Authors Notes- I don't have anything really to say, I think that I said it all in my important message. I hope you all enjoy the story. At first I was going to wait a long time to get it out, but then I saw all of the reviews that I got. I got up, expecting maybe one or two, like with my last story. What I saw made me start writing the next chapter RIGHT AWAY. This is what reviewing gets you! Actually, if any of you great reviewers out there can remember what Duo is called. _______ of death? I can't get the next chapter out until I know!
Disclaimer- I do not own Sailor Moon or Gundam Wing, I can however kill Mamoru...slowly...and painfully. That is if you all want it, I will try to put it in the story somewhere. *grins* I know you do!
Here it is!
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I dragged myself out of bed, wincing slightly at the still fresh bruises that I had received last night. Once again I didn't get any sleep, I just kept dreaming about Mamoru ruining all of my lives to come, and Heero breaking up with me. I know it's sad to dream about that. After all I have SECURITY he can't break up with me because he isn't real, but I fear it all the same.
I slowly climbed out of bed to get ready for school. Before school was just a living hell, now it's pure torture. I have to pretend that I care about what they are saying, or else my mother will not let me go on vacation this summer. Vacation meant time away from Mamoru, and that is something that I'm just not willing to give up.
I climb into the shower, making sure that Luna isn't near by, it wouldn't do for her to see me just in a towel, or naked where she can see all of the bruises on my body. Once she saw one on my stomach, and it took me forever to convince her that I had fallen down, and I think that she I still suspicious.
"Usagi, you are going to be late AGAIN! Get out here NOW!" I heard my mother Ikuko (sp.) shout.
"I'll be right down mom" I shouted back half-heartily. Sometimes I wonder if I should just end it now, life isn't worth living, especially when you have school. Then I remembered Heero, school is usually the best time to visit him, because people expect me to daydream. No one really minds anymore, and they don't find it unusual at all.
I run all the way to school, slowing down a little each time I rounded a corner. Mamoru said I would REALLY get it if I kept running into him. I just try to avoid him as much as possible without it seeming obvious anyway.
I manage to make it out of there without any confrontations. I walk into the classroom only a few minutes late, and to my surprise Ms. Haruna didn't give my a detention. 'She must have a date tonight' I thought. That IS the only reason that she ever lets me get away without a detention for being late.
I sat down on my seat, and prepared to put a convincing look of concentration on my face. What I would really be doing is talking to Heero. We never got to finish our last conversation. Heero is really smart, and he takes it upon himself to teach me what I can. I just figure that it must be all the stored knowledge in my brain that I haven't been able to understand. And Heero is just giving me that information, only in a way I can understand.
He's supposed to finish teaching me physics, it's really an interesting subject, I just can never get it in school. I don't bother thinking about how someone I dreamt up can teach me, that is the road to insanity.
I enter my mind, and to the gray area. I look around for Heero, anxious to see him again. He is always present in my head, but I just love our conversations, I can get so into them that I can totally forget about my life.
I can feel glass shatter in my head! I look up and see the lake that we talk by in the gray area slowly falling apart! All of it is disintegrating! It was like a mirror shattering, and I quickly got out. I waited a few seconds to go back in the gray area. It was gone, as if it was never even there!
"NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" I screamed, not caring about anything anymore. I didn't care about school, or the fact that everyone was looking at me like I was going insane. They didn't know just how right they are...
**
I heard a scream somewhere in the school. 'it must be a youma, I need to call the other scouts'
I ran out of my classroom (AN. All of the scouts go to the same school in this story.) telling my teacher that there was an emergency at home and I was already late. She seemed to buy it, because she didn't argue as I ran out the door. 'boy that girl must have great breathing capacity! The screaming hasn't stopped in 5 minutes.' I checked the halls, and when I didn't see anyone transformed into Sailor Mars. There was a flash of fire, almost quicker than the eye could see, and Raye was gone.
I ran outside the classroom where I could still hear the screaming. 'Usagi-Baka, this is her classroom, why hasn't she transformed yet.' I glanced around the hallways, and saw Lita, Amy, and Mina already transformed. 'they must have heard the screaming too.
We ran inside, expecting to see some huge, ugly youma, and some cowering students, mainly the screaming girl. None of us expected what we saw however. There was Usagi, sitting on her desk and screaming as if the world was ending 'she and Mamoru must have broken up, what else would have broken her heart?'
All of the students, and Usagi's teacher were staring at Usagi with worry. Who wouldn't with the way Usagi was carrying on.
They hadn't noticed us yet, so I nodded to the other scouts and we walked out in the hallway to de-transform.
I came back into the room. Finally the other students noticed us, and that we were Usagi's friends.
"Can you help her" Mrs. Haruna asked. "She IS disturbing the class, and I have a feeling that something isn't right."
