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chapter13 : regret and planning
Why don't I like the girl I see
The one who's standing right in front of me
Why don't I think before I speak
I should have listen to that voice inside me
I must be stupid, must be crazy, must be out of my mind
To say the kinda things that said last night
Michiru sat on a chair which stood in front of the window . It was a week ago Haruka had left and she hoped that Haruka soon would be home .It was also a week ago Michiru had the dream of Haruka telling her she loved her. It was only once she had such a dreambut it gave her hope .Day and night Michiru would sit in front of the window hoping to see Haruka's car on the drive way .' Haruka come back to me , i need you. I'm sorry i doubted about your love for me . Please come back. I promise i'll make everything up to you .'
Hotaru sat on the couch and watched her mother carefully .' She hasn't eaten in days ..She doesn't smile anymore . Please Haruka-papa come back and Make mommy happy again . She needs you so much.' Hotaru pleaded in her head .
Setsuna was worried too . Not only because of Michiru , but she was worried about where Haruka could be . She had seen the future and it didn't look bright for the two lovers. Also she was afraid of what the future would bring now Mamoru and Usagi broke up .
Again Michiru took her cellphone in her hands and looked at it .' Please call , Ruka .' She had tried to call Haruka herself a few times but in vain .' Please , Ruka .' Michiru knew she was too late with regret now .' Why do people always realise they were stupid the moment they lose what they hadfought so hard for ?'
Mirror mirror hanging on the wall
You don't have to tell me who's the biggest fool of all
Mirror mirror I wish you could lie to me
And bring my baby back, bring my baby back to me
Haruka woke up in the afternoon and looked around . She had a wonderful dream about her and Michiru . They were happy , it was a dream about how their wedding could have been . ' I will never experience such deep love ..' Haruka thought as she started to cry again .
It wasn't the first time Haruka's heart was broken like this . Before Michiru she had another girlfriend named : Kasumi Asahito . They made a very nice couple . Everyone thought and even Haruka did . But she didn't know Kasumi didn't feel the same way . After a relatioship of One year Kasumi broke up with her and walked away with Haruka's brother Hasato who Hated Haruka for being a better racer and student then he was . Haruka felt heartbroken for months . Her father said it was her own fault for being : ' A fucking dyke .' As he would call her . Her mother didn't really cared about them . She could only care about drugs and sex . In one way she was like Minako . When Haruka was little she was always there for them . But that changed when her mother discovered drugs and started to get addicted .Two weeks after the break-up with Kasumi Haruka was beaten badly by some friends of her brother .She ended up in the hospital where almost no one came to visit her exept for a few people . One day Kasumi came to visit her but only said hateful things to Haruka . The second person who came to visit her was Haruka's best friend on that moment , His name was Hiroshi but their friendship ended after she got out of the hospital because Hasato , her brother lied to him about things Haruka had said , And the thirth person was Michiru . Michiru was new at Haruka's school and they didn't know eachother that well . They only talked once because Haruka wasn't a senshi yet . But somehow Michiru came to visit her everyday . Sometimes she brought presents and sometimes just to talk . Haruka was very greatful for that . She felt alone sometimes , but Michiru somehow took that loneliness away .Until she was better and became Sailor Uranus that was .
'' I miss Michiru ...'' Haruka sobbed . She felt so alone . Maybe she didn't try hard enough . Maybe she should go back and try harder . At that moment Haruka's cellphone echoed through the car .' That must be Michiru .' Haruka thought about it for a while . ' Maybe i should pick up the phone .. What could she want ?'
Haruka sighed deep before answering the phone .'' What ?'' She said trying to keep her voice steady and cool .'' Haruka ?'' Came the voice of Michiru from the other side .'' Haruka please come home , I need you ... I'm so sorry .'' Michiru now cried . Haruka could feel her heart break . She couldn't stand the sound of Michiru cry.
Why did I let you walk away
When all I had to do was say I'm sorry
I let my pride walk in the way
And in the heat of the moment I was to blame
I must be stupid, must be crazy, must be out of my mind
Now in the cold light of the day I realized
'' Michiru it's better i don't come home . If you really loved me you wouldn't have let me go and if you really loved me you never had doubted my love for you in the first place.'' Haruka answered sounding tired .
'' But i do love you ! And i'm sorry ! Please come back !'' Michiru pleaded .
'' I can't Michiru ... I need to think about it ...''
'' Please Haruka come home ! I promise i'll make it up with you ... I'll do everything ! but please come home !''
Haruka didn't know what to do . Michiru sounded so broken . She still loved Michiru she didn't doubt that ..but ...was their love strong enough to survive ? Haruka couldn't go back and pretend nothing ever happened . Even if Michiru could , she couldn't .
'' Haruka are you still there ?'' Michiru sobbed into the phone .
'' Yeah , i am .'' Haruka answered .'' Listen Michiru i will be back when the time comes ...but not now ...''
'' Please don't say that , Ruka !'' Michiru cried .'' I need you , you can't leave me alone !''
'' Now you need me Michiru , But when i needed you where were you ? Don't you know you hurt me too !'' Haruka was starting to feel angry and the more angry she became the more desperate Michiru bagan to feel .
'' I'm sorry , Ruka . I really am ...But please give me a chance to make it up with you .And if you don't want to come home for me then please come home for Hotaru . She needs you too .''
' Hotaru..' Haruka felt guilty for leaving her alone without saying anything . She hadn't talked to the girl in over a week .'' Okay , Michiru ...I'm coming home but on one condition .''
Michiru could feel her heart jump .' Yes Yes ! she's coming home .' '' Okay Haruka whatever you want .'' She said smiling for the first time in a long time .
'' I sleep in the guest room ...And i want us to just pretend we are friends for awhile ...not lovers .''
Michiru's smile disapeared but gave in .'' Okay , Ruka if that's what you really want ...I promise to pretend we aren't lovers.'' She wanted to hold Haruka so bad .' At least she will be home again .' Michiru thought.' I will make it up to you , Ruka and then we can finally get married ...I love you too much to lose you again.'
Mirror mirror hanging on the wall
You don't have to tell me who's the biggest fool of all
Mirror mirror I wish you could lie to me
And bring my baby back, bring my baby back to me
If only wishes could be dreams and all my dreams could come true
There would be two of us standing here in front of you
If you could show me that someone that I used to be
Bring back my baby, my baby to me
Haruka hung up and looked out of the car window .' I'm coming home again ...just friends ...' And then Haruka let another tear slip across her face .' How the fuck did we let it come so far ? How could Setsuna just sit this out and watch us fall apart ? Why didn't she say anything ? '
R&R i hope you liked this chapter ! Haruka's going home ! Yay ! But what will happen ? Will they ever get married ? Oh and i'm sorry about me putting songs in the chapters constantly ... I'm in the mo0d to put them in my fics ...And again sorry f0r the spelling errors !
Amnesia nymph