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SPECIAL MESSAGE FOR Dragoon of the Moon at end of chapter
ROOF TITANS TOWER
"What is wrong Guardian?" Darkness repeated.
"I, I have lost faith, I have lost faith in our cause," Guardian answered as he stared forward at the city.
"Why? After all we have been through you are losing faith now?" Darkness asked.
"Yes, yes, and now I am the leader of the team, how bad is that," Guardian said with a humorless chuckle.
"Does this have anything to do with Iqbal or Robin or even Jim?" Darkness asked.
"No, look at this city," Guardian said pointing to the dark skyline, "Even while we talk, even while we fight, this city is bleeding," Guardian said.
"There are improvements, its not like anything is going too bad for us, aside from Robin and Iqbal kidnapping my mother, we have gotten much stronger," Darkness pointed out. Referring to the creation of the Titans Reserve.
"Yes, we are feeling just fine, alone in our castle, where we are always free to grow and decide but never free enough to find victory. As these days go on, we are accepting this stalemate. We will eventually stay in this stage, and just battle and battle, till the end of time, just like the other heroes," Guardian said.
"What?" Darkness asked, confused at Guardian's statement.
"Think about it, all these superheroes, all of them, have a city and a villain, however, they never completely crush their villain, nor does the villain crush them. The reason is both sides feel comfortable with the status quo, they don't know what to expect or find if one side is taken out of the picture, it is too scary for them to comprehend. They have reached that stage, where they forgot about the past and they forgot about a future that could be, both good and bad. I think we are also going to fall into that vicious cycle as well," Guardian said explaining part of his fears. His fear of fighting a useless battle, a hopeless struggle.
"I am sure we aren't going to be like that," Darkness said quietly, his philosophy was scary and true.
"I know the only way to break this cycle is to have something dear break, something important break, then one side is so motivated it crushes the other and becomes victorious. This is why I cry, because deep down, I am wishing something would break, because we are running out of time. How terrible am I! I want something bad to happen," Guardian said full of venom and bitterness.
"Guardian, you just want change and are frustrated, I feel for you, it isn't your fault, don't put the world on your shoulder, I promise you we will make things better," Darkness said as he approached Guardian.
"Look at this city, there are women in the streets, pulling out their hair in frustration and sadness over what has been done to them," Guardian said, not acknowledging Darkness moving towards him.
Guardian noticed her approach but Darkness just kept moving closer and she said, "I promise you, my soul is clean."
"I don't doubt it at all," Guardian said, feeling kind of frisky, as he backed up. "Why are you coming so cl-," Devil did Guardian know that she would kiss him across the mouth.
Darkness pulled back from the kiss and blushed at Guardian. Guardian's head was spinning and he looked at her eyes and said, "I don't want to say anything else, except, we have to get away from this hellish world."
Darkness responded by saying, "One day, we will walk away from here, proud of what we did here in this city."
WATCHTOWER
"Hello my beautiful child, my prince!" Starfire said happily when Robin knocked on the door.
Robin just gave a weak smile, he had actually missed his mother, her radiant smile, her cheerful attitude, he really missed it. Especially during those dark nights in Jump City when he was out patrolling and he stared out at the terrible city of sin.
"Where is Dad and the rest of the family?" Robin asked as he gave his mother a hug.
"Oh, your brothers and sisters have been sent to a secret location and your father is on Earth, there is a crises going on," Starfire explained, her voice now down.
"Darkness said something about the Watchtower being empty and the huge battles on Earth, didn't believe it till now," Robin observed.
"I too don't believe it," Star said nodding to her son.
"You don't have to be down there?" Robin asked.
"Oh no! When I found out about my baby coming back home I transferred to Watchtower defense so I could be with you!" Starfire said excitedly.
"Great," Robin said, he finally entered the apartment and immediately the memories came back. He entered the living room and sat down on the couch, Starfire had entered the kitchen. Robin waited for a few minutes before Star reappeared with a tray in her hand and a big smile.
"Oh no you didn't," Robin said with a smile as Star walked forward with her tray.
"Oh yes I did!" Starfire said when she put the tray on the table in front of Robin. Both their smiles grew wider.
