Hey Everyone…Don't worry I am still working on Double Life I'm just having the worst case of writers block ever! This is my take on Carly's breakdown. I started writing it when I first heard that she might be having one. Also Jason is very active in this story…I hate that he doesn't have his memory when Carly really needs him! This story takes place in the winter…just so you know! Please read and review!

Chapter 1

Lorenzo Alcazar sat furiously in his living room with the lights off waiting for his wife. He sat a little straighter as he heard the key turn slowly in the lock of the front door. Carly Alcazar slipped off her shoes at the front door and flipped on the light. She took off her coat and hung it in the front hall closet. She walked into the living room to pour herself a drink when she spotted her husband watching her. "Hey! You scared me. What are you doing up?"

"Just waiting for you darling." He said with barely contained fury.

"What's wrong?" Carly asked

"Why were you at Corinthos's." Lorenzo snarled

"Why are you having me followed?" Carly snapped

"Answer the question Carly." He said

"Michael had a nightmare. Sonny called me because Michael asked him to. Is that all right with you?" Carly asked accusingly

"Its almost 3 o'clock in the morning Carly. You got to Sonny's at 10:30." Lorenzo shouted, "I knew you couldn't stay away from him."

"Lorenzo will you listen to yourself?" Carly shouted back at him, "I got to Sonny's at 10:30, he filled me in on Michael's most recent nightmares and then we went up to talk with him. I laid with him until he fell asleep then Sonny and I talked."

"Yeah, you talked. Please Carly. You have been drooling after him since before we got married. I've just been to blind to see it."

"I don't think blind is the right word. Stupid is more like it." Carly snarled, "Sonny and I are over but we have two children. And one of them is going through a very rough time. I thought you understood that."

"What I understand is that you are still in love with your ex-husband." Lorenzo said

When Carly didn't say anything Lorenzo threw her a disgusted look and pointed at the front door. "Get out."

"What?" Carly asked

"I already had your things sent back to your apartment. You'll be getting the divorce papers in a few days." Lorenzo said harshly

Carly couldn't even find the strength to argue. She got her coat and shoes and left. She didn't feel like going back to an empty apartment so she made her way to Jakes. She sat at the bar and waited for Coleman to take her order, "Rum and Coke, hold the coke. And keep them coming."

Coleman hesitantly handed Carly her drink and watched as she threw it back and swallowed it quickly. At Carly's glare he quickly filled her glass. About 2 hours later Carly was falling down drunk. She had been muttering incoherently for a ½ hour. "Carly how about I call your husband to pick you up."

"Haven't you been listening to what I've been saying Coleman." Carly slurred, "I'm getting divorced. Lorenzo kicked me out."

"OK. Well then I'll call Sonny or Jason." Coleman said and picked up the phone.

"NO!" Carly shouted

"Let me call you a cab then." He said

"No. I can walk." Carly wobbled to her feet and stumbled to the door. She pushed it open and weaved her way out onto the street.

Coleman picked the phone back up and dialed Jason's number. Jason was sound asleep when his cell phone rang. He jerked awake, "Morgan."

"Jason, this is Coleman. I just thought you should know that Carly just left and she was drunker than I've ever seen her. She said she was going to walk but in her condition anything could happen." Coleman said

"Carly's married to Alcazar. Why don't you call him?" Jason asked

"She said he kicked her out. I tried to call her a cab but she left before I could. I just don't want her to get hurt so I called you." Coleman said

"OK. Thanks." Jason said and hung up.

"What was that?" Sam asked sleepily

"I have to go find Carly. Go back to sleep." Jason said.

He decided against calling Sonny. He would tell him in the morning. He called Carly's cell phone but didn't get an answer. It was starting to get light out as Jason walked around Port Charles. He checked all of her usual hiding places but didn't find her. Finally he got to her apartment and found her passed out in front of her door. He bent down to pick her up and carried her inside. He laid her down on the couch and covered her with a blanket. He sat in a chair next to the couch and turned on the TV. It wasn't until 10 am that Carly started to stir. She opened her eyes slowly and stared gratefully at the cup of coffee that Jason set in front her. "Thanks." She said and sat up and sipped her coffee. "How long have you been here?"

