………………………Four months later Monday the 5th of May………………………

It was only 8.03 AM so no one in the office expected such an early visitor but unexpected things always happened at NCIS.

Two men stepped out from the elevator. Gibbs saw them and wondered who the two men in black suits were. He guessed either FBI or CIA but wanted to ask to be sure. Gibbs knew they were looking for him.

"We're looking for Mr and Mrs Dinozzo, Mrs McAllister and their boss Gibbs." One of the men said. Gibbs was quite surprised that his name was mentioned last. If it was about a case then they would have said his name first he thought. Then he thought that there was one case where they probably would have said his name last. He knew right then and there which case they wanted to talk about and which agency they belonged to.

"CIA I presume." Gibbs then said to them.

"You're correct. We're because of the Emma Carlsson case. I want everyone I mentioned to be present when we say what we have to say." The man continued.

"I'm calling her now." McGee quickly said talking about Abby.

Tony and Kate wondered what was going on. The team had worked with the case ever since she had gone missing but not as much as in the beginning. They never got any leads and Emma's body was never found. Everyone presumed she was dead but without finding the four who kidnapped her and get confirmation they could never be a 100 sure and that's why they still once a week kept working on the case. Tony, Kate and Abby all felt so guilty about what had happened to her. They couldn't let it go. Indirectly they killed someone. Killed someone just by association.

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A minute later Abby came.

"The CIA wants you off the case. Stop looking for her. You need to let go. Her family did so you should do the same. "The other man told them.

"We won't. Her family deserves a grave." Kate told them. She had always been the one who was most eager to continue the case.

"We have everything we found out about this case in this box. Things you've never got to see. I think it will help you move on. Even her family hasn't seen this and we don't intend to tell them what is in it either. I don't think they will handle it so well if they ever found out what really happened to Emma. You should first read the case files and what happened the last hours of her life. The kidnappers even videotaped what they did to her so that is how we know what happened to her. We haven't found her body and I don't think we will ever do so." The CIA agent continued.

"But if you have them on tape then you can identify them." Tony blurted out.

"Two of them became suicide bombers and blew up themselves two months ago in Washington. The other two were shot dead by us when we raided their home after the suicide bombs. That's were we found the video. It's the DVD in the box. I don't think it will help you if you watch it but maybe just knowing that you have it in your possession is enough to stop you from continuing the search."

"Why do you want us to stop searching?" Gibbs asked them.

"We're afraid we once again have leaks in the CIA, NCIS and FBI. If you continue to search more after them, which is basically OUR job then they'll think you know more than you really do and once again they will come after you. We know that is why they came after you in January. We also know that they now think you really don't know anything else so they are leaving you alone but if they change their minds…. They wouldn't know that. I mean that you know nothing… If there weren't any leaks. " The CIA agent stated. Then he put the box on Gibbs' desk and both of them left the office.

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Several hours later every agent had read through the case files. They read what they did to her. It was horrifying. CIA had written down everything which had happened on the video. After she woke up she had noticed the video camera. Not knowing what to do she sat there naked and cried while talking to the camera. Emma said that she hoped her family would know she loved them. The same with her friends. She said that it was no one's fault and she was strong enough to handle everything which was happening to her. Emma then said that she knew she would die soon and she wasn't afraid of dying. Her life had never really given her anything worth living for so why be sad for dying. Emma just hoped that she had given her siblings a better childhood than she had and that they were prepared much better for life than she ever was. Love was out there somewhere and with the tools of life she had taught them she hoped they would find it. It was too late in her case to ever embrace and use the tools right no matter if this had happened or not.

Then came the part which Tony, Kate and Abby took the hardest. They read it and they all wanted to see if for themselves. CIA had been nice enough to write out in the transcript where each minute of the tape started in the text. Everyone in the team, all seven of them headed to the lab to see that part.

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"To NCIS…It's not your fault. I know you'll find my murderers. If you don't then the murderers will watch this and laugh at my stupidity. Either way I'm dead. Emma Julia Anna Carlsson will be dead when anyone sees this. I want people to know that the Dinozzos really helped me to feel happy about myself. They showed me that you can really find true love. Abby showed me that too. In my emails to my sisters I told them that. Jenny and Sandra will one day find true love. I never got the chance to tell my sisters what I would have named my daughter if I ever got one. I'm still following the family tradition which is that the third name is the mother's first name. Jacqueline Caitlin Emma Carlsson…My son would probably have the name Matthew Daniel Johan Carlsson…I've always loved the name Matthew but you knew it already. As twisted as it sounds I can't help but to hope one of the men got me pregnant. Then at least one of the dreams I had came true." Emma said to the camera.

"What are you doing?" a man then yelled. He had come into the room and Emma hadn't noticed it. He hit her on the head and she fell down on the floor. There was already blood on the floor but you could see how a stream of blood came from her head. Then the man started to have sex with her.

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Then the tape ended. That was the last thing on the tape.

"If she would have survived she would never ever be the same again. Mentally she would be crushed. Having several men do such horrible things to her in just a few hours. You could hear that she had already lost it when she said that she hoped they had got her pregnant." McGee told them. He was brutally honest but it was hard looking at that.

"You didn't know her as I did…She knew she would die and just the little hope of dying while one of her dreams got fulfilled gave her peace. Why is that so hard to understand?" Kate said angry. Kate and Emma had had some deep talks and Kate regretted that they hadn't been longer but there was never time to. Other things kept coming in the way.

"I think we should let it go. Her kidnappers are dead and we will never find her body." Gibbs told them while he took out the disc from the computer. He then went back to his desk and put it in the box. Slowly one after one came back out to the office.

"You should go home. Pick up your children from day care and spend time with them." Gibbs told them. After seeing this you should appreciate life more and it has been a long day.

"The rest can finish up too. After this I understand that you need some time to process this." Gibbs said to them. He looked at them go home one after one. Abby who was five months pregnant took this very hard. He knew she was emotional because of her pregnancy but now this could make her so sad that he didn't want that. He wanted her to feel well. McGee who had just got married a month ago got hurt too by this. Everyone had met Emma and knew she was a lovely innocent person who shouldn't have died. She didn't deserve dying that way.