You know, if you really paid close attention, you could see her talking to her self. The old woman on the park bench I mean. She was kind of fat, long white hair, and rusty looking eyes. I sat on another bench a little ways away from her. Why? I was waiting for Sayoran to get here. The slow ass said to meet him at the park in town and here I am waiting for him. Why did he want to meet me here? I didn't know. Maybe he was going to give me ice cream like a little child. Maybe he was going to give me a swift kick in the ass because I stole some money from him. Maybe he just wanted to watch the old lady talk to herself.

"Are you just going to sit there all day and wait for something exciting to happen?" A voice asked from behind me. Oh lucky me. I get the sneaky approach. I turn around to see Sayoran standing there looking all smug in his beige cargo pants and black shirt. I stand up and walk towards him not saying a word. I flicked him on the nose and said,

"What took you so long? I had to sit there and watch that lady over there talk to herself for about half an hour."

"Yeah sorry about that. Mikelle wanted to talk to me about something."

I was about to ask what it was but instead Sayoran grabbed my hand and pulled me towards the forest in the park.

"I want to show you something."

How nice. Maybe it was a pile of mud. Maybe it was just the trees. Maybe it was the most beautiful thing I had ever seen……

When I say most beautiful thing I have ever seen, I mean a tiny sparkling pond, cherry blossom trees that covered the sky. Why was this so beautiful? Because if you were there, you would know what I am talking about.

I stood there frozen. My gaze catching every inch of the wonderful sight. I smiled. I really smiled. And it was full of heart. Not the ever faked smile that I know Sayoran hated. It was the smile that I never smiled before.

I felt Sayoran slip behind me and wrap his arms around my waist. He is such a romantic. Well, I wasn't really one for romance. But this was just perfect.

"I love it when you smile. It shines in your eyes." Sayoran whispered into my hair. His breath lingered on my neck. I felt chills.

He moved away from me and went to sit by the edge of the pond. Instead of following him, I turned to the trees and found the perfect one. I started to climb up the tree to the I could rest in it. So that I could see all of what Sayoran showed me.

"Its beautiful." I said almost breathlessly.

"I knew you would like it." Sayoran said from the ground. I saw a tiny flash and I heard a little click from where Sayoran was. I looked down to him to see him put away a camera. I would have ripped him apart if I wasn't in a tree. Why? Because I hate having my picture taken. They had to do that back at Tie Diamond. I nearly shot the guy.

Sayoran looked up at me. He had that twinkle in his eye that he usually got. I don't know what it means. It just appears some times. Maybe its because he's happy. Maybe its because he has something in his eye. Maybe its because he loves me and wants so desperately to say it. But I wouldn't let him.

I felt guilty now. What if I never allowed him to say it? Would he start to not like me anymore? Maybe he would end our relationship. Maybe he would hate me. I could not have that.

I jumped down from the tree, landing right beside him. He didn't look at me. He just stared at the little pool. I stared at him though. I think I finally respected just how much I liked his eyes. His golden amber eyes. They were full of joys and pains. Maybe I did that. Brought him pain.

"You can say it if you want." I said to him. Sayoran turned to look at me.

"Say what?" He asked.

"You know. Say you… love…" I trailed off. I didn't really want to embarrass myself if he really didn't feel that way.

"I thought you didn't want me to say it?" He said again. God why did he have to me so good to me!

"I know. But, I'm not sure about this but, I think you want to say it. I think I have held you back from saying it long enough. I wont say it. But you know how I feel right? Nothing will change its just, I cant say it. Not yet." I explained feeling like a fool.

Sayoran looked at me like he was surprised. And why shouldn't he? I would never say anything like this. Why? Because its just not what I do. I am the ungrateful, sarcastic girl that doesn't soften up like this. I think I am going crazy. We stared at each other for another second. Sayoran put a hand on my cheek.

"Sakura. I-" I'm pretty sure I know what Sayoran would have said, if the cell phone hadn't gone of in his pocket. Why did this always happen on a situation like this? Because its just the way things go. Why? Because the world is one big screw up.

