I'm not okay
So . . . this is a songfic for I'm not okay (I promise) from My Chemical Romance . . . (though I kinda don't know what it means . . . but oh well!)
"Shut up." That's all he had to say. That's all he wanted to say. There was nothing more to say. Nothing more.
Well if you wanted honesty,
That's all you had to say.
I never want to let you down or have you go,
It's better off this way.
For all the dirty looks,
The photographs your boyfriend took.
Remember when you broke your foot from jumping out the second floor?
No one knew the pain he was going through. No one knew how he felt. No one knew how his heart hurt whenever he saw her. His dear sister. The sister who never knew who he was.
I'm not okay.
I'm not okay.
I'm not okay.
You wear me out.
Yet who would know? No one was like him. No one was the Forbidden Child. No one was alone in the world. Everyone in the world had a loving family. But not him. He was alone. In the cruel world.
What will it take to show you that it's not the life it seems?
(I'm not okay)
I've told you time and time again, you sing the words
But don't know what it means. ( I'm not okay)
To be a joke and look
Another line without a hook.
I held you close as we both shook. For the last time,
Take a good hard look!
He never desired power. Just enough to kill the person he needed to. He was lonely. He just needed someone to talk to. He just needed someone to care. A family member. That is what they are for.
I'm not okay.
I'm not okay.
I'm not okay.
You wear me out.
But he had learned better. To never trust anyone. Though he wanted to. He just couldn't. It was to hard to tell anyone. Of all the pain and hurt.
Forget about the dirty looks,
The photographs your boyfriend took,
You said you read me like a book, but the pages all are torn and frayed
People think that they had bad lives. People think that they are all losers and should die. But he, he had guilt all over his face.
I'm okay.
I'm okay!
I'm okay, now
(I'm okay, now)
He never wanted to admit it, but the people he killed. Innocent people. Just like his sister. Just like his friends. Just innocent people. He killed all of them.
But you really need to listen to me,
because I'm telling you the truth
I mean this.
I'm okay!
(Trust me)
No one understood. Not even his sister. Not even his best friend. No one. Only him. And his little mind. And in the background, he could hear someone calling him.
I'm not okay
I'm not okay.
Well, I'm not okay,
I'm not o-fucking-kay!
im not Okay
He looked behind him. She had disrupted his thinking. She had disrupted everything. Because the word she said was one that was forbidden.
I'm not okaay
Brother.