I felt warm sheets around me. It felt so nice. I think it felt that way cause I was naked still. I opened my eyes and looked around. Different room from before, that much I knew. I sat up which made the sheets fall down to my lap, exposing my chest. Yelling. I heard yelling from outside the room. It sounded like Syaoran…and another woman.

"So she is just another rebel. A disgrace like you." Said the woman.

I wasn't too sure if they were talking about me but, that woman sounded like a bitch.

"I will not allow you to talk about Sakura like that. She is not how you think she is." I heard Syaoran say.

Thank you Syaoran.

"Oh really? So she was in Tai Diamond for no reason then?"

"Yes. Her step mother hated her. I helped her get out. She couldn't live in that school."

"So why didn't she just get out herself? From what I heard on the news, she is quite an abomination."

Bitch!

"Do you think I wanted to stay there either? She needs me, and I need her. She doesn't know how much I need her."

"This has nothing to do with her needs. It has to do with you. How you got out of that school and now have police after you. I should call them right now. They will take you and that little girl away forever."

I hate you!

"I don't know why I even bothered coming here. I should have known you would be like this."

"Be like what? The mother that knows how to keep you from going back to the way you were?"

"…..I'm leaving."

Syaoran opened and closed the door behind him. As he did that I pulled the sheets back up to wrap around me. He rested his back against the door and rammed his head into it. I winced. I tried to move but something was stopping me. Syaoran looked up at me and walked over.I looked stupefied at my knees, then as Syaoran came closer I looked up at him.

" Don't try to move. You hurt your knees badly. You bruised them."

"Syaoran…what happened?"

"You fell in the shower. Don't you remember?"

"Yes I remember that now, but…who were you talking to? Why are you leaving?"

"My mother" he said with much distaste "and…we are leaving, along with Mei Lin. I cant stand my mother. I know you heard what we said. I hope you understand, I never thought differently of you."

I just looked at him. Not sympathetically. Just looked. Why? I don't know. Maybe cause I just needed to look at him. Maybe I am just in a dream world and staring at random things.

….wait….what's that pounding sound?

"Syaoran!"

It came faster than the speed of light. It was a swirl of black and red hair, tumbling over Syaoran.

It could be one of a few things. A talking red and black dog. A clean bog beast. Or random talking hair. Now back to the real world I'd say it was Mei Lin.

"Syaoran! Please say your taking me with you? I cant stay here any more." Mei Lin pleaded, with a gush of tears to go with it.

"Whoa, calm down. Of course I'm taking you with us. What's the matter?" Syaoran soothed.

I felt this sudden pang of emotion. What was it? I had no clue.

"Aunt Yelan, she….she…doesn't like me…very much and…" she trailed off.

Syaoran got the instant hint of what was happening to Mei Lin. He pulled her in close and let her head lie on his chest. All the while I'm watching and still trying to get my emotions straight. Maybe it was hate. Maybe it was happiness. Maybe I'm just being stupid, which tends to happen a lot now a days.

Syaoran 'shh'ed, and rubbed Mei Lin's back as she cried into him. His back was to me so I couldn't see what his face was thinking. It was a big struggle, but I can safely tell you that getting up with bruised, bloody knees.. Is not easy. Walking is another fun story. Usually you limp with one leg. Limping with two legs looks like your mad dashing it while kids are attached to your legs.

I wobbled my way into the bathroom with the white sheets around me having still being naked. I wanted to see my face. See what my eyes were thinking.

They were the normal, abnormal green colour. Bright and shiny. But there was a flicker of that unknown emotion in them. It didn't go anywhere. Just stayed dead right in the middle. I looked a it for a long while. Its still there.

Then it came to me….either I was really hungry….or this was jealousy. Now out of consideration of my stomach….I'd say I was hungry. Now back to the emotion that I couldn't identify, I'd say it was jealousy. Why? I have no clue.

Mei Lin is Syaoran's cousin. Unless Syaoran suddenly turns incest (which I doubt...but I have heard of family marrying...) then I highly doubt I have anything to worry about….

….but she's still another girl who gets his attention!

So what you get more attention than she does. Says my ever annoying mind.

