Destined
Chapter 3
By: Siren
Authors Notes- Apparently some of you have no clue whatsoever what is going on in this story... don't worry, that's the way it's supposed to be, and it will all come clear in the chapters to come. I cant tell you right off, because it would ruin the whole story! Thanks to all of you that told me that Duo is called the God of Death, or S... I cant even spell it, so I wont use it in the story. That's what I thought it was, but I didn't want to find out later that it was the 'Bringer of Death' or something.
Here is another important note. I'm thinking of changing the title of the story to 'Inner Strength' what do you all think of it? Do you know of anyone else that has the same title? I don't want to copy someone's idea unknowingly. I want to thank Sunny-Chan for the title. I'm telling you it was totally inspired, you definitely have allot of talent.
THANKS FOR REVIEWING!!! Unless you are a writer, you cannot have any idea how much even 'hi' can mean, especially when you are having a crummy day. LOL!
One time when I was reading a story the author offered a contest to see what story would be the one she would work on. What she did was ask a question, and the first person who got the right answer got to choose the story that she would get the next chapter out first. I thought that that was a good idea, so I will be doing the same thing.
QUESTION- what is my favorite color? The first person to get this right can choose what story I should get the next chapter out next. It can be either this one, 'Who Cares About Destiny?', and even 'Searching for a Hidden Past' it's totally up to you!
Disclaimer- You'll never believe what happened the other day! I was playing poker in a club, and I came across the owners of both Sailor Moon and Gundam Wing! I know it's unbelievable, but true. First I managed to win the rights of Sailor Moon, and then Gundam Wing, so I really don't have to have a disclaimer! Great isn't it?..........Not buying it hun? I know it's kind of sad. I don't even know how to play poker, and I have never entered a club. Don't tell me my life is sad, I already know. This was actually a dream that I had the other day, and I became I Billionaire and life was great! I don't own either animes though, despite my wishful thinking so DON'T SUE! I have nothing! *gets on knees and begs* I was just kidding!
Sorry for rambling...here is the story!
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Through my haze of tears I managed to notice that the others had left. 'fools, how could they be stupid enough to leave my alone? I guess they don't think that I will leave...stupid fools.'
I took advantage of their being gone to escape. There was no way that I was going to have them force me to live, and I was NOT going to be here when they come back with Mamoru.
I quickly ran to my house, praying for time. I needed to tell my parents everything, I still love them, and they deserve to know that I'm killing myself, and why. I would tell them everything, but about Heero. They don't need to know about him, he's to special to have everyone know about.
I run up to my room, not worrying about anyone seeing me. Mom is always shopping at this time of the day, and Dad is always at work. Shingo is always at school 'like I should be.'
I grab a piece of pink notebook paper, and start scribbling.
"Dear Mom, Dad, and Shingo-
I really don't know how to say this, so I will tell you one thing. Ask my friends. Tell them that they owe me big, and they can pay me back by telling you all about the Sailor Scouts. You might be wondering how this can affect me, and my life, but they will explain everything.
I'm so sorry to hurt you, and I'm sure that you will have trouble with what I am about to do. I have no reason for living anymore. My live is pre-determined, and here is no point in living it anymore. If I live there is no way I can escape my future, and destiny. I wont tell you why I'm leaving my boyfriend. It's O.K. if you keep on believing that I am obsessed with him. If you want to know the truth, tell Mamoru that he is finally free of me, and maybe in his joy he will tell you. It doesn't matter to me if you know or not.
Leaving you is one of the things that I will regret most. I hate to leave you in pain, but your pain is nothing compared to the pain...the loneliness that I will experience if I keep on living, and since I know that you love me, I hope some day you can understand.
Shingo, you are the best kid brother I girl could hope for. I know you think that I'm a stupid ditz, but I have always loved you, even when I tease you. I hope you will never forget you're stupid ditz of a sister, but don't mourn my loss. If you must do anything rejoice in the fact that I can finally be at peace...and free.
Tell my friends good-bye. I wish we could have been closer, but I need to leave. Tell them that I will miss them, and will never regret the times we shared, even though it was the reason I had to follow my path of destiny.
Also, don't expect to ever find my body. Don't even bother looking, you will never find it.
With more love than I could ever put onto paper.
Good-Bye.
I nodded in satisfaction at the note. I didn't want to write about my 'relationship' with Mamoru, and how I have been fading out over time. If they wanted to find out, they would have to ask. Hopefully they will never know...I would never want to leave them with the pain. It wouldn't be fair, after all, I can escape it.
