Believe, Realize, Reason
Interlude Chapter 8.5: Destiny's 3 Shinns.
Disclaimer: Hey, hey, hey, hey! Smoke weed everyday! I mean, I don't own Seed.
AN: I am terribly sorry for not updating! I have been busy these days, yeah, I got work right after I came back from HK, and it had been a tremendous pain in the ass to sit in front of the computer and right sometimes. In other words, it had been tiring for these past 2 months. Also, because the summer is going to be over really soon, I have been trying to complete all the MG (Master Grade) Gundams that I received from my uncle. All I have finished are 1/100 Sword Impulse Gundam and 1/100 Destiny Gundam… damn, I have lots of work to do.
There is another reason why I didn't update so soon. I am more or less disgusted about the entire series in general. Of course, I don't let things go unnoticed, and so I have made this special chapter to show my immoral outrage in Shinn's perspective.
This whole chapter was pretty much inspired by Dave Chapelle's drama of "My 3 Daves" I saw a while ago on the Comedy Network. I found it quite hilarious personally, and so I decided to use this to display a more understandable version of Shinn Asuka.
The actual 9th chapter is actually half done so far, and it should be complete by next week –given if I have the patience and time to do it. Just don't forget that I am still very involved this piece of work of mine, and I won't simply give up on it.
Enjoy!
Special Interlude: Destiny's 3 Shinns (where readers know all about Shinn Asuka outside of GSD)
Hey, I'm Shinn Asuka. A vast majority of you should know who I am. You know, Impulse Gundam pilot (now Destiny Gundam), Stellar Loussier's lover, Lunamaria Hawke's admirer, and supposedly the main character of Gundam Seed Destiny. You can say that Seed Destiny right now is messed up beyond recognition in terms of finding and creating a decent storyline, and also they replaced my position as main character with Kira Yamato. Well, what can I do about it? Nothing, that's what! Am I pissed? I'm in no position to do much right now until the animators and creators are willing to give me some humanity back. Anyway, that's not why I am here.
Instead of looking at me as someone who appears to be a cold-blooded bastard whose existence is to hate, hate, and hate, I believe it's important for you all to know a little bit more about Shinn Asuka -which is me. You all know that I am a troubled adolescent at the age of 16. Between the ages of 10 to present day life (which is 16), Shinn Asuka has gone through a several stages in life that created a several personas. Rather, it was these changes that gave me different perspectives in life. One was at the age of 10, the other 13, and the last one at 16.
When I was 10 years old, wimpy described me all too well. Also, my mind was so innocent that if my mother and father told me I was bought to them by a stork, I would've considered it the truth. In other words; an idiot. Age 13… I was such a crazy, mean bastard that my parents believed that wolves and savages raised me –not to mention being ahead of myself all too often and getting myself into a lot of shit. Present life… I am sure the crowd and Lunamaria can tell my combat ways is overly gruesome and violent, and merciless. So vile, so great that it could overpower my beloved will to make love. Moreover… I am kinda willing for sex…
What I need to show you all is what those 3 Shinn's going to do at different situations that are given to them. Clearly, different age Shinns will have alternating opinions and different outcomes. Let's see what 10-year-old Shinn will say and do when he attempts to solve the problem of cheering up his little sister, Mayu Asuka.
10-year-old Shinn (tries to approach Mayu): Mayu-chan, come on, don't be like this. I will give you candy if you talk to me. Hey, I can even treat you to Macdonald's. Oh, please talk to me, Mayu! (she turns away) Mayu, be reasonable… we can play tag outside… I'll buy you a cellphone-
What a prickity bitch! I was referring to myself of course… I'm not even going to show you the ending to that story. You know that ugly, old, bitchy cellphone that I carry without ever needing to recharge the battery, yeah, I got that for Mayu because I wanted her to talk to me. She was already materialistic bitch at 6 years old… and I am at complete fault!
Let's see what 13-year-old Shinn would've done in the same situation.
13Yr Shinn (enters the living room): Hello, Mayu.
Mayu: Oh, hi, Shinn…
Shinn: Sad?
Mayu: Yeah…
Shinn: What did you do? Let me guess, you were being a bitch?
Mayu (dryly): Shut up.
