Insanewelshangel: Hello! Well it's Saturday, also known as-get-off-your-lazy-ass-day –cos-ya-gotter-update….but I'll stick to calling it Saturday! This is a long chapter because you guys are the best and you guys have given me my 5 review mark quickly! Anyway thanks to the lovely reviewers (I am not a suck-up!)are at bottom, and please review and enjoy!
Disclaimer: If I owned Beyblade there would have been more than three seasons!
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((A/N…)) my note…I like to interrupt my own fic!
Kai slid down onto the wooden floor, he put his head in his hands, his knees propped up, he was resting against the recently slammed door. Why couldn't people just leave him alone? Whenever he changed it was never good enough, they always wanted more. But they never understood that he couldn't be like them, he couldn't see life so lightly or be so care free. He knew his feelings for Rei would dishonour the family name, but he didn't care so greatly about that, he hated being a Hiwatari, he hated that people instantly thought of Voltaire when they heard it. So it wasn't really the family's name or code of conduct that stopped Kai…it was himself. He didn't deserve to have someone like Rei, such a sweet and gentle creature, he didn't deserve anything off someone like that…not even friendship.
"Yeah, they say when you truly love someone you know when to let them go…it's time to let Rei go. Then maybe he can be happy at least."
That was it Kai decided, just ignore how you feel and let Rei be happy. He got up and went into the bathroom, his feet making a slight noise on the white tiled floor. He turned the shower on, stripped off and got in. He turned the water temperature up, so it scalded his skin, the pain making his thoughts disappear. He allowed the water to wash all his worries away and caress his naked form. He lent his head on the wall, the water shot down his back as he closed his eyes, he could no longer feel the intense heat of the clear liquid. All of his energy was focused on a new beginning and a new start between Rei and himself. Kai knew tears would do nothing, he had to be strong for himself and the tiger most of all.
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Rei stalked through the park, the joyous sounds of singing birds and laughing children were lost to him, his ears deaf to everything except his own thoughts. Why did he always have to go over this in his head, he knew what he felt for Kai, he saw the way Kai looked at him and knew that Kai felt the same. Then why is it so hard to admit.
'I don't even live in the village anymore, I hardly go there, and when I visit it's never for long. Why is it so old fashioned? Why can't they accept that things have changed?' Rei let a sad laugh escape him 'Here's the why question again, why is life so hard? Why is grass green? Why do I keep on questioning why?'
The ebony haired teen sat down on a rusty bench, glancing at the kids who were crowding around the red beydish, he saw the ecstatic looks on their faces and smiled softly. Remembering the countless times he and his old team, the white tigers, had crowded around a beydish with the same expressions, he hadn't talked to them for a while Mariah, Lee, Gary and Kevin. They should be able to help. Rei suddenly shot up, his mouth agape and eyes wide.
"Honour or love, I'm such a baka!" with that the tiger ran off, with a genuine, full-blown smile on his face.
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Far away in the mountains of China, the White Tigers greeted the voice of Rei on a phone. They were trying to get the phone from Mariah, who was ecstatically chatting away to a happy Rei.
"Rei, it's so great to talk to you! What's that? Lee! Yes he's still going out with him"
"But Mariah, what about the village?" Rei questioned her "What about….honour?"
Mariah glared at the phone and started shouting angrily "Are you bloody kidding? Love is much more important! That's what I think! So make your pissing move already"
"Uh, what do you mean make my move!" Rei panicked a little, she didn't know did she, there was that time where she caught him staring at Kai. She joked with him about it, but he assured her he didn't like Kai in that way…well, he thought he assured her.
Mariah sighed "Oh please Rei, give me SOME credit. Do ya honestly think I don't know! No one is THAT thick not to see you're totally gaga over him!" she smiled picturing the shock on the neko-jins face, remembering his feeble excuses when she noticed his affection for Kai. "Do you honestly think Lee gives a shit to what anyone thinks of him and his choice of partners? He's not that shallow Rei!"
Rei furrowed his eyebrows, the tone in Mariah's voice indicated that he was shallow if he cared about what people would say "Mariah…it's not that simple…"
"Why?"
"Because….uh…." Rei was stumped, that was the one why question today that made any sense to ask. "The village doesn't go for honour in…the way I am…the way Lee is…there are difficulties"
"Now you listen to me, Rei Kon, your team will be proud of you and we live in the village, most of the people here will be happy for you, you have a lot of support for this and you better bloody well do it!"
