Inner Strength
Chapter 14
By: Siren
Authors Notes- Sorry it took so long to get out. I just now realized that fanfiction.net hasn't been letting me in because I was using Internet Explorer! Now I can finally upload! I have the next 20 chapters or so planned out in my head; I just need to figure out how I'm going to write it down. Don't give up on me yet people, the best it yet to come!
Disclaimer- Neither Sailor Moon, or Gundam Wing belongs to me. They belong to their respective and extremely talented owners.
Contest- To the person that writes the longest review, I will give the oracle, or the right to ask any question they want, and to have it answered, No matter what!
Important!!!!!- If any of you have read Elizabeth Haydon's books Rhapsody, then you will understand what it is I'm doing. If not, I highly suggest you go get them RIGHT NOW! They are the best books ever, and anyone who doesn't read them, is missing out. If you have, then you know what Rhapsody is like. I really like her, and she is a lot like how I imagine Usagi is. That is why, I'm going to give Usagi a lot of her personality. She will still be herself, but like you know, she just realized that she can be like anyone she wants, and because of the shadow change, her personality is changing somewhat as well. She will have Rhapsodys.
Just to warn you, the timeline is a little messed up. I'm not sure if all of this happened at the same time, but what's it a fanfic for if you can't change it?
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The echoing of the footsteps matched the solemn mood of the men, or more like boys walking down the hallway. The tension in the air was thick as the 2 young men followed their quiet 'leader'.
Finally after walking though the huge mansion for what seemed like miles, the platinum hair boy stopped abruptly. He stopped so fast, that Duo, the one walking directly behind him couldn't stop, and so he ran right into Quatre, and Wufei stumbled over them both.
Cursing now sounded through the hallway.
"Dam it Duo! Why did you have to go and do that!" Wufei shouted, red in the face. He picked up his katana, and got ready to chase the braided boy around the room.
"Now Wu-man. Don't do something you might regret later." Duo said, as he slowly started backing up, trying to calm the raging Chinese boy. His words didn't seem to have the desired effect though. They only served to make Wufei even angrier. He lifted up his weapon, and said. "MAXWELL! TODAY YOU DIE!"
But before he could do anything, Quatre stepped in front of him. "If you want to kill Duo, you can do it later. Right now, I have an important message that I was told to give to you, and this is more important than another one of your petty squabbles." He said calmly, but in a surprisingly stern voice for someone who is usually so 'nice'.
Both Wufei and Duo turned to stare shocked in his direction. Finally they got up, and walked though the dark oak door that Quatre has just entered, sure that they would follow.
It was a library. There were books everywhere, and from every time. They filled the walls, and there had to be thousands of them. Wufei, who was a scholar, looked admiringly at the books. Duo lost interest only seconds after they entered the room, and started whining.
"Come ON Q-man. What is it you wanted? Surely you didn't bring us here to look at your boring library. There is a beautiful girl in the other room, and you made me leave to come here! To look at BOOKS!"
"Calm down Duo. I didn't bring you here to look at books. If you must know, this is one of the only place that I felt was quiet enough to talk." Wufei leaned against the books, waiting for Quatre to say what he was going to say so he could go back to looking at this magnificent library. He didn't even know that such a collection of books existed, let alone belonged to Quatre. The old volumes called at him, to absorb the knowledge they contained. Whatever Quatre wanted, he better be quick.
"I got a message from the doctors." That got everyone's complete attention. "They told us to go into hiding until Heero came here to meet us. Apparently he is going under some new training, and we're not supposed to do anything until he comes out. And as all of you know, Trowa..." The blonde stopped at the words. Trowa's death weighed heavily on his shoulders. He couldn't even say the words. Trowa was dead, and he was dead, because he killed him...
Duo's face turned red at the words, but Wufei stayed calm. Wufei thought it was just as well. Heero would show up soon, and although it upset him slightly that he couldn't go out and fight to avenge Merian's death, at least this would give him the chance to explore the library.
