I am so sorry for the long wait! I haven't had any time to type and well..
As school draws near I seem to loose my burst of creativity. none the less
I am working on this. slowly but I am.
The computer is fixed so I hope that I will get this out, I can't make any promises. sorry, I do not know what my mind will be like and if anyone would notice my other stories you'll see .I am bad at updateing. AS for the yaoi thing, we'll just have to wait and see 'cuz I really have no idea but I might. my writing has taken.. Uh shall we say leaps into. things I never though of writing. much less reading! Oh well!
Thanks for the reviews!!!
No one seemed to notice I accidently put chapter 10 on the last chapter instead of nine. hmmm.. Have to get around to changing that.. I'll get around to it.
Warning: Mentioned rape. uh.. some descriptive language but nothing to make it Nc-17, And very bad language due to Riku's part. I can imagine him as being some one who does that when he is angry.
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Never Again Chapter 10 By: life's Scar
Sora was shocked at his friend's confession, he could not truly think that he was destroyed inside. No not his confident Riku, the boy who didn't take anything to stop his smile. Everything caught up with. His friend had been raped while he had watched, and expecting everything to be fine he had let Riku hold it all in, "Oh Riku. I'm sorry." Sora said as he wrapped his arms around Riku's shoulders, "I'm so sorry."
Riku stood there in his friends arm for what seemed like days, not responding to the contact. He did not jerk away, did not tense up. he just stood there. Then, then Sora felt Riku lift his arms up, ready to wrap his arms around his best friend. Sora noticed that he seemed to be trying to make a decision. Riku looked at the wall in front of him slowly raising his arms up, in a tired and weak voice he said, "You,,, you have.. nothing to be sorry of."
And then the silver haired boy's arms wrapped around Sora's body and a single tear fell from his eye. Yet again, Riku thought, I have caused Sora unnecessary pain. I have caused everyone around me uncalled for pain. That's all he seemed to be good at any more. messing up and failing his friends, He was the one who was suppose to protect Sora. Sora was suppose to look up to him like he use to. Riku was so use to being the person to lean on. He hated feeling so weak.
Sora frighteningly noticed that was beginning to sag in his arms. What was wrong with his friend? "Riku?" Sora asked trying to get the boys attention, "Riku whats the matter."
"I'm going to sit down." Riku mumbled almost inaudibly, "I'm tired."
"When was the last time you ate?" Cloud asked startling both boys.
"How long have you been there?" Riku asked as he sat down on a soft chair.
"Not long." He lied, "For a matter though, when was the last time you slept?"
"I'm tired of talking." Riku said closing back up.
Sora glanced at Cloud then at Riku, "Riku?"
"Leave me alone Sora, thanks for the comforting but I don't need it anymore."
"Riku." he started.
"LEAVE!" Riku barked, showing no kindness in his voice.
"Riku." Sora said hurt that his friend was mad at him now.
"Leave me alone."
Sora looked at Cloud for a second, he did not blame Cloud for interrupting them, he had already felt Riku closing up once again.
"Riku, don't think you can make me leave by being mean. I'm not leaving."
"What do you want?" He asked, his voice just a as empty as his eyes.
There was no reason left to act, Sora would surely tell everyone that he was sick.
"To help you."
"I don't want your help."
"I could care less what you want, I am going ot help you."
Riku made a sound then laughed dryly, "Fuck off Cloud and go drink from your bottle."
Cloud bit his tongue and said, "That was low, Riku."
"I don't care if it was or not, you drink that bottle to forget about a lost loved one. How about you get me some, that would help."
Cloud took that one, "I know you haven't a decent meal in days, why have you stopped eating?"
"Fuck off Cloud, You can help me if you're still stuck on your own fuicking problems. I'm not one of them so fuck off and go try a relive you're guilt some other way. What happened? Did you kill your lover?"
Cloud forcefully pulled Riku out of the chair and pulled him to his face. Riku's eyes filled with fear as visions filled his head. He was up against the wall as Ansem's hand roamed down his now bare back, quickly Ansem let the bonds loosen their grip on him and he was pulled to his face, hands around his throat. Face to face to the demon in front of him. Then Ansem violently searched his mouth then threw him on the floor. "No!" Riku screamed as he brought his weak fist up.
Cloud grabbed the flying fist then dropped Rikuy back in the chair, a little unnerved that he had caused Riku to have a flashback. But he wouldn't let that stop him, "Riku, now you listen to me! You can not stop eating! Do you want that sick bastard to win? If you dike he wins, easily said!"
Riku looked up from his postion for a brief second before weakly muttering, "What do you want form me?" He was obviously drained.
"I want you to try." Cloud said sitting on the floor so he could look up at Riku, so he could see his eyes.
Riku did not let him finish before he began to yell again, "What the hell do you want me to do? Do you think I like feeling like this? Do you think I like feeling so weak?"
"I know you don't like feeling that way. I was going to ask you to try to talk to someone. it doesn't have to be any of us. I can find someone who can help you deal."
"Deal with what Cloud? Just say it!"
"Riku."
"No! Don't, you don't know what it is like to be raped! To have someone force their dick up your ass! Made worse by having your best friend watch you!" tears were slipping down his face now.
"No I don't," Cloud said, "I wish I could say something to comfort you. to stop the hurt inside of you. do something."
"Kill Ansem.." Riku muttered, pulling his knees to his chest, "or me."
"You do not want to die."
"You don't know. how could you understand."
"No I understand what you're feeling,"
"Leave me alone, Cloud."
"no.."
"Please. just give me this much."
Cloud thought for a moment then decided it would be the best thing to do to give him what little control he had now, "go to bed." Cloud said before closing the door.
