My computers fucked again. URG. I hate technology *Cries
silently* hope it doesn't give out completely..
Thanks for all the reviews! Thanks really, really much!
This chapter shows a soft side of Riku as well as a mean side..
On with the story, I don't have much to say at the moment. Oh, and I can't remember much Disney movies at the moment. so all the people are made up..
Sorry, for the long wait!!!! I hope you like this chapter..
Oh and someone asked if this is going to be a yaoi a couple of chapters back and I think I addressed it. but I'm still not sure.. I'm not even sure if it's going to be boyXboy..... Not exactly sure if I can write that..I'm not even good at male female relationships. in writing..
Oh, and if you haven't read Innocence Corrupted yet then you need to, it is one of the best stories I have read. along side Bound by Darkness! Read them!
Never Again By: Life's Scar Chapter. 13
Riku fell down into his bed, his body shaking as he tried to understand all that had happened. He pulled the warm quilt over his body, hiding in it. He felt a few tears fall down his face escaping against his will.
Then the memories of all of the people that he had hurt came back to him, the people he had not told Sora about. or anyone at that. Ansem knew of them, he knew everything that he had done, though, considering he was in his mind. that he was a part of him, that was obvious.
Riku remembered the old woman at the creek who had been crying, someone close to her was sick. she had seen him heal himself, after a fight. she had come up to him and asked him to heal that someone. Riku had shook his head and continued on his way, he had things to do. She grabbed his arm and begged, saying something along the lines that only a miracle would save her baby.
He didn't have time for her. He slapped her and she fell into the creek.
How was she? Did someone help her out?
Riku felt sick, had he killed her? He knew he had killed 'her baby', because he knew miracles didn't exist. Why couldn't he help them, why was he so selfish?
Then there was that small boy who had begged him to spare a few cents so he could get food. Riku had had enough money to 'buy' him a feast. He had glared at the boy and continued on his way. why?
Why didn't he give that boy some food? The poor boy was nothing but bones, the rags barely covering him.
Riku hated himself, how could he be so cruel? How could he deny someone so innocent something that they needed?
He felt more tears fall down his face, why as he crying? He wasn't the one that should be crying, he had hurt people, he didn't deserve to cry because he felt bad.
Princess Jasmine, she was so close to be saving, he had taken her, when she had woken she was so scared, and he had nothing to soothe her. He had glared at her and demanded her to shut up, then he was so close to slapping her, her incessant cries were driving him insane. Then Magnificent had come, and thankfully taken her off of his hands.
He began shaking as he remembered taking all of the princesses, he felt sick. He began shaking, his head hurt, God, it hurt. Forgive me for I have sinned, I have harmed those I shouldn't have.. Forgive me, heavenly father.
Riku pushed himself to his knees and began to pray, he hadn't prayed since his mother had died, forgetting all belief in God, because he had taken her from him.
Tears fell from his eyes like a river, he knew he would not be forgiven, he had done so much no amount of repentance would ever add up.
HE slowly climbed to his feet and quickly made his way to the bathroom, falling in front of the toilet and emptying his stomach.
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Sora fell into a soft chair and glared, Riku had been doing good then that 'man' had shown up and now, he could hear his best friend throwing up in the rest room. He felt like hitting something, that something happened to have silver hair and a very long sword, but since that was not an option. Sora's hand fist slammed into the table beside the chair causing Cloud to jump, "Sora. it's not going to help to destroy my furniture."
"I know." Sora mumbled, holding his now aching hand, "I still want to hit something."
"How about a pillow." Cloud suggested, "Less painful."
Sora glared and Cloud laughed, "I need to get a punching bag. maybe my furniture will remain in tact. and I need better locks.
"You defiantly need better locks." Sora said leaning his head back and closing his eyes.
He was so tired, he needed to sleep, he couldn't think straight and that's what they needed now. He need to be clear headed to think about what they were going to do. He slowly began to fall asleep. He was almost there when he heard Riku cry out.
He was up almost instantly, following Cloud down the short hallway into Riku's room. Riku laid on the bed kicking at thin air, his bare chest glistened with sweat, the scar sticking out on his chest, "No." He whimpered.