Duo wasn't as complacent, and he didn't mind showing it. "WHAT! You mean we can't go out and blow up some Oz bases? You expect me to stay in this BORING place until Heero arrives? What am I supposed to do? With only you and Wu-man here, there's nothing TO do!" Abruptly he stopped his tirade. "But you're not the only ones here...I GET TO STAY WITH THE GIRL!" Duo's bad mood suddenly changed as he realized that he would have time to spend with the mysteriously beautiful woman who had literally fallen into their laps.
"That was the other thing that I wanted to talk to you about." Quatre calm facade started to crack as he got ready to talk about the girl...
"What about her? She's just some weak onna. We've already done our duty to her by saving her life. I say we just throw her out onto the street again. Maybe we can put her into hiding or something in case Oz wants her. All I know is that I don't want anything to do with that nutcase. If I knew she was this insane when I first found her, I would have just left her there."
"I think she should stay with us for a while. We don't know if Oz is still after he (whatever their reason) and if it's safe for her to go out into the world yet. Not to mention her condition. Did you forget that she nearly died, and she might still?" Quatre told Wufei in a solemn voice. (AN: I'm using that word a lot for him aren't I?)
Duo wasn't even listing to anyone anymore. The words 'throw her out in the street' just echoed through his mind over and over again. The words that spoke of someone out finding this treasure, and finding out who she was, made him slowly angrier and angrier. Finally he burst out.'
"But Wu-man?! What about the mystery? Somehow, this girl has passed from my hands, when I found her in the woods, to Oz's hands, and for some reason they wanted to kill her, and back into yours. Don't you think that it's a strange coincidence that all of this happened? Now to mention her appearance. Have you ever seen anyone with silver hair on a young person? And it looks so natural too?! We have to most beautiful woman, probably ever thrown at us, and you just want to give her up before we find out her name! Even you're not that crazy! She's a puzzle wrapped in mystery, and I for one want to know who she is?!" Duo started panting slightly as he finished his speech, but his gaze didn't waver from Wufei's. He knew that he was right about this one, and he wasn't going to give up on it.
Wufei was the first one to break away. "Fine, I want to know who she is. You can do whatever you want with her in my opinion, just so long as that physopath stays away from me." And he stormed out of the room, steam coming out of his ears at being 'bullied' by such a weak he/she.
Quatre just shrugged, now at all surprised at the reaction his temperamental friend showed, and suggested. "Why don't we go and visit out new guest?"
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Usagi stood in a black void. There was no light, only overwhelming darkness. It tried to suffocate her, it was so thick. It weighed down on her like it was the world, no, the universe on her shoulders. Whatever this place was, it was not a place people like her were meant to be.
A blinding flash of light suddenly filled the darkness, making Usagi cringe at the new sight. In the midst of the flash of light, a woman appeared. Her long black hair went down past her knees, and her eyes were pools of darkness that were even deeper than the blackness around her.
"Hello, my child." She said. " I am the warrior of darkness. My name, is Yoriko." The woman spoke in a strangely lilting voice, a voice seemingly older than time itself.
Usagi automatically put her guard up. It this woman was the Warrior of Darkness, then as the Warrior of Light, she was her sworn enemy.
"Put down your guard, child of light, and child of the shadows. Although we are different, we are not enemies. I am here to tell you a story, but first I must clarify a few things that will help you in the future."
"Contrary to common belief, Lightness and Darkness have never been enemies. Simply because they are opposites, people automatically assume that light must fight against darkness at all costs. This is an assumption that on both sides has caused much heartache and pain. The truth is different, and I wish to tell you it even if it may go against everything you have ever been taught."
Usagi listened warily to the woman's words, but refrained from letting down her guard. All of her life she had been taught that Darkness was evil and darkness was death.
"I can see that you don't trust me, and I can't say that I blame you. There is an enmity between your bloodline and mine that has lasted almost as long as time itself. This is why I want to talk to you. I am tired of the age-old family feud, and I wish to bring it to an end. It helps neither of us, and it is a waste of time, and a waste of life."