Shinn: I found this to cheer you up. (Gives her a Ziploc bag filled with white stuff)
Mayu (takes it from him): What's the occasion?
Shinn: Don't know. All I know is that I found this in dad's drawer.
Mayu: What is this though? Is this cocaine?
Shinn: You'll thank me on your wedding day.
Now that's more like it, folks. As for the cocaine, well, Mayu managed to find whoever was the person who possessed it. What a lucky little bitch, and I really thought dad was sniffing those things… Damn it, I missed my chance! Cocaine is such a good thing (like wine)… you could use it when you're happy, and need it when you're depressed. If I had it within my possession, I think I would sniff it everyday. Wow, Shinn Asuka as a druggie, and I am doing it willingly!
Anyway, let's move on to the responsible, respectable, loyal ZAFT member, and Destiny Gundam pilot at the age of 16.
Mayu (in panic): Shinn! Shinn! Come here quick!
16YR Shinn (enters the living room): What is it, Mayu?
Mayu: I am in so much trouble!
Shinn: What did you do?
Mayu: I made the TV explode…
Shinn: How did you make it do that?
Mayu: I was drinking root beer… and then I accidentally tripped and spilled all over the TV…
Shinn: Poor TV
Mayu: What are we going do now? Mom is going to kill us!
Shinn: No… in fact, she won't, Mayu.
Mayu: Why not?
Shinn: She's going to kill you.
Mayu: Don't do this to me, Shinn! I really need you to help me!
Shinn: What do you WANT me to do then?
Mayu: Anything!
Shinn (exasperated): Fine, there is one thing.
Mayu: What, what? What is that? Please, just tell me something.
Shinn: Lie.
Mayu (confused and cocks a brow slightly): What?
Shinn: You know, you lie.
Mayu: Lie?
Shinn: Lie.
Mayu: But it doesn't seem truthful, you know… like… I feel that it's wrong…
Shinn: That's why we call it a "lie".
Mayu (in realization): Ohh….
(Moments later)
Shinn: So, how did it go?
Mayu (angrily): I hope you're happy!
Shinn: How come?
Mayu: I got grounded because I lied to mom! That's what!
Shinn: You didn't get grounded for lying.
Mayu: Then what is it, genius? Of course I got punished for lying! And it's your damn fault!
Shinn: No, you got grounded for lying badly.
Mayu: You bitch!
That's right, Shinn Asuka is a jerk when it comes to conversations with women. Hell, the only women that I actually had a good time talking to were Stellar, Meyrin, and of course my precious Lunamaria. I am beginning to see how being picked on actually feels like, since Lunamaria does it to me ever so frequently before we became lovers.
A lot of people want to know how I do things compared to Kira. Aside from the fact that I always aim for the cockpit in MS battles, people want to understand how I treat others in real life. Lunamaria ever so kindly explained once what kind of ignorant, arrogant, and overconfident bitch I was in the military during a rookie. I picked fights with soldiers and instructors alike; I was pretty much a living devil in human existence. Hey, she's right, and I still have that bitchy trait in me today, well, for the most part. That was her opinion and views, and I am sure you all want to know MY own words and sincerity.
What would my reaction be if I ever meet Sting, Stellar, and Auel in person outside the battlefield? 10 year old me, show them what I would do.
10Yr Shinn: Help! (Turns away and run) I want my mommy!
Okay… that was so ugly that I nearly thought I was gay… How did I ever survive as a sissy? You thought that was bad, I am sure 13-year-old me could redeem himself well.
13Yr Shinn: Oh, you think you look so tough with your short green haircut? You wanna mess, bitch? Yeah, I'm talking to you!
Sting (confused): Do I know you?
Shinn: Come on, bring it!
Sting: Sorry, kid, I have no reason to fight you.
Auel: That bastard is nuts, Sting. Let's go.
13Yr Shinn: What, you running away from me you blue haired freak? You scared that your mommy would kick your ass for being a bad boy? You got nothing!
Auel (turns back slowly): What did you say?
13Yr Shinn: You heard me, bitch! I said your mom-
Auel: I'll kill you, bastard! (rushes at Shinn before socking him in the face)
Sting: Auel!
Stellar: Stellar doesn't like Auel fighting…
Auel: Eat foot, you mother-hater!