I decided that I needed to take things into hand. I walked over to Usagi, and with a expression of disgust on my face walked over to her and slapped her, hard.
Usagi finally stopped screaming, but I never expected what happened next.
**
I felt the familiar feeling of a hand across my cheek, and my mind exploded with rage. I stopped screaming, and through a haze of red glanced up and saw Raye, looking at me with an expression of disgust on her face.
I stood up and my mind still not thinking right slapped Raye back across the face, and then laughed at the expression of shock across her face.
"Raye, if ANYONE touches me, I will kill them, so tell everyone to stay AWAY" I hissed into her ear.
I marched out of the room still angry that someone had hit me. I was also thinking hard about what happened back in the classroom. After my outburst I knew that something must be done. I was thinking very rationally in this time of tragedy. It was like my life had been shattered with the shattering of the lake, and my heart had been shattered with the disappearance of my Heero. My mind was going downhill fast, because of everything combined.
I always knew that without Heero to be a constant comfort in my head that I would either go insane or kill myself. I don't really wouldn't go insane, so the only thing to do I kill myself. I just needed to find a knife...
Before I could do that I would need to cry, otherwise I couldn't do it. I collapsed onto the ground, mourning the loss of my only reason for living.
***
'Something is VERY wrong with Usagi, why would she HIT me?'
We had all decided that there was something going on and that we needed to follow Usagi until we could find out what is going on.
She appeared to be marching ahead a determined expression on her face, apparently thinking about something.
Everything seemed to be going good, until she completely collapsed onto the ground.
Worried about her I rushed forward and started to reach out to her in comfort. I saw the others start to do the same, but stopped them just in time.
"Don't touch her, unless you want to die" I told the others. They just stared at me in shock at the new information.
I could hear her singing something under her breath. Wondering what it was I leaned closer to make out the words.
"Need to find a knife, Need to find a gun, Need to DIE DIE DIE!..."
If I wasn't worried before I was scared out of my mind now. Usagi had a maniac expression on her face, and was rocking back and forth on the ground tears streaming down her face. She was also chanting the same words over, and over again, like a song.
"um..guys. we need to get help. Something is VERY wrong with Usagi." I heard Amy tell the others.
"Good idea." I heard Minako answer. "We had better go and get Mamoru, maybe HE can help her."
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I know that you all want to kill me. To be honest I cant blame you, I would want to kill me too. I guess all you can do is review and tell me what you think of the chapter. I'm expecting flames, because you're supposed to be mad, otherwise you wouldn't be caring about the story.
I just want to apologize about not beating up Mamoru yet in the story. I got enough reviews to realize that that is what you are asking for, and I cant blame you.
Email me at Sirencalling@yahoo.com
Disclaimer- I do not own Sailor Moon or Gundam Wing, I can however kill Mamoru...slowly...and painfully. That is if you all want it, I will try to put it in the story somewhere. *grins* I know you do!
Here it is!
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I dragged myself out of bed, wincing slightly at the still fresh bruises that I had received last night. Once again I didn't get any sleep, I just kept dreaming about Mamoru ruining all of my lives to come, and Heero breaking up with me. I know it's sad to dream about that. After all I have SECURITY he can't break up with me because he isn't real, but I fear it all the same.
I slowly climbed out of bed to get ready for school. Before school was just a living hell, now it's pure torture. I have to pretend that I care about what they are saying, or else my mother will not let me go on vacation this summer. Vacation meant time away from Mamoru, and that is something that I'm just not willing to give up.
I climb into the shower, making sure that Luna isn't near by, it wouldn't do for her to see me just in a towel, or naked where she can see all of the bruises on my body. Once she saw one on my stomach, and it took me forever to convince her that I had fallen down, and I think that she I still suspicious.
"Usagi, you are going to be late AGAIN! Get out here NOW!" I heard my mother Ikuko (sp.) shout.
"I'll be right down mom" I shouted back half-heartily. Sometimes I wonder if I should just end it now, life isn't worth living, especially when you have school. Then I remembered Heero, school is usually the best time to visit him, because people expect me to daydream. No one really minds anymore, and they don't find it unusual at all.
I run all the way to school, slowing down a little each time I rounded a corner. Mamoru said I would REALLY get it if I kept running into him. I just try to avoid him as much as possible without it seeming obvious anyway.
I manage to make it out of there without any confrontations. I walk into the classroom only a few minutes late, and to my surprise Ms. Haruna didn't give my a detention. 'She must have a date tonight' I thought. That IS the only reason that she ever lets me get away without a detention for being late.
I sat down on my seat, and prepared to put a convincing look of concentration on my face. What I would really be doing is talking to Heero. We never got to finish our last conversation. Heero is really smart, and he takes it upon himself to teach me what I can. I just figure that it must be all the stored knowledge in my brain that I haven't been able to understand. And Heero is just giving me that information, only in a way I can understand.
