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The light had been blocked off in the room by the time Usagi woke up. The curtain was shut, and the only light now was coming from a small computer in the corner.
Sonya sat at the computer, frantically typing on the keys. She was inside. They never thought that she would be able to pull it off. After working with that pathetic excuse for a doctor for the past 3 years, she finally got an official assingnment. She told Quatre, and the others that she had quit when Usagi went missing, but that wasn't exactly the truth. She had just been relocated. When her commanding officers had first sent her out into action, they didn't think that she would get anywhere. That's why they put her in that hellhole for the past 2 years. Now though, she finally had her break. They had found out that there was some strange things going on with Mr. Winner, and wanted someone in the house to watch on him, and to report if anything was wrong.
And they gave her to job.
No one could imagine her excitement when she had been notified of her change in location, she could finally put her good prying skills and her excellent ear to work. She had wanted nothing more than to help Oz her entire life. That was why she first got into the business, and now she was in the center of what seemed like a rebel base. You could only imagine her shock when she found the same woman that was reported missing under her care. It only got better when the man Dr. Jay was so interested in came bursting in. It was only a matter of time, until she would find something so valuable, that Oz couldn't help but give her a top level job.
Right now, she was hacking into personal records trying to find any information on this girl. She didn't seem very important, but Sonya had a hunch that there was something about her that could take her to the top, and Sonya always listened to her instincts.
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Usagi's eyelids felt like there were 10 pound weights on each eyelash. They just didn't want to open! Finally she managed to pry them up, and saw to her welcome surprise that the only light was coming from a computer. She definitely didn't want to have another experience like last time. That HURT!
Usagi's eyes got wide when she finally got out of the 'early morning stupid' stages. Did that really happen? Did she finally find out what had been wrong with her all of this time, or was it just a dream?
Usagi immediately threw out the thought of it being a dream. She had thought that before, and her being wrong had nearly killed her. It was much too real for it to be another picture made up in her mind.
So much had happened in the last few days! She had never had any time to work out one problem, before another came crashing into her. First with Heero, and then Kaninisha, and now Yoroki! All of the thoughts were swirling though her head at once, giving her a serious headache, and problems thinking.
'I wish for once I could CONCENTRATE!' She thought.
And that was the first time it happened. Just like she had been told, it was like a door opening in the back of her mind. Like a part of her was suddenly intact for the first time, that had always been missing.
'I guess it really wasn't a dream after all' Usagi thought with a wry grin on her face.
It was the most wonderful feeling in the world, as her headache disappeared, and suddenly it all became clear. She wanted to laugh aloud as something that had been giving her problems her entire life was suddenly so easy! She could never concentrate on anything serious for more than a few minutes, it always gave her a headache, so she stopped trying. She never knew why that was, and always assumed that she was just stupid. Now is was so easy!
Quickly Usagi sorted through all that had happened to her, finally making sense to her. Heero was real, he was somewhere alive, but she would never find him. Quickly she stored that information away and got to the next one. Observations that she had made before but never understood the significance of were finally making sense. Somehow she was more than just Serenity, and had powers over shadows as well. Her appearance had changed, but it was all explained by her still mysteriously dead father, that she never knew existed. Quickly she stored that information away and got to Kaninisha. There was more than him than appeared, and he somehow knew Heero. There were also many things that he could teach her, she instinctively knew. The way he talked to her before, she also knew that in her past life that was filled with so many suprises that he must have known her, and he definitely knew her mother somehow. Her mother could also somehow travel mentally to the shadow world like she could for some reason. There were so many things about her past that she didn't know!
And then there was her most recent experience with the Warrior of Darkness. What did she mean her destiny? What was she talking about 'Darkness and Light have never been enemies'!? That goes against everything she has been taught to believe in. And then there was the key. Usagi still trembeled with rage that that WOMAN had the nerve to do that to her! Death was better than having a part of your soul missing, or even worse, locked away! Her entire life she had been a uncomplete person, and it was all her fault, and apparently no one else knew. Sure Usagi understood that it was done to save her life, but to tell the truth, death would have been preferable. Nothing is worse than not knowing who you are, and Usagi fervently hoped that that would never happen to her again. If it did, she really would kill herself.
