Part Four-We Won't Remember
Wallabee Beetles
Numbah Four
I lean against Numbah Three's door. I wonder what's wrong. She been cryin al freakin day.
Well, not all day, she really tore me a new one this mornin.
Girls are so damn complicated.
Just when ya think ya get them, they turn on ya.
We boys are so much easier. all we need is full guts and TV. That simple.
I frown as I remember what me dad said to me a month earlier.
He said Wally, yer becoming a man and soon be thinking like one. He said I will begin to feel changes in my body. Hair in places they neva been before.
I quickly push a part of the crudy conversation from my mind. I don't wanna think about what I've already begun to feel for Kuki.
I shiver at the thought of doing what me dad said to her. The action seemed cruel and he had told me it will hurt the girl the first time.
I growl.
I wish I can forget the things he said as quickly as I forget a school's lesson.
Speaking of school, Kuki does help me study now. I must say for a dummy, she's really smart.
But the studying doesn't really work. I still do bad on test, but at least I'm passing with a C minus, right?
I find Kuki's study sessions... Distracting.
She smells of jasmine flowers and the length of her hair fascinates me. Her smile gets to me and I love her laugh.
I want to tell her how I feel, but every time I try, I choke. I just freeze up.
Why should I have ta tell har anyway? If she doesn't get it by now, she neva will.
I mean, I don't know what I mean. This is maddening.
Ya know what? I should just go right in there and tell her how I feel.
I turn to her door and just when I'm about ta enter, I freeze. Like always.
Why should I tell Kuki I like her? We only got two more years and even then we will be decommenssioned.
Why should I tell her that I've fallen for her?
It's not like we'll remember.