"Mariah…are you sure?"
Mariah rolled her eyes and smiled "Yes Rei. The whole village knows about Lee and most are happy for him, ever since you left, the elders have seen to make the village less old fashioned. They realised they have to accept the new way of life. They still frown upon it, but it's not as dis-honourable as you think."
"R-really?"
"YES! SO WHAT ARE YOU WAITING FOR!" Mariah beamed at the lightness in Rei's voice "Go get your man Rei!"
Rei laughed "Thank you Mariah. You don't know how much this means to me!"
"I think I do Rei, I think I do…goodbye and hurry up!"
"MARIAH" Lee screamed, Mariah swung around and saw the furious look on his face.
"What?"
"You didn't even let us speak to Rei!" the next thing he knew Mariah had hugged him and was skipping and jumping around the kitchen "You've fucking lost it!"
"WHOO HO OH YEAH! I'm ssssssssooooooo happy! About time that boy of ours admitted his true feelings! Oh yeah!"
Lee stared at her and sweatdropped "What the fricking hell are you on about?"
"Rei! He's finally gonna tell Kai how he feels and stop whining and moaning all the time! He's gonna finally be happy"
"About time, that's all I can say" Lee smiled at the pink haired girl, and looked at Gary and Kevin who shared the same amused expressions "Good luck, Rei my friend, I wish you a happy life"
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Rei hanged up the phone and smiled. Mariah was right! He set off at a quick pace back towards his home. He could do this and since the village is better, there was nothing to stop him. Actually Rei mainly focused on honour because he didn't want rejection, especially off Kai, but as Mariah always said to him it's better to do something and get it wrong, then not to do anything at all.
"Hey Rei!"
Rei stopped and looked around for the source of the voice. He smiled when he saw two very good friends of his walking hand in hand towards him. The navy haired teen waved at him.
"God man, slow the heck down"
"Rei, you look…happy!" Max commented
Rei smiled at them "I' m sorry for shouting at you this morning" he continued before Max said it was alright "It wasn't right of me when all you two were doing was trying to help me, but…everything is right now!"
"what the fuck happened?"
"I had a talk with some cats, bye!"
Tyson and Max watched, confused, as their ebony haired team mate speed off, Max blinked "Cats?"
Tyson smiled "You know what Maxy-koi, I think we should stay out for a while. I think Kai and Rei need to talk, kiss and make up. About fucking time!"
Max beamed and bit his lower lip "Yes about time!"
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Kai stretched briefly, gazing bored into his wardrobe "What to wear? Aw I don't give a fuck, I'll just wear this fucking thing"
He pulled out a pair of baggy black jeans and shirt. Now in his full attire he collapsed onto his bed, not really bothered about doing anything today. It was already 3:26 and he felt like going to sleep again, but decided against it. He took Dranzer off his bedside table and twirled his blade in one hand.
'Dranzer, you're going to have to help me be strong. I don't even deserve you but you've always stuck with me. I just want to say thank you.'
He smiled while his blade's bit chip glowed warmly for a second, then put Dranzer back in the draw. He sat up, not knowing what to do, he wouldn't let himself think of Rei and found all other topics boring. Yawning widely, he laid back down as his eyes fluttered down. After a while his breathing slowed down in his slumber.
Rei walked through the front door and went in search of the phoenix who had stolen his heart. Rei frowned when he couldn't find him, wondering where he could be, he hit himself on the head 'Duh! How about our room you asshole!'
The tiger grinned sheepishly at his own stupidity, that is the first place he should have looked. He stood outside the door for a while, suddenly becoming fascinated by the grain pattern of the wood. He winced when he heard Mariah's voice in his head 'WHAT ARE YOU WAITING FOR?' his throat became dry again, Rei closed his eyes and took a deep breath before walking in.
"Kai, I've been really distant lately and I want to apologise and just tell you…how I feel. I don't know how to really say this but I love you and have for a long time. So yeah, I just needed to tell you that." Rei blurted out, but when he heard no response, he opened one eye. He didn't even notice he had them closed, he expected to see a shocked or angry Kai, but certainly not a sleeping one. Rei didn't now whether to laugh or sigh in relief. "Stupid fuck" he said warmly gazing at the resting form of his love.