Usagi quickly finished making sense of the muddled mess of her thoughts, and marveled at what she had just done. 'I'm SMART!' she reveled in the feeling of accomplishment that she had never had. The feeling of pride that had always been missing in her life making it so nothing was worth doing if she couldn't appreciate what she had done.
That only left one feeling left to deal with. The feeling of depression that had been one of the only ones that she had been feeling for so long. It was finally time to confront the fact that bad things had happened to her, and it was time to move one. She didn't delude herself into thinking that her mood swings and her depression would vanish right away. So many bad things had happened to her over such a long period of time. Such a transition of thought would take a long time. You couldn't heal overnight from something like this, it would take time, and also effort. It wouldn't be easy not to sink into her old mode of thought and try to look on the bright side of everything like she had once done. She would never be the same person that she had been before. She would never be the carefree girl that never had any problem worse than what she was going to wear. Even after she healed, the scars in her soul, and on her heart would never completely vanish, just like the scars on her body. At least she could get a fresh start with these new people who were kind enough to take her in. They didn't know the old Usagi, they don't even know her name!
That was when Usagi decided what was going to happen. She had a chance to start over again, a new appeareance, a new attitude, and even a new name. This was the first time she could ever to anything as complete person, and she was going to get rid of her past, and concentrate on the present. Her old life was just that, a life of a innocent girl that didn't know anything about the real world, and had suffered because of it. A fool that had trusted so easily that when bad things happened, she didn't know how to deal with it. Now she was herself, not Usagi, not Serenity, not Sailor Moon, not anything but a girl that was on a mission to discover who she really was, and nothing more. For now she would put aside all of the 'special' things about her, until she found out who the ordiary person was. She needed a rock to build on before she could try to build a skyscraper. She needed to be at peace with herself before she tried bringing peace to others, and she needed to be happy before she tried making others happy as well.
Usagi was startled out of her thoughts as the 2 boys from before walked into the room. She almost didn't notice them, they were so quiet. It was the blonde, who she had snapped at, and the pyscho from before, who was acting really strange when she saw him before. It didn't help him that he had a braid either. What kind of a guy walks around with a long brown bra.
'NO' Usagi quickly thought her train of thoughts. If she was going to start with a clean slate, she didn't want to start by judging people without even knowing them. She wouldn't want people to take one look at her and automatically think 'freak', so she wouldn't do that to someone else either.
"Hey there!" The strange man.Duo was his name, cheerfully said as he walked over to stand next to her bed. "How ya doin? You looked pretty shook up a few minutes ago."
"Thanks for your concern, but I'm really fine. Just a little shook up with what happened, you know, surviving and all." Usagi greatly underexaggerated the events going on for their benefit.
"As you've probably already guessed" Usagi turned her attention to the platinum haired boy how had come to stand on the other side of her bed "my name is Quatre Winner, and the loudmouth on the other side of you is Duo Maxwell."
"Nice to meet you." Usagi tried to shake the men's hands, but her effort only caused her to reconsider the idea for a more favorable nod.
There was a rather uncomftorable silence for a few moments, before Quatre broke it by saying. "Well, now that you know out names, would you care to tell us what yours is? Then we can know what to call you."
"My name! Well.you see. my name is." Quickly Usagi tried to think up a name, any name that she could use. So long as it wasn't hers. She tried to think of someone who she admired for strength and power. Someone who knew without a doubt who she was. Someone who she could try to be more like. "Amei" a mix of two of the people she admired most in the world, and two of her best friends. Amy and Rei.
"It's nice to meet you Amei. So do you know where you will be staying while you heal?" Quatre politely asked.
"Well, I guess I could get an apartment until I can get a job. Maybe I can stay at a clinic or something."
"I wouldn't hear of it!" Quatre interjected.
"That's right beautiful! You can stay with us for a while. I'll have you back on your feet in no time at all." Duo stated with a goofy grin on his face.
Usagi turned a slight shade of red at his words. No one had really ever talked to her like that. She never was very pretty, and now it was even more strange because she looked like a freak. He must be a very considerate person after all if he would lie on her account. Usagi couldn't help but be glad that she had decided not to judge him. He seemed really nice after all. Just a little eccterinic, and those are the best type of people!
"That's very kind of you. I think I'll accept."