After all that I needed to do was done, I went searching for a knife.
"What are you doing home from school Usagi?"
I whipped my head around at the sound of Luna's voice. I saw her in the doorway, looking at me with an expression of anger in her eyes.
"I know you don't care about school, but you should at least GO!" she shouted "when will you EVER grow up?"
I look at luna with a sad expression of my face. "I'll miss you Luna, even though you are the one that first brought me to my destiny. I know that is isn't your fault, and I don't blame you. Over time I have come to think of you as almost a substitute mother, and I will miss you."
"What do you mean you will miss me Usagi! You aren't going anywhere! And I thought you had realized and accepted your destiny, why would you possibly blame me? I thought you where more mature than that!"
Luna's words fell of deaf ears as I grabbed a butchers knife from the kitchen table.
"What do you think you are going to do with that Usagi? You know if you want to cut something you should use scissors! I'll go get them for you."
With luna finally gone I went outside. There was no way I wanted my parents to find my body. They wouldn't find it anyway where I'm going.
I walked into an alleyway and prepared to use the Silver Crystal. I wanted to make one last wish before I died.
I believed Mamoru's threats, and there is NO WAY that I am going to go through this hell of a life over, and over again.
'Silver Crystal. I wish to go somewhere where it is impossible for me to be reborn once I die. I want to go somewhere where I wont be forced to live the same destiny over...and over.'
There was a flash of light as the crystal took me into a forest. Satisfied that I could finally die, and stay dead, I plunged the knife into my stomach, and collapsed. There was the first sincere smile of my face, in a long time.
**
Queen Serenity stood and watched her precious daughter do all of these things. "I'm so sorry Usagi, I know you want to have peace, but I have to keep you alive. The only way I know how is to...
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HA HA HA!!!! I know that I'm evil, but in order to console you're burning hatred towards me I will tell you one thing to placate you... this is NOT the end of the story. What do you think that I hate Usagi or something like that? Just because I'm making her life horrible, and it's slowly getting worse, I wont do that do her...yet.
REVIEW OR ELSE I WONT FINISH IT. I HAVE A NUMBER IN MY HEAD, AND UNTIL I REACH IT THERE WIL BE NO MORE. I'M MORE PATIENT THAN YOU AND I CAN WAIT A LONG TIME...
Chapter 3
By: Siren
Authors Notes- Apparently some of you have no clue whatsoever what is going on in this story... don't worry, that's the way it's supposed to be, and it will all come clear in the chapters to come. I cant tell you right off, because it would ruin the whole story! Thanks to all of you that told me that Duo is called the God of Death, or S... I cant even spell it, so I wont use it in the story. That's what I thought it was, but I didn't want to find out later that it was the 'Bringer of Death' or something.
Here is another important note. I'm thinking of changing the title of the story to 'Inner Strength' what do you all think of it? Do you know of anyone else that has the same title? I don't want to copy someone's idea unknowingly. I want to thank Sunny-Chan for the title. I'm telling you it was totally inspired, you definitely have allot of talent.
THANKS FOR REVIEWING!!! Unless you are a writer, you cannot have any idea how much even 'hi' can mean, especially when you are having a crummy day. LOL!
One time when I was reading a story the author offered a contest to see what story would be the one she would work on. What she did was ask a question, and the first person who got the right answer got to choose the story that she would get the next chapter out first. I thought that that was a good idea, so I will be doing the same thing.
QUESTION- what is my favorite color? The first person to get this right can choose what story I should get the next chapter out next. It can be either this one, 'Who Cares About Destiny?', and even 'Searching for a Hidden Past' it's totally up to you!
Disclaimer- You'll never believe what happened the other day! I was playing poker in a club, and I came across the owners of both Sailor Moon and Gundam Wing! I know it's unbelievable, but true. First I managed to win the rights of Sailor Moon, and then Gundam Wing, so I really don't have to have a disclaimer! Great isn't it?..........Not buying it hun? I know it's kind of sad. I don't even know how to play poker, and I have never entered a club. Don't tell me my life is sad, I already know. This was actually a dream that I had the other day, and I became I Billionaire and life was great! I don't own either animes though, despite my wishful thinking so DON'T SUE! I have nothing! *gets on knees and begs* I was just kidding!
Sorry for rambling...here is the story!
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Through my haze of tears I managed to notice that the others had left. 'fools, how could they be stupid enough to leave my alone? I guess they don't think that I will leave...stupid fools.'
I took advantage of their being gone to escape. There was no way that I was going to have them force me to live, and I was NOT going to be here when they come back with Mamoru.