"As you have always been told, light represents peace, dark chaos, light good, dark evil, light life, and darkness death. These false beliefs have led your kind to try to exterminate us for almost as long as I can remember. You wish to destroy me, and what I stand for, because you believe that it is for the good of all that you do so. You mother, your grandmother, your great-grandfather, all of them hated my family more than anything. I could never reason with them, so I stopped trying. You are the first that can even stand a chance to bring the universe peace."
"How can I bring peace to anyone? I am not at peace. I'm a piece of worthless trash that can't do anything for anyone. I constantly let everyone down, and I don't deserve to live. There's nothing special about me that can bring anything to anyone. I'm just a waste of precious life." Usagi sank back into her familiar slump that had been like a second nature to her.
"STOP IT!" The sharp words rang out of the woman's mouth making Usagi stare at her in both fear, confusion, and a little bit of awe. It contained so much power...
"Don't you dare do that again! I've been watching you over the past couple of months, and what I've seen, has disgusted me. I've seen you sink so deep into self-pity that you forget what you fight for. I've seen you take what you don't need to, when you can easily fight back. I've seen you sink so deep into yourself that you've closed off the world around you! I know this isn't who you are! I know who you are even better than you know yourself. I also know why you are like this, and that is the story that I wish to tell you. I will finish educating you of your destiny after I have shown you your past. You are no good to anyone like you are!"
Usagi couldn't do anything but stare at shock at the woman that should be her sworn enemy, acting almost like a concerned parent. She tried to think of what it could be that could change her, but she couldn't think of anything. What could this woman know about her, that she didn't herself?
Usagi watched curiously as Yoriko waved her hand, and a scene appeared before her. It was one that Usagi knew so well, as it had played in her dreams over and over again since the first time she had seen it.
It was Queen Serenity after the Moon Kingdom was destroyed. The familiar words rang out of her mouth as she talked to Luna and Artemis telling them of what she must do. Usagi trembled once again as she saw her mother use the last of her power to send her and her 'friends' into the future.
Once again Usagi saw the mother die, all alone and once again she saw all of the people who were there sent into the future. Each person in their own protective bubble as they 'drifted' through space. She saw herself, fast asleep as the sailed away.
This is where, before, her dream had ended. Now however, it continued on even further than before.
"Your mother wanted everything to go smoothly, and thought that she could plan on everything, however, even she couldn't stop the powerful force of chance..."
Usagi stared in horror as a piece of a meteor suddenly appeared in the picture. She couldn't do anything but watch as she saw this rock fly faster than her eye could completely follow as it crashed into her bubble, with her in it. It broke through the protective seal, and the bubble shattered like glass. The meteor didn't stop there though. It didn't come to a complete halt until it came into what looked like painful contact with her head.
Usagi screamed in horror as she saw her still body lying injured in space, drifting away to a sure death.
"Imagine my surprise when I saw Serenity's perfect plan to so out of control. No one was there to help you, so I had no choice. I always knew that you were the only one who could bring peace to out two bloodlines. I had planned on coming to you before the Silver Millennium fell to talk to you. When I saw you die, I thought it was all over, and then I saw what Serenity did. I hoped that she could save you since you were all of out last hope. I couldn't let you be ripped apart by the horrors of space. Even if you could stay alive for a time, you would die because of your head injury." Yoriko calmly told her.
Now the picture changed. Yoriko was there, floating like her in the middle of space. She lifted the still body of Serenity into her arms, and disappeared.
The whole scene vanished as well, once again leaving Usagi alone with Yoriko.
"I took you here, to my home. This was the safest place for you at that time. I tried to heal you, but something was stopping me. Imagine my shock when I saw that the hatred for me in your family was so strong, that when you were born your mother placed a spell over your mind. It was this spell that was preventing me from saving your life. It was a protection spell, deeply ingrained in your blood. It prevented me from doing anything to you."