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The light had been blocked off in the room by the time Usagi woke up. The curtain was shut, and the only light now was coming from a small computer in the corner.
Sonya sat at the computer, frantically typing on the keys. She was inside. They never thought that she would be able to pull it off. After working with that pathetic excuse for a doctor for the past 3 years, she finally got an official assingnment. She told Quatre, and the others that she had quit when Usagi went missing, but that wasn't exactly the truth. She had just been relocated. When her commanding officers had first sent her out into action, they didn't think that she would get anywhere. That's why they put her in that hellhole for the past 2 years. Now though, she finally had her break. They had found out that there was some strange things going on with Mr. Winner, and wanted someone in the house to watch on him, and to report if anything was wrong.
And they gave her to job.
No one could imagine her excitement when she had been notified of her change in location, she could finally put her good prying skills and her excellent ear to work. She had wanted nothing more than to help Oz her entire life. That was why she first got into the business, and now she was in the center of what seemed like a rebel base. You could only imagine her shock when she found the same woman that was reported missing under her care. It only got better when the man Dr. Jay was so interested in came bursting in. It was only a matter of time, until she would find something so valuable, that Oz couldn't help but give her a top level job.
Right now, she was hacking into personal records trying to find any information on this girl. She didn't seem very important, but Sonya had a hunch that there was something about her that could take her to the top, and Sonya always listened to her instincts.
**
Usagi's eyelids felt like there were 10 pound weights on each eyelash. They just didn't want to open! Finally she managed to pry them up, and saw to her welcome surprise that the only light was coming from a computer. She definitely didn't want to have another experience like last time. That HURT!
Usagi's eyes got wide when she finally got out of the 'early morning stupid' stages. Did that really happen? Did she finally find out what had been wrong with her all of this time, or was it just a dream?
Usagi immediately threw out the thought of it being a dream. She had thought that before, and her being wrong had nearly killed her. It was much too real for it to be another picture made up in her mind.
So much had happened in the last few days! She had never had any time to work out one problem, before another came crashing into her. First with Heero, and then Kaninisha, and now Yoroki! All of the thoughts were swirling though her head at once, giving her a serious headache, and problems thinking.
'I wish for once I could CONCENTRATE!' She thought.
And that was the first time it happened. Just like she had been told, it was like a door opening in the back of her mind. Like a part of her was suddenly intact for the first time, that had always been missing.
'I guess it really wasn't a dream after all' Usagi thought with a wry grin on her face.
It was the most wonderful feeling in the world, as her headache disappeared, and suddenly it all became clear. She wanted to laugh aloud as something that had been giving her problems her entire life was suddenly so easy! She could never concentrate on anything serious for more than a few minutes, it always gave her a headache, so she stopped trying. She never knew why that was, and always assumed that she was just stupid. Now is was so easy!
Quickly Usagi sorted through all that had happened to her, finally making sense to her. Heero was real, he was somewhere alive, but she would never find him. Quickly she stored that information away and got to the next one. Observations that she had made before but never understood the significance of were finally making sense. Somehow she was more than just Serenity, and had powers over shadows as well. Her appearance had changed, but it was all explained by her still mysteriously dead father, that she never knew existed. Quickly she stored that information away and got to Kaninisha. There was more than him than appeared, and he somehow knew Heero. There were also many things that he could teach her, she instinctively knew. The way he talked to her before, she also knew that in her past life that was filled with so many suprises that he must have known her, and he definitely knew her mother somehow. Her mother could also somehow travel mentally to the shadow world like she could for some reason. There were so many things about her past that she didn't know!
And then there was her most recent experience with the Warrior of Darkness. What did she mean her destiny? What was she talking about 'Darkness and Light have never been enemies'!? That goes against everything she has been taught to believe in. And then there was the key. Usagi still trembeled with rage that that WOMAN had the nerve to do that to her! Death was better than having a part of your soul missing, or even worse, locked away! Her entire life she had been a uncomplete person, and it was all her fault, and apparently no one else knew. Sure Usagi understood that it was done to save her life, but to tell the truth, death would have been preferable. Nothing is worse than not knowing who you are, and Usagi fervently hoped that that would never happen to her again. If it did, she really would kill herself.
