Retrospect
By Raven Scorne
AN: Short one-shot piece in Sasuke's POV. Takes place after the fight in Valley of the End.
Looking back now I can only see you. The way you smile even when you hurt and the way you shout in order to make people acknowledge you. But I remember you most because of your strength.
That power… it seems divine, and yet you ignore it, because you don't really comprehend the meaning of it. That power that gave you hope and now gives you determination; that is the power that I wanted. But I was weak. I could never obtain that power because in truth, I wasafraid. Yes. Iwas afraid. Of lots of things that you wouldn't understand why.
I'm weak because I'm afraid of pain. I'm afraid of being alone, that's why I always am. Because if there is no one around me, I can never be truly alone. I can imagine that I'm not lonely, and that's what I did until you came along. You shared a little piece of that power you had with me, and gave me hope. It gave me determination too, but I saw the whole of it. I saw just what it could be used for, and yet I was blind too. I only saw it as a weapon, and I can never see it as anything else. Not when He still lived.
That's why I fled from you, because you were breaking me. You came into my life and you forced me to realize my loneliness. And for that I'll hate you. I'll hate you forever. Because when I was with you I felt more lonely than I ever did in my life. But I was also happy, because you were there, and at the same time you made me feel wanted. Maybe that part was from my imagination, but the feeling was there nonetheless.
That power is what was breaking me, but I didn't even see it break you. But now that I look back, it must've been so hard. For you to carry it when no one else understood why. They just knew that you did, and they shunned you for it. For being different. But you had no choice. You had to, because if you chose not to, you'd die. And dying is even more lonely than loneliness itself.
It broke your spirit every time you muttered those words. The words you tell everyone, and even yourself like a mantra. You tell yourself that you will become Hokage, and that you'll bring me back. But you know from the power that you hold those dreams will never come true. That power is what held you back, from everything you wanted. Because withour that power, you think that people will acknowledge you and you'd stand a chance for being Hokage. You think that without that power, I never would've been tempted to leave in search of an equal leverage to match you. And you're right.
But it broke my dreams too. It broke me from you. Not that I would've had you anyways, but it just helped to widen the hiatus between us. So now look at us, both fools chasing dreams that can never be caught. But we try anyways, because we're both consumed. We try because that power gave us a taste of our dreams that we couldn't obtain ourselves, and we believed in it. Now neither of us can afford not to believe. Because if we didn't, we would have nothing. We would be empty, and alone. And all we'd have is each other.
Owari
AN: Okay! Tell me watcha think:D