Disclaimer : I don't own the characters and the song isn't mine either ...

chapter 12 : Blood and Roses ...

Another dream that will never come true
Just to compliment your sorrow
Another life that I've taken from you
A gift to add on to your pain and suffering
Another truth you can never believe
Has crippled you completely
All the cries you're beginning to hear
Trapped in your mind, and the sound is deafening

Michiru sat on the couch looking at the tv which wasn't even on . Hotaru went to sleep awhile ago .' Where did you go ?' Michiru asked herself . She felt so stupid . She was so happy with Haruka and she just let it all slip away by some stupid dreams which still seemed so real . On one way they were true , Haruka had left her but not because of the fact that their mission was over . No , she left her alone because of those dreams .' I wonder why i had those dreams in the first place , why did i doubt it the same day Haruka asked me to marry her ? Maybe i'm getting paranoid .'

That mometn Setsuna walked into the room and sat down next to Michiru on the couch .'' How are you feeling ?" She gently asked . Michiru felt like she wanted to cry but on the other hand she thought she didn't deserved to cry . It was her fault after all .'' I don't know .. I feel stupid and empty and alone and ...'' But Michiru was cutt off by Setsuna's voice .'' Michiru you did it yourself , believing what your dreams said and not what Haruka told you . What she said to you was the truth but you were too selfish to even notice because it seemed so real .'' Setsuna's voice sounded cold . Michiru knew Setsuna was right .' She tried so hard ...and i just didn't believe her.'

Let me enlighten you
This is the way I pray

'' Setsuna ?''

'' Yes ?''

'' Do you think i'll get another chance with Haruka , will she ever forgive me ?'' Michiru asked her voice shaky as if she feared Setsuna would tell her that she really ruined it this time and that her changes on getting back Haruka were 0.00 .

'' I don't know what to think anymore .'' Setsuna answered as she took a deep breath .'' For as far as i know you two were meant to be together but now the future is unclear even to me . I think how this story ends really depends on you two . Do you really want her back and are you really trying hard enough ?''

'' I'll do anything just to tell Ruka i love her ..I'll give my life just to go back to that night .''

'' If you did you couldn't go back .'' Setsuna said smirking .

'' Huh ?'' Michiru was confused .

'' I meant about what you just said :'I'll give my life just to go back to that night ' if you are dead you can't go back to the day you ruined it .''

'' Well thank you , i don't need you telling me that i screwed up okay ..I already know i did screw up badly but i also believe that maybe there's still a chance .'' Michiru said not really believing her words but they sounded so good to her own ears .

'' You really believe that ?'' Setsuna asked and stood up . She knew Michiru didn't but she didn't feel like helping the girl out , she was pretty mad at Michiru herself . Haruka gave Michiru everything she had and more . And how did Michiru repay her ? ' By letting a fucking dream get in their way of true happiness .'

Michiru was left alone in the livingroom with her own thoughts . ' She won't come back ...' Something inside of Michiru told her Haruka wouldn't come back and some part of her believed that maybe there was one little chance even if it was very little it wouldn't matter .' I'm getting you back Ruka ...'

Living just isn't hard enough
Burn me alive, inside
Living my life's not hard enough
Take everything away

Haruka sat by the sea shore looking at the sea . It was dark outside but she hadn't even noticed . She felt helpless , alone but that wasn't the worst of it , the worst of it all was that she was feeling this way bacause of Michiru . The only person who really seemed to care for Haruka . But now ... she didn't know what was real anymore . Haruka now looked at the sky and sighed . She remembered something her mother said to her before her mother went crazy . When she was little Haruka's mother would always tell her sweet bedtime stories . Haruka had forgotten most of them but one never left her because it always had seemed to fit her life .

It was a story about a girl in the age of twenty . Haruka always assumed this story was about her mother's past . The girl named ' Hitomi ' once was very in love with a young prince but the law tore them apart because they were too different . Hitomi had alsways looked for him . She wondered every day where he was and if he was happy and how she could get him back . She hoped deep inside he'd still loved her . Eventually she found him but the blank stare in his eyes showed her thay he didn't care anymore . Even if he didn't love her anymore she swore she would love him forever and even if she would get another love he would never compare to her prince even if he had hurt her . It turned out that eventually Hitomi married a rich man who really cared for her and she felt save again . And when she almost was forgotten about the prince one day , he showed up again and wished her back . Even though he had treated her so wrong she came back to him and left the man who really cared for her and loved her . The one who had never broken her heart .

Somehow this story looked alot like the situation Haruka and Michiru were in on the moment . Well Haruka would be both the second love of Hitomi , the one who was really good to his love and Michiru well ..she could come through as Hitomi . But then there was still one character left . The prince . And Haruka feared that maybe Michiru could aslo be like the prince ...evil by making her suffer then wishing her to come back one day when Haruka is finally happy again but Haruka strugged that off . She didn't want to be Happy without Michiru .

Haruka looked down at the sea again .'' Where the sky meets the ocean i'll be sailing .'' Haruka whispered getting a bit cold but she didn't care .

Return to me, return to me, return to me, turn to me, Leave me no one!
Turn to me, return to me, return to me, turn to me, Cast aside
Return to me, return to me, return to me, turn to me, Leave me no one!
Turn to me, return to me, return to me
You've made me turn away

( Back in Tokyo , 01:00 am )

'' Why can't you understand anything of what i'm saying , Michiru-bitch ! I don't love you , I never have . I loved Neptune but now she isn't needed anymore ..well let's say i don't need you anymore so leave me the fuck alone poor loser ..did you really think i could love someone like you ?'' Haruka asked as she slapped Michiru in her face . Michiru started to cry . She couldn't say a word .'' I'm going .'' Haruka said and turned around without even giving Michiru a second look .'' I hope your next love will aslo realise what a bitch you are , a fucking bitch who only cares about herself .''

'' Haruka don't go !'' Michiru pleaded and Haruka turned around again looking at her with cold eyes .'' Fuck off bitch i already found someone else , someone who's good enough for me and not selfcentred .'' Haruka said looking so heartless .'' Oh but Micihru one thing ..'' Haruka began looking like the devil in person .

'' Yes ?'

'' I must admit you were a great fuck ..well bye .'' Haruka turned around again and suddenly dissapeared into nothing .

'' Don't leave me..please ...'' Michiru begged as she fell on her knees . Suddenly the dark room around Michiru dissapeared and she was in a bright forest . She looked around but she seemed to be the only one there .

'' Michi ...'' Suddenly a voice said causing Michiru to turn around . First she was afraid she had to hear more of Haruka's scolding on her but when she looked at Haruka she only saw love in her eyes .

'' Ruka ..'' Michiru sobbed and run over to Haruka and hugged her . Haruka just held her and kissed her on the head calming her down .'' I will never leave you Michi ..you know i love you ..'' Haruka whispered and kissed her again . This time full on the lips .

Michiru's eyes fley open as she screamed Haruka's name . She felt sick to her stomach , really sick . '' Haruka ...'' Michiru cried . She needed to be held and not by just someone but by one special blonde .' But i guess i'm too late with that now .'

When I think of you I'll remember
How you looked at me when we met
But the way that you're looking at me now
I'll do my best to forget

R&R well what did you think ? I'm not very proud of this chapter but i'll leave the flaming to you . Anyway i hoped you liked Michiru's dream ..it was on my mind for a long while but it was hard to place it in a chapter ...Oh and sorry for the spelling errors ...