Author's notes: Guys! I'm so sorry it's taken forever for me to update, but I wasn't really all that busy. Just lazy. Hehe.

Date Written: December First

Date posted/finished: December Fourth

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He's dating her.

The skank of the school. The wench. The girl with the blonde, curly hair, the boobs out to Saturn. The girl I'm not.

The girl I don't want to be.

Now, don't get me wrong, I don't want to be that girl. Ever.

Me and James bonded some. We're on good terms, just not what I'd call friends. Of course.

I can't stand that I'm harboring over the fact that he got a girlfriend. He's allowed to, he has the right. I don't like how I'm making this out to be a big dramatic love story when there's no love involved.

He has a new closet bunny, and I have a textbook. Wonderful, isn't it?

It's around Halloween now, and I love the fall at Hogwarts. It's amazing. What, with the golden leaves, and the Whomping Willow going nuts and smacking the first years. It's lovely.

I'm sorry to be so sarcastic, I just... can't help it.

But anyway, I should give this girl a name, shouldn't I? Her name's Victoria Putt. I always found her last name amusing.

But that got me far, didn't it? It landed me sitting, outside, on a rock writing in a Journal no one's ever going to read.

He comes Romeo with his Rosaline. So perfect looking it's hurtful. There I go again, being angst-y.

"Lilykins!" I heard, looking around for a voice. Then, out from behind James and Veronica, broke out Sirius, running over to me, standing at the bottom of the large rock. "Lilykins, Lilykins, let down your hair!"

"Nice, Sirius. But that's Repunzel, and she was blonde." I said, smiling down at the black haired boy, who had eyes of a pale grey.

"Well, I'm coming up there anyhow." He said, looking insulted. His attempt of climbing up the rock amused me, and once he got up, panting, I jumped down gracefully, smiling up at him.

Sirius blinked.

"How'd you get down there? Did I push you! I'm sorry!" He said frantically, jumping down and landing on top of me. "Lils, we have to stop meeting like this!"

"It'd be more romantic if you didn't almost break my ribcage." I said, standing up as he got off of me. "I think you're gaining weight." I giggled, poking his stomach.

"I am not!" He said indignantly, pulling his shirt up some and showing me his flat stomach.

"No, you're not." I agreed, looking at the stomach. "You're just sickly pale." I teased. "Almost like Snape."

"Ooooooooh. You better run, Lily." He threatened, towering over me.

I took his advice, and ran, laughing.

Then I almost ran in to an almost forgotten Mr. Potter and Miss. Putt. Crap.

Waving at James, I ran through them, hearing Veronica's agitated sigh of, "No peace and quiet, James! If we keep getting ran over, we're just going to have to take this somewhere private..."

That just made me run faster. Until, of course, Sirius caught up to me and whisked me away to the kitchens.

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We won our Quidditch game. Which means there's a party going on in the common room. Which means that James and Victoria are grinding and busting moves. Not the place I want to be.

I sighed. I was all dressed up, with no place to go. I stuck my head out of my old dormitory, looking at the crowd below. Now or never, right?

Walking down the stairs, I found Veronica and Remus talking. At my approaching, Veronica was leaving, and that was fine, I needed to talk to Remus, anyway.

"Remussssss." I said, high pitched and giggly.

I could hear Remus groan, and turn around, expecting to see a fan-girl. "Look I-- Hello Lily." He said, smiling.

"Can I please, please, please have your autograph, you're so amazing!" I said, keeping my voice high.

"No, I only give those to pretty girls." He said, mocking me. I laughed.

"Okay, you win." I said, sitting down on the common room's couch. "Let's chat."

Remus looked at me, reading me easily. "About James, right?"

This boy was good.