"Why do you spoil me so much?" Robin asked as he took a bite from his favorite food, biscuit of growth. Not only was Robin fluent in Tamaranian, he also had acquired the taste for the food; he truly was his mother's son.
"I made this for you, not only for being here, but also for finally embracing your emotions and gaining the ability to fly!" Star said happily. She was very happy these days, and very proud of her son.
"Thank you mom, thanks," Robin said as he took another biscuit, but he wasn't as excited as he would have been had he come on any other circumstance.
"What is bothering you my child?" Star asked, noticing the lack of excitement.
Robin looked up, smiled and said, "Nothing is wrong, what makes you think that?"
"Don't lie to your mother, I can read your mind, tell me what's bothering you?" Star said seriously, as a mother she knew how her children thought.
"I got kicked off the team mom," Robin said quietly.
"I know the circumstances on why you were put on a leave of absence, I know the whole story. However, I would like to point out, you were not kicked off the team, Guardian has told me that when I think you are fit you will return and lead again," Starfire explained.
"I screwed up, I let my emotions take control," Robin said bitterly, bad memories flooding back in.
"You inherited that from both your father and me," Starfire said quietly.
Robin looked at his mother in bewilderment, "What? Is she kidding? I mean, Dad is one of the coolest and most controlled person I know, and I don't think I have ever seen mom lose it, ever!" Robin thought as he stared at Star waiting for her to explain.
Starfire noticed this and began to speak.
TITANS TOWER
THE NEXT AFTERNOON
"Kili? What are you doing?" Guardian asked the Reserve Titan. Kili had just come in from the garage, with dust and oil on his clothes.
"Fixing up the T-Car, I am going to the city tonight," Kili explained.
"What are you going to do in the city without backup?" Guardian asked, he didn't need any Titan going on solo missions and putting themselves at risk. He didn't need any dead heroes to be specific, especially since Kili wasn't used to how Jump City worked.
"I am not going on a mission; I am going to have some fun take a break!" Kili said with a smile. His cheerful attitude had yet to reflect on the two brooding Titans, Guardian and Darkness.
"Fun? Take a break? You have only been here for two days," Guardian pointed out.
"Well, considering I was on patrol for the past two days and tonight is technically my night off, I will go out, nothing you can do about it," Kili said, his smile wider than ever.
Guardian frowned, "Are you serious? I am the leader of the Teen Titans, so I do have the power," Guardian pointed out.
"Nope, I read the rule book, unless I am suspended, or if every other member on the team agrees with you, you can't dictate where I go when I have an official night off," Kili explained the rules that he read.
"Okay, okay, just messing with you, go ahead, but keep your communicator with you, if you don't answer when I call, I will suspend you," Guardian said as he walked away.
Kili just smiled, he was a big party guy. He really didn't have much regards to morals, he didn't care for religion, he loved gambling, flirting, dancing, and he was also known to have done a couple of one night stands back in his homeland. The Titans however never knew this about Kili, had they found out, Guardian would have probably forced him to stay. Kili began whistling as he made his way to his room to get ready for his night in Jump City.
TITANS TOWER
TEAM MEETING
"Alright, here is tonight's roster for hunting for clues, Fireteen, Nola, and Nightfire, you three will be out tonight. Me and Darkness are going to hold the Tower," Guardian explained to the assembled teammates.
"What about Kili?" Fireteen asked.
"He has worked two straight nights and, as the rules apply, he has the night off," Guardian explained.
"So that means I get the night off tomorrow?" Fireteen asked.
"Yep," Guardian said nodding. The other Titans nodded understanding their assignments. Nola rarely asked questions, she was very disciplined and obeyed all of Guardian's orders exactly as he said. The only questions she asked were about how to make sure she completed the mission. The girl impressed Guardian immensely and Guardian wished Nightfire and Fireteen were more like her.
NORTH SIDE
TEEN CLUB
Kili arrived in his soupped up T-Car; it was painted all black, with chrome and new rims. Very stylish and nice looking, Kili wore a nice black shirt and khaki pants. He wore black socks, with leather black shoes. His outfit showed off his stunning, crystal blue eyes, and he kept his black hair spiked up.
He parked the car, got out and entered the premier, illegal, teen club in Jump City. It was very large and boasted a bar. They never checked for IDs, even though some of the kids looked like they were in middle school. The police never cracked down on the club because it gave a very nice profit to Hartwell, it was run by a boss.