"I thought that it was all over, when I realized that there was one way to save you, but that it would come at a price. The spell was in your blood, deep in your soul. One thing that you should know is that there is something special about you. Your mind was structured differently than others. Everyone's mind, is like a room full of doors. There are hallways, and passages. They span on forever. Each door represents a part of a person's personality, and a piece of their soul. I discovered that if I wanted to save you, I had to lock the doors that had the spell on them that was keeping you away from me. It was a longer process than I would have thought, but all of your power as a shadow warrior, as a warrior of light, and all of your pride was gone. There were also many other doors that I was forced to lock, in fact, most of them were. The only ones that weren't, were the childlike parts of you, the carefree parts of you, the NORMAL parts of you. That is what you have been living with all of your previous life. Haven't you ever felt like you should be able to do something, but you just couldn't, or like a part of you was missing. Like you weren't a whole person?"
"YOU MONSTER!" Usagi screamed, and got ready to attack the woman. This woman, decided that she had the right to choose to do something so simply HORRIBLE to her. If it had been her decision, she would have chosen death.
"DON'T do anything!" Yoriko yelled, and waved her hand. Suddenly Usagi couldn't move anymore. She could only glare in anger at the woman who had the nerve, to as she said, 'lock part of her soul away.'
"Now, I'm here to give it back. You must be a complete person, not an unfinished mortal. You must be the powerful savior you are meant to be!"
The fateful words echoed through Usagi's mind. 'She's right'. All of her life Usagi had never felt like a complete person. Like a part of her was missing, and she wanted nothing more than to get it back. She had never known who she was, and had tried to make up for it by going shopping and acting carefree. As hard as she tried Usagi had never been truly responsible, and had never been able to put he heart and soul into anything except Heero. All of her life Usagi had this knowledge in the back of her mind that something was wrong with her. That she was some kind of freak that didn't deserve to live. As hard as she tried to ignore it, she knew it was true. That was the reason she had never fought back when Mamoru has hurting her, because deep down, she thought that she deserved it. That was also why she took it so hard when Heero 'abandoned' her. She never felt that she was worth living for, so she lived for someone else. When she fought, she fought for her friends, her family, and the world, but never for her. In the end, she was only living for Heero, and when he was gone, she had no reason left to live. That was why she tried to end it, she didn't believe she was worth it.
When Usagi looked up, Yoriko was still there, only now she was holding her hand open. In her hand, there was a crystal that shone brighter than the stars.
"Is that it?" Usagi asked, staring at it in awe.
"Yes my child. This is the key. In this small crystal is all of your abilities as the Daughter of Light and the Daughter of Shadows. Here is the key to many hidden parts of your mind and talents that have long been locked away for your protection. Once you have this in you, it will open doors. They will only open however, when you come to them. It will be a gradual change. For instance the, I know for a fact that you have wonderful talent ice-skating. That is one that is locked away. Until you are at the rink, getting ready to go out on the ice though, you won't know that you have ability. You must try something, before you realize that you can do it, or that you can't."
Usagi couldn't take her eyes off the crystal. In that were all of the things that had been missing all of her life. All the answers to questions that she had never even thought of. In Yoriko's hand, was the one thing that could finally make her complete.
Her hand trembled as she slowly 'walked' over, and reached for the crystal. The second her hand touched it, it was like being reborn.
Usagi burst into a silvery white flame that enveloped her entire body. She was too bright to look at directly, as the crystal once again entered her body, and for the first time in over two thousand years, she was a complete person again.
The light disappeared as soon as it appeared, leaving Usagi once again looking on the outside just as she was before, but on the inside completely different, or was she.
"Wait a minute, I don't feel any different. I thought that it would be like being a different person, but now, I feel exactly the same!" Usagi burst out at Yoriko.
"Be still my child, I told you that it would be gradual, and it will take time until you are back to your old self. Even if you don't notice it right away though, you HAVE changed. The doors are still locked, but you must open them." Yoriko calmly told the newly healed young woman standing in front of her. "Now it is time for you to leave this place. At first I had hoped that you would be ready for me to tell you of your destiny, but now I see that you need some time to find yourself. I will see you again when I feel that you are ready for what awaits you."
And Usagi was gone.
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Oh! And I wanted to let you know, that I also have many other stories going on right now, and you should go and take a look!
