Title: "Disremembrance"
Main Character(s): Mary Camden-Rivera
Author: Slo Motion
Rating: K
Genre: Drama, song-inspired-story
Main POV: Mary
Character Death: Nada
Coupling: None
Songs Used: "Disremembrance" by Dannii Minogue
Setting: Season 10
Disclaimer: You all know the drill, 7th Heaven is not mine or neither is the song "Disremembrance" by Dannii Minogue, which inspired this. Lyrics can be found at the bottom of the page.
Summary: But if I forget myself…will you remember me?
A/N: My first story in ages, I know. I'm sorry, I have terrible writers block. Also, "Know Your Stars" is still being written to!
Will someone remember me?
I am lost. My mind is in a state of confusion. Any thoughts I have are twisted into a deep, dark void.
I cannot sleep at night. I'm in this too deep. Something deep inside me keeps me up at night. Maybe it's insomnia, or maybe I've just lost it piece by piece over the years.
I'm losing myself. I haven't been true to myself since I was seventeen.
I had to be the bad girl and wreck the gym, didn't I? I had to have revenge, show them all that they couldn't hold me down. I had to blow it all.
I lost almost everything that night. The only thing that I had left hanging by a thread was the love of my family. But I still lost my friends, my trust, my respect, and my scholarship. It all slipped away.
Then came Robbie. He was a mistake, we were a mistake. It was never a good idea for us to be together. We were both young, stupid, and at bad times in our lives. Robbie's better off with someone else.
I never wanted to take the twin's money, believe me. I never wanted to steal from my own little brothers, but I was helpless. I had no job and no money and all those bills to pay. And I was just to darn high and mighty to tell my parents I needed them so I let my siblings help me. I let them steal for me.
Buffalo was a cold place. No love, no heart, no anything. Grandma and The Colonel run a tight shift in their home. They were cold towards me, telling me how I was throwing my life away by not going to college.
Wilson and I getting back together was another mistake. Wilson was a part of my old life, the perfect. I knew it was stupid but I still stayed with him, right up until I broke his heart. Right up until I broke his spirit.
My life went on and on with me doing stupid thing after stupid thing. Then I married Carlos.
We had little Charlie soon enough. I was a mother. I screwed that up too. I left Carlos and Charlie. I abandoned my own family. I feel so low.
I don't mean to lead this life, but I've lost myself. I've lost the old Mary Camden. I have forgotten myself.
Will someone remember me? Please...
"Disremembrance" by Dannii Minogue
I feel so calm tonight
Like I'm floating into space
I feel my anger now
Vanishing without a trace
I feel so weak tonight
I'm no longer in control
I feel so different now
That it's time to face my soul
You gave me the time
To change the memories
But if I forget myself
Will you remember me
(Remember me, remember me)
Will you remember me
Oh love, oh love
Will you remember me
(Remember me, remember me)
Will you remember me
Oh love, oh love
Will you remember me
I feel so bright tonight
Like I'm glowing in the dark
I feel so distant now
Burning like the smallest spark
I feel so faint tonight
Like I'm hardly even there
I feel much older now
But I'm still too young to care
You gave me the hope
That this was meant to be
But if I forget myself
Will you remember me
(Remember me, remember me)
Will you remember me
Oh love, oh love
Will you remember me
(Remember me, remember me)
Will you remember me?
Oh love, oh love
Will you remember me
Oh love
I feel so different now
I feel so different now
I feel no fear tonight
I feel no pain
I don't know what I feel
Or hope to gain
(Remember me, remember me)
Will you remember me
Oh love, oh love
Will you remember me
(Remember me, remember me)
Will you remember me
Oh love, oh love
Will you remember me
Remember me, Remember me
A/N: Hope you enjoyed, please review!
Slo Motion