Ryu. His name was Ryu. Long lost cousin of a friend twice removed from their dads, moms side, who is Syaoran's best friend, but Mei Lin's long lost lover now found again …or some bullshit like that. He was rich. Owned a three story building all to himself. Had a mile of a backyard that held the worlds largest pool. Had a few maids here and there. And finally….his own bar and dance floor in his basement.

He greeted Syaoran with the old 'Oh my god dude I haven't seen you in ages. What the hell are ya doing here?' type thing. He greeted Mei Lin with the quickest make out session I've ever seen. All the while I was left in the car wondering if I could make a run for it now while I had the chance to get away from all these lovey dovey people. Now back to reality, it would at least take me a day to get out of the car alone, another half a day just to get to the gate, and forever to get into town. And while doing so, either get eaten by giant racoons, or get raped and murdered.

"Oh Ryu. I want you to meet someone." Syaoran said.

Oh. Have I met this person? Maybe Syaoran has a hooker up his sleeve somewhere.

"Sakura. This is Ryu. Ryu. Sakura." Syaoran introduced.

Oh my god its me…wait was I the hooker up his sleeve?

"Nice to meet you Sakura. Why don't you come on out and get into the house?" Ryu said.

Or maybe I was the ignored girl in the car…hard to tell.

"She bruised her knees so its hard for her to walk." Mei Lin said.

Oh wait…maybe I'm the giant racoon.

I felt arms wrap around me and pick me up. But it wasn't Syaoran…

"Who the hell are you?" I asked dumb founded.

"Um…I'm Ryu. Remember? We just met?…"

Really?

"Oh yeah. Haha. Sorry…Ryu." I said stupidly.

Syaoran stood in the background laughing at me. Oh man. If my knees weren't screwed up…oh would he get a swift kick in the-

"Here is your room Sakura. Well and Syaoran's too." Ryu sat me on the bed, and I looked around. The walls were plain baby blue. A balcony was off to the left. The bed had drapes around it that were tied back.

"SAKURA!"

"Damnit what!" I yelled.

Syaoran stood there dazed…opps..

"Are you alright? You seem very out of it today." He sat beside me and took my hand.

"Yeah. I'm sorry. Just a lot going through my mind s'all." That's when I remembered…

Should I ask or not...was the problem. Did I want to ask? Of course not. Was I going to anyways? Of course I was. Why? If we haven't been through this enough…I'm an idiot…get used to it.

"Syaoran?...In that picture…who were those two men?"

He froze. I saw an intense stare in his eyes. He didn't want to answer. Why? Cause this could be something I don't want to know. Or something he doesn't want me to know.

"Well, the one man was my father. And…the other man was just a friend."

He kind of rushed the last part…and looked really awkward while saying it. To a stupid person it would be really obvious…but this was way beyond obvious…that man did something. What? I have no clue.

"Is there something that you are hiding from me? I mean don't take me wrong…but ever since you brought out that picture…you've acted kind of…off. You don't have to explain anything if you don't want you."

Why'd I say that? I want him to explain it whether he likes it or not. But will I push him to say it? Of course not. Why? Cause I cant bring myself to do that.

Syaoran had that face on. The one that said 'I want to tell you cause yes I'm hiding something. But if you knew I'd have to kill you.' …I hate that look. It's worse than his 'I'm gunna look so innocent right now so that I can kiss you because I love it so much' look.

"Uhh… never mind. I didn't ask ok? Just forget that I asked." I said…cause now I just feel bad for asking and making him think…cause I know how much he hates to think.

"Oh um alright." He smiled, grabbed my hand and kissed it….

….then he gave me the 'I'm gunna look so innocent right now so that I can kiss you because I love it so much' look. I hated that. Why? Cause I fell for it every time. I gave him the look that said 'Why do you do this to me'. And he responded with a ' Because I can' look. He leaned in and gave me a short but sweet kiss.

"God I hate you sometimes."

"I know you do." Syaoran kissed my forehead, because I love it when he does that. And he got up to unpack our stuff….

….and all the while I felt like one lazy shit.

Later on Syaoran brought dinner to me. We both ate on the bed and watched cartoons that I haven't seen in ages. I got a little more mobile, without Syaoran noticing of course. I walked around for a bit when he left the room. I still looked like a stumbling idiot, but I was getting better.

We went to bed soon after, having a long day of driving. Syaoran cuddled up to me. His head rested between my shoulder and head. His arms wrapped around my lower body and my arms around his neck. Syaoran kissed my neck repeatedly. I giggled. Frick…I never giggle. This was about the second or third time. But I couldn't help it…I'm ticklish.

I rubbed Syaoran's neck and back as a returned affection, having not being able to do much more. I felt his breath on my neck steady to a slow pace. That told me that he had fallen asleep. Hesitantly, awkwardly, but easily, I left his warm arms and waddled my way to the balcony. It was a beautiful night. Stars streamed across the pitch black sky, a slight mist of rain fell that cooled my skin. I counted out five bright stars and gave them secret names. All for five different people. Selina, Mikelle, Nicholas, Gabriel, and Syaoran. The brightest star was Syaoran's. It held peace to my mind. As long as that star was always bright, I know Syaoran would always be ok.

I must have fallen asleep on the balcony couch. It was damp, so was I. I expected to be getting a cold from this. I walked back into the room. Syaoran was still fast asleep.

