at Rei for the last couple of words, frowning as the neko-jin rolled his eyes, shaking his head. "Rei you can not deny…"
"Deny what! That this feeling I have is tearing me apart! Or that this feeling I have will never be accepted! Or that every time I see him it kills me, knowing I can't ever make him mine! Or that…that this feeling I have…is not honourable!" Rei interrupted.
"Rei, all love is honourable" Max saw Rei's look "Yes I am calling that feeling love because it deserves its rightful title, it is love and it is honourable!"
Rei looked at Max never recalling the blonde to be so serious about anything else "Don't be so naive Max, how is love honourable!"
"Because two people fight for that feeling, they stand for what they believe in and show the world and against all odds its that feeling that keeps some people alive…"
"While it is that feeling that also makes people wish they were dead!"
"While that feeling is the most greatest force to be reckoned with and is more powerful than anything else in death and in love…at the end of life it is that feeling that people are most happy for experiencing and know their life was lived because of that feeling and that, my friend, is honourable"
Rei stood up walking towards the door only pausing to throw out his last words of departure "and it is that feeling, love…that I can not have!" with that he walked out into the bitter winter cold, not looking back as his feet strolled him from his confusions and questions, this is what he needed time alone. He always wondered why Kai liked being alone so much. Now he knew, alone was the only time where questions were not asked to make you think…where being free wasn't a joke, it was a possibility.
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Kai groggily arose from his bed, his hair messed up causing bangs to fall into his face, he tiredly runned a hand through it shifting his gaze across the room, he smiled slightly when he saw Rei's bed, neat and tidy to perfection as always. He quickly frowned and got up looking in the mirror, he decided to leave the triangles off for now, he was too tired all he wanted was a drink, more sleep and…. For everything to be alright. He groaned, rubbing his eye, he had to tidy him self up a little. He styled his hair into a more neater position and put on a t-shirt to accompany his boxers. ((A/N he is a guy after all, what else should he sleep in? a nightdress?))
'That's better' he thought briskly walking to the bedrooms door 'have a shower after breakfast, well lunch. I never sleep in this late even if I did come back in at, I dunno four-ish!"
"Hey Kai," Max smiled "Rei's gone out"
Kai smiled at Max in response "Hi Max," he glanced at Tyson "Hey fat ass"
"Just for you to know Kai, but I've now decided to put chocolate on my waffles. It was between strawberries and chocolate, but chocolate is less fattening, so bully to you git"
Kai stared at Tyson "for shiting donkeys in canvas, are you really that fucked up?" then remembering their argument from last night Kai already knew the answer " You know what, just don't answer that!"
"O-key doh- keys Kai-zer, Rei's gone out!"
"I know"
Tyson looked up "Wow! Are you psychic?"
"NO YOU DUMB PRICK!" Kai rubbed his eyes trying to calm down "Max told me already, now shut the fuck up!"
"That was rude Kai" Tyson moaned
"Fine! Then will you please shut the fuck up!"
Max rolled his eyes and gave Kai a glass of water, really he was the only remotely sane one there 'my love is a dumb ass, Rei is in denial and missing and Kai is in need of anger management, what a wonderful life' He quickly dis-patched from washing the dishes to stop Kai from killing Tyson who was currently blue. After a couple of minutes and Tyson was back to his natural colour, Max decided it was time to try the talk on Kai. Hopefully this one would go better. "K-Kai? I um need to talk to you about……um, parsnips!"
Kai looked at Max bewildered "P-Parsnips?" Kai kept his gaze on the blonde and raised an eyebrow, the feeling that he was about to be the victim of a preach or lecture 'great, I've got more than one fucker to deal with now…as if Tyson wasn't bad enough!'
"Yeah parsnips….No not parsnips I…" Max paused trying to collect his words; Kai was always harder to talk to about situations like these "I have a point! I want to talk about…… me and Tyson!"
Tyson looked up, eyes widening "Oh Maxy there are some thing's you shouldn't talk about! Kai already knows all about the birds and the bees"
Kai took his chance "Yeah well seeing as your gay it isn't exactly birds and bees is it!...it's more like bees and bees. Plus being brought up in an abbey I don't really know the concept of the whole thing" Kai savoured the look on the two blader's faces, he knew very well about every thing but that didn't mean he couldn't tease them.
"Kai…you are kidding….right?" Max questioned blushing, Kai shook his head in a negative manner.
"Well Kai, when two people are in love…"
Max continued off Tyson "They may want to go a step further and express their love in a deeper way, Tyson don't make a joke out of that!" Max saw Tyson's' mouth open and close quickly, resulting in making him look like a spaced out goldfish.
"It's a big decision to make and shouldn't be made quickly…."
"Plus there are also the effects of pregnancy and diseases to be taken into account…"
"Sex is not to be taken lightly……..Kai why are you laughing?"
" I think its cos you said sex!"
"Dude its not as if I made him watch any nature programmes!" Tyson retorted glancing at Kai who was laughing even harder.
"You…two …are …the …dumbest…fucks…ever!" Kai gasped in between his laughter. The way they said it was as though they had memorised what their parents or teachers told them " What did you do take notes in school?"
Max angrily blushed as Tyson couldn't believe they had fell for that trick "YOU WERE KIDDING ALL ALONG." It wasn't a question but Kai nodded anyway.
"Kai…about you and Rei….me and Tyson want you to confess to the other your true feeling."
Kai immediately frowned and put his I- don't-give-a-tosser's-fuck mask on "What does that have to do with you and Tyson?"
"It is me and Tyson who want you too and we're an example. Before I admitted the truth, I couldn't be with him and would constantly avoid him at any given chance and above all I was unhappy"
Kai growled "There is nothing between me and Rei"
"Then why did you stutter when you said his name?" observed Tyson
Kai didn't realise he did that and it caught him off guard, Max spoke up again "Listen Kai we can't stress how happy we are now, there is something between you two and no matter how hard you wish for it to go away it won't!"
Kai stood up, scraping his chair on the floor as he looked at each of them angrily "Love is not meant for me…I don't deserve it" with his last words hanging in the air, Kai left and slammed the door after entering his room.
"Don't deserve it?" Tyson questioned
"I think its best to leave him for now…looks like neither of our plans worked" Max sighed, Tyson sensing his lover's sadness put a soothing hand on Max's shoulder.
"No they worked, not like we planned but it got them both thinking, in its own way the talk succeeded"
insanewelshangel: I still can't believe Tyson sounded smart! Okay here's the thank's and stuff for reviews. YAY! I GOT SOME!
Wild Destiny: Thanks very much for your review, you were my first reviewer….thanks, good luck to you for all up coming exams too.
aura-chan the neko-jin : thanks very much, (lol) yes Tyson is very dense!
KittyKon: yeah thanks, you nutter, see ya in school! And I know what hwyl means, baku!
Helen: thanks much appreciated,you're addicted...wow thanks!(lol)
Kiotana: Thanks! And I don't control Kai! I've told him to stop the naughty language (slaps his hand) but….meh! He's such a bad boy GO TO YOUR ROOM! NO DINNER! Hehehehe (sweatdrops)
Insanewelshangel: well, come on people you all know you want to get your name in lights, well ink…no actually on the computer screen, but it could be in ink if you print and…ok I'm rambling again…what I am trying to say is review. Review! Thanks love ya all!