He stood by Kai's bed and smiled. He reached out a hand to stroke Kai's slate blue hair, feeling the soft, silkiness of it made him smile even more.
"Rei?"
Rei jumped out of his skin when he heard that voice "K-Kai? Um…"
"What were you doing?" Kai sat up and glared at Rei who, right now, looked petrified. Kai glowered at this not liking that Rei looked afraid because of him. "Don't worry, I'm not going to fucking kill you"
Rei's eyes widened at the hurt in Kai's voice "Nothing, um there was some fluff in your hair and it was annoying that's all…uh….Do you believe in potatoes?" Rei found that if he could, he would have stared at himself in confusion.
Kai looked at him and raised an eyebrow "Right…okay" Kai looked away and put his attention on a cloud that had suddenly became interesting.
Rei bit his lip, 'Great, now he thinks I'm a freak! Shit, this love thing is confusing' he looked at Kai and sighed sitting on the bed. "Um…Kai?"
"What?" the phoenix turned his red orbs back onto Rei's golden ones. He noticed that Rei blushed, which caused him to smile "Spit it out kitty"
Rei blushed even more but smiled at the special nick name Kai always used for him, Rei already knew Kai wasn't angry at him because he used it "Well, I just want to say sorry"
Kai narrowed his eyes in concern and despite himself, put a hand on Rei's, but then remembering his promise to himself he quickly withdrawed. "What do you mean?"
Rei looked away "I…I …I…uh, what I mean is….I'm sorry because I've been so…distant"
Kai snorted "That's nothing to be sorry for! I can't control your actions or behaviour, everyone needs time alone sometimes. At least it has nothing to do with ... ahem …potatoes!" Rei blushed and Kai had to force his smile away "Where are the two love birds?"
"Tyson and Max have gone out…I shouted at them this morning"
"You too?"
"You shouted as well? What for?"
"I don't need a fucking reason these days, but they were giving me a lecture….on….about….um….me and….you…us…together" Kai finished off awkwardly, cursing the blush that spread rapidly across his cheeks. He should have known this wouldn't work, there was something about Rei that made him feel different, feel happy and light but he didn't deserve that feeling. That's what he kept on telling himself.
"Kaiiloveyou"
"Huh?"
"I said I …I …I …."
"Don't start that again!"
"That's what I shouted at them for too" Rei closed his eyes, mentally slapping himself 'just tell him you stupid prick!' "Ngarh! Um …arrgh…Kai? I have something to tell you"
"What?"
"It's perfectly fine if you don't agree"
"What?"
"And I've been meaning to tell you for a long time"
"What!"
"It's hard to just say! But anyway, I will say it"
"WHAT?"
"Ok, here goes"
"FOR FUCK SAKE TELL ME ALREADY!"
"I don't want to!"
Kai's left eye twitched "Then fucking don't!"
"But I do want to!"
Kai sighed "Rei! Either fricking tell me or don't. It's as easy as that!"
"You inconsiderate asshole! I told you it's hard to say!"
" YOU ARE DRIVING ME CRAZY!"
"GOOD! Because you drive me crazy too!" Rei gasped at the passion in his voice as Kai's eyes widened.
"What…do you mean by that!" Kai and Rei's breathing had speeded up in their shouting and they both stared at each other.
"I mean this…" Rei leaned in, and his lips met with Kai's, Rei gently pulled back gazing into Kai's fiery depths. By some unspoken command or mutual understanding their lips met again. The blunette's hand reached into Rei's ebony hair and deepened the kiss. The tiger moaned into Kai's mouth and lent on his chest. The sudden weight made Kai sink into the mattress and wrap his arms around the neko-jins waist, he playfully bit Rei's bottom lip, for access which was immediately granted. Kai's tongue explored the sweet caverns of Rei's mouth, causing the neko-jin to moan happily.
They broke apart, gasping for oxygen, Rei pulled a lose bang out of Kai's eyes. Kai looked up at him "I don't deserve you!" He quickly walked away from the bed and Rei "You deserve better than me, I shouldn't be allowed love!"
"Kai?"
"No! I want you to be happy. I don't know how to love, friendship is enough! I don't even deserve that off you"
"Kai" Rei slowly got up, tears forming in his golden eyes "How can I be happy without you! Don't say that you don't deserve anything! That's kasu!"