He's supposed to finish teaching me physics, it's really an interesting subject, I just can never get it in school. I don't bother thinking about how someone I dreamt up can teach me, that is the road to insanity.
I enter my mind, and to the gray area. I look around for Heero, anxious to see him again. He is always present in my head, but I just love our conversations, I can get so into them that I can totally forget about my life.
I can feel glass shatter in my head! I look up and see the lake that we talk by in the gray area slowly falling apart! All of it is disintegrating! It was like a mirror shattering, and I quickly got out. I waited a few seconds to go back in the gray area. It was gone, as if it was never even there!
"NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" I screamed, not caring about anything anymore. I didn't care about school, or the fact that everyone was looking at me like I was going insane. They didn't know just how right they are...
**
I heard a scream somewhere in the school. 'it must be a youma, I need to call the other scouts'
I ran out of my classroom (AN. All of the scouts go to the same school in this story.) telling my teacher that there was an emergency at home and I was already late. She seemed to buy it, because she didn't argue as I ran out the door. 'boy that girl must have great breathing capacity! The screaming hasn't stopped in 5 minutes.' I checked the halls, and when I didn't see anyone transformed into Sailor Mars. There was a flash of fire, almost quicker than the eye could see, and Raye was gone.
I ran outside the classroom where I could still hear the screaming. 'Usagi-Baka, this is her classroom, why hasn't she transformed yet.' I glanced around the hallways, and saw Lita, Amy, and Mina already transformed. 'they must have heard the screaming too.
We ran inside, expecting to see some huge, ugly youma, and some cowering students, mainly the screaming girl. None of us expected what we saw however. There was Usagi, sitting on her desk and screaming as if the world was ending 'she and Mamoru must have broken up, what else would have broken her heart?'
All of the students, and Usagi's teacher were staring at Usagi with worry. Who wouldn't with the way Usagi was carrying on.
They hadn't noticed us yet, so I nodded to the other scouts and we walked out in the hallway to de-transform.
I came back into the room. Finally the other students noticed us, and that we were Usagi's friends.
"Can you help her" Mrs. Haruna asked. "She IS disturbing the class, and I have a feeling that something isn't right."
I decided that I needed to take things into hand. I walked over to Usagi, and with a expression of disgust on my face walked over to her and slapped her, hard.
Usagi finally stopped screaming, but I never expected what happened next.
**
I felt the familiar feeling of a hand across my cheek, and my mind exploded with rage. I stopped screaming, and through a haze of red glanced up and saw Raye, looking at me with an expression of disgust on her face.
I stood up and my mind still not thinking right slapped Raye back across the face, and then laughed at the expression of shock across her face.
"Raye, if ANYONE touches me, I will kill them, so tell everyone to stay AWAY" I hissed into her ear.
I marched out of the room still angry that someone had hit me. I was also thinking hard about what happened back in the classroom. After my outburst I knew that something must be done. I was thinking very rationally in this time of tragedy. It was like my life had been shattered with the shattering of the lake, and my heart had been shattered with the disappearance of my Heero. My mind was going downhill fast, because of everything combined.
I always knew that without Heero to be a constant comfort in my head that I would either go insane or kill myself. I don't really wouldn't go insane, so the only thing to do I kill myself. I just needed to find a knife...
Before I could do that I would need to cry, otherwise I couldn't do it. I collapsed onto the ground, mourning the loss of my only reason for living.
***
'Something is VERY wrong with Usagi, why would she HIT me?'
We had all decided that there was something going on and that we needed to follow Usagi until we could find out what is going on.
She appeared to be marching ahead a determined expression on her face, apparently thinking about something.
Everything seemed to be going good, until she completely collapsed onto the ground.
Worried about her I rushed forward and started to reach out to her in comfort. I saw the others start to do the same, but stopped them just in time.
"Don't touch her, unless you want to die" I told the others. They just stared at me in shock at the new information.
I could hear her singing something under her breath. Wondering what it was I leaned closer to make out the words.
"Need to find a knife, Need to find a gun, Need to DIE DIE DIE!..."
If I wasn't worried before I was scared out of my mind now. Usagi had a maniac expression on her face, and was rocking back and forth on the ground tears streaming down her face. She was also chanting the same words over, and over again, like a song.
"um..guys. we need to get help. Something is VERY wrong with Usagi." I heard Amy tell the others.
"Good idea." I heard Minako answer. "We had better go and get Mamoru, maybe HE can help her."
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I know that you all want to kill me. To be honest I cant blame you, I would want to kill me too. I guess all you can do is review and tell me what you think of the chapter. I'm expecting flames, because you're supposed to be mad, otherwise you wouldn't be caring about the story.
I just want to apologize about not beating up Mamoru yet in the story. I got enough reviews to realize that that is what you are asking for, and I cant blame you.
Email me at Sirencalling@yahoo.com