Song-fic to "1000 Words," from Final Fantasy X-2
Disclaimer: I don't own Harry Potter or any of the characters
1000 Words
I know that you're hiding things
Using gentle words to shelter me
Your words were like a dream
But dreams could never fool me
Not that easily
I, Hermione Granger, never thought that this could happen to me. The only one I have ever loved has died. My boyfriend of 5 years, went off to fight the war against Voldermort, he had switched sides.
Draco Malfoy, had gone against his very nature, and switched to the light side. Sometimes I wonder, if he really wanted to switch, or if he did it just for me.
I acted so distant then
Didn't say goodbye before you left
But I was listening
You'll fight your battles far from me
Far too easily
When he told me he was leaving, I begged to go with him, but he denied my request. When he was leaving, I couldn't even say goodbye, I was crying so hard. I just motioned for him to leave.
"Save your tears cause I'll come back"
I could hear that you whispered as you walked through that door
But still I swore
To hide the pain when I turn back the pages
Shouting might have been the answer
What if I'd cried my eyes out and begged you not to depart
But now I'm not afraid to say what's in my heart
The last thing he ever said to me was this, "Don't cry for me, I'm not worth it. I'll come back for you, I swear it," with that he walked out the door leaving me behind, forever.
Though a thousand words
Have never been spoken
They'll fly to you
Crossing over the time and distance holding you
Suspended on silver wings
There are so many things I wished I had said to him, but none of them I could speak. But as he closed the door I whispered to him, "I love you." I like to think that he heard them, but it's just wishful thinking on my part.
And a thousand words
One thousand confessions
Will cradle you
Making all of the pain you feel seem far away
They'll hold you forever
If words could reach him, I would confess my sins; I would tell him what's in my heart. If I could hold him in my arms, if only for a moment, I'd be fine again.
The dream isn't over yet
Though I often say I can't forget
I still relive that day
"You've been there with me all the way"
I still hear you say
When we graduated from Hogwarts, we'd been going out for 3 years; he gave me a ring, a promise ring.
"You've been in my mind since I met you; if it weren't for you I wouldn't be who I am today." With that he kissed me, right there in front of everyone. Even now I can hear those words being said; I wished that I hadn't changed him, because he might be alive today.
"Wait for me I'll write you letters"
I could see how you stammered with your eyes to the floor
But still I swore to hide the doubt
When I turn back the pages
Anger might have been the answer
What if I'd hung my head and said that I couldn't wait
But now I'm strong enough to know it's not too late
He asked me to wait, maybe if I had gotten angry at him, instead of letting him go. If only I had said I couldn't wait, maybe at this moment he'd be here, his arms around me.
Cause a thousand words
Call out through the ages
They'll fly to you
Even though we can't see I know they're reaching you
Suspended on silver wings
In my head, I talked to him, I knew he couldn't hear me, but it gave me comfort to think that possibly, he would feel my pain and anguish for not saying goodbye.
Oh a thousand words
One thousand embraces
Will cradle you
Making all of your weary days seem far away
They'll hold you forever
If only I could embrace him once more, if only I could speak to him one more word. I'm crying now as I remember him, all the things we used to do. He promised we would get married when he came back, but some promises are made to be broken I guess.
Oh a thousand words
Have never been spoken
They'll fly to you
They'll carry you home and back into my arms
Suspended on silver wings ohhh
I walk outside, they day is darkening into night, I scream the words I've wanted to say for a long time, "I LOVE YOU," I scream it at the sky a 1000 times before I collapse into a heap on the grass, sobbing.
And a thousand words
Call out through the ages
They'll cradle you
Turning all of the lonely years to only days
He broke so many promises, I never really cared, except for the last promise you ever broke.
"YOU SWORE YOU WOULD COME BACK!" I yelled at the dark sky, I can't help myself and the tears continue. As the last rays of light disappear, I could swear I saw your face in the night sky.
"Come back to me," I whisper softly. But you shake your head and disappear from sight. Leaving me, you broke your promise, "I love you," I say softly.
The tears finally stop, and I realize that you wouldn't want me like this. "I'm letting you go," I say into the sky.
I step inside, leaving him is painful, but trying to stay attached is even worse.
They'll hold you forever