Sting: This could get kind of ugly… I don't think you should watch this, Stellar…
Stellar: Why is Auel so angry, Sting?
Sting: Let's say his mother is a great person.
Stellar: Then Auel should kill this meanie!
Shinn: ARRGH! (gets kicked in the ribs before a punch aims for the face) Someone call 911!
Pathetic, yes, but at least I tried to hold my ground… Okay, I was only looking for trouble… damn, that was ugly… That's two strikes in a row, let's hope 16 year old me knows how to strike a home run.
Shinn: I love your breasts, Stellar.
Stellar: Why does Shinn like Stellar's breasts?
Shinn: Because they were the first things I touched when I found your near the shopping districts. They were so soft and touchable…
Stellar: Shinn shouldn't touch those… forbidden areas…
Shinn: But you liked it, right?
Stellar: (shyly) Yes… Stellar liked it…
Shinn: Then can I do it again?
Stellar: (turns serious) I don't usually say this… NO, PERVERT! (slaps him across the face)
Whenever Stellar uses 'I' (or watashi wa in Japanese) to refer to herself instead of 'Stellar', I should know that she is angry and very serious. Maybe that's why she chose to die instead of living… No one in the right mind would want to live to be groped everyday, it's only understand and definitely respectable. It wasn't like she had any other choice aside from choosing the cowardly death….
Stellar's death still angers me greatly today. Although I love Lunamaria Hawke with all my heart, I believe that Stellar Loussier's death should have been prevented. She loved me, and then that special someone left me after that lonely battle. Neo could have not let Stellar battle, but Freedom Gundam was most at fault for not listening to my requests –especially when he knew nothing about Stellar. What made the situation even more unforgivable was how the pilot (Kira Yamato) was responsible for the death of my whole family. He just keeps taking each of my precious people one after another… like an infectious germ that destroys people's emotions, and never ceases to get out of their lives.
Why couldn't he just realize and accept that he is not appreciated for his fake justice? Athrun wasn't, and I was not easily swayed either.
This brings up the topic of Strike Freedom Gundam. Up to this point, that Gundam's existence is not only a mystery, it's a nuisance. I mean, we all know Destiny and Legend were made in Mobile Suit factories in PLANT, or Dullindal would not have been able to store it within one of his secured MS shelters. Strike Freedom and Infinite Justice (on the other hand) appeared out of nowhere.
Am I supposed to believe that Eternal had the technology to make those 2 suits? I need a lot more that that to be convinced. That is nothing but a battleship, not a laboratory where they could research MS parts or additional upgrades, and then suddenly (and miraculously) know how to discover them and shockingly have everything prepared. There are no such things as miracles that happen without any work put into them, just like you can't expect someone to like you if you never bothered to do any shit to earn their love.
It is like Mission Impossible, but the mission was all too possible –and probably too easy to achieve.
There is only one reason why such unrealistic results happen, and my philosophy is fairly simple. It because, just because…
Lacus (making a sly smile and making small continuous 'come' hand motions at the audience): I'm Lacus Clyne, bitch.
This bitch, Lacus Clyne, is the reason to all of problems regarding the war. In addition, she also has relations to all the unrealistic and unexplainable shit that erupts from every corner. Does she think that because she has pink hair that she is automatically perfect? Her reasoning is this:
Lacus (making a sly smile and making small continuous 'come' hand motions at the audience): I'm Lacus Clyne, bitch.
When Destiny, Legend, Strike Freedom, and Infinite Justice were finally completed, Lacus Clyne ordered the Eternal –along with her pricky manual slave laboring fools/loyal zealots- to hijack 2 of the new suits. Their act was no different from those of the EAF who stole Chaos, Gaia, and Abyss, but Lacus Clyne insisted that her actions were "right". What was so different between her and the EAF? Nothing, that's what! Since when was stealing the right thing?
In fact, all she does IS steal from people, and then she claims the stolen things as rightfully hers! To increase more rage and disbelief, Lacus Clyne dares to say that everything she did was undeniably correct, and what pisses me off greatly is how she actually gets away with it! If I were the chairman, I would execute her –in which I plan to do if I ever meet her in person.
What kind of values was she pretending to have? Did she believe twisting the obvious could make everyone's hearts follow?