Cloud instantly had his hands on Riku's shoulder, shaking him softly until he woke up. Sora saw the fear in his eyes as he clutched to Cloud like a lifeline, "Shh.Riku." Cloud soothed, "it was only a dream, it was a bad dream."
Riku shook his head, "No.. no. he's back. he came back."
"No, Ansem's not back, he's not here."
Riku nodded his head, trying to get out of the bed, "He came back.. he. he r." Riku had tears running down his face, gasping for breath, "He came back."
Cloud gently grabbed Riku's chin and forced him to look at him, "Calm down Riku, I won't let Ansem hurt you like that again. okay, do you hear me? He wasn't here, and I will not let him near you again."
Riku nodded his head, slowly loosening his grip on Cloud but he still looked scared, and both Sora and Cloud knew that he did not believe him, at least not fully. Sora came up and sat beside Riku, trying not to look at the scar on Riku's chest, it just stuck out like a sore thumb though, "I'm tired." Riku mumbled as he laid back down.
Sora noticed that Riku was still shaking and he felt sorry for his friend, who had been so proud. and now. now he wasn't broken. but close. He would be the last one to ask for help, and that was the problem with him, he was to proud. or to embarrassed to ask for help or allow anyone to help him. In the morning he would act as if this hadn't happened.
Cloud got up and looked at Sora, silently asking to make sure Riku was okay. Cloud knew Riku wouldn't open up to him.
"Stay with me Sora." Riku asked, So quiet that Sora had to strain to hear him, "Please."
Sora nodded his head and climbed under the blankets with him.
He listened as Riku's breathing slowed as he fell back asleep. Sora smiled, glad that at least Riku could get to sleep, he was plagued by the memory of Riku's rape. The memory of his friend crying out in pain as the man viciously thrust into him, tearing him form the inside.
Silent tears slowly made their way down his cheeks as he remembered Riku's screams. He suddenly felt sick, he knew he wouldn't be sleeping tonight. not with those memories. He began to climb out of the bed, but stopped as Riku moved as if sensing that he was about to leave.
TBC
Damn it all to hell.... I can't write more then that at the moment.. ARG all of my stories are ending at three pages.. NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
Okay. sorry about the religion part in there if it offended anybody.
Thanks for all the reviews! Thanks really, really much!
This chapter shows a soft side of Riku as well as a mean side..
On with the story, I don't have much to say at the moment. Oh, and I can't remember much Disney movies at the moment. so all the people are made up..
Sorry, for the long wait!!!! I hope you like this chapter..
Oh and someone asked if this is going to be a yaoi a couple of chapters back and I think I addressed it. but I'm still not sure.. I'm not even sure if it's going to be boyXboy..... Not exactly sure if I can write that..I'm not even good at male female relationships. in writing..
Oh, and if you haven't read Innocence Corrupted yet then you need to, it is one of the best stories I have read. along side Bound by Darkness! Read them!
Never Again By: Life's Scar Chapter. 13
Riku fell down into his bed, his body shaking as he tried to understand all that had happened. He pulled the warm quilt over his body, hiding in it. He felt a few tears fall down his face escaping against his will.
Then the memories of all of the people that he had hurt came back to him, the people he had not told Sora about. or anyone at that. Ansem knew of them, he knew everything that he had done, though, considering he was in his mind. that he was a part of him, that was obvious.
Riku remembered the old woman at the creek who had been crying, someone close to her was sick. she had seen him heal himself, after a fight. she had come up to him and asked him to heal that someone. Riku had shook his head and continued on his way, he had things to do. She grabbed his arm and begged, saying something along the lines that only a miracle would save her baby.
He didn't have time for her. He slapped her and she fell into the creek.
How was she? Did someone help her out?
Riku felt sick, had he killed her? He knew he had killed 'her baby', because he knew miracles didn't exist. Why couldn't he help them, why was he so selfish?
Then there was that small boy who had begged him to spare a few cents so he could get food. Riku had had enough money to 'buy' him a feast. He had glared at the boy and continued on his way. why?
Why didn't he give that boy some food? The poor boy was nothing but bones, the rags barely covering him.
Riku hated himself, how could he be so cruel? How could he deny someone so innocent something that they needed?
He felt more tears fall down his face, why as he crying? He wasn't the one that should be crying, he had hurt people, he didn't deserve to cry because he felt bad.