"Since I found you passed out in front of your door at about 6 this morning." Jason said, "What the hell happened Carly?"

"Lorenzo and I are getting a divorce." Carly said

"Yeah. Good. He wasn't any good for you." Jason said

Carly snorted, "Whatever. Look I'm fine Jason. You've done your good deed. You can go back and report to Sonny that Carly lost it again. Then go complain to Sam that you had to save me again and we'll all be fine and dandy."

"What's that supposed to mean Carly?" Jason asked

"Nothing." Carly sighed, "Thanks for all your help. Maybe I'll see you later when I come get Michael and Morgan." Carly walked out of the room and into her bedroom leaving Jason behind staring after her.

Carly paced around her bedroom getting undressed, "Why the hell is he pretending to care? He stopped caring about me the minute he lied about the paternity of Sam's baby. I don't need him. I don't need any of them. Sonny wants to forgive Charlotte for lying then that's just fine. I show them. I'll show everyone. Caroline doesn't need anyone. Caroline can do just fine on her own."

Carly got into the shower still muttering to herself.

Jason walked into Sonny's house slowly not really wanting to tell Sonny what he was thinking. "Hey man, did you get my message?"

"Yeah." Sonny said, "What happened? I didn't really understand what you were saying. You sounded kind of panicked, which is unusual for you."

"Coleman called me this morning at about 5:30 I guess. He said that Carly had just drank a bottle of rum by herself and then left."

"So why'd he call you. Why not call her husband." There was an obvious bite to Sonny's voice as he said husband.

"Apparently Alcazar and Carly are getting a divorce." Jason said

"Really. That didn't last long." Sonny said smugly

"That's not the point. I walked all around town and then I finally found her passed

out in front of her apartment door. I carried her in and put her on the couch and waited till she woke up." Jason started

"This is nothing new Jason. Carly gets pissed and drinks herself into a stupor. Why are you acting like it's a big deal." Sonny asked nonchalantly

"Because there is something seriously off with her. We were starting to make progress, you know, going back to the way we were before I lied to her. And she just blew me off. She told me to tell you that she lost it again and to complain to Sam that I had to save her again." Jason said

"Jason you aren't telling me anything new. Carly is always over dramatic when she's hung over." Sonny said

"Ok fine maybe that's true but she walked to the bedroom after essentially telling me to go the hell away. Well I followed her and listened at the door. She was muttering to herself. Sonny I really think that Carly is on the verge of a breakdown." Jason said finally expressing what he had been thinking about since he left Carly's.

"Jason I just saw her last night. And believe me she's fine. I would know more than anyone what the signs of a breakdown are." Sonny said

Before Jason could answer the doorbell rang. They heard Max answer it and a couple seconds later Carly walked in. "I'm here for the boys."

"Sure. I'll go tell Leticia to get them ready." Sonny said heading for the stairs

"No that's OK I'll do it." Carly said calmly. But Jason noticed that there was an odd glint in her eyes.

Carly walked up the stairs and into Michael's room. She smiled as she watched her boys playing together. "Hi guys. Mama's here."

"Ma-ma." Morgan said happily clapping his hands together at the site of her.

"Hey mom!" Michael said. He ran over to hug her but stopped short, "What's wrong?"

"Nothing sweetheart. Why would you say that?" Carly asked

"You look different." Michael said

"Don't be ridicules honey." She bent down to pick up Morgan when Michael stopped her, "Michael, what are you doing?"

"Mom you look upset and I don't want to scare Morgan." Michael said

"You think I would hurt Morgan." Carly asked staring at her son

"Not but he can tell what people are feeling and I just don't think it's a good idea." Michael said

"Fine." Carly snapped, "I'm sure you don't want to come either. Why don't you have Charlotte or Reese or whatever her name is come over and play with you. I'm sure she won't scare my children."

"Mom, what are you talking about?" Michael asked

"Oh nothing for you to worry about. The mother you want will be here shortly." Carly said

"Mom what are you talking about? You're my mom. You always will be. Morgan and I love you." Michael said

"But you won't live with me. You won't come and spend the day with me. Its OK Michael. Spend the day with your dad and Reese. I'll go and unpack at my apartment." Carly said and turned to go downstairs.