It was pathetic, but people thought she was doing it for the betterment of humanity. What a bitch… How did she ever get away with this? It wasn't too hard to believe when she used this to justify herself:
Lacus (making a sly smile and making small continuous 'come' hand motions at the audience): I'm Lacus Clyne, bitch.
So forth, Eternal –flying in a linear straight line- headed towards the PLANT colony that the Chairman designated for developing the 4 new Gundams. PLANT's detection system clearly spotted them the instant we detected unknown ship signature, and it wasn't all too difficult to spot a pink ship. No ship should be pink as far as I was concerned, but Lacus Clyne always had a liking for lame, out-of-style, and bitchy colours. Therefore, we allowed it to slide.
The first words that we heard from the enemy broadcast was "I'm Lacus Clyne, bitch" with a voice that was all too recognizable. It must've belonged to that bitch, and her face on camera did not make the soldiers look too pleased. We were shocked to a degree, but more so disgusted.
"I'm Lacus Clyne, bitch," she said it twice in the same tone of voice to the ZAFT soldiers as her battleship continued to creep closer in a linear straight line, "And we are here to steal your Mobile Suits to end the war. Hand them over, bitches, and tell Dullindal that Lacus Clyne always wins."
Strikingly simple words… I had to admit that much. And no doubt our men countered attack without hesitation. Hey, who wouldn't? The colony was equipped with beam cannons that had more power than simple beam rifles due to a fact it was a base, and as soon as they aimed perfectly at the incoming ship Eternal (which was still coming in a straight line) we immediately fired at will.
If I was at the colony, I would've rushed out in Destiny or Impulse without anyone's orders before shooting that thing to bits.
We knew that battleships did not have Phase Shift Armour, but we also didn't expect to shoot it down with one shot. I would understand if we at least pierced its armour, but that was not what happened. I almost wished it did damage, but instead that ship had Phase Shift Armour… or possibly Anti-Beam-Coating. They never had that before, and now suddenly that damned ship possessed such high levels of technology. We were stunned after countless beams have struck it cleanly, and that ship was still coming ever so slowly.
There were a few words that could explain such pure insanity:
Lacus (making a sly smile and making small continuous 'come' hand motions at the audience): I'm Lacus Clyne, bitch.
"Fire our cannons, bitches," announced Lacus as Eternal raised their Godfreits at our Mobile Suit gates. Lunamaria, Rey, and I knew simple cannons would not be enough to blow up those gates, since we had extremely fortified it with anti-beam-coating during days as rookies and slaves of the ZAFT academy, and we were very confident that their efforts would be futile.
Despite their Phase Shift, they couldn't last out there forever. Sooner or later, that blasted ship would let their guard down.
Without any warning, Eternal fired two thin Godfreit beams directly at our most fortified gate –the one where we had more than three layers of Anti-Beam-Coating. One blast of that sort could never be sufficient to destroy our gate, but it was frightening when a dozen of our doors have been destroyed at once –despite some of them were hundreds of meters away from the targeted gate. In other words, all the rest were untouched, but they exploded anyway.
With just one shot, every passage became opened.
Lunamaria could not understand how this could've happened, but I could though. It was because… JUST BECAUSE…
Lacus (making a sly smile and making small continuous 'come' hand motions at the audience): I'm Lacus Clyne, bitch.
As if busting our defenses with just one shot not good enough, our incredible amounts of firepower did not make a dent in their armour as we helplessly allowed them to dock safely next to the 4 new models. Bad came to worse as they entered… and I almost didn't want to believe it but it was all too true… as Eternal went pass each Zaku Warrior (with or without touching them)… the mobile suits all exploded and ignited to bits. How the hell could a single tap have the adequate power to destroy suits?
How!
Impossible!
But Eternal did it, they made it look like that our suits were made out of tissue paper!
We used a strong alloy on our weapons, we made it for the sole reason to save ourselves, and yet Lacus Clyne had to make us look pathetic in our efforts to strive to get better.
Meanwhile, a conversation was happening inside Eternal.
"Listen up, bitches," said Lacus to her slaves from inside the bridge, "You see those suits over there, I want you all to steal that unoriginal Freedom and that newer coloured Justice. Leave the other 2 alone, got it? Move your butts, bitches!"
