You never really think about things like this often. It's like it'll never happen to you because it just wouldn't be the right thing. But until you finally realize that you were wrong, that you were not the one person in the world that is safe, you realize many things. Maybe they were lost memories. Maybe they were things you longed to forget but never really got rid of. Maybe it was the pain you felt a long time ago.

Memories came back to me as I stood in front of Mikelle, still being in his office. I could hear his distant voice. He was trying to bring me back to his world. The world where I was in danger. The world where I put people in danger. The world I hated.

I saw his fuzzy figure. He reached out to me as if I would sip away forever. I wish I would. Maybe then there would be no point for people to get hurt… for me.

Sayoran… I thought of Sayoran. What would he do? Leave me because he doesn't want to get hurt? Kill me to save the pain? Break my heart…?

No I wouldn't allow that. I'll be the first one to leave. I'll never come back. If I leave no one will get hurt. If I leave I'll be happy on my own. If I leave….

Now I wasn't too sure of this, but maybe I fainted or blacked out. I felt like shit. My head hurt. My stomach lurched. My legs were barely able to move. Yep. You could say this was a first class wave of shock. Either that or someone decided to get me drunk without my knowing. I couldn't open my eyes. Not yet. I'm not really in the best mood to see what would be seen in front of me.

It could be any of a few things: Sayoran or someone else in the gang

All of the gang

The gang doctor (that just happened to be away when the gang was attacked)

Or (my personal favourite) a blank room

I listen for anything. Movement. Breathing. Anything that would say someone was there.

I tried to feel for someone. Feel if someone was watching me without them touching me. Feel if anyone was in the room (a little talent of mine). Feel for anybody.

I heard or felt nothing. Either there was one in here and I am just paranoid. Or someone had a magical aura and were able to hide it from me. Sneaky people they are. And to think I thought I knew them. Maybe they knew I could feel people. Maybe they are just taking precautions cause they don't want me to freak. Maybe I am just paranoid. Maybe I should just open my eyes.

I slowly started to open my eyes. Why? Because I wanted to see what was out in front of me. Why? Because I'm an idiot.

My eyes being fully opened, I looked around. No one. Well at least no one that I could see. But at that moment, the door to the bathroom opened to show a half naked Sayoran. I guessed he just came out of the shower. Steam surrounded him. Almost like a mist.

I wanted to close my eyes again. I wanted to pretend I was still asleep. Maybe then I wouldn't have to talk to anyone.

I quickly closed my eyes but I could still see through a crack. Sayoran looked at me. He wasn't happy. Why? I didn't know. He just seemed like he could kill everything in hell if he wanted to.

He looked away and walked over to where his new clothes lay on a chair. That's when I noticed that I still couldn't feel him. It still felt like I was alone in the room. Maybe it was because I saw him. Maybe my senses just weren't working today. But if I couldn't feel him, wouldn't that mean that he hid his aura? Meaning that he would have a magical power?

No. No. That's just stupid. If he had a magical power, Sayoran would have told me. But then again, I never knew why he ended up in Tai Diamond….

I 'woke up' again just in time to see Sayoran slip on his black shirt. He turned around. At that instant I felt his aura flare up with happiness.

"Ha! I knew it!" I yelled, not thinking about how Sayoran would take my sudden out burst. Of course that kind of showed on his face as he looked really confused. Well who wouldn't when you think someone is asleep and they yell "Ha! I knew it!" at you?

"Um. You knew what?" Sayoran asked.

Ok. Now this really didn't think about. Did I really want to tell Sayoran what I had discovered about him? Of course not. Why? Maybe because I would be so wrong that Sayoran would try to stick me in Tai Diamond again.

"Uhh. Nothing. It was just a dream. I uh…. Good Morning!" I stuttered out.

"Try good night. That must have been some dream."

"Yeah well. You know how some people get those really weird dreams. Heh."

Sayoran just looked at me like I was the craziest person he'd seen. Maybe I was. For all I know, I could be the craziest person alive. But I couldn't let Sayoran know that I knew he was some sort of…magical person. Again, for all I know, I could just be in this weird delusional state. I hoped so. I'm not one for magical things.

I was still kind of in that weird state where you have a head and your dizzy but your still very aware of what's going on. I'm pretty sure Selina gave me some painkillers or Advil. It wasn't helping that much. Either that or she just painted a M&M or something and made it taste chalky and dry. We planned to go to a club tonight. Maybe to see what the Tigers were planning. Maybe to see how long we could stay there without being disturbed. Why? Couldn't say. Sayoran argued for me to stay here but Mikelle said that I would be in danger alone.

Point taken.

Either way Sayoran wanted me safe. He talked to Mikelle for awhile. About what? I didn't know. Why? Cause it apparently was a 'secret' talk. I don't like secrets very much. Especially if its concerning my safety. I like safety very much. It ensures that I am safe. Hence the word 'safety'. I'm thinking Selina was in on this whole secretive thing too. She decided that she would drag me all the way up to her room.

I swear this room is where the first omens that changed my life happened. Well sort of. Remember ; first I actually got into the pink and yellow disgusting room. Second I slipped in the shower. And third she gave me the clothes that I now have grown accustomed to.

"So what where you a-" I started but was interrupted.

"Your going to wear some of my clothes again tonight." Selina said.

"Why? My clothes are fine." I say confused.

"I know they are. I just wanted for you to try some new clothes I made myself. I made another matching pair but you have a skirt." Selina said.

This wasn't flowing too well with me but I went along anyways. They were up to something. What? I didn't know. Why? Because I'm a retard.

Selina pushed the clothes into my hands and shoved me into the bathroom. How I hated this bathroom.