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Ja ne!
Chapter 14
By: Siren
Authors Notes- Sorry it took so long to get out. I just now realized that fanfiction.net hasn't been letting me in because I was using Internet Explorer! Now I can finally upload! I have the next 20 chapters or so planned out in my head; I just need to figure out how I'm going to write it down. Don't give up on me yet people, the best it yet to come!
Disclaimer- Neither Sailor Moon, or Gundam Wing belongs to me. They belong to their respective and extremely talented owners.
Contest- To the person that writes the longest review, I will give the oracle, or the right to ask any question they want, and to have it answered, No matter what!
Important!!!!!- If any of you have read Elizabeth Haydon's books Rhapsody, then you will understand what it is I'm doing. If not, I highly suggest you go get them RIGHT NOW! They are the best books ever, and anyone who doesn't read them, is missing out. If you have, then you know what Rhapsody is like. I really like her, and she is a lot like how I imagine Usagi is. That is why, I'm going to give Usagi a lot of her personality. She will still be herself, but like you know, she just realized that she can be like anyone she wants, and because of the shadow change, her personality is changing somewhat as well. She will have Rhapsodys.
Just to warn you, the timeline is a little messed up. I'm not sure if all of this happened at the same time, but what's it a fanfic for if you can't change it?
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The echoing of the footsteps matched the solemn mood of the men, or more like boys walking down the hallway. The tension in the air was thick as the 2 young men followed their quiet 'leader'.
Finally after walking though the huge mansion for what seemed like miles, the platinum hair boy stopped abruptly. He stopped so fast, that Duo, the one walking directly behind him couldn't stop, and so he ran right into Quatre, and Wufei stumbled over them both.
Cursing now sounded through the hallway.
"Dam it Duo! Why did you have to go and do that!" Wufei shouted, red in the face. He picked up his katana, and got ready to chase the braided boy around the room.
"Now Wu-man. Don't do something you might regret later." Duo said, as he slowly started backing up, trying to calm the raging Chinese boy. His words didn't seem to have the desired effect though. They only served to make Wufei even angrier. He lifted up his weapon, and said. "MAXWELL! TODAY YOU DIE!"
But before he could do anything, Quatre stepped in front of him. "If you want to kill Duo, you can do it later. Right now, I have an important message that I was told to give to you, and this is more important than another one of your petty squabbles." He said calmly, but in a surprisingly stern voice for someone who is usually so 'nice'.
Both Wufei and Duo turned to stare shocked in his direction. Finally they got up, and walked though the dark oak door that Quatre has just entered, sure that they would follow.
It was a library. There were books everywhere, and from every time. They filled the walls, and there had to be thousands of them. Wufei, who was a scholar, looked admiringly at the books. Duo lost interest only seconds after they entered the room, and started whining.
"Come ON Q-man. What is it you wanted? Surely you didn't bring us here to look at your boring library. There is a beautiful girl in the other room, and you made me leave to come here! To look at BOOKS!"
"Calm down Duo. I didn't bring you here to look at books. If you must know, this is one of the only place that I felt was quiet enough to talk." Wufei leaned against the books, waiting for Quatre to say what he was going to say so he could go back to looking at this magnificent library. He didn't even know that such a collection of books existed, let alone belonged to Quatre. The old volumes called at him, to absorb the knowledge they contained. Whatever Quatre wanted, he better be quick.
"I got a message from the doctors." That got everyone's complete attention. "They told us to go into hiding until Heero came here to meet us. Apparently he is going under some new training, and we're not supposed to do anything until he comes out. And as all of you know, Trowa..." The blonde stopped at the words. Trowa's death weighed heavily on his shoulders. He couldn't even say the words. Trowa was dead, and he was dead, because he killed him...
Duo's face turned red at the words, but Wufei stayed calm. Wufei thought it was just as well. Heero would show up soon, and although it upset him slightly that he couldn't go out and fight to avenge Merian's death, at least this would give him the chance to explore the library.