"There are 4 suits though…"
"I said just those 2!"
"But Lacus-"
"Lacus-sama, bitch!" she immediately corrected harshly.
"Yes… yes… Anyway, why don't you want the other two? I mean, this ship does have room for all 4…"
"Never question my orders! I am leaving those 2 alone on purpose. Since no one likes more original suits, Destiny Gundam is obviously going to decrease the ratings despite that he never went on air yet. As for Legend Gundam… it's nothing by a Providence wannabe! Hey, no one likes Le Creuset, and so ratings for that suit would surely be low. I'm Lacus Clyne, bitch, I live for good ratings! Hell, I am the highest in Japan despite that I don't do any shit!
"Ratings, yes, I live for good ratings, because if I don't keep up with the ratings I may not exist. Those with bad ratings all die, and Sting, Stellar, and Auel were the perfect scapegoats. And I love manipulation, because I can make anyone's reputation to go down or up, and as long as Kira also has good ratings, I am happy.
"As for Strike Freedom and Infinite Justice, everyone likes them because they are unoriginal and cheesy. They are nothing but gold and silver trophies that will make people buy them! Gold and Silver means automatic victory, and that proves Lacus Clyne always wins.
"Look, Strike Freedom has everything from Buster's combining cannon beam rifle to Dragoon System. And that's perfect for my Kira –because all he needs to do is make the war look like garbage by owning his "enemies" or his friends. Not only does he make battles look shit, he gets ratings for being all invincible while turning all sorts of good people look like jackasses. Most importantly, he gets away with it –like how I am going to get away with stealing."
"But-"
"No buts, bitch! Just do your job!"
"Yes…" And the loyal fool left the bridge and went to prepare themselves for the hijacking mission. At the same time, the Eternal saw over 80 soldiers with assault rifles began to come their way quickly before they skillfully surrounded the ship. Each one of them carried a strong will to destroy the pink battleship within their sight range.
"Waldfeld, look after the ship for me," declared Lacus profoundly with an arrogant pride.
"Are you planning to go out there, Lacus?" asked Andrew, a bit worried at the ZAFT numbers that were outside the ship. As each second went by, more of our men entered the dock to prepare themselves for combat.
"Lacus-sama!" corrected the pair haired bitch while not even looking at Waldfeld, but she knew he was looking her way.
"Sorry… pardon my apologies…"
"You had something to ask me?"
"Yes… are you seriously planning to show your face to the soldiers?"
"You dare to question my strategy?" she challenged back despite that there was a high chance that she didn't have anything planned.
"I'm Lacus Clyne, bitch," the pink-haired nuisance repeated her motto for the millionth time, "The public needs to know how exactly how beautiful I am in order to get good ratings. Besides, I can let them know how pathetic they really are compared to me, it's very crucial to realize that the beautiful always have the advantage over the ugly."
With that said, Lacus Clyne floated to the nearest elevator to access to the lowest floor; the level where she had the access to reach outside.
Although no one was coming out from the ship, our soldiers were extremely patient at their stationary areas. Their guns were aimed at all possible exits, since they knew enemies would be coming out of there to steal our experimental mobile suits. The only problem was that we didn't know which exit they would pick, therefore, our instincts told us to be alert on all of them.
At long last (after few minutes of waiting) the main exit opened, and we were surprised to see just Lacus Clyne standing in a leaning posture with that hated serene smile on her face. Who did she think she was? Did she see herself as a God? Acting like a bitch all the time, it only made our men want to turn her worse than Swiss cheese.
"Lacus Clyne?" asked a soldier rhetorically to himself.
"She's alone?" another one inquired suspiciously as he tightened his grip on his rifle. "Without any support?"
"Why the hostile looks, gentlemen?" questioned Lacus Clyne still having that irritating smile plastering all over her too-perfect beauty, "I mean you no harm." She sure had the guts to speak such ridiculous lies. If she meant what she said just now, why did she destroy all of our gates, and practically slaughtered our mobile suits by colliding to them?
"You take us for fools, you insolent woman!" yelled the Captain of the squad with deadly rage as he pointed his firearm at her direction. "How dare you think you can just do whatever you want?"
