How could he do that to me. I thought about his so called 'compromise'…. It was driving me crazy.

"Oh I got more than what I wanted. I just hope that you know now that you will never know what you would have agreed to. I'll make sure of it."

Sayoran wants me to go to him. Beg him to tell me what he wants and agree to it. Will I actually beg? Of course not. Why? He's not worth begging. Make him come to me. That's if he wants whatever it is bad enough……

……Why the hell is he doing this to me! No one makes me want to beg. No one! And then this jackass comes along and thinks he's all the shit!…Great… just great. Now I am the most needy person there is. God I hated boys. Maybe if I just don't talk to him or even look at him, I wont think of it.

It wasn't the best plan in the world. I still saw Sayoran because he was always in at least one of my classes. I could never figure out which room was his home room. He mocked me in my own room when Eriol and Tomoyo had him over to visit. I'm pretty sure they thought it was kind of weird when I took a shower every time he came. And if I had to guess Sayoran didn't tell Tomoyo or Eriol our little secret about what happened the day they let Sayoran in.

Surprisingly enough I was able to keep my 'need to know' craziness down. But in turn I think Sayoran was starting to get annoyed.

I was once again alone in my room. It was after school hours so I had taken a shower and was now in black sweatpants and black tank top. I was about to fall asleep when I felt the bottom of my bed gain weight. It could have been two things: one- the bed frame was braking, or two: there was a giant rat on my bed. If I had to pick one I would say that the bed frame was breaking. Now in reality, these were new bed frames so my unfortunate guess of a giant rat took over the broken bed frame position.

"Now. Why would such a girl like you be going to sleep at this time of night."

Yes. It was a giant rat.

"I'm sorry did I wake you."

Yes you did. You and your ratty ratness.

"Come on. I know your awake so at least open one eye to say that you know I'm here."

How about I just flip you off.

"Now that was offensive. Well at least you still have your guts. Your going to need them again."

Wasn't I warned about using my guts?

"Get up."

"Screw you. Why don't you go get Eriol or Tomoyo? I'm pretty sure wherever they are they wont mind being-"

Damn it… this was getting on my nerves. Yes he kissed me again.

" Well. Now that I have your undivided or unsingle minded attention, we are going to the groves. Grab your shoes and a sweater. It's a little bit chilly out there."

Did I really want to go with him? Of course not. Was I going to go anyways to see what he's on about? Of course I was. Why? It's all interest. And interest always gets the better of me.

Again, I meet the wall lifting act by Eriol. He and Tomoyo were waiting for me and Sayoran I guess. We got to the Groves, but this time I noticed a lot more people than there was the first time I came.

"Come on Kinomoto! Grab a board!"

For some really stupid reason, I grabbed a board. But this time I wasn't going to run away with it. Maybe if I stayed a while and got used to these people… something good would happen.

"Hey Kinomoto! Want to race!" Sayoran yelled to me.

"Five bucks in my pocket says I'll win!" And before Sayoran could say anything I sped off.

Why was I doing this? I had no clue. But I was having fun. It has been a long time since I had fun. Back when Gabriel was alive we would do this all the time. And now we are doing it again….

….But Sayoran wasn't Gabriel.

"Damn. That's the last time I race against you. You don't even have pockets!" Sayoran whined.

"Suck it up! I'm sure its not the first time you've been beaten by a girl."

……

"You have got to be kidding me! Hahaha!"

Sayoran had never lost to a girl. This was the best accomplishment I think I ever made. When we raced Sayoran came pretty close to beating me even if I had a head start.

Something told me that I was the new popular girl in school. Every one tried to race me at the Groves that night. And I beat every one of them. Maybe it would blow over soon. I never wanted to be popular. Popular people disgust me.

I had a dream. I bad dream. This wasn't like any other dream I have had.

It was me and Gabriel. It was that night at the park. But Gabriel was alive.

"Will you come with me?" He asked.

"Where?"

"Anywhere. Will you?"

"Of course."

"Thank you….I love you Sakura."

My breath was caught in my throat. He said he loved me…. He loved me. Why? I didn't understand.

"Sakura watch out!"

I heard the sound of a shot gun… then nothing. I only saw Gabriel jump in front of me and wrap his arm around me. Then… all I saw was blood. It cover me. I was drowning. I couldn't breath. I…. died.

Now see after that dream, I didn't wake up. No I was not dead. I was in a state of shock. How? Maybe it was the dream. Or maybe I got knocked out last night skating. I didn't know. I just wouldn't wake up. I knew Tomoyo tried to wake me up. She was scared. And so was I. I saw everything. I knew who came in my room and who said what.

I think they gave me some sort of drug to help me wake up. I felt them give me a needle or something. It didn't work for a few hours. Maybe they overdosed me on the drug. Maybe I chose not to wake up. Maybe I was too scared. Of what? I didn't know.

Someone was watching me. I felt there eyes sting my body. Maybe it was a nurse. Maybe it was Tomoyo. Maybe the drug as finally working. Fr the first time in what felt like months, I opened my eyes. But doing that earned me a huge headache. I felt like I was back at the phsyc ward. People watching my every move. An I.V. attached to my arm.

"Oh your awake! Can you see very well? Is your hearing ok?"

Yes I can see fine and yes I can hear you LOUD AND CLEAR.

"I'll go get Mr. Kazall."

You can go right on a head.

God. This was one of the least places I wanted to be in. The nurses office. I hate offices. I hate nurses. And I damn well hate I.V.'s. I pulled the I.V. out of my arm and sat up. Shouldn't have done that. Pain cursed through my head. Despite my pain I hauled myself off of the bed and started back to my room. The hallways looked kind of wavy. I'm still surprised I was able to find my way back to my room.

Funny though.. When I got into my room, I think I know why Tomoyo or Eriol didn't come to visit me the last few days. I don't think they even missed me.

"Am I interrupting something? Or do you guys normally suck face?"

If only I had a camera at that moment.

I needed a shower. I smelled like a hospital.

I'm not sure if I confused myself or if the chapter makes sense but I wrote half of this chapter in the morning. So have fun!

Luv Janey