Duo wasn't as complacent, and he didn't mind showing it. "WHAT! You mean we can't go out and blow up some Oz bases? You expect me to stay in this BORING place until Heero arrives? What am I supposed to do? With only you and Wu-man here, there's nothing TO do!" Abruptly he stopped his tirade. "But you're not the only ones here...I GET TO STAY WITH THE GIRL!" Duo's bad mood suddenly changed as he realized that he would have time to spend with the mysteriously beautiful woman who had literally fallen into their laps.
"That was the other thing that I wanted to talk to you about." Quatre calm facade started to crack as he got ready to talk about the girl...
"What about her? She's just some weak onna. We've already done our duty to her by saving her life. I say we just throw her out onto the street again. Maybe we can put her into hiding or something in case Oz wants her. All I know is that I don't want anything to do with that nutcase. If I knew she was this insane when I first found her, I would have just left her there."
"I think she should stay with us for a while. We don't know if Oz is still after he (whatever their reason) and if it's safe for her to go out into the world yet. Not to mention her condition. Did you forget that she nearly died, and she might still?" Quatre told Wufei in a solemn voice. (AN: I'm using that word a lot for him aren't I?)
Duo wasn't even listing to anyone anymore. The words 'throw her out in the street' just echoed through his mind over and over again. The words that spoke of someone out finding this treasure, and finding out who she was, made him slowly angrier and angrier. Finally he burst out.'
"But Wu-man?! What about the mystery? Somehow, this girl has passed from my hands, when I found her in the woods, to Oz's hands, and for some reason they wanted to kill her, and back into yours. Don't you think that it's a strange coincidence that all of this happened? Now to mention her appearance. Have you ever seen anyone with silver hair on a young person? And it looks so natural too?! We have to most beautiful woman, probably ever thrown at us, and you just want to give her up before we find out her name! Even you're not that crazy! She's a puzzle wrapped in mystery, and I for one want to know who she is?!" Duo started panting slightly as he finished his speech, but his gaze didn't waver from Wufei's. He knew that he was right about this one, and he wasn't going to give up on it.
Wufei was the first one to break away. "Fine, I want to know who she is. You can do whatever you want with her in my opinion, just so long as that physopath stays away from me." And he stormed out of the room, steam coming out of his ears at being 'bullied' by such a weak he/she.
Quatre just shrugged, now at all surprised at the reaction his temperamental friend showed, and suggested. "Why don't we go and visit out new guest?"
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Usagi stood in a black void. There was no light, only overwhelming darkness. It tried to suffocate her, it was so thick. It weighed down on her like it was the world, no, the universe on her shoulders. Whatever this place was, it was not a place people like her were meant to be.
A blinding flash of light suddenly filled the darkness, making Usagi cringe at the new sight. In the midst of the flash of light, a woman appeared. Her long black hair went down past her knees, and her eyes were pools of darkness that were even deeper than the blackness around her.
"Hello, my child." She said. " I am the warrior of darkness. My name, is Yoriko." The woman spoke in a strangely lilting voice, a voice seemingly older than time itself.
Usagi automatically put her guard up. It this woman was the Warrior of Darkness, then as the Warrior of Light, she was her sworn enemy.
"Put down your guard, child of light, and child of the shadows. Although we are different, we are not enemies. I am here to tell you a story, but first I must clarify a few things that will help you in the future."
"Contrary to common belief, Lightness and Darkness have never been enemies. Simply because they are opposites, people automatically assume that light must fight against darkness at all costs. This is an assumption that on both sides has caused much heartache and pain. The truth is different, and I wish to tell you it even if it may go against everything you have ever been taught."
Usagi listened warily to the woman's words, but refrained from letting down her guard. All of her life she had been taught that Darkness was evil and darkness was death.
"I can see that you don't trust me, and I can't say that I blame you. There is an enmity between your bloodline and mine that has lasted almost as long as time itself. This is why I want to talk to you. I am tired of the age-old family feud, and I wish to bring it to an end. It helps neither of us, and it is a waste of time, and a waste of life."