"I'm Lacus Clyne, bitch," she repeated her motto again in her supposedly favoured solemn voice, "I always get what I want because I am beautiful. Besides, my Kira needs a new suit."
"Make your own mobile suit! We had enough of your sinful acts!"
"I want Strike Freedom and Infinite Justice," Lacus pressed on with this subject with the same smile on her face. The soldiers' face cringed at that face although it was gorgeous. It was almost like a venom now. "Hand it over, it's useless to retaliate against me because I'm Lacus Clyne, bitch."
"Persistent wretch!" the Captain declared rudely before performing the advance signal. Whenever that hand movement was used, it was basically telling the soldiers to advance and destroy whatever hostile. In this case, the target was clearly Lacus Clyne. The soldiers were pleased to commence their showering assault. However, the strange thing was that Lacus yet had to wipe off that smile from her face. That confidence no doubt had the soldiers wondering, but some of them discarded it for the time being due to this ideal opportunity to finally kill that bitch.
Even so, I really did wish our guns actually did something. As soon as our shower of bullets swarmed at Lacus… there were no logical explanations to the next part… the shots sort of shot past her. Who was anyone trying to kid; the bullets missed her completely and hit the metal armour of the ship instead. Someone even pulled out a sniper rifle and aimed for her heart, and once he guaranteed his shot struck the right spot even he was freaked out towards the fact that Lacus Clyne was still standing there unharmed.
How could this be? She should've been killed! And yet that bitch was still alive and at the same time making that intolerable, calm smile on her all-too-beautiful lips. Damn her, was she an alien from space or a Coordinator? Bitch… she always made things look so favourable to her!
"What on earth…" stuttered the commanding captain with agitation and fear.
"Who in hell is she?" a subordinate shouted as he reloaded his assault rifle hurriedly. "Kuso…"
Lacus Clyne took one smooth step closer, grinning as she spoke her words. I was sick of her already. "I'm Lacus Clyne, bitch," she declared passively, as if the world was not good enough for her to be talking with, "And I already told you that I always win."
In a flash (or possibly a few seconds worth) all our men were down for the count. I didn't know how it all happened… but Lacus Clyne somehow knew the art of 'The Matrix', and damn hell she was abusing it. Kuso, that kono-yaro! Bitch, what a bitch! How could this ever be!
Unfair! Totally unfair! Just because… just because…
Lacus (making a sly smile and making small continuous 'come' hand motions at the audience): I'm Lacus Clyne, bitch.
I, amongst everyone, clearly assumed the Captain and his troops were all dead despite Lacus Clyne "never preferred to kill their oppressors". Why should ZAFT believe their methods when they chose to commit unforgivable offences each time? With no means of stopping them (after each group that went in was dealt with by Lacus Clyne's Matrix abilities, and our mobile suits were coming in from another PLANT colony) we watched helplessly as her men took in Strike Freedom and Infinite Justice inside the hangars of Eternal.
I was surprised to know that Destiny Gundam and Legend Gundam were left untouched. Why would Lacus Clyne not take them when our defenses were all penetrated? It didn't make much sense, but I was glad to know that ZAFT didn't lose all hope just yet.
When Eternal began to move out of our mobile suit docks, squadrons of elite mobile suits that were dispatched earlier were on their way to take out that fugitive battleship. No one made fools out of us and got away with it –especially not if the intruder was someone as bitchy and intolerable as Lacus Clyne.
Although Eternal did not decide to destroy anything else –basically sparing our lives- during their depart, we ZAFT soldiers certainly did not find it as a gift of kindness. With us left alive, it was practically living the rest our lives in utter humiliation and defeat; a defeat that was not only disgusting, but one that we rather kill ourselves because we couldn't do a thing to make a difference! We tried so hard to stop them, and in the end that Lacus Clyne just came in and out completely UNHARMED! Not even a fucking dent!
Then again, we weren't done with them. Our Gunner ZAKU forces could save us from our undignified downfall and kill Lacus Clyne for good. Even though Strike Freedom and Infinite Justice would be destroyed during the process, it was still better than to have them in the hands of that witch.