Usagi quickly finished making sense of the muddled mess of her thoughts, and marveled at what she had just done. 'I'm SMART!' she reveled in the feeling of accomplishment that she had never had. The feeling of pride that had always been missing in her life making it so nothing was worth doing if she couldn't appreciate what she had done.
That only left one feeling left to deal with. The feeling of depression that had been one of the only ones that she had been feeling for so long. It was finally time to confront the fact that bad things had happened to her, and it was time to move one. She didn't delude herself into thinking that her mood swings and her depression would vanish right away. So many bad things had happened to her over such a long period of time. Such a transition of thought would take a long time. You couldn't heal overnight from something like this, it would take time, and also effort. It wouldn't be easy not to sink into her old mode of thought and try to look on the bright side of everything like she had once done. She would never be the same person that she had been before. She would never be the carefree girl that never had any problem worse than what she was going to wear. Even after she healed, the scars in her soul, and on her heart would never completely vanish, just like the scars on her body. At least she could get a fresh start with these new people who were kind enough to take her in. They didn't know the old Usagi, they don't even know her name!
That was when Usagi decided what was going to happen. She had a chance to start over again, a new appeareance, a new attitude, and even a new name. This was the first time she could ever to anything as complete person, and she was going to get rid of her past, and concentrate on the present. Her old life was just that, a life of a innocent girl that didn't know anything about the real world, and had suffered because of it. A fool that had trusted so easily that when bad things happened, she didn't know how to deal with it. Now she was herself, not Usagi, not Serenity, not Sailor Moon, not anything but a girl that was on a mission to discover who she really was, and nothing more. For now she would put aside all of the 'special' things about her, until she found out who the ordiary person was. She needed a rock to build on before she could try to build a skyscraper. She needed to be at peace with herself before she tried bringing peace to others, and she needed to be happy before she tried making others happy as well.
Usagi was startled out of her thoughts as the 2 boys from before walked into the room. She almost didn't notice them, they were so quiet. It was the blonde, who she had snapped at, and the pyscho from before, who was acting really strange when she saw him before. It didn't help him that he had a braid either. What kind of a guy walks around with a long brown bra.
'NO' Usagi quickly thought her train of thoughts. If she was going to start with a clean slate, she didn't want to start by judging people without even knowing them. She wouldn't want people to take one look at her and automatically think 'freak', so she wouldn't do that to someone else either.
"Hey there!" The strange man.Duo was his name, cheerfully said as he walked over to stand next to her bed. "How ya doin? You looked pretty shook up a few minutes ago."
"Thanks for your concern, but I'm really fine. Just a little shook up with what happened, you know, surviving and all." Usagi greatly underexaggerated the events going on for their benefit.
"As you've probably already guessed" Usagi turned her attention to the platinum haired boy how had come to stand on the other side of her bed "my name is Quatre Winner, and the loudmouth on the other side of you is Duo Maxwell."
"Nice to meet you." Usagi tried to shake the men's hands, but her effort only caused her to reconsider the idea for a more favorable nod.
There was a rather uncomftorable silence for a few moments, before Quatre broke it by saying. "Well, now that you know out names, would you care to tell us what yours is? Then we can know what to call you."
"My name! Well.you see. my name is." Quickly Usagi tried to think up a name, any name that she could use. So long as it wasn't hers. She tried to think of someone who she admired for strength and power. Someone who knew without a doubt who she was. Someone who she could try to be more like. "Amei" a mix of two of the people she admired most in the world, and two of her best friends. Amy and Rei.
"It's nice to meet you Amei. So do you know where you will be staying while you heal?" Quatre politely asked.
"Well, I guess I could get an apartment until I can get a job. Maybe I can stay at a clinic or something."
"I wouldn't hear of it!" Quatre interjected.
"That's right beautiful! You can stay with us for a while. I'll have you back on your feet in no time at all." Duo stated with a goofy grin on his face.
Usagi turned a slight shade of red at his words. No one had really ever talked to her like that. She never was very pretty, and now it was even more strange because she looked like a freak. He must be a very considerate person after all if he would lie on her account. Usagi couldn't help but be glad that she had decided not to judge him. He seemed really nice after all. Just a little eccterinic, and those are the best type of people!
"That's very kind of you. I think I'll accept."
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