"As you have always been told, light represents peace, dark chaos, light good, dark evil, light life, and darkness death. These false beliefs have led your kind to try to exterminate us for almost as long as I can remember. You wish to destroy me, and what I stand for, because you believe that it is for the good of all that you do so. You mother, your grandmother, your great-grandfather, all of them hated my family more than anything. I could never reason with them, so I stopped trying. You are the first that can even stand a chance to bring the universe peace."
"How can I bring peace to anyone? I am not at peace. I'm a piece of worthless trash that can't do anything for anyone. I constantly let everyone down, and I don't deserve to live. There's nothing special about me that can bring anything to anyone. I'm just a waste of precious life." Usagi sank back into her familiar slump that had been like a second nature to her.
"STOP IT!" The sharp words rang out of the woman's mouth making Usagi stare at her in both fear, confusion, and a little bit of awe. It contained so much power...
"Don't you dare do that again! I've been watching you over the past couple of months, and what I've seen, has disgusted me. I've seen you sink so deep into self-pity that you forget what you fight for. I've seen you take what you don't need to, when you can easily fight back. I've seen you sink so deep into yourself that you've closed off the world around you! I know this isn't who you are! I know who you are even better than you know yourself. I also know why you are like this, and that is the story that I wish to tell you. I will finish educating you of your destiny after I have shown you your past. You are no good to anyone like you are!"
Usagi couldn't do anything but stare at shock at the woman that should be her sworn enemy, acting almost like a concerned parent. She tried to think of what it could be that could change her, but she couldn't think of anything. What could this woman know about her, that she didn't herself?
Usagi watched curiously as Yoriko waved her hand, and a scene appeared before her. It was one that Usagi knew so well, as it had played in her dreams over and over again since the first time she had seen it.
It was Queen Serenity after the Moon Kingdom was destroyed. The familiar words rang out of her mouth as she talked to Luna and Artemis telling them of what she must do. Usagi trembled once again as she saw her mother use the last of her power to send her and her 'friends' into the future.
Once again Usagi saw the mother die, all alone and once again she saw all of the people who were there sent into the future. Each person in their own protective bubble as they 'drifted' through space. She saw herself, fast asleep as the sailed away.
This is where, before, her dream had ended. Now however, it continued on even further than before.
"Your mother wanted everything to go smoothly, and thought that she could plan on everything, however, even she couldn't stop the powerful force of chance..."
Usagi stared in horror as a piece of a meteor suddenly appeared in the picture. She couldn't do anything but watch as she saw this rock fly faster than her eye could completely follow as it crashed into her bubble, with her in it. It broke through the protective seal, and the bubble shattered like glass. The meteor didn't stop there though. It didn't come to a complete halt until it came into what looked like painful contact with her head.
Usagi screamed in horror as she saw her still body lying injured in space, drifting away to a sure death.
"Imagine my surprise when I saw Serenity's perfect plan to so out of control. No one was there to help you, so I had no choice. I always knew that you were the only one who could bring peace to out two bloodlines. I had planned on coming to you before the Silver Millennium fell to talk to you. When I saw you die, I thought it was all over, and then I saw what Serenity did. I hoped that she could save you since you were all of out last hope. I couldn't let you be ripped apart by the horrors of space. Even if you could stay alive for a time, you would die because of your head injury." Yoriko calmly told her.
Now the picture changed. Yoriko was there, floating like her in the middle of space. She lifted the still body of Serenity into her arms, and disappeared.
The whole scene vanished as well, once again leaving Usagi alone with Yoriko.
"I took you here, to my home. This was the safest place for you at that time. I tried to heal you, but something was stopping me. Imagine my shock when I saw that the hatred for me in your family was so strong, that when you were born your mother placed a spell over your mind. It was this spell that was preventing me from saving your life. It was a protection spell, deeply ingrained in your blood. It prevented me from doing anything to you."