Princess Jasmine, she was so close to be saving, he had taken her, when she had woken she was so scared, and he had nothing to soothe her. He had glared at her and demanded her to shut up, then he was so close to slapping her, her incessant cries were driving him insane. Then Magnificent had come, and thankfully taken her off of his hands.
He began shaking as he remembered taking all of the princesses, he felt sick. He began shaking, his head hurt, God, it hurt. Forgive me for I have sinned, I have harmed those I shouldn't have.. Forgive me, heavenly father.
Riku pushed himself to his knees and began to pray, he hadn't prayed since his mother had died, forgetting all belief in God, because he had taken her from him.
Tears fell from his eyes like a river, he knew he would not be forgiven, he had done so much no amount of repentance would ever add up.
HE slowly climbed to his feet and quickly made his way to the bathroom, falling in front of the toilet and emptying his stomach.
---
Sora fell into a soft chair and glared, Riku had been doing good then that 'man' had shown up and now, he could hear his best friend throwing up in the rest room. He felt like hitting something, that something happened to have silver hair and a very long sword, but since that was not an option. Sora's hand fist slammed into the table beside the chair causing Cloud to jump, "Sora. it's not going to help to destroy my furniture."
"I know." Sora mumbled, holding his now aching hand, "I still want to hit something."
"How about a pillow." Cloud suggested, "Less painful."
Sora glared and Cloud laughed, "I need to get a punching bag. maybe my furniture will remain in tact. and I need better locks.
"You defiantly need better locks." Sora said leaning his head back and closing his eyes.
He was so tired, he needed to sleep, he couldn't think straight and that's what they needed now. He need to be clear headed to think about what they were going to do. He slowly began to fall asleep. He was almost there when he heard Riku cry out.
He was up almost instantly, following Cloud down the short hallway into Riku's room. Riku laid on the bed kicking at thin air, his bare chest glistened with sweat, the scar sticking out on his chest, "No." He whimpered.
Cloud instantly had his hands on Riku's shoulder, shaking him softly until he woke up. Sora saw the fear in his eyes as he clutched to Cloud like a lifeline, "Shh.Riku." Cloud soothed, "it was only a dream, it was a bad dream."
Riku shook his head, "No.. no. he's back. he came back."
"No, Ansem's not back, he's not here."
Riku nodded his head, trying to get out of the bed, "He came back.. he. he r." Riku had tears running down his face, gasping for breath, "He came back."
Cloud gently grabbed Riku's chin and forced him to look at him, "Calm down Riku, I won't let Ansem hurt you like that again. okay, do you hear me? He wasn't here, and I will not let him near you again."
Riku nodded his head, slowly loosening his grip on Cloud but he still looked scared, and both Sora and Cloud knew that he did not believe him, at least not fully. Sora came up and sat beside Riku, trying not to look at the scar on Riku's chest, it just stuck out like a sore thumb though, "I'm tired." Riku mumbled as he laid back down.
Sora noticed that Riku was still shaking and he felt sorry for his friend, who had been so proud. and now. now he wasn't broken. but close. He would be the last one to ask for help, and that was the problem with him, he was to proud. or to embarrassed to ask for help or allow anyone to help him. In the morning he would act as if this hadn't happened.
Cloud got up and looked at Sora, silently asking to make sure Riku was okay. Cloud knew Riku wouldn't open up to him.
"Stay with me Sora." Riku asked, So quiet that Sora had to strain to hear him, "Please."
Sora nodded his head and climbed under the blankets with him.
He listened as Riku's breathing slowed as he fell back asleep. Sora smiled, glad that at least Riku could get to sleep, he was plagued by the memory of Riku's rape. The memory of his friend crying out in pain as the man viciously thrust into him, tearing him form the inside.
Silent tears slowly made their way down his cheeks as he remembered Riku's screams. He suddenly felt sick, he knew he wouldn't be sleeping tonight. not with those memories. He began to climb out of the bed, but stopped as Riku moved as if sensing that he was about to leave.
TBC
Damn it all to hell.... I can't write more then that at the moment.. ARG all of my stories are ending at three pages.. NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
Okay. sorry about the religion part in there if it offended anybody.