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Uh.. No main point to this chapter just some working through to a main point. I think, oh well.
The computer is fixed so I hope that I will get this out, I can't make any promises. sorry, I do not know what my mind will be like and if anyone would notice my other stories you'll see .I am bad at updateing. AS for the yaoi thing, we'll just have to wait and see 'cuz I really have no idea but I might. my writing has taken.. Uh shall we say leaps into. things I never though of writing. much less reading! Oh well!
Thanks for the reviews!!!
No one seemed to notice I accidently put chapter 10 on the last chapter instead of nine. hmmm.. Have to get around to changing that.. I'll get around to it.
Warning: Mentioned rape. uh.. some descriptive language but nothing to make it Nc-17, And very bad language due to Riku's part. I can imagine him as being some one who does that when he is angry.
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Never Again Chapter 10 By: life's Scar
Sora was shocked at his friend's confession, he could not truly think that he was destroyed inside. No not his confident Riku, the boy who didn't take anything to stop his smile. Everything caught up with. His friend had been raped while he had watched, and expecting everything to be fine he had let Riku hold it all in, "Oh Riku. I'm sorry." Sora said as he wrapped his arms around Riku's shoulders, "I'm so sorry."
Riku stood there in his friends arm for what seemed like days, not responding to the contact. He did not jerk away, did not tense up. he just stood there. Then, then Sora felt Riku lift his arms up, ready to wrap his arms around his best friend. Sora noticed that he seemed to be trying to make a decision. Riku looked at the wall in front of him slowly raising his arms up, in a tired and weak voice he said, "You,,, you have.. nothing to be sorry of."
And then the silver haired boy's arms wrapped around Sora's body and a single tear fell from his eye. Yet again, Riku thought, I have caused Sora unnecessary pain. I have caused everyone around me uncalled for pain. That's all he seemed to be good at any more. messing up and failing his friends, He was the one who was suppose to protect Sora. Sora was suppose to look up to him like he use to. Riku was so use to being the person to lean on. He hated feeling so weak.
Sora frighteningly noticed that was beginning to sag in his arms. What was wrong with his friend? "Riku?" Sora asked trying to get the boys attention, "Riku whats the matter."
"I'm going to sit down." Riku mumbled almost inaudibly, "I'm tired."
"When was the last time you ate?" Cloud asked startling both boys.
"How long have you been there?" Riku asked as he sat down on a soft chair.
"Not long." He lied, "For a matter though, when was the last time you slept?"
"I'm tired of talking." Riku said closing back up.
Sora glanced at Cloud then at Riku, "Riku?"
"Leave me alone Sora, thanks for the comforting but I don't need it anymore."
"Riku." he started.
"LEAVE!" Riku barked, showing no kindness in his voice.
"Riku." Sora said hurt that his friend was mad at him now.
"Leave me alone."
Sora looked at Cloud for a second, he did not blame Cloud for interrupting them, he had already felt Riku closing up once again.
"Riku, don't think you can make me leave by being mean. I'm not leaving."
"What do you want?" He asked, his voice just a as empty as his eyes.
There was no reason left to act, Sora would surely tell everyone that he was sick.
"To help you."
"I don't want your help."
"I could care less what you want, I am going ot help you."
Riku made a sound then laughed dryly, "Fuck off Cloud and go drink from your bottle."
Cloud bit his tongue and said, "That was low, Riku."
"I don't care if it was or not, you drink that bottle to forget about a lost loved one. How about you get me some, that would help."
Cloud took that one, "I know you haven't a decent meal in days, why have you stopped eating?"
"Fuck off Cloud, You can help me if you're still stuck on your own fuicking problems. I'm not one of them so fuck off and go try a relive you're guilt some other way. What happened? Did you kill your lover?"
Cloud forcefully pulled Riku out of the chair and pulled him to his face. Riku's eyes filled with fear as visions filled his head. He was up against the wall as Ansem's hand roamed down his now bare back, quickly Ansem let the bonds loosen their grip on him and he was pulled to his face, hands around his throat. Face to face to the demon in front of him. Then Ansem violently searched his mouth then threw him on the floor. "No!" Riku screamed as he brought his weak fist up.
Cloud grabbed the flying fist then dropped Rikuy back in the chair, a little unnerved that he had caused Riku to have a flashback. But he wouldn't let that stop him, "Riku, now you listen to me! You can not stop eating! Do you want that sick bastard to win? If you dike he wins, easily said!"
Riku looked up from his postion for a brief second before weakly muttering, "What do you want form me?" He was obviously drained.
"I want you to try." Cloud said sitting on the floor so he could look up at Riku, so he could see his eyes.
Riku did not let him finish before he began to yell again, "What the hell do you want me to do? Do you think I like feeling like this? Do you think I like feeling so weak?"
"I know you don't like feeling that way. I was going to ask you to try to talk to someone. it doesn't have to be any of us. I can find someone who can help you deal."
"Deal with what Cloud? Just say it!"
"Riku."
"No! Don't, you don't know what it is like to be raped! To have someone force their dick up your ass! Made worse by having your best friend watch you!" tears were slipping down his face now.
"No I don't," Cloud said, "I wish I could say something to comfort you. to stop the hurt inside of you. do something."
"Kill Ansem.." Riku muttered, pulling his knees to his chest, "or me."
"You do not want to die."
"You don't know. how could you understand."
"No I understand what you're feeling,"
"Leave me alone, Cloud."
"no.."
"Please. just give me this much."
Cloud thought for a moment then decided it would be the best thing to do to give him what little control he had now, "go to bed." Cloud said before closing the door.
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Uh.. No main point to this chapter just some working through to a main point. I think, oh well.