Dreams

By Kyomi Terakada

One dark, dark, angsty fic. Lots of music in this one.

Warning: Character death. Please don't kill me. I've done this a million times.

Pairings: slight Satoshi x Daisuke, slight Daisuke x Dark, fragments of KradxDark

All music in this fanfiction will be cited at the bottom of the fic.

'All words in the dream will be in italics. '

"All music will be in italics and underlined."

A loud bell ringing snapped Daisuke out of his daydreams. He smiled as his eyes shifted from the blackboard to a blue haired boy who sat two rows in behind him. "Psst! Daisuke!" Riku whispered to him. Shaking his head slightly, his face flushed red slightly as he stood up with the rest of the class and together, they bowed to the teacher. The teacher nodded, and they all packed up to go home. Waving goodbye to the Harada sisters, Daisuke walked home with Satoshi, knowing that Dark must have run off somewhere with Krad again and would not be home until late.

Riku and Risa chattered as they strolled down the path that lead to the gates of the school. "What is with Niwa-kun lately?" Riku asked Risa, worriedly. "He's barely on time now, and he's never paying attention. I don't understand him at all anymore."

"Perhaps he just has something in his mind. It'll pass soon," Risa replied lightly.

And yes, our Daisuke-kun really did have something on his mind. He loved Satoshi, but at the same time, he loved Dark, as well. And now Dark loved Krad. And Dark had never loved Daisuke the way he was loved.

"I'm home," Daisuke muttered as he opened the door to his house. He saw a note on the kitchen table, saying that his mother, grandfather and Towa-san had gone out and would be back in three hours. He went up to his room ,turned on the radio, walked out onto his balcony and began to sketch, letting his worries fade away, letting his mind clear until it was empty.

Ki zukanai furi wo shite

Chiisana mado kara tooku wo mitsumeteta

Sora ni hirogaru tenshi no koe

Kaze ni dakarete

Hitomi ni utsuru zawameki wa nannimo kikoenakute

Tadaima wa "amai toki no itazura da" to

Sora ni tsubuyaita

Mawaru, mawaru... okizari ni sareta jikan no naka de watashi wa ima

Les miserables

Ai shisugita anata ga kabegiwa no mukou de

you too much and you are now on the other side of the wall

Todokanai kono omoi dake... toiki ni nosete

Tsumetai kaze wo abinagara

Kurikaesu yoru ni omoi wo egaiteta

Sotto kuchizusamu merodi wa

Toki ni kizamarete kieru

Nido to modorenai kanashimi wa wasurerarenakute

Ima mo yureru omoi ni somaru koto dekinai karada ga

Kowaresou de...

Hitorikiri no kanashimi wa doko ni yukeba kieru

"Wa ta shi ni a su wa a ru no..."

Mawaru, mawaru... okizari ni sareta jikan no naka de watashi wa ima

Les miserables

Ai shisugita anata ga kabegiwa no mukou de

Sotto waratteru

Les miserables

Fukaku ochite iku wasure kaketa yume no naka de watashi wa ima

Les miserables

Ai shisugita anata ga kabegiwa no mukou de

Sotto waratteru

Todokanai kono omoi dake... toiki ni nosete (1)

But with every coming note, Daisuke got sadder and sadder. 'Dark never loved me the way I loved him. He loved me in a brotherly way. The things he said to me, they were all a lie. He knew I loved him, yet once he sees someone for him, I'm left alone as if I did not exist anymore.' Tears began to fall onto the pad of paper, smudging the lines of the person he had been drawing. Dark. Even though Daisuke tried to forget, he let his mind leave him as he drew in a hypnotized state, it was still Dark. The only person is his mind, the only word, the only name he could think of was Dark. Why? Why did it have to be that way? Daisuke shook his head as tears slowly slipped from his eyes.

Wiping the tears from his eyes, Daisuke put the drawing on his bed and walked downstairs. He couldn't take it anymore. All the sadness that had been given to him, bottled inside him suddenly came out. He left a note on the kitchen table next to the note that he found, slipped on his shoes and stepped outside. His white pet followed, but Daisuke shook his head. "Wiz, don't come looking for me." He whispered, and closed the door.

He walked to the fountain that was located on the cliff, overlooking the sea. He looked sadly at the sun reflecting purple, pink, orange onto the calm waters, and thought, 'Peaceful…like how things should be; simple and peaceful.' Taking out a notepad and a pen, he scribbled some words and placed it on the chairs beneath the fountain. Placing a foot above the railing, he gently lifted his body up until he was sitting on the wall's railing. Supposedly railings are supposed to stop people from falling over the wall and down a cliff, but it seems Daisuke isn't stopped by it. Driven by his sadness and confusion of love, and using the skills he had learned as a thief, he stood up and jumped, falling head first to the ground metres below him. One last smile. 'Sayonara.' Then he blacked out.

Dark's cell phone suddenly rang. "Hello?" Dark answered. "What? When? Really? Oh my Go-…." He was too shocked to even finish. Krad, not understanding a one-sided conversation, gently shook the phone out of Dark's hands. "Hello? Sorry, Dark is a little too frozen at the moment to reply. Ah, hello Riku. What's happened? Oh my. Where are you right now? Oh, the fountain? Allright. We're close by, it'll take us five minutes max. See you." Tapping the END button, he returned the phone to Dark, and they raced to the fountain.