But I don't want him to give attention to other girls.

Your being greedy Sakura.

…..God I hate you.

I heard a muffled voice behind the bathroom door. It kind of sounded like,

"ere is saura?"

If I didn't know any better I'd say there was an Italian mob coming after me. But back in the real world I'd say Syaoran finally noticed I was gone.

I wanted to say,

"Oh in here! In here! Pick Me!" …

But I was at a lack of activeness. I'll just let him find me.

…….

The door opened with a kind of swooshish sound.

Bingo! We have a winner of the find Sakura behind a door game!

"Sakura. How did you get up? Are you ok? How are your knees?" Syaoran asked almost frantic.

Yippee! Now lets play the thousand question game!

"Syaoran. Very awkwardly. I'm just peachy. They hurt like a bitch." I answered him back almost mockingly.

"Sakura we have to leave soon or else Yelan really will call the police to the house. Here I grabbed some clothes for you. Hurry, but don't hurt yourself anymore."

Something seemed to really be up Syaoran's ass. It was probably the whole Mei Lin thing. I wouldn't blame him. Well, I wouldn't if I didn't have a case of the jealousy eyes. My eyes are already green so Syaoran cant tell the difference.

I looked at the clothes he brought me. Black sweats, probably more comfortable for my knees. And a black tank top. I love it that Syaoran knows how I like to dress.

I fumbled around with the pants for a while. Then I figured it might be smart to sit down and do it….They were on in three seconds. It still felt awkward to walk but this time around I kind of got the hang of it. You'd think I was walking like a normal person…..if I didn't look like a huge elephant.

I came out of the bathroom to see two packed, large bags. I didn't have many clothes with me so I had no idea where Syaoran would've got the million clothes that were folded in there.

Syaoran stood beside the bed looking at a picture. I tried my best not to fall over myself walking towards him. He looked up at me. Smiled. Looked back down at the picture. Put it face down on the night table. Grabbed our bags. Said "Wait here, I'll be back to bring you down stairs." And left.

So I sat. Waited. Took a quick look at the picture. Which turn out to be 5 quick looks that took 5 minutes each time.

In the picture, there was Syaoran and two other men. Syaoran looked to be young. About 7 or 8. The other men were much older. In their 20's it looked like. They were all wearing traditional kimono's. They stood in front of a large cherry blossom tree.

My viewing was cut short when I heard footsteps coming down the hallway. I placed to photo back down. Made myself look like I did nothing. And waited.

Syaoran came through the double doors of his room. We said nothing to each other. He knows I looked at the picture. He knows I'll ask about it. But not yet.

He picked me up and started to walk with me in his arms. I rested my head on his shoulder and he kissed my hair, having been the only part his neck could turn to.

We still didn't say much of anything to each other during the drive…to wherever we were going. I got out a CD case and flipped through it. And the grand choices were:

Coheed and Cambria

AFI

My Chemical Romance

CKY

HIM

And something I've never heard of

Not much choice. So I did a little innie minnie minie mo with my eyes closed.

I landed on CKY. Pretty good choice, having them being my favourite band. I slid the CD in the little CD player thingy in the car.

The first time I saw you I thought that I
Would just make another

My Favourite song. Sara's Mask. Syaoran didn't seem to mind the change of silence to music, so I sat back and closed my eyes. Then I thought of something….

Why did Yelan say "Back to the way you were" when she and Syaoran were fighting?

And then I realized that in life you were
Just another mirror

What did she mean by that? I don't know. Why? Cause I'm a retard. Maybe he liked to play with dolls and act like a girl. Maybe he really liked a girl and killed for her. Now back in the real world…I still cant think of what she meant.

The first words you spoke were the ones that I
Vaguely remember

Is Syaoran holding out on me? Is he pretending to be someone else?…No…I doubt it….Or do I? Shit! I hate it that I think like this. First I think weird thoughts. Then I confuse myself…whatever happened to not thinking?