I quickly ran to my house, praying for time. I needed to tell my parents everything, I still love them, and they deserve to know that I'm killing myself, and why. I would tell them everything, but about Heero. They don't need to know about him, he's to special to have everyone know about.
I run up to my room, not worrying about anyone seeing me. Mom is always shopping at this time of the day, and Dad is always at work. Shingo is always at school 'like I should be.'
I grab a piece of pink notebook paper, and start scribbling.
"Dear Mom, Dad, and Shingo-
I really don't know how to say this, so I will tell you one thing. Ask my friends. Tell them that they owe me big, and they can pay me back by telling you all about the Sailor Scouts. You might be wondering how this can affect me, and my life, but they will explain everything.
I'm so sorry to hurt you, and I'm sure that you will have trouble with what I am about to do. I have no reason for living anymore. My live is pre-determined, and here is no point in living it anymore. If I live there is no way I can escape my future, and destiny. I wont tell you why I'm leaving my boyfriend. It's O.K. if you keep on believing that I am obsessed with him. If you want to know the truth, tell Mamoru that he is finally free of me, and maybe in his joy he will tell you. It doesn't matter to me if you know or not.
Leaving you is one of the things that I will regret most. I hate to leave you in pain, but your pain is nothing compared to the pain...the loneliness that I will experience if I keep on living, and since I know that you love me, I hope some day you can understand.
Shingo, you are the best kid brother I girl could hope for. I know you think that I'm a stupid ditz, but I have always loved you, even when I tease you. I hope you will never forget you're stupid ditz of a sister, but don't mourn my loss. If you must do anything rejoice in the fact that I can finally be at peace...and free.
Tell my friends good-bye. I wish we could have been closer, but I need to leave. Tell them that I will miss them, and will never regret the times we shared, even though it was the reason I had to follow my path of destiny.
Also, don't expect to ever find my body. Don't even bother looking, you will never find it.
With more love than I could ever put onto paper.
Good-Bye.
I nodded in satisfaction at the note. I didn't want to write about my 'relationship' with Mamoru, and how I have been fading out over time. If they wanted to find out, they would have to ask. Hopefully they will never know...I would never want to leave them with the pain. It wouldn't be fair, after all, I can escape it.
After all that I needed to do was done, I went searching for a knife.
"What are you doing home from school Usagi?"
I whipped my head around at the sound of Luna's voice. I saw her in the doorway, looking at me with an expression of anger in her eyes.
"I know you don't care about school, but you should at least GO!" she shouted "when will you EVER grow up?"
I look at luna with a sad expression of my face. "I'll miss you Luna, even though you are the one that first brought me to my destiny. I know that is isn't your fault, and I don't blame you. Over time I have come to think of you as almost a substitute mother, and I will miss you."
"What do you mean you will miss me Usagi! You aren't going anywhere! And I thought you had realized and accepted your destiny, why would you possibly blame me? I thought you where more mature than that!"
Luna's words fell of deaf ears as I grabbed a butchers knife from the kitchen table.
"What do you think you are going to do with that Usagi? You know if you want to cut something you should use scissors! I'll go get them for you."
With luna finally gone I went outside. There was no way I wanted my parents to find my body. They wouldn't find it anyway where I'm going.
I walked into an alleyway and prepared to use the Silver Crystal. I wanted to make one last wish before I died.
I believed Mamoru's threats, and there is NO WAY that I am going to go through this hell of a life over, and over again.
'Silver Crystal. I wish to go somewhere where it is impossible for me to be reborn once I die. I want to go somewhere where I wont be forced to live the same destiny over...and over.'
There was a flash of light as the crystal took me into a forest. Satisfied that I could finally die, and stay dead, I plunged the knife into my stomach, and collapsed. There was the first sincere smile of my face, in a long time.
**
Queen Serenity stood and watched her precious daughter do all of these things. "I'm so sorry Usagi, I know you want to have peace, but I have to keep you alive. The only way I know how is to...
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
HA HA HA!!!! I know that I'm evil, but in order to console you're burning hatred towards me I will tell you one thing to placate you... this is NOT the end of the story. What do you think that I hate Usagi or something like that? Just because I'm making her life horrible, and it's slowly getting worse, I wont do that do her...yet.
REVIEW OR ELSE I WONT FINISH IT. I HAVE A NUMBER IN MY HEAD, AND UNTIL I REACH IT THERE WIL BE NO MORE. I'M MORE PATIENT THAN YOU AND I CAN WAIT A LONG TIME...