I walked out about ten minutes later. Now this was… different. It felt like I was wearing almost nothing. Just a piece of short, black leather the surrounded my hips to barely my mid thighs. And two black pieces of long material the spiralled up around my stomach, just covering my chest and looped around my neck. Not really what I expected. But what else can you expect from the unexpectable Selina? That's right. The unexpected.

It wasn't too long after that we left. Instead of motorcycles, we took cars. No there were no red buttons involved. I think I had enough of those the first time I ever saw one.

Sayoran drove. I was still a little light headed. Of course I said I felt fine but he didn't trust me either way when I offered that I would drive. We used one of the cars I won at the race. It was black, basically the same as the rest of the gangs car. But this one had a few extra features. I hadn't figured them out yet. One kind of looked like a sliding roof button. Another one looked like a flame thrower. That would have been my favourite one if Sayoran would've let me push the button. Grumpymeister.

We soon heard the loud booming of music coming from a club called Magila. Flashy, but not much else to the name unless they specialized in making a new drink that was named Magila. I doubted it.

Walking past the guard type guy we went to a big booth that was located in the corner. Big because everyone from the house (that included fifteen people) and another house that gave us a total of thirty-six people. Why so many? Couldn't say.

A guy came up to us and asked what we wanted. As a joke to myself I asked for a Magila. Like I expected, no Magila's for me. Instead it turned out to be Sake. Why? I didn't know. First thing that came out of me mouth I guess.

After a few gulps, me and Selina excused ourselves to go dancing. Of course the rest of the girls followed us. Why? Nothing better to do than to follow other people I guess. A guy came up and tried to dance with me. I looked at Selina. She just danced towards me. I think the guy thought we were lesbians. Ha- ha. Lesbians. Funny. Not to be rude. By all means, lesbians can be that way. As long as its not with me.

The guy eventually went away. Considering me and Selina were practically all over each other trying desperately to get the guy to leave.

I was starting to get thirsty again so I told Selina that I would be back. It was a little hard finding my way through all the people dancing. I had to punch one guy for grabbing my ass. I think he's still out cold somewhere on the floor.

Finally navigating myself to where the people ended and where the booths were, I headed back towards our table. I heard mumbling coming from our booth. I got a little closer. It was only the guys. I just wanted to get a drink. I slowly walked closer…..

"They are going to hurt her."

….. I stopped dead in my tracks.

"How do you know that for sure?" It was Sayoran's voice.

"They've done this before. They wont hesitate. You and Sakura have to leave." Mikelle said calmly.

"To where? We do not have anywhere else to go. And you know what you saw on the TV yesterday." Sayoran argued again.

'What? What did you see on the TV?' I wanted to ask them that so bad. But what would they say if they knew I was listening?

"I know… I don't want to have to take that risk. But the Tigers want her. Bad. I would rather her not be in that situation." I could tell that Mikelle's calmness was getting to Sayoran. But I wanted to know desperately what they saw on the TV. Maybe it was just a little bomb thing that was blamed on us. Maybe Sayoran was just overreacting. But why would he overreact? I didn't know. Why? Maybe because I still haven't seen another side of him. A side he wanted to hide from me.

"Either way, she is in trouble. The only thing that I can think of that you do right away, is get out of here fast. That way, no one can find you." Mikelle said.

"I cant do that! She doesn't deserve-"

"Listen Sayoran! I don't even want to find you! I will not stand around and watch another loved one of our gang get killed! I swore to you that I wouldn't let her get hurt. And I am keeping my promise. Whether you like it or not. You WILL leave tomorrow. I WILL NEVER hear of you two being back here again. Got it?" I winced at the sound of Mikelle's voice. I had never heard his voice so harsh. It was always calm and reassuring. I wanted to crawl into a corner and hide.

I don't think Sayoran said anything again. All I heard was some shuffling and foot steps…. Towards me. Oh boy. I turned back around to go the way I came. Well that was until I felt a strong arm grab my elbow. Oh goody. I was caught. By who? I didn't want to turn around and find out. Why? I didn't want to hear what that person had to say.

"Sakura. I'm sorry. I know you heard what we said."

Ok. You just broke rule number one. And I don't want to talk back.

"What's going on Sayoran?"

And I just broke rule number two.

I didn't look at him. Just stared at the wall in front of me. Pretending that the wall was in its underwear. Just to cheer me up.

"I can't explain that now. But please. Tell me something?"

I turn around to stare at Sayoran. No more naked, underwear wall. Just Sayoran.

"What?" I ask.

"Do you trust me?"

We have a staring contest. Who cannot look at each other the longest. We stare at the floor. At the walls. Anything but each others eyes. But Sayoran starts to lose this game badly. He starts to stare at me. I can feel it. His eyes first roaming at my feet. Then they glide up my legs and to my stomach. Up my stomach, past my chest and to my face that is staring at the floor.

Why couldn't I answer? I didn't know. Why? Because I am an idiot. This shouldn't have been hard to answer.

Sayoran is losing points fast. I was winning this game. The 'stare at anything but Sayoran' game. Did I want to be losing? Of course I did. Was I going to make my self lose anyways? Of course I was. Why? Because I should.

First I start at his feet. Then my eyes glide up his legs and to his stomach. Up his stomach, past his chest and to his face that was staring back at me.

"Yes." I said.

Of course I trusted him. Why hadn't I gotten it out quicker? Because I am stupid. If only I could rewind time and say it the day I met him.

His eyes. They had that look again. The look that gobbled me up in the pools of amber.

Damn.

I hated it that I felt this way. But loved it at the same time. Love and hate. Stupid words. They say so much to one person. But they are only letters put into a word and is said that they mean something great.

"I love you."

Oh whoa! Now how did it come to this! Who else is after Sakura? Oh man. I'm sorry I ever quit this story. Haha! Happiness is great! Well unless you hate happiness.

Luv Janey