In perfect coordination from a decently far distance, our Gunners fired their main cannons at all areas of Eternal. What fools, did they seriously believe ZAFT would let them escape? Better yet, why travel in a slow linear straight line to allow our suits to aim at them easier? Not even anti-beam coating or whatever shit they used could save them from such an intense blast. Were those supposed to be wise actions of a veteran of the previous war? She was nothing but a war-veteran-wannabe! Looks, that was all she had! Did she think sitting there in her commander outfit meant that she had experiences of a war leader?
Not in her life!
She had more than light years to go until she has a fraction of an military academy student's skills! Pathetic wretch, she deserved death. I was delighted to know that our plasma cannons made a direct hit at the ship, and even more excited when it wasn't all a dream. Then my hopes all shattered when I heard about the plasma beams being deflected back at the original attackers.
That enraged me to the top of my bent! At first the Eternal had anti-beam coating or Phase Shift Armour shit when they came in, and now they possess the same armour as that ripped-off Hyaku-Shiki? No one saw them adding that technology on their armour, so how was it possible to have such an upgrade! Phase Shift… and now that crap! Impossible, it was just not possible… why must they always have their way! Why did she do nothing and yet excellent outcomes come from it? Damn that pink-haired scoundrel…
Our mobile suits were completely annihilated by their own assaults, and worse when we watched Lacus Clyne taking our prized mobile suits back to the Archangel. I was certain that those 2 suits would be gone forever, and the next time we see them they would be our enemies. Their new pilots… I didn't care who they might be… all I knew was that ZAFT suffered a massive disgraceful collapse… and I truly wished that people could just leave us alone to reflect on our mistakes.
Once humiliated to a high degree, we all preferred some space.
Precisely at that moment, someone's voice roamed over the broadcast system saying "I'm Lacus Clyne, bitch".
Not knowing what I should've been doing due to rage, I immediately yelled at the top of my lungs.
There you have it. No matter what shit ever happens in my life, Lacus Clyne always wins. Does it make sense? Hell no. But what can I do about it? When I loved Stellar, Kira Yamato (someone related to Lacus Clyne) killed her. Why did I have no family; that was because Freedom killed them. Why is the war still happening? That one is simple. Because Lacus Clyne always has a very strong liking to rob/hijack/steal other people's work and creation and pretend it's her own. Somehow, really somehow… these things all cause problems in my life.
My motto: Fuck Lacus Clyne, along with Kira Yamato, since they truly make you realize what boredom really is. You don't like them being such pathetic, boring people, well, blame those who constantly want to support their character attributes. Don't push the fault at the creators so quickly, because Shinn Asuka wasn't supposed to be an ass to this great extent. Sure, I might not be the nicest person in Destiny, but people hated me for a reason that I didn't know –when I was just trying to be who I was.
Instead of redeeming me –knowing that the audience already hates me without giving me a chance to show my good sides and characteristics- the creators were better off making me into whatever you audience members wanted me to become; an arrogant ass.
It's the same problem with Kira Yamato and Lacus Clyne. You want them to be interesting? You want them to show more? Then, if you wanted that, perhaps it would've been much better if you didn't keep promoting them to have God-like or Hime-like or even stoic personalities. The entire GSD is based on –and supported by- the "fans", and therefore, if people keep liking Lacus Clyne as the hime-like bitch, hey, despite that the creators have a strong feeling that she is lame, they still have to keep it that way because that's what the people want her to be.
Why am I being such a jerk and an ass, you ask? What, isn't this what people asked for? I am only showing them the things that were demanded from me, and I think I am doing a very good job at keeping my end of the bargain.
See you all again… real soon.
AN: Please speak your thoughts in any way possible, I seriously don't mind the comments today. Thank you! I feel… more alive when people tell me the truth than twisting the facts into something else. In simpler term, lies. Honesty is the best policy, that's something I live with, so tell me how you feel. That is really the only way that I could know my readers.
Oh yeah, has anyone of you received the mail about authors not able to thank reviewers in their chapters? If this rule continues to take place, I really can't afford to get myself into deep trouble. If you want to talk to me about fictions, games, interests, and stuff, feel free to email me. I am not very consistent in responding to emails though, but if you write a lot of content in your messages, then I would honestly respond. Like, dude, don't expect me to answer back a letter that's two rows long, because that truly shows your… desperation/wholeheartedness.
Chapter 9 will be out soon, so wait for it! Sayonara!