There, Krad found everyone. Almost everyone; everyone except for Satoshi was there. Where was here? Ah, speak of the devil. There Satoshi is. He held up a notebook, and after reading it himself, he passed it around.

To whoever will read this…

I am leaving. I am sorry to all those who this will cause a problem to, but I'm pretty sure no one will be bothered by this. I say goodbye to everyone.

Daisuke

No one said anything as they all stood silently, and one by one, they walked away.

Krad waved goodbye to Dark and he went home. Dark waited for his "family" to return together. When he returned, he found a similar note on the kitchen table, and a surprise on Daisuke's bed…

Dearest Dark,

You do not know this, but I have loved you all this time. I always did, I always will. I guess that you never loved me back, especially when you started loving Krad like you do. I think I am getting in your way, so I'll leave for good. It was nice to know you, and you were always someone special to me. So this is the last thing I will give you.

Atemonaku hitori samayoi arukitsuzuketa
Kasuka na toiki o tada shiroku somete
Utsurikawariyuku kisetsu no sono hakanasa ni
Wake mo naku namida ga koboreta
"Ima mo aishiteiru..."

Furitsuzuku kanashimi wa masshiro na yuki ni kawaru
Zutto sora o miageteta
Kono karada ga kieru mae ni ima, negai ga todoku no nara
Mou ichido tsuyoku dakishimete

Wakariaenakute nando mo kizutsuketeita
Sonna toki demo itsumo yasashikute
Fui ni watasareta yubiwa ni kizamareteita
Futari no yakusoku wa kanawanai mama ni
"Ima mo oboeteiru..."

Toozakaru omoide wa itsumademo mabushisugite
Motto soba ni itakatta
Mou nido to aenai kedo itsumo soba de sasaetekureta
Anata dake wa kawaranai de ite

Saigo ni miseta namida ga kesenakute

Kono shiroi yukitachi to issho ni kieteshimattemo
Anata no kokoro no naka ni zutto saiteitai kar

Yorisotte dakiatta nukumori wa wasurenai de ne
Chigau dareka o aishitemo
Saigo ni kiita anata no koe o kono mama zutto hanasanai mama
Fukaku nemuri ni ochitai
Furitsuzuku kanashimi wa masshiro na yuki ni kawaru
Zutto sora o miageteta
Kono karada ga kieru mae ni ima, negai ga todoku no nara
Mou ichido tsuyoku dakishimete

"Mou ichido tsuyoku dakishimete..." (2)

'A song…' Dark thought. 'It was one of his favourites, too. I was always wondering why he played this all the time, and now I know. Ah, Daisuke, I'm so sorry. I should have known sooner.' He picked up the drawing. 'Gomen nasai…' he mumbled to himself. He sighed. "If only I knew…"

A few days later, Satoshi received a letter in the mail. A letter from Daisuke, explaining his dream and how he felt, as well as an explanation of his actions. After reading it, he decided to go visit Daisuke's grave. Bringing a bunch of roses, some red, some white, some black, they both knelt before the stone. Dark smiled a smile with a shadow of sadness. Rising up, he quietly began…

Kasuka na hikari ni yobi samasarete

Hakanai yume no kioku to kiesou na koe

toozakaru kako no zawameki wa

ima de wa mienai ano keshiki o utsushidashite yuku

soba de warau... kimi ga iru

sou... maru de kinou no koto no you ni oboeteiru yo

dare yori mo fukaku boku ni fureta sono manazashi o

wakachiau koto no yorokobi mo

kiseki no you na ano deai mo...

futari no omokage sae mo okizari ni shite kieteyuku

usureteyuku kioku no naka de

mou ichido dake dakishimetakute

setsunai kurai sakebitsuzukeru kimi no na o

koe ga nakunaru made

"Hito wa ittai doko kara kite, doko e iku n' darou?

Taisetsu na yasashii hito wa

kimi dake ga inai..."

utsumuite furueru kimi o

kono ude de dakishimetakute

kono sekai no dare yori mo kimi o

mamoritai to kizuita kara

mou sukoshi de boku wa kieru kedo...

soredemo kimi dake wa hanashitaku wa nai

setsunai kurai kimi ni tsutsumareta ano hibi o

boku wa wasurenai (3)

A transparent like figure appeared sitting on the tombstone. Daisuke giggled. "Gomen nasai, Dark. Things go by in such a strange way, ne?" Dark nodded, a cheerful smile now tugging on his face. Daisuke turned to Satoshi. "Satoshi, I knew you'd come,"he said raising a hand to touch Satoshi's blue hair. "Thank you both for coming." Daisuke smiled. He hopped off the stone and bowed.

With a bow in return, Satoshi turned and left. Dark, seeing that Satoshi was leaving, faced Daisuke and with a determined voice said, "I promise, someday… Someday you will return. To me." And with that, Dark left as well, his first step to fulfilling his new dream.

The End

Aack, I hate how my chapters end up so rushed, but I really don't want to write so many chapters. Personally, when I re-read this, I see it fine, but when my friend betas it for me, she just doesn't understand. If that's the case for you, it would be great if you left a comment and told me where, so I could work on it. Thanks.

Music:

All music this time is from Gackt.

(1)Mizerable

(2)Last Song

(3)Saikai - Story

Gackt's "The Sixth Day" CD matches very well with this chapter, well… that's the CD I've been listening to lately anyway.