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Chapter 18 : Lost and found , memory

Quietly thinking to myself
Sharing half our mind instead of none
The shakings just begun
The pleasantries are gone,
This sad exchange pleased neither one of us

'' I remember what my mother once told me .' Michiru thought . She didn't know where she was but everything was warm and there were lights all around her .' She warned me about caring too much about someone . ' Michiru looked around she could hear voices around her but she couldn't see anyone only light . ' Watch out , don't go to far !' And now i did it . look what has become of me now . I'm alive inside but on the outside ...I don't know .'

' Everything i ever believed in is all gone now ...' Again Michiru looked around . 'Where is Haruka ? Why isn't she here to save me ?' Then it all came back to Michiru .' O yeah i left her ... she won't be here to save me anymore ..she will now save Minako and make her happy .' The thought just made Michiru want to cry but somehow she couldn't . ' God where am i ? Am i dead ? Oh god i'm so scared ...Please Haruka , please save me once again .'

So we finally gave up
Meanings tend to give out
The Time was gone to act out
this living torture, living torture

Haruka woke up from her dream screaming . Something was wrong with Michiru she could feel it . Michiru was scared and alone .'' I have to find her !''

No talking When I want you to Listen
No talking cos it's Living torture, Living torture

Michiru just continued walking through the lights , never finding an end to it .' You can do what you want Michiru .' She said to herself .' But i can't pretend i don't care about you anymore because i know that when i'll see you again i'll fall in love with you again ..my Ruka .'

' I still remember how we met ... It was on the race track and it wasn't long after that we became an item , we became lovers . Be it destined lovers or just lovers of the past but the feeling was there .'

FLASHBACK ...

Haruka sat on the couch watching a football game while Michiru was cooking in the kitchen .'' Haruka !'' Michiru yelled and Haruka looked up .

'' What did i do !''

Michiru came out of the kitchen laughing .'' Nothing , you silly . I wanted to ask if you could please turn off the tv so we can eat in peace .''

'' Oh ...i knew that ...'' Haruka said smiling .' Pff i was afraid she figured out i read her diary ... '

After awhile Haruka took the last bit of her dinner and looked at Michiru who was still busy eating her soup .' I wonder if she really loves me , maybe she only wrote down in her diary she was in love with me because she knew that on day i would find it and read it .'

Finally Michiru looked up and stared at Haruka with an innocent smile .'' A dollar for your thoughts ?'' She then said and Haruka realised she was staring .

'' Uh ...nah ...rather not .'' She quiekly said before concentrating on her empty plate .' I'm going to seduce her tonight and if she doesn't really love me there's still another option . Moving out ...'

'' Is an empty plate that interesting ?'' Michiru asked with a smirk on her face which Haruka found kind of sexy .

'' Uh ...would you believe me if i said yes ?''

'' No ... so what were you really thinking about , Ruka ?''

' Ruka ? That one is new ...I like it .' '' Nothing important Michiru ...just about ...uh... Football.''

'' Aha ...too bad .''

''...'' Haruka looked confused .'' Too bad , what did you want to hear anyway ?''

'' 0oh something like : I was thinking about you Michiru .'' She answered

'' You want me to think about you ?'' Haruka asked .

'' Well it would be fun to be the object of your fantasy .''

'' Fantasy ? You are not that innocent as i thought .'' Haruka said while Micihru turned red .

'' Aha so you did think of me on that way ... a sweet innocent girl ?'' Michiru asked pouting . Haruka had no idea where this was going . Was Michiru flirting with her ?

'' Well ...I ...uh...'' Haruka didn't know what to say . She thought of Michiru before but in her fantasies Michiru wasn't a sweet and nice innocent girl .

'' What can i do to prove you wrong ?'' Michiru now asked and stood up walking over to Haruka and before Haruka could say anything Michiru had her lips pressed against hers . The kiss didn't last long because Michiru finally pulled back .'' I suddenly thought of something Ruka . If you'd like to come to my bedroom i can prove you wrong.''

Haruka's mouth went wide . Not only had Michiru just kissed her but now she also wanted to ... She and Michiru had kissed before when they were a little bit younger but they didn't think much of it then . It was on a beach on the edge of Tokyo .

Michiru smiled sweetly before saying :'' If you keep that mouth open on that way i'm going to make use of it ...'' Again Haruka blushed .

'' Michi ...I...''

Suddenly Michiru felt embarressed . Maybe she had been wrong . Maybe Haruka didn't really like her the way she thought .'' I'm so sorry Haruka ..i didn't want to ...''But Michiru was cut off by Haruka who stood up and kissed her .

After awhile they parted again and just stood there , looking at eachother .'' I love you Michiru ...''

'' I love you too , Ruka .''

Michiru smiled happily .' And she will never know i knew she read my diary ...'

Finally Haruka lifted Michiru from the ground and carried her away to her bedroom .

END FLASHBACK

Michiru now fell on her knees crying .' Why is this so hard . I'm walking but i'm not getting anywhere ...'

Haruka rushed over to the livingroom when she heard the phone ringing .'' Yes ?'' She asked hoping it was Michiru but what she heard instead made her heartbreak

'' Am i speaking to Haruka tenoh ?'' The voice asked .

'' Yes .''

'' Do you by any chance know Kaioh Michiru ?''

'' Yes ..''

'' Well we found her a few hours ago on the beach on the edge of Tokyo , she almost freezed herself to dead ...she's okay now but we can't seem to find a way to wake her up .'' The voice on the other side of the line said .

So we finally gave up
The Meanings tend to give out
The Time was gone to act out
But Here I am and I'm still living

'' Where is she now ?'' Haruka asked . She felt like crying .

'' The saikoro Hospital ...Room 8 .''

'' I'll be right there ...''

Haruka hung up and rushed to the car . She didn't get her coat but that didn't seem important .' Michiru ...what have you done to yourself ?'

Quietly thinking to myself
This sad exchange pleased neither on of us

R&R ... I don't really have much more to say ...exept my computer is still playing dumb on me ...so there should be a few spelling errors !