I changed my clothes into comfy, loose pants and a long sleeve shirt of Syaoran's that I liked. Using the walls and railings in the house I supported my self as I walked around trying to find a kitchen or the other life in this house. Though I doubt I'll see Ryu or Mei Lin about for a while.

I gave up my search and decided to head back to the room. As I suspected, Syaoran was still knocked out. I went and laid beside him. Just looking at him. I hated that I teased myself like that. I needed to hold him. I moved in closer and slipped my arms around him and let my legs tangle with his. Although I flinched some from bending one knee to much. I think that woke Syaoran up cause his eye slowly opened….opps.

I just gave him that innocent goofy smile that said 'opps'. He groggily laughed.

"You know, one day I'm going to wake up and just attack your lips cause of that look you give me every time." He said.

I blushed…damnit here I go again with the blushing and the cuteness…god!

"I guess it just habit now. Get used to it. Haha." I laughed.

"Sakura…what am I going to do with you…oh wait" he kissed me quickly " that's what." He smiled and rolled over me to get off the bed. His hand brushed my face as he got up. But he put his hand back on my face and guided my head up to get me to sit up.

"I haven't said this in a while…but, I love you."

I kind of froze. I say kind of because my back seized up for some reason. Was I going to wig out? I sure felt like it. Why?…I have no clue…what do I look like? A super smart person? I should think not. Why? Because that's just how it is. If it were any different then life would be fair…and we can't have that now can we?

Thank god for Sayoran's intelligence. He knew I was still getting over it. So he smiled, kissed my fore head and went to get changed. Would some random person think that I didn't love him by the way I act? Probably. But they wouldn't know any better. Here's a big secret…

….I am damned in love with Syaoran.

My or may we be this way forever?
Tell me lover what will become of the other

Well now that, that's out of my head and stuck in my ass….I got up myself to try and find the kitchen again. Should I really be walking around now when Syaoran can nag me for it? Probably not. Am I going to anyways? Yep. Why? Cause I'm stupid.

Bones, skin, nails and flesh
On a bed of lack of passion, a medieval consequence

Waddling my way to the door I was stopped by a hand grabbing my arm. It was probably Syaoran fooling around or trying to scare me. So I played the stare at the wall game again. Which seemed to be my favourite.

They worry you with all the talk of how your not their kind

"Syaoran. I am a big girl now I can…" As I looked back, it didn't completely register what I was seeing.

Now I'm stealing her body and taking it home
There is always one more fault

I looked at me. I was holding my arm. How? I have no clue. I shiver went down my back at the way I was looking at me. That innocent but evil glare.

Now adjust it, you must trust me darling
Subsequentially it seems you deserve more than me
They bury you while wearing garments of funeral fire

But a sudden change of emotion came to my/ her face. Her eyes went soft, like she was going to cry. Did she? Of course. But what really freaked me out, was that she was crying…blood. Blood came out of her eyes instead of normal tears.

Now i'm stealing her body and taking it home
There is always one more fault

I wanted to scream. But my mouth wouldn't open. I wanted to run. But my legs wouldn't move. I wanted to get away. But my body was frozen. The other Sakura gripped my arm tighter as she cried. I tried to look away, but my eyes couldn't look anywhere else.

Now i'm stealing her body and taking it home
There is always one more fault

Blood started to run down my arm as her nails dug deeply into my skin. I made a whimpering sound. That was the most amount of hope I had escaping my lips.

This will hurt you, it's killing me
This will hurt you, it's killing me

One tear went down my face. One tear that I was afraid of. One tear of blood.

I screamed my heart out.

Of course that wouldn't have helped me cause as soon as I did…the other me disappeared and turned into Syaoran.

This will hurt you, it's killing me
This will hurt you, and I will to, and I will

"Sakura!" He said as soon as I stopped screaming.

"Syaoran. I…I …I cant…I have to go…out for a…bit. I'll be…back." I stuttered out as I ran for the front door of the house. Syaoran came after me and yelled for me to come back. I couldn't. I wouldn't. I needed to go somewhere.

Bloodlust, bloodlust, for this girl
Bloodlust, bloodlust, for this boy

I grabbed a helmet for a motorcycle I saw outside. Starting the motor bike, Syaoran came to my side.

"Sakura. You cant go. Tell what happened?"

Bloodlust, bloodlust, for this girl
Bloodlust, bloodlust, for this girl, this boy

"I cant right now. Please Syaoran. I'll be back….I love you.." I cried. Cried because of what? Because I love Syaoran? Maybe. I have no clue.

But now I punch a wound and once again forgive my sin

I looked at him through the helmet visor and sped off. I heard a vase crashing behind me from the front of Ryu's house. Syaoran wont understand. Not right now….he doesn't know of my own secrets yet.

Now I'm stealing her body and taking it home
There is always one more fault

What happened in the past is coming back for me. I lied to myself this whole time. About what? My family. I had more of a family than just my father. I lied to myself about this everyday that I lived until I could completely forget about it.

Now I'm stealing her body and taking it home
This is forever

I couldn't take this with everyone I lost now. That's why its so hard for me to take death. That's why I want to die so bad so that I could see everyone I loved again. But if I did die right now…it would be a death without Syaoran. He needs to now. I cant keep my own secrets anymore.

There is always one more fault
This is forever

But how can I tell him that….I caused my families death?

……………………………..

Yeah just a bit shorter this time and a bit confusing…its supposed to be that way. Keep the reader guessing that's what I say.