Kili loved the huge place from the moment he entered, hundreds of people dancing, the music deafening, and a well lit and well stocked bar. It beat any of the clubs Kili had been in before and Kili was in a trance. However, he quickly got out of the trance when someone bumped him forward, Kili was blocking the entrance. Now, focused on his task of having fun Kili approached the bar.
At the bar, to the right he noticed a girl, his age; she had long, auburn hair. Her face was Russian, or eastern European, which means she had very strong facial features. She also had a golden tan, which made her look even prettier. She wore a black dress which showed off her back. Kili was taken by this beautiful girl as he approached the bar, however he noticed she was resting her head on her hand and looked embarrassed and angry. The guy next to her was clearly drunk and was speaking to her harshly, although Kili couldn't hear he could tell by his body movements.
Any other guy would have snuck in, hear what was going on, figure out how to react, then make a move, or they would just throw themselves in there in hopes that they can impresses the girl they have their eyes on. However, Kili had telekinesis and he only had to probe the guy and girl's mind for some basic information.
After several seconds Kili knew what was happening, the girl's name was Anna, the guy was her new boyfriend, and she already was sick of him and wanted some guy to get her out of there, by any means necessary. Knowing this Kili grabbed a chair and sat next to her, he grunted getting her attention.
Anna turned to Kili and was stunned by his handsome features and his powerful blue eyes. She gave him a pained look, as her drunken boyfriend gave another outburst.
Kili smiled and said to her, "What's wrong baby? Doesn't your man treat you like he should?" he indicated to her drunk boyfriend, acting as though he figured it out on his own, not with his powers.
"You think he does?" Anna replied sarcastically as she took a swig from her drink.
"My name is Kili," he said as he held his hand up in greeting, giving her that sparkling smile. Some guys just have a face that attracts girls; Kili was one of those guys.
"I am Anna, as you can see, desperate to get out of this situation," she said with a smile. Her boyfriend pretty much didn't care anymore and had left to a back room to gamble away his money.
"Why can't we just take a ride? Get the hell out of here," Kili suggested as he took a swig from the drink he ordered for himself.
She studied him and smiled, "But all the best DJs here tonight are saving the slowest songs for last. Think about it, when the songs reach their height it will be just me and you. Come on Kili, will that be so bad?" she asked.
"Hell no, that sounds good, then we can go for a ride," Kili responded as Anna laughed.
"Why do you want to leave so bad?" she asked, slightly suspicious of this mysterious man.
With an innocent and kind smile, Kili replied, "I just got some new shoes for my ride, that's why I came driving about 95, looking for a cutie pie."
"Am I the cutie pie you want to sleep with by the end of tonight?" Anna asked playfully.
Although she was right, Kili just laughed with her and said, "We don't have to make love, we might just cuddle up tonight," he was bold. She loved bold men; of course Kili knew that as he probed her mind for more information.
"Hell, enough talk, lets just dance," Anna said as she grabbed Kili and lead him to the dance floor.
SEVERAL HOURS OF DANCING AND TALKING
IN THE CAR
"I assure you, its okay, it's really now or nothing, come on," Kili said to her as he speeded through the dark streets. His charm and probing had allowed him to sweep the girl off her feet, Kili to her, was the perfect man, the man of her dreams. She never knew if she would ever get another day with him at least that was what the impression Kili was leaving with her.
"Really, I am not worried, or even concerned, but my emotions aren't ready for something like this so soon," Anna tried explaining.
"Come on, just for one time, make only one exception," Kili said as he made another speedy turn.
"But the status of my emotions?" Anna said quietly.
"Damn, you are already changing your mind; you seem to always be changing. I mean come on, don't think about what we will be doing. I will be able to say it is love, but if you don't want to talk about it than I guess it isn't love, then what we have isn't love, Anna," Kili said as an explanation.
"It isn't love if we don't do it? I am sure you are leaving something in the shade of grey or something in between, come on, I am not worried," she seemed to say the last part to reassure herself.
OUTSIDE HOTEL
They arrived at a rundown hotel, where anyone could go for a night of love making, owner was always desperate for money and didn't care how old the people who came in were. Kili found out about it by probing some minds of some other people at the club.
