Well. Mr. Kazall came to visit.
Yippee!…
The conversation went like this:
"Sakura! You should be back in the nurses office!"
"Now why would I want to be back there?"
"Because you are still dru- not very stable."
"So you put me on drowsy meds. I see."
"It was for your own good."
"So you gave me sleeping drugs… but I was already asleep?"
……
"Hahaha! You have got to be kidding me! They weren't sleepy drugs!"
"This has nothing to do with the drugs."
"Oh so it has to do with your mom?"
"My what?"
" Shirley Valentine."
"Wha-?"
"Pink bunnies."
"I think I'll leave now."
"Good choice. Unless you really want you green emu back!"
Yes that was a lot of fun. Besides the fact that they might have overdosed me on drugs and wanted me under a 'watchful eye'. But you know not everyone gets what they want.
I decided to go to the Groves by my self. Why? Maybe it was out of boredom. Or maybe I was going to try to run away again. Either way I wanted to be alone. Was I really going to be alone? Of course not. Why? No one was ever alone when heading to the Groves or in my case, going to bed.
Now. How did Eriol do this again? I didn't know. Maybe he had special powers. Or maybe he just happened to put his hands underneath the crack from the wall to the floor. But then again… the splinters in the wood didn't seem to much fun to stick my hand into.
"Want help? Or are you just gong to stand there the rest of the night?"
Like I said, no one is ever alone.
"Why would I want your help?"
"Because you looked hopelessly lost."
Idiot… I hated Sayoran.
Of course he too did a little magic tricky thing and lifted up the wall. I Could have punched him right then but he was my ticket in and out of this place.
Love your hate
Your faith lost
I took a skate board and glided down the dirt hill. The air whipping past my face and swirling my short hair. I knew Sayoran was behind me. No. We were not racing again. He knew better. We were only skating. No one else to be there to bet on who would fall first. Just me and Gabriel.
You are now
One
One of us
No Sayoran was not Gabriel. But all signs of Gabriel led back to him. Maybe I was going crazy. Maybe I really did love Gabriel…. Did he really love me? He never said it. Maybe because if he really did love me he would show it. Not say it right away like every other boy. Gabriel was different. Sayoran is different… just like Gabriel.
Love your hate
Your faith lost
Sayoran will never be Gabriel. I hated Gabriel. I hated Sayoran. But why do I think of them all the time? I started to cry. I never cried. Not like this. Never like this. The tiny droplets flew from my eyes as the wind carried them .
You are now
One
One of us
They were almost the same person. But total opposites. I didn't even understand it. Gabriel was gone. Sayoran was here.
I went through a tunnel. It felt like a never ending tunnel. Dark. Damp. A small light that grew bigger. Could that be how the rest of my life goes? Dark? Damp? A light that grew bigger?
Nothing from nowhere, I'm no one at all
As I came out of the tunnel I saw Gabriel a head of me. His blonde hair waving around as his shirtless body glistened. His strong legs steered him to the right. I followed. I wanted so desperately for him to turn around so I could see his gorgeous eyes again. But all he did was take another right. I followed still. I wanted Gabriel.
Radiate recognize one silent call
He stopped right by the forest. He stared at it. Wondering weather to go in or not. I didn't want him to move anymore. I was so close to touching him again. Breathing in his musky scent again. Seeing him again. So close but so far away.
As we all form one dark flame
I touched his arm. That wasn't how he felt. That wasn't how he smelled. I turned him around. That wasn't his eyes. That wasn't his lips. That wasn't his hair. That wasn't his body…. It wasn't Gabriel….
As we all form one dark flame
I closed my eyes and opened them again. It still wasn't Gabriel. I touched his arm again. It still wasn't Gabriel. My eyes lingered to his eyes. It still wasn't Gabriel. Nothing about this person was Gabriel. Not even the way he looked at me. Not even the way he touched my arm. Not even the way he spoke.
Nothing from no where, I'm no one at all
I felt hot tears come to my eyes again. I knew I saw Gabriel. He was there. I saw him. He was alive. I looked around. No. No. He was here. I saw him. I know I did. He was still alive.
Radiate recognize one silent call
As we all form one dark flame
I felt myself sinking to the ground. I didn't care. My hands fell from the boy's body and landed on the ground hard. I didn't care. The tears ran down my face. I didn't care. The cold night air stung my wet face. I didn't care. The boy wrapped his arms around me. It felt like when Gabriel saved me when he was shot. I didn't dare look up.
As we all form one dark flame
I knew no matter how many times I looked… it still wouldn't be Gabriel. I didn't dare hug him back. I didn't dare call out his name. I dared myself to not break down again. I dared myself to heal. I dared myself to forget…. To forget everything.
Love your hate
Your Faith lost
You are now
One
One of us
Ya this chapter was kind of sad. But the song that was on there was AFI, The leaving song part 2 I think. The song might not go with the chapter but I thought.. Hey! Why not humour myself to see what anyone else thinks!
Luv Janey.