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January 15, 1994
Caro Diary
It's been a week, I know. But you'll have to bear with me now, because it is all going to come out hard and fast. I've waited long enough.
Like I have said before, it was a mere three years ago I happened upon the town of Fell's Church, and that late one night, my wonderings and fate brought me face to face with my husband Damon, who at that point, I hadn't seen in over five hundred years. It came as no surprise to me that they were fighting when I found them. Well, all right, they weren't fighting exactly, just arguing passionately with each other. At first, they didn't notice me, but pretty soon, I spoke in their minds. Damon looked up at me, shock naked on his face. When Stefan said "Selina, is it really you?" I had to think about it. The truth being I hadn't been called my real name by anyone for a long time. When I was an actress on the stage, I was Miss Maria Carlotti. That's what James knew me as, as well.
To tell you the truth, I never really wanted to be Selina again after my time in the states. It had been such a serene time for me that I'd almost forgotten my past, almost forgotten the man who was now staring at me sulkily like he wasn't too happy to see me, his dark eyes like two raging, unrelenting storms. All we could do was stare at each other. In all the years we were apart, I don't think either one of us could forget what made it so. And we certainly hadn't been either of us completely good. I had become a bigamist, though my intentions were for a better life, and you can't hide that from il buon signore. The Good Lord watches us all the time. So I was staring at Damon, Damon was staring at me. Stefan was staring at both of us, obviously puzzled. After the transformation, Stefan and his brother had separated, so he knew nothing of our marital discourse. But even before we separated, one could tell we wouldn't last long. After Damon quit the University that was the first time I ever became angry with him. I told him that he should care more about education then being an interruttore del cuore, a heartbreaker. It took him forever to get me to respect him after that, and here we were, together again after five hundred years, still nursing wounds our hearts and time hadn't healed. I wish with all my heart that James were here right now. It would be interesting. I think I would like to see how Damon would handle my marriage to another man.
I had had enough of our little staring contest. I told Damon that weather or not he liked it, I was here to stay. I didn't feel it was necessary to tell him about James yet.
I asked them what they had been arguing about before I had interrupted.
Stefan gulped, breathed rather extensively, and said: "We were arguing about my new girlfriend. My new girlfriend Elena."
My pen has run out of ink and it's getting late. Two good reasons to stop here.
Fino a che non veniamo a contatto di ancora
Selina
Incarnated-soul: It was Wilhelm who lost hopes and dreams. I hope you like "the real beginning" (chapter title) of this story. Oh, and how much of VD have you read? I don't want to give anything away! Thanks again for reviewing!