I close my eyes for the final time, as I slowly wake inside a dream. Distorted, all I can see is the sunrise and Pacey in a far off distance. He stands sullenly above a cliff staring off into the boundless land of trees far beyond our vision. Without myself in sure sight, my soul, or spirit still continues on, until I'm where he stands. His eyes find me, as he smiles in a dreamlike manner. I can feel heat within my real body grow intensely as his hand reaches out for mine. In return, my hand finds his, while I take notice of the first surfacing part of my body. The next being my other hand as it reaches for his other. He smiles softly, and leans in to what I assume is my face.
Pulling me compeletly in his embrace, I finally see all of me. I stand in his arms, wearing only a thin red dress, as we motion down further to the ground. His kisses are brief, but fulfilling, as his lips travel from my neck to my mouth. Barely breathing I more than except, as I freely pull him closer within my reach until he lays atop of me, as I begin to entice my less than virginal sensuality. The heat from the sun seems to intensify, as his fingers silkily journey up my thigh. Coyly, my eyes gradually meet his. The corners of his mouth curl up into a pleased but warning smile as he continues further and further until..."Potter." My face grows confused as I shift beneath him. "Potter!" He says again.
"What!" I exclaim, shock rushing and heating my vains, faster than blood ever could. I find myself no longer in the exiteing demension that induced me so vastly.
"We're here." Pacey says looking at me strangley. "You've been sleep for a while now." He informs me.
"Yeah, well..." I trail off shakily, not able to look him in the eye. Not after such a dream.
"And where are we exactly?" Jen chimes in, as a feel of relief comes over me for once. "Because it seems we're only half there."She says holding a flashlight in her mouth, looking over the map.
"Actually..." He says taking the map from her. "We're...half there." He finishes avoiding her told-you-so glare.
"How long will it be before we're actually there?" I ask.
"Oh, uh--hours."He says flipping the map upside down.
"Pacey..." I say aggrivated.
"Look, before you bite my head off, let it be said that A: we're gonna get there don't worry, and B: well, that's the fun part about road trips right? It's the whole abandonment thing you know? Impulse." He says convincing himself and Jen at the same time.
"If you say that word one more time." I say rubbing my forehead.
"Impluse." Jen says with a chuckle.
"Ha ha." I say looking out the window, taking notice of the large convienent store in our reach.
"Oh." I say remembering his misleading remark of us 'being here'. "Are we here to get gas?"
"That, and to load up on junkfood." He says getting out of the car. "I'll be right back." He says stopping in his looking from his left to right shoulder at the endless darkness surrounding us. Barely a streetlight in sight. The lights in the store did little to add a revealing glow to it's surroundings."Um...anyone wanna come with me?" He asks with a nervous chuckle.
"Why?" I ask smiling.
"Because...I wouldn't wanna leave you two out here alone and everything, you know. Well with the coyotes lurking about and whatnot."
"Pace, there's no coyotys in--wherever the hell we are." Jen say fanning herself with the now folded map.
"Are you scared?" I ask teasing.
"You know" He says with a dry chuckle. "What do you guys want? He asks defeated.
"I can pick out my own food, thank you very much." I say getting out of the car sypathetically, as his arm brushes my side when he reaches behind me to shut the door. He stops and looks at me, then the store, his actions suddenly existing in slow motion.
"Ladies first." He says with a sheepish smile, gazing at me then the ground.
I marvel at this. For a second, my mouth drops as whatever oxygen I was using esapes me. I stand at a still with constant flashbacks of the dream unable to meet his eyes once again. My nerves already jumbled, I searched the air for a steady breath. Finding one, my eyes travel to his as he again stares at me strangely.
"You ok, Jo?" He asks feeling my forehead.
"I'm fine." I say brushing off the comfort I feel with his concern. "Lets just get in there so we can get out of here as quickly as possible." I say with a sigh.
"No problema." He says humoressly.
"Page 51" I say nodding.
"I love that book." He says walking into the store.
"Well, I'm glad you've found a book you can actually read let alone enjoy Pacey."I say nudging him.
"Leave the comedy to me, alright Josephine."
"I told you--"
"Alright!" He says cutting me off walking over to the counter. "Gas, I need gas." He says handing the clerk money.
"How full?" The clerk asks, as their conversation grows slightly indestinct as I make my way to the back of the store to rescue a bootle of snapple.
We get all the nessecary 'junk' and beverages that should last us for the rest of the night, and if possible, half of the day. Leaving the store first, I walk to the car, open the door and place the bags in the back seat. As I lean in to put the final bag in, I notice Jen's long coming trip to slumberland. Peacfully she sleeps, her head tilted to the side as her arm rests out the car window. A smile graces my face, as I walk over to the window leaning over, I take her hand, and place it perfectly on her lap.
"So you finally did it. You know murder is against the law Potter." Pacey says making me jump a little.
"Don't do that!" I say barely above whisper.
"Do what?"He asks smacking on some cips, much to my annoyance.
"Sneak up on me."
"I wasn't sneaking." He chuckles handing me the bag of chips. "Hold this." He says sweeping his hands against his jeans, cleaning off the salt residue from the chips.
"Ew." I say reading the brand. "Salt and vinigar?"
"What? Thery're good." He says shrugging, as he takes the gas hose, and begins filling up the tank.
"Whatever you say."
Wanting desperatley to talk about my dream with someone, I looked over at Jen who was still in a seemingly deep sleep. Sighing, I look over at Pacey as I question whether or not to tell him. Maybe he could tell me what it meant. Wait...this is Pacey Witter I'm talking about. He'll tell me what it means, then I'll never hear the end of it. Lovely. Just lovely. Well, I have to talk about it with someone, I can't stop thinking about it. I can't remember ever having a dream like that.