"I thought that it was all over, when I realized that there was one way to save you, but that it would come at a price. The spell was in your blood, deep in your soul. One thing that you should know is that there is something special about you. Your mind was structured differently than others. Everyone's mind, is like a room full of doors. There are hallways, and passages. They span on forever. Each door represents a part of a person's personality, and a piece of their soul. I discovered that if I wanted to save you, I had to lock the doors that had the spell on them that was keeping you away from me. It was a longer process than I would have thought, but all of your power as a shadow warrior, as a warrior of light, and all of your pride was gone. There were also many other doors that I was forced to lock, in fact, most of them were. The only ones that weren't, were the childlike parts of you, the carefree parts of you, the NORMAL parts of you. That is what you have been living with all of your previous life. Haven't you ever felt like you should be able to do something, but you just couldn't, or like a part of you was missing. Like you weren't a whole person?"
"YOU MONSTER!" Usagi screamed, and got ready to attack the woman. This woman, decided that she had the right to choose to do something so simply HORRIBLE to her. If it had been her decision, she would have chosen death.
"DON'T do anything!" Yoriko yelled, and waved her hand. Suddenly Usagi couldn't move anymore. She could only glare in anger at the woman who had the nerve, to as she said, 'lock part of her soul away.'
"Now, I'm here to give it back. You must be a complete person, not an unfinished mortal. You must be the powerful savior you are meant to be!"
The fateful words echoed through Usagi's mind. 'She's right'. All of her life Usagi had never felt like a complete person. Like a part of her was missing, and she wanted nothing more than to get it back. She had never known who she was, and had tried to make up for it by going shopping and acting carefree. As hard as she tried Usagi had never been truly responsible, and had never been able to put he heart and soul into anything except Heero. All of her life Usagi had this knowledge in the back of her mind that something was wrong with her. That she was some kind of freak that didn't deserve to live. As hard as she tried to ignore it, she knew it was true. That was the reason she had never fought back when Mamoru has hurting her, because deep down, she thought that she deserved it. That was also why she took it so hard when Heero 'abandoned' her. She never felt that she was worth living for, so she lived for someone else. When she fought, she fought for her friends, her family, and the world, but never for her. In the end, she was only living for Heero, and when he was gone, she had no reason left to live. That was why she tried to end it, she didn't believe she was worth it.
When Usagi looked up, Yoriko was still there, only now she was holding her hand open. In her hand, there was a crystal that shone brighter than the stars.
"Is that it?" Usagi asked, staring at it in awe.
"Yes my child. This is the key. In this small crystal is all of your abilities as the Daughter of Light and the Daughter of Shadows. Here is the key to many hidden parts of your mind and talents that have long been locked away for your protection. Once you have this in you, it will open doors. They will only open however, when you come to them. It will be a gradual change. For instance the, I know for a fact that you have wonderful talent ice-skating. That is one that is locked away. Until you are at the rink, getting ready to go out on the ice though, you won't know that you have ability. You must try something, before you realize that you can do it, or that you can't."
Usagi couldn't take her eyes off the crystal. In that were all of the things that had been missing all of her life. All the answers to questions that she had never even thought of. In Yoriko's hand, was the one thing that could finally make her complete.
Her hand trembled as she slowly 'walked' over, and reached for the crystal. The second her hand touched it, it was like being reborn.
Usagi burst into a silvery white flame that enveloped her entire body. She was too bright to look at directly, as the crystal once again entered her body, and for the first time in over two thousand years, she was a complete person again.
The light disappeared as soon as it appeared, leaving Usagi once again looking on the outside just as she was before, but on the inside completely different, or was she.
"Wait a minute, I don't feel any different. I thought that it would be like being a different person, but now, I feel exactly the same!" Usagi burst out at Yoriko.
"Be still my child, I told you that it would be gradual, and it will take time until you are back to your old self. Even if you don't notice it right away though, you HAVE changed. The doors are still locked, but you must open them." Yoriko calmly told the newly healed young woman standing in front of her. "Now it is time for you to leave this place. At first I had hoped that you would be ready for me to tell you of your destiny, but now I see that you need some time to find yourself. I will see you again when I feel that you are ready for what awaits you."
And Usagi was gone.
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