But tied in a knot all the times that we
Haven't spent together

I looked at Syaoran. He seemed to be off in space somewhere. I hope we can watch the road at the same time…..I started to pat my head and rub my stomach. It went well for a while but then I lost it. I turn my head back to Syaoran to see him looking at me. It was one of those 'I'm going to look at you like you're a loser and try not to laugh' looks. He was starting to crack already.

And is it your face
That's got you down?

"What?" I asked

"Oh nothing. Just wondering about the one I'm dating is all. I thought a person with the name Sakura would be different from you." He said with a slight smile on his face.

"And what was the difference?" I said a little worried of where this was going.

"She wasn't as beautiful." Was his nonchalant answer.

Or is it your mind (mine)
When no one's around?

I just kind of looked at him while he watched the road. I say kind of because I was thinking at the same time. As we already know my multitalent-ness isn't very strong. What was I thinking? I don't know. Why? To busy watching Syaoran to know. If I'm lucky, I'll catch on to it later.

And now when she leaves in the dark
Behind amber waves of cancer

I kept on staring at him. I went from his messy brown hair that I was sure hadn't been brushed in a while, to the side of his muscular jaw. My eyes ran down the side of his neck and down to where his collar bone popped out a bit from under his black tank top. How did I manage to get him?

A stroll in the park is a walk from her
Hopes to be a dancer

I mean, I know how I got him. But why him? I don't mean this as a bad thing. How did I deserve to get him? I don't know. Maybe he had pity on me. Maybe he had nothing better to do. Maybe I'm just overreacting. Maybe I'm not. Awe damn here we go again. Its just one big circle.

A light at the end of a tunnel that's
Been going on forever

First I think about something nice. Then I question it. Then I start to doubt it almost completely. Then I figure out that I'm the circle thing again. If there was ever a time when I was very frustrated…it would be now.

You don't understand why these people
Are looking unfamiliar

I heard Mei Lin shuffle around in the back seat. She was dead asleep. Her hoodie exposed her collar bone and neck. There were red marks there, and bruises. There even seemed to be a scar running from the side of her neck down….wait. wasn't this what I saw in the shower…

So take my hand
I will walk you around in a mask
Why don't you tell me now

I trailed off thinking. Of what? This weird supernatural, csi type thing. Maybe I was going crazy. Maybe I already am. Maybe I should just stop thinking….that settled I turned back around to face the road again.

"Syaoran?" I asked not facing him.

Is it your face
That's got you down?

"Yes?" He answered, not facing me either.

"You know back at Tai Diamond?…What did you mean when you said 'I'd never know what I agreed to?'".

"Oh that? ….Lets just say that from the moment I saw you…I knew I'd be the one to escape Tai Diamond with you. I just wanted to get you going…you know…encourage you to come with me, so to speak." Syaoran answered.

Or is it your mind (mine)
When no one's around?
(thinking thoughts of a suicide)

"Oh I see."

Why did I just randomly ask that? Maybe cause I was to dumb to figure it out in the first place. Maybe I just wanted to hear Syaoran's voice. Why? I always hear it anyways…why now? Maybe I needed comfort. A lot had happened since I came to Hong Kong.


And now when you leave in the dark
Inside everybody's answers

I did an over view of the last few months:

Got enrolled in Tai Diamond.

Met Syaoran.

Escaped with Syaoran.

Joined a gang.

Lost another person I cared for deeply.

Got together with Syaoran.

Lost my new family. ( the gang)

Had a weird vision type thing while bruising my knees.

And now we are on our way to…somewhere.

Doesn't sound like much…but when you add all the little extra bits in…its big.

You're planning a way to abandon us
And live your life the way you like

I looked out the side window. Little kids were playing in a school yard. Stray dogs slept on the sidewalks. An old woman strolled along the streets. I sat in a car waiting for my new life to begin. Waiting to be someone I knew again.

But what about Syaoran?

Avoiding the urge to go sulk
In your remedial appearance

Syaoran was my new life. But had I excepted it yet? Of course not. Why? Cause I'm an idiot. I was brought up to believe that nobody lived in my life but me. But now that Syaoran is here….I don't know what to do. Its so clear but confusing at the same time.

Sara I only expect to see
The whole thing a little bit clearer

If I ever got my mind straight…I wonder what it would say.