Shit.

That was time well wasted. Sayoran gave me the "I'm pissed off too" look. Couldn't blame him.

"Hello." He answered the phone.

"Where are you and Sakura?" The phone said back with a voice that sounded like Selina's.

"We are in town at the park. Why?"

"We need you back here. One of the houses were ambushed. We think the Tigers are looking for someone."

"Alright. We'll be there in a little while."

Sayoran hung up the phone that imitated Selina's voice.

"Come on. I think this might have to wait for later." Sayoran said. He glanced at me one more time, then took my hand in his again and walked off in the direction we came in.

Now I'm not really saying I totally believe in this, but it is said that things that come in three's are omens. First it was the interruption between me and Sayoran. Now I see bullet holes in the windows. The glass broken. The front door smashed. I couldn't tell if anyone was inside. But that's the second bad thing today. I really wish I didn't have this omen thing stuck in my head now.

Before Sayoran stopped fully on the side of the road, I jumped out and ran to the house, pulling out my ever handy gun. Why? Who knew what was in there. I stopped just before the doorway and peered in. I couldn't see anything or anybody. So with that little fact in my head I dashed through the doorway and into the hall. Still no one.

What the hell was going on? I didn't know. Why? Because I am stupid. Sayoran came up behind me.

"Where is everyone?" He asked.

"Over here!" Someone called.

We swivelled around to see Shaynu at the end of another hall. We ran down there to meet him.

"What happened?" I asked.

"The Tigers thought they could ambush us. They came on foot. Sneaky people. But Mikelle saw them before they got closer than a few yards." Shaynu explained.

"Where is every one else?"

"In here." Shaynu led me and Sayoran into the basement. Is was an area that me and Sayoran hadn't seen much of. Apparently it was supposed to be the safest place in the house.

Once we got down there I saw Selina holding her left arm. She was probably shot there. Jamie was sitting against the wall. Blood leaked from his fore head. Lily tried to keep his head from bleeding but it was a really bad cut that looked like it didn't want to give in anytime soon.

"Sakura. I need to talk to you." Mikelle said.

"O-Ok." I said a little shaken from the sight of others that had injuries.

Mikelle took me back upstairs and over to his 'office' type thing that he was always in. No one really went in there except for Selina and Mikelle.

"Sakura, I heard something one of the Tigers yelled. I cant be to sure of it though." He started off.

"What did you hear?" I asked not really wanting to know. Maybe they were coming after Sayoran. Maybe they wanted something important from us. But why would he just tell me?

"They said something about… you. They said they wanted you. We didn't get anything more than that. But I know that they are looking for you. We managed to kill off most of them. I think only two got away."

"A-are you sure you heard that?" I was scared. Why? Because I was a new target. Targets are not just the things you play on where you shoot an arrow and see if you hit it. In gangs, targets mean that they either want you dead because you are a threat to them, or you have something they want.

"Yes I am quite sure. I know what your thinking. I don't like it any better than you do. Remember that promise that Sayoran made us say when we wanted you two in? Well that still hasn't broken."

I could barely hear him anymore. This was scary. More scary than being chased down a highway while being shot at. More scary than being shot. Why? Because…. Because… I cant even answer myself anymore.

I started to panic inside. I think Mikelle saw it. I think the whole world saw it.

Me. Panicking. Shaking. Crying….Wishing that I was never born into this life of hate, murder, and dieing. If I could fix it I would. How? I wouldn't live anymore if I said how. Sayoran could be with a lovely girl that isn't me. I wouldn't endanger the gang. I would be the lonely girl that liked being lonely. I would not be in this world. I would see the way things are supposed to be.

But how are things supposed to be?

Yes well. This wasn't really my plan. I didn't really want to keep writing this story. But hell here it is! I'm going to end the story! Its not going to take so long though. Maybe about five or six more chapters…. Or less I don't know. Like it has always been I think of these things off the top of my head. So anyways hope your happy those of you who like the story. Sorry if I disappointed you before.

Luv Janey