However, Anna was still unsure, "I don't think we should do it," she said, now having second thoughts.
"IF you would only once, just once let me, only one time. I promise you will be happy with what happens tonight," Kili reassured her.
"You just want to use me, this isn't that serious that we go straight to the next level," Anna said as she now stopped walking to the entrance to the lobby.
Now, slightly angry, Kili said, "Don't think this isn't serious, never think that. The love we can make will be very deep, serious, and so damn beautiful," he said fiercely as he stared at her in they eye.
Looking in his eyes, Anna whispered, "Damn you, damn you, why are you so perfect and irresistible," she said in disbelief. She felt she would never be with a man like this again, which is why she entered the hotel and the room with him.
TITANS TOWER
"Where is Kili?" Guardian asked it was late at night; the two Titans who were on patrol were already home and asleep. He was with Darkness waiting for the last Titan.
"How should I know? He left his communicator at home," Darkness answered, also worried.
"Can you sense him or something like that?" Guardian asked.
"He is telekinetic, so I could probably feel his emotions but it won't guarantee knowing his location, remember when you lost it I sensed you. I didn't find you, I just sensed you were in trouble," Darkness said.
"Knowing his emotions may help us determine his location if something bad has happened.
"So you want me to make contact?" Darkness asked as she hovered cross-legged preparing to meditate and make contact.
"Go ahead," Guardian said as he signaled her to go ahead.
Darkness made contact and immediately her face turned a little red as she returned to her normal position.
"What is it? Is he in pain?" Guardian asked worried.
"N-No," Darkness said quietly.
"Then what is he feeling?" Guardian asked in irritation.
"Pleasure, I think you can figure what type of pleasure," Darkness said slightly embarrassed and ashamed she had probed his mind.
Guardian's nostrils flared, his eyes filled with anger, "I will deal with him when he comes back! Your mother is missing, our leader is out, and he just complicates things even further!" Guardian roared as he left the room.
"Kili is screwed," Darkness thought.
HOTEL ROOM
After a session of love making, the two young lovers were lying side by side. The sweating lovers, Anna looked at Kili and gasped, "This is so wrong, what have we done? This is all your fault, we had no protection!"
Kili smiled at her, "Can't blame me, because some blame has to rest on you, your beauty is why we mix the way we do, with such love and perfection," Kili replied as he began stroking her hair. Calming her down, assuring her of his loyalty to her.
"All I can say is think about the consequences of what we have done," Anna said quietly as she rested her head on his chest.
THREE HOURS LATTER
When they were finished Anna said in horror, "How do I forget, or live on with this on my conscious!" she said. She was now getting tired and sleepy.
"Try to tell yourself the things that make yourself forget, don't worry if this was love or not," Kili said almost sleepily.
"I am not worried if its love or not," Anna said defensively.
Kili responded by kissing her, "Yes you are," he said as he smiled at her for the thousandth time.
Anna spoke seriously, "I am only worried about the consequences," she began shaking a little from the fear of what she had done.
Kili continued kissing her, as he spoke, "Why can't you stop shaking? Why can't I stop touching you," he said.
Anna moved a little to the side and said, "We aren't ready for this."
"I am not going to break, nor am I going to worry about this anymore," Kili said with confidence.
"I should just say as long as what we did was love, but for some reason, it isn't that easy to say," Anna said hesitantly. She sneezed after a few silent seconds.
"Oh God Anna, every time you sneeze I think it is love," Kili said with that same smile that brought Anna's spirits up.
"I am not ready for this," Anna said to no one in particular as she drifted off to sleep.
After an hour, Kili still couldn't sleep, he spoke out loud, in a whisper, to no one but himself, "She's talking in her sleep, and it's keeping me awake. Now she begins to toss and turn, her every word is nonsense to me but now I understand it all," Kili laid backed on the pillow, staring at the ceiling, "Oh God, I wasn't ready for this," he said before going into a troubled sleep.
That concludes another chapter of Payback, hope you enjoyed. I know the update took awhile but I have been busy, Can't Live Without Her II, will be updated after several days. Hope you enjoyed this key chapter.
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See, a lot of teams go through tough times, right now the Titans are, so I hope you enjoy, a lot of drama next chapter, Kili is going to face the wrath of Guardian!