Even though I can't talk to him about the dream, I have to talk to him about something. I'm beginning to like our conversations. For some reason I'm also beginning to feel a strange attatchment to him that's more personable. Maybe it's because he was such a intense fixture in my dream. Maybe it's because he's a heavy fixture in my reality. Perhaps it's because like the feelings I can't seem to shake from the dream, my attraction him is growing, and those same feared emotions are seeping into my already complicated reality. There's something happening between us, that neither one of us want to confront. Or am I just over analizing my emotions? Maybe he still likes Jen, and I'm just a side note. Yeah...he just didn't want me to feel left out. No. That's not it. Just say something.
"So which family member did you rob?" I ask finally escaping the thick walls of my imagination.
"I did not rob anyone, I simply borrwowed the car from my distant cousin."
"What distant cousin?"
"I went to a family reunion with my parents." He replies sighing. "I got into a minor fight with my dad, as per usual, and stormed off. I was getting ready to leave when my less than a margin of a snob cousin ran up to me and tried to stop me. Much thanks to my aunts pushy advances for him to do so of course."
"And then..."
"Well, he succeeded and I stayed. We got into a long conversation about the quietly dysfunctional Witter family and plans to get out of this town some day."He says with a sadness he isn't able to hide this time.
"What did you and your father fight about?"
"Everyone was talking about what their kids were going to be doing after the fall. Some were going to Northwestern, some to Sarah Laurence, Spellman, Georgetown...Yeah, you name it, and one of the pretentious bastards was sure to be attending." He said putting hose back, and shutting the passage.
"So what did father Witter have to say this time?" I ask folding my arms, preparing to process the bitter information.
"What do you think?" He asks smiling happlessly. "I'm paraphrasing here, but it was something along the lines of "Not my boy. Pacey's gonna spend the rest of his life here in Capeside bumming off of whoever has the misforune of his company, isn't that right Pacey?"He says shaking his head.
"He said that?" I ask in disbelief.
"Something along those lines." He says clearing his throat. "We should get going."He says walking over to the drivers seat.
"That's awful Pacey, but why did you take the car?"
"Because my rich cousin apparently has a gift of finding humor in the most awkward of situations."
"So in return..."
"I decided to take the car for a spin. He gave me the keys and said I could take it for a drive, since I probably would never own such a luxury."
"Right. So...you do know that since your cousin is in fact rich, and will more than likey have the police on your case in the next twenty four hours we may not even make it to the boarder. I mean at the rate we're going, when we pass the next street, there's a strong chance of gettting caught and being turned in."
"You have a point." He says stroking his chin.
"But..." I say grabbing his attention. "If we get out of here fast enough--"
"Miss Potter I am surpised in you." He say happily getting into the car. I smile, and follow suit into the backseat, shutting the door.
"Wha? What's going on?" Jen asks awaking.
"We've gotta get out of here before the cops get us. You in?"He asks starting the engine.
"Um--sure why not." She says shaking her head raising a brow. "Let's just...not get caught." She says slumping down into the seat covering herself with a small blanket. "I'm going back to sleep, tell me when we get there."
"You got it." He says pulling off.
I roll down the window, letting the wind swim through my hair. A calm came over me as Pacey turned up the radio.
"You sure you up for this Jo?" He asks looking at me through the rear view mirror for the second time since we left.
"We're not commiting murder Pacey, and besides he'll get the car back."I say with a sly smile.
"Now, you're gettin it." He says laughing.
I bite my lip and continue to let the wind caress my face, as it suddenly represented a freedom. A larger freedom then I felt in my dream. On this adventure alone, I realize that I am not only living, but fulfilling one. I'm leaving Capeside, and even if it doesn't last forever, I'll always remember this feeling, and the boy that helped provide me with such feedom. And unlike my dream, our etenal bond will never end. Well...I hope. I closed my eyes, and tried to make a second trip into my subconsious. Hopefully, I'll awake and we'll be at our destination.
My eyes bat open, as sun rays make yellow stripes across my skin. Hesitantly my body perks up, as I look impatiently out the window. One of the many signs we pass reads -el passo-. I jump up, and look ahead in the front seat where Pacey lays asleep on the passengers side. I wonder if he dreams of me too. My eyes dart over to Jen who's apparently taken the wheel.
"Are we in there?" I ask as if I were a child again, hardly veiling my exitement.
"We're getting closer. Right now we're in Texas." She says suddenly smiling a little. "We'll be there in a couple hours."
"Yes." I say pleased, sitting back.
"Good thing I took over. Poor Pacey...He definitely deserves the rest."
"Yeah." I say, listening to the road crackle beneath us, as the car becomes quiet.
"You can go back to sleep if you want. Once we get there I'll wake you up." She says kindly.
"Thanks." I say resting my head on the window loaning her a smile, while the rest inflitrated within me.
I close my eyes falling asleep once again.
"Joey!" Pacey says waking me up. "Get up."
My head rises as I look out the window again, only to see a darker tent of day, in my vision. I must have been sleep for a while.
"We're here!" Jen says slowing down the car. "We made it." She says laughing, as she and Pacey have a quick embrace.
"Welcome to Mexico Jo." He says looking back at me. My mouth just drops.
"Oh, my gosh" I say laughing. "We made it." I say more to myself. "We really made it!"
We all just laugh as the sun rises once again sending light through out the dusty land.
"So where do we go first?" Jen asks Pacey.
"Where do think?" He asks as they look at each other once more.
"Where are we going?" I ask eyeing them both. They just smile at each other, then me.
"You'll see." Pacey says.
"Well this should be interesting."
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