"Rei, I don't know how to show love, you should have someone better than me! You're so loving and caring…I'm a heartless bastard!"
"NO YOU ARE NOT!" Rei shouted, the sudden anger in his voice made Kai stop "Kai you are not heartless! Don't you ever fucking say that! You've come a long way since Biovolt, don't you dare go back to thinking only of hate and resentment!"
"REI! I don't…."
"NO! SHUT UP! I LOVE YOU!" Rei panted angrily "I love you and nothing you say about not deserving is going to stop me loving you!"
"You shouldn't love me"
"Why?"
Kai looked at him, narrowed his eyes and shook his head "Because…because…I don't know how too!"
"Kai, don't say you don't know how to love…one of your attacks you use with Dranzer is called love, and I know you love Dranzer too! I also know that your favourite season is winter, because you love snow and the serene feeling you get when everyone is all cosy inside by the fire but you also love the warmth of the sun. You love music and beyblading. You love to laugh, even if you don't admit it and you love making Tyson feel like an arse!"
Kai knew Rei was right and hated that he was the only person who could make him feel like a little kid. Kai smiled "You forgot something"
"What?"
"Yourself"
"and you love me…didn't think I'd hear that one. You see Kai, love isn't about stuff like that, Love is a new beginning where the past and future don't matter because we have each other"
Kai laughed and Rei frowned at him "You sound like a fortune cookie, kitty"
Rei mock pouted, causing Kai to laugh even more. He wrapped his arms around the tigers slim waist and rested his chin on Rei's head "Nothing wrong with sounding like a cookie"
Kai became serious again "Rei…I'll try my best for you, I promise, I love you"
Rei smiled resting his head on his love's shoulder, his voice came out in a whisper "I love you too"
insanewelshangel: YEAH! They are now together (dances) O.o anywayz there's gonna be more fluffiness now. Sheer Kai/Rei love AAWWWWWWW! (sweatdrops) whoa hyper! But don't go thinking its all gonna be fluff…I just want a couple with em all fluffy!(shakes head to get image of a bunny Kai and Rei) And about the thing were one of Kai's attack's for Dranzer is called love…its in the Japanese version of Beyblade, which when translated means love! Here are thank you's for my lovely reviewers (takes a bow) all my lovely reviewers have some cookies (throws cookies then does a poem recital)
aura-chan the neko-jin : hehehehe ….oh, you're giving me ideas! (laughs manically) yes Tyson is THAT dense, but lets face it…Tyson…dense…the words fit so well together! (have some cookies)
DarkPheonixDragon: ahhhh don't be sad (hands over lots of cookies to cheer up) as they say shit happens, assholes cause it! But I'm glad I could help! I like your name btw!
Kiotana: Kai's still being a bad boy…I know you all love it really (lol) but who the hell doesn't! Here have some cookies (cookie-mania) such yummy cookies!
FireAngelTears: (loving the name!) chapter 1- yes it is unfair (starts to throw stuff at authoress) wait…I'm the authoress! Opps! Tyson ass a bad topic…..yes! funny to write about…hell yes!
Chapter 2-Ya gotta love Kai and his tricks! Thanks! The florescent monkey with a pink tutu agrees with the stupid Tyson comment, hello monkey! (cookies, such beautiful cookies!)
Helen: hehehe here you go Helen and it had some Kai/Rei moments too! Feel the love people! But prepare for fluff an' stuff in next chapter! (Cookies galore)
KittyKon: (sigh) oh no it's you again (loll) yes we get it you are in love with Rei! So have a cookie and everyone embrace the Kai/Rei love! (I am the cookie monster muhahahahaha!) See ya kitty!
insanewelshangel: Oh yeah and I know Mariah is a bitch, but I see her as more of a little sister to Rei then anything else, so I wanted her to be nice in my fic….thought I'd explain cos a lotta people hate her with a passion! Until next time too-da-loo….uh, bye! Please review all, will be much appreciated, just think the sooner you review the more likely it is for me to put the next chapter up quickly! This is me saying REVIEW and goodbye! (Waves like a maniac) I have a feeling there was something else but I…forgot. Oh well bye my lovely reviewers and lovely readers who should review! Muhahahahaha I am relentless!