In My World

I do not own Gilmore Girls or the original characters. I own the other girls and this story and that's pretty much it. You can have the penny that's sitting in front of me if you want.

Rating is T or PG-13 for basic sexuality and a lot of cursing.

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"Well Miss. Gilmore, it looks fine, but continue to put the cream on it. It'll heal quicker and it'll lessen the scar mark." The doctor said a few days later. Rory nodded and pushed her skirt back down to cover herself. "You don't have insurance, do you?"

Rory looked down ashamed, "No."

"It's alright. Tristan is a good friend of mine. I owe him some favors."

"I have cash." Rory said pulling out a wad of $100 bills. The doctor looked at them with wide eyes.

"Keep your money. You'll need it later on." He said smiling kindly. Rory smiled back and got off the table. She made her way into the waiting room and saw Tristan put his magazine back on the table and stand up.

"Ready to go?"

"Yea." She nodded following him out. They both climbed into his car.

"How about we go see your mom today?" Tristan said hoping.

"I don't know, Tristan, I mean—"

"No time like the present." He interrupted. Rory nodded mutely and leaned against the back of the seat. "You know Rory it's really good that—"

"Just drive." She mumbled. He shook his head and started the engine. She watched as the signs passed. Time seemed to fly by just like the signs did. Her thoughts were consumed by her past. All the mistakes she'd made and everything. She couldn't deal with it as she started to cry and choke on her tears. Tristan reached for her hand and held it tightly for the rest of the drive. Her stomach dropped when she saw the Stars Hollow sign. She squeezed his hand.

"You know, in almost any other situation I'd say that we didn't have to do this right now, but you have too." Rory nodded as he stopped the car in front of her childhood home. The home that held her good past, and the one she'd drifted away from. They both got out and Tristan immediately rejoined their hands, slowly rubbing small circles on the top her hand. They mounted the stairs together, Tristan being pulled backwards as he was walking at a faster pace then her. Soon, she joined him in front of the door.

"Well this is it." Tristan said staring at the door.

"Uh huh." She said distractedly.

"Umm, you should probably knock or some—"

"I know." Rory slowly took her hand and knocked softly on the glass. They heard footsteps and then saw the door open. Lorelai stood there in front of them holding a phone in between her shoulder and ear.

"Hey, umm can I call you back?" Lorelai asked before nodding and hanging up.

"So, I want to thank you for the surprise visit, but it really wasn't necessary." Lorelai started to shut the door.

"Louis forced me to have sex with people." Rory blurted out. Lorelai stopped.

"Who's Louis?"

"After I went out with Quinn, I dated Louis."

"Oh right, him. The guy you almost married." Lorelai stood there waiting for an explanation.

"I'd really rather not do this on the porch." Rory said. Lorelai sucked on her cheek and motioned for them to sit on the sofa. Once they were situated, Rory started to talk again.

"I came back, not because I want to make amends with you—I mean I do, but that's not why I came. I came because I think I owe you an explanation. From the time I left home until now, I've murdered someone, I've became a prostitute, been pregnant, been a sex slave against my will, been raped, someone's tried to kill me, and been rescued from being killed. As you can probably tell, I've been through a lot. I've been through a lot, and every time something happened, I wished I could come home and just tell you about everything and we'd wallow together or plan out my revenge." She said wiping away tears.

"I messed up badly, and I realize that now. Before I just didn't want to face my past and I pretended as if my life was the worst thing in the world, and everything from the day after I left Louis, was my new life. Well you of all people know that your past can often just sneak up behind you. I met these girls, and we were a five some. They all had horrible childhoods, so unlike mine."

"Why did you do it?"

"Because I knew how too. Louis forced me to have sex with his friends and soon enough they felt so bad for me, they started to pay for me. One thing led to the next and the next thing I know, I'm a hooker in New York and well known amongst the men. I did it because I wanted to feel needed, and wanted and I had a way to do it, that I knew I wouldn't get hurt." Lorelai was silent.

"I got pregnant from Logan and the baby died. I murdered my boyfriend Quinn because he was too overpowering and I almost killed Louis, but his family treasured him too much, so I didn't. Mom, I'm sorry. I've messed up so badly and if you could ever forgive me or whatever in any way, you don't know how much that would mean to me."

"What about him?"

"Tristan made me realize that everything I was searching for was here, right in Stars Hollow, I was just lost and confused to realize it. As he put it, I'm made at someone and I was so blinded that I didn't see what I was doing. It's not your fault at all mom! I'm an adult and I should have realized it." Lorelai was crying. She shook her head.

"I should have helped you. I should have forced you to tell me what was going on—"

"No! I respect you for what you did and now your allowing me to bathe you in the consequences of things I've done. I'm stupid and I lost all common sense. But now that Tristan's pointed the way, I think I'm getting some back. Now my question is, would you be able to help me?"

"Of course baby, but I'm going to put you in therapy. You've been through too much for us to do this alone. I'll be right there with you the whole time." Lorelai said pulling Rory to her and hugging her tightly. Rory let out a sigh as she hugged her mom back even harder and cried into her shoulder. Tristan looked down and slowly got up and left them alone.

"Not so fast!" Rory called to him. He turned around to look at her. She got off her moms lap and hobbled over to him and hugged him too. He let a smile out as he hugged her back. She leaned back and up and she caught his lips on hers and gently played with his bottom with her teeth. He pulled her tighter to himself and gave back what she was giving him. Love.

One more chapter. Fifteen chapters. Nice! My sister/friend Kiki is really to thank for this piece. I couldn't have done it without her ten read overs of each chapter to make sure they were readable. Lol. Please review. Thanks, Emilie.