"Why are you back at the apartment?" Michael asked following Carly down the stairs causing Jason and Sonny to turn and stare.

"Lorenzo and I are getting a divorce." Carly said, "Goodbye Michael. I'll see you later."

Carly walked out without a backwards glance.

Michael turned to Sonny, "Something's wrong with mama dad."

"Why would you say that buddy?" Sonny asked

"She didn't call me Mr. Man. Just Michael and she was saying how she was sure we wouldn't want to be with her. She thinks that we want Agent Marshall to be our new mother. It was just really weird dad." Michael said

"You mom had a pretty tough night. She was probably just sad that you didn't want to go with her today." Sonny said.

Michael nodded and went back upstairs even though he didn't agree with his dad. When Michael left the room Sonny turned to Jason. "OK. Maybe there is something wrong with Carly."

That night Carly sat outside Sonny's house and glared into the kitchen as Sonny, Jason, Sam and Reese all sat at the kitchen table and ate dinner together. "Like one big happy family." Carly muttered to herself, "The lying bitch and the tramp with my husband and my best friend. We'll just having to do something about that."

Carly walked back to her apartment and the minute she shut the door she felt a violent rage come over her. She began to scream and cry. She smashed everything in sight. She got a knife out of the kitchen and slashed the couches, chairs, and pillows, even the walls. She picked up the fire poker from in front of the fireplace and began smashing the mirrors, the glass coffee table, the kitchen table, and the crystal on the bar. Blood was dripping from her hands and arms. She leaned against the wall and smeared her blood on it. She picked up the phone and called Bobbie. When the voice mail kicked in Carly spoke as if in a trance, "Hello my name is Caroline Benson. I heard from a woman named Ruby at Kelly's that you rented out rooms and I was wondering if you had any available. You can reach me at 555-7112. Thanks."

Carly hung up the phone. She walked through the glass back into her bedroom. She stared at her reflection in the bathroom mirror and without warning slammed her arm into it. It shattered and the pieces sliced into her body. Dressed in only jeans and a t-shirt Carly made her way into the freezing winter night, her hair matted with blood and her body covered in gashes that dripped blood into the snow.

Meanwhile Bobbie replayed a message she got from Carly. She didn't understand what Carly was talking about. It didn't make any sense. Carly was talking like she didn't even know about her life. Was Carly pretending that she doesn't know who Bobbie is to try someway to get Sonny back? She decided to go check on her. When she got to Alcazar's she was coolly informed that Carly and Mr. Alcazar were getting a divorce and Carly could be found at her apartment. When she got to Carly's apartment she stopped short of knocking when she noticed that there was blood on the handle and the door was ajar. She pushed open the door and gasped at the site that greeted her. Bobbie quickly called the police. While she was waiting for the police she called Sonny. She knew that even though they were divorced Sonny still cared about Carly.

Sonny, Jason, Sam and Reese were all still sitting at the table having just finished their deserts when Marco walked in holding the phone. "Sir it's Bobbie. She sounds really upset."

Sonny took the phone, "Bobbie, is everything OK?"

"Sonny, something's wrong. I just came over to see Carly because I got a really weird message from her and there is blood all over her door and it was open. Her apartment is trashed. There is blood and glass everywhere. Oh god, what if she's dead!" Bobbie cried

"I swear to you we will find out what happened! Jason and I will be right over." Sonny promised

Jason looked alarmed at the urgency in Sonny's voice. Sonny nodded apologetically at the girls, "Jason and I have to go check on something. I don't know when we'll be back."

He and Jason left quickly. Reese glared after them, "What has Caroline done now."

"I don't know." Sam said, "Jason had to go find her this morning. She's just trying to start trouble again."

Sonny filled Jason in on what Bobbie said as they hurried to Carly's building. When they got there the police were already inside. Bobbie stood outside Carly's door, she was crying.

Jason felt his heart drop into his stomach, "Have they found her? Is she dead?"

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