disclaimer : I don't own the characters ...and I don't own the song in here either !
chapter 7 : Mixing dreams with doubts
'' A hand full people and that people that save the world ?'' She asked . Only to be rewarded by a soft voice who said :'' Exactly.'' It was all so new to her . One day waking up and find out you are a sailor senshi , while just a day before she was a normal person like everyone else who didn't have to care about the world.
Michiru remembered her mother once saying .'' Sometimes we look for the past and sometimes the past looks for us and when it finally finds you , you can either lose reality or accept your fate .'' ' Haruka had always seen the world as a place to live your life and then die , but now .. It seemed so unreal. There were different kinds of people . You've got people who live their lives to please others , there are people who live to please theirselfs and people who live their lives not caring about anything and there was she .. Someone who was lost , not knowing what she had to do . Not knowing if she could accept her destiny as simple as they all expected her to .' Michiru thought. She knew Haruka was confused .
It was just yesterday she accepted her destiny as Sailor Uranus and her destiny to be Michiru's partner in this fight she not wanted to be in the first place . Haruka opened her eyes to look into the deep blue eyes of Michiru .'' What if i don't want to be part of this group saving the world ?'' Haruka asked . Michiru smiled softly .'' You don't have to Haruka . But think of the innocent people who will die without your help.'' Michiru felt heartbroken . Haruka didn't seem to remember her past which included them as lovers . She knew that if Haruka didn't accept her destiny she couldn't force her . But it also meant she would never see Haruka again . Maybe on television or in a magazine or even maybe at one of Haruka's races . But that wouldn't be the same .' I still remember , Ruka . Look around you because there still people hanging on their pasts ... Including me.' She thought sadly looking at Haruka .
'' I don't know ...what i want.'' Haruka said standing up and leaving Michiru alone on the couch remembering she was still at Michiru's house . '' I'd better leave.'' Haruka said .'' Probaly.'' Michiru whispered feeling alone and betrayed without even knowing why .' This is now , not the past .' She scolded to herself and looked up when she heard the frontdoor close . Haruka was gone . Forever ? ' Forget it Michiru .' Michiru thought .' It was all just a memory of the past , not your future .'
Past is past ...
when this began
I had nothing to say
and I'd get lost in the nothingness inside of me
I was confused
and I let it all out to findout that I'm
not the only person with these things in mind
inside of me
but all the vacancy the words revealed
is the only real thing that I've got left to feel
nothing to lose
just stuck/hollow and alone
and the fault is my own
and the fault is my own
Michiru woke up from her dream .. no her memory and looked at Haruka who sleeped peacefully next to her . Michiru smiled and kissed Haruka on her head . Michiru rolled over to look at the clock. Half past three in the morning . She yawned before rolling back . She looked at the ring Haruka had gaven her yesterday on the christmas party . She couldn't stop looking at it. It was a golden band with a big aqua marine stone on it . Suddenly Michiru remembered her dream , her memory of the past . The day after she and Haruka first had met . ' Past or destiny .' Michiru thought doubting .' Does Haruka really love me or is it Uranus who loves me ? I mean Neptune . Were it Uranus and Neptune who brought us together . What happened if Haruka never became Uranus that day . Would she ever had noticed me as who I am ?' Michiru felt confused . She wanted to cry . She didn't understand why she suddenly had all this doubts or where they came from was more of a riddle . That moment Haruka stirred and opened her eyes yawning .'' Hey beautiful ...'' Haruka whispered but was alarmed when she saw the look in Michiru's eyes .
'' Michi , what's wrong ?'' She asked while she sat up looking at her fiancee .'' Nothing.'' Michiru lied .' So she didn't really wanted to marry me ...' Haruka thought standing up trying to fight her tears .' Foolish me .'
'' Haruka where are you going ?'' Michiru asked not knowing why Haruka suddenly stood up.'' I'm going to take a shower .'' Haruka answered sounding a bit upset .
'' Maybe she has doubts too ?'' Michiru said up loud .' Haruka never was easy with confessions .'
R&R I hope you liked it . Flames are welcome ya'll know . Now Haruka asked Michi to marry her , Michiru is doubting if they are destined to be together or if it were Uranus and Neptune who were meant to be and ofcourse all things go wrong from here.I bet you didn't saw this coming , ne ? I'm sorry this chapter is so short , My uncle died yesterday in a car accident so my head wasn't really with this chapter.