Wasn't that the second time when people said my actions will get me killed? I guess I have a real big thing for that. Maybe I'm meant to stay scared all my life. Why? Because if I do something wrong I'll get killed. How fun. Too bad I don't work that way. I will die eventually. No doubt about it. Like that old saying 'Face your fears'. I have already faced them and have gotten the consequences for them.

I pulled the sleeve of my sweater down. I stared at the scares that embedded in the skin of my arm. I could barely see them anymore. But they still lingered on my arm. Mocking me. They were a great reminder of how much pain I was in.

I remember the day it happened. Cassandra killed my father. I hated her so much. I couldn't handle anything. I overdosed on medical pills and Advil. I nearly killed myself. I learned from that mistake. Gabriel never knew about it. My excuse was that I fell into a bush. He excepted it but I knew he still worried.

When Gabriel died, I knew better than to repeat the past. It did nothing for me the first time except stick me in a phsyc ward for a month. No. I handled it differently. I locked myself in my room and I didn't eat, move or sleep for days. I stayed in the same position. Barely even breathing. If Cassandra wouldn't have been charged for child abuse, she never would have come and gotten me.

I woke up the next morning to the ever sweet sound of Tomoyo and Eriol arguing.

"How the hell was I supposed to know that you were taking a shower?" Eriol yelled.

"The shower was on the curtain was closed and I left the door open to keep the steam out! How the hell could you not know?" Tomoyo growled back.

Lovely couple they were. Really. Yeah last night I found out that they are married. They were supposed to use Eriol's last name but he hated his last name and refused to use it. I'm actually surprised that they don't sleep in the same bed. Or did they tell me it was an arranged marriage? Maybe I'm still half asleep and thinking random thoughts that make no sense.

I took the advantage of the two preoccupied people to take a shower of my own. Door closed and all.

The water was nice and warm. Just how I liked it. I hadn't seen Sayoran since… whenever I fell asleep. Tomoyo said he came to see me a few days ago. I had a little bit of a hard time believing that. He might have said he would, that doesn't mean that he actually would come to see me. Especially when I'm asleep.

I felt the cut on my face. It was a little sore but I've been through worse.

Tomoyo's and Eriol's fighting died down when I heard someone else come into our room. Maybe it was Takashi. He didn't sleep in our room last night. I think he was with his girlfriend Chiharu or something like that. Maybe it was someone telling Tomoyo and Eriol to shut up.

I stepped out of the shower with a pink towel on. I think it was Tomoyo's. I hate pink.

And guess what… I forgot extra clothes. Yeah now I'll have to go out there in just a towel.

Opening up the door slowly and peaked out to see if anyone was there. Nope. I'm safe today.

I tiptoed out to my side of the room. Funny... Why would I tip toe when I'm alone? Habit I guess. I always did it in my house in Japan. I never knew if Cassandra was hiding around the corner.

I successfully got my clothes out of the dresser.

Though successfully getting beck to the washroom was a different story. There stand in the corner of the room just happened to be Macho guy. Sayoran the incredible. How did he get in here? Tomoyo and Eriol probably let him in and left. Why? Because they are stupid.

"So. Your finally awake. I was hopping you would be." Sayoran said in not the nicest voice I've heard.

"Yeah. Why do you care?"

"Oh you know thought I'd just come and have a little chat."

" Your mad about me using you. I understand. Not maybe people would dare do that to the oh so mighty Sayoran."

" Yes but you see, if I would have gotten hit, you would still be asleep or lost in the woods. Not that it would bother me. One less person to push me out into a clearing."

This was annoying.

"So want to tell me the real reason for coming here? Or do you enjoy seeing me in only a towel?"

He didn't answer me so I walked towards the bathroom. Did I think I was going to get away from his lectures that easily? Of course not. If he wanted to talk to me he would. This just gets it out faster.

He grabbed my elbow and swung me to him.

"Why don't you stay a while? Your on in room suspension for trying to leave so we have a while here."

"Let me get changed and you might just be lucky enough to get two words in. If you let go of me now I'm willing to give you five words."

"Great deal. Maybe I'll take you up on that."

"Good."

"As long as you can make that six words I'll even let you brush your hair and teeth."

"Sorry that's worth ten words. And that's time I don't want to waste."

"Then let your time be wasted."

Sayoran pushed me into the bathroom and closed the door from behind me.

That's alright. I could stay in here and he might go away….

"Don't even think of staying in there. I'm giving you five minutes."

….bastard.

I locked the door. I think he figured that out when I took longer than five minutes. Maybe he really would go away.

I was still in the middle of getting my t-shirt on when the door magically opened. I stood there, with only pants and bra on. Sayoran stood there being quite amused.

"Twenty minutes and still not dressed." He shook his head, laughing.

"I like taking my time." I said shrugging the rest of my shirt on.

" Well. Now that you are fully clothed, you owe me about two hundred words. And a compromise."

"What do you want to compromise about? If I don't push you in front of tranquillizer guns again, you wont come and visit me while I'm running around in a towel?"

"You owe me. I saved you from being punished out there. And believe me its no trip to Happy Land."

"Before you tell me to agree to whatever compromise this is you have to tell me first. I've known too many people that got into hit doing that."

"Hmm. You see, I don't do it that way. Either you agree or face the consequences."

"I'm not afraid."

"You should be."

"I'm stronger than you think."

"Then why were you so scared to go into the clearing."

"I'd rather have tested it first. I'm not one to jump right into things."

"Really? So you will hate me for the rest of your life if I do this without testing it first?"

Now that just confused me.

Well at least right up until he decided to kiss me.

I'll say it again… he kissed me.

It wasn't the first time I had been kissed. Gabriel made sure of that.

But this wasn't Gabriel. This was a different boy. And this different boy was at his limits already.

I think I surprised Sayoran as much as when I pushed him when I brought a swift fist to his cheek, successfully releasing my lips from his.

" I hope you got what you wanted out of that."

"Oh I got more than what I wanted. I just hope that you know now that you will never know what you would have agreed to. I'll make sure of it."

"I hope you do. Then maybe I could get out of here without you trying to stop me."

"No. I'll just have fun with watching you try."

Like I said, many updates. My third today. That's what I get for being bored. But either way I want to get this story done so I can start another one cause I'm not multitalented and